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identitty-dickruption · 5 months

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I'm just so achingly lonely my dudes

#I'm not even super hungover this morning because I threw up so much last night #and had lots of water and stuff #but I am once again feeling lonely. and broken #and just generally Bad #only thing getting me out of bed is T #I gotta do my daily T #fuckkkkkkk me #tried to look at some iasip memes earlier to cheer me up and #yep I do not even care #do you guys think I may be having a little bit of a depressive episode #lmao.#I don't even want to go to church this morning #me! not wanting to go to church!#I think I am fully fucked

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ineed-to-sleep · 2 months

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*me immediately after going through a terrifying and traumatic experience* haha yeah I guess it was rough but I'm fine now like I'm totally chill. It was kinda funny actually if you think about it

#GUESS WHO GOT A PIERCING INFECTION SO BAD OVERNIGHT SHE HAD TO RUSH TO THE HOSPITAL #AND GET SURGERY TO REMOVE IT BC THE METAL WAS BURROWING ITSELF INSIDE HER LIP #yep that was meee :3 #man. it sounds so silly now. like that probably shouldn't have made me panic nearly as much as it did #but you have to understand at the time it was terrifying #I noticed my lip was a bit swollen earlier in the night but I was like ok it's probably nothing serious #I put some ice on it hoping it would be back to normal after I got some sleep #then I woke up at like 5:30 AM with my lip super swollen and my lip piercing literally burying itself inside my flesh #I tried pushing it back out a bit and blood and pus started coming out so yk I started panicking #so I went upstairs and I asked my mom to drive me to the hospital #luckily we have free healthcare in brazil and the hospital was basically empty(this was on sunday)#but when I got there they told me the doctor wouldn't arrive until 8AM and it was like 6:45 at that point #so I REALLY started panicking 🫠 bc I could feel like the piercing kept burying itself more deeply like #I felt like the skin inside my lip was going to close around it and I was terrified bc I had no idea what to do #and I was scared it might make things worse #but all I could do was sit there and wait and so I started having a panic attack #luckily my mom was there with me the whole time so at least I didn't feel alone #and then I just. waited for it to end. and then tried to keep myself distracted until the doctor got there #I got treated by military doctors! sjdjcjck the army has been giving additional support for hospitals in my city #bc of the floods some health units are currently closed and demand got higher so they needed extra support there #so an army doctor performed my surgery(inside an army tent no less ajfjjfkf maybe not ideal but. functional)#he was so nice?? like probably the calmest most careful doctor I've ever been treated by #I still had a bit of a nervous breakdown again after the surgery but that was bc I'd never been through something like that before #I got anesthesia obvs but I still felt the tug when he cut into my skin to remove the piercing and did my stitches #so my mind started cooking up all these horrible scenarios of how everything could go wrong and I was gonna die #cried on the doctor's table. 👍🏻 awesome #but he and his assistant were super nice about it she even offered me a hug #but anyway in the end I finally calmed down and got some medication #now I'm all stitched up with my little bloated lip eating soup out of a straw 👍🏻 but I'm ALIVE and I'm just glad it's all over fjjvjkf #sleep.txt

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pixelatedraindrops · 5 months

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Yuma Month: Day 8: Joy

Sometimes it’s the simple things in life that bring the most joy 💕

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troiings · 1 year

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(shut up, stregobor)

#tissaia de vries #triss merigold #sabrina glevissig #the witcher #twn #stregobor #tfln #textsfromlastnight #textsfromaretuza #yep that's the tag #i think i don't even care if nobody's still doing this lol #BACK IN MY DAY WE RAMPANTLY MADE TFLN MEMES AND WE LIKED IT #edits by arwen

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icewindandboringhorror · 5 months

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sometimes looking at like Self Help Strategies lists for the symptoms I'm having is always just like:

thing that I already do

thing I have tried 10 times

thing I already do

thing that I don't have the money to do

thing I already do

thing I've been doing since I was 10yrs old to no avail

thing that is impossible given my situation

thing that doesn't apply to me

thing that I already do

thing I have already tried

hrmm, oh wait, maybe finally- OH, yeah.. okay. thing that I already do but it was just phrased slightly differently

thing I have already done

#I think maybe productivity tips help less if the reason you're unproductive is partially like.. physcial health and other extenral things #out of your control. rather than just like having trouble paying attention or spending too much time on tiktok or whatever #all the strategic to do lists in the world are not going to somehow prevent me from waking up with a debilitating migraine or whatever #or having external stressors or lacking resources and connections or other Productivity Essentials etc.#especially many tips involve stuff like 'cut off from social media' since thats the modern day time waster for so many poeple #and it's like.. lol.. i can hardly even maintain a blog even thuogh i actively WANT TO DO SO. 'shut off your smart phone!' already #done babey i fucking hate smart phones i shall never use an app unless i am forced to. 'delete tiktok' yep. already covered. tiktok and #all of those thinsg are my enemies. 'save money by cancelling some of your services' cool. already ahead of you.#who the fuck is out here paying for like 10 different subscription services. pirated videos uploaded to google drive and youtube to mp3 #my beloved. etc. etc. and so on. 'socialize less' .........LOL.. if only you knew.. mr.writer of the article. i can barely muster #talking to friends more than once a month and even less if I'm actively sick (often occurence) etc. etc. ... hewoo #I think maybe instead of generic productivity tips I need more like.. how to refocus and be productive anyway even if you have a headache #or are nauseous or etc. Not that those are always things to ignore. and of course you should let your body rest and etc. But plenty of peop #e have mild physical symptoms and just work through them. Ithink something about the way my body/mind is SOO hyper attuned to all #sensory information just makes it like... constantly 'GRR well I cant focus on WRITING right now because my lef #t ear feels weird and my socks are too itchy and my back has a strange pressure and I'm vaguely warm and my eye feels some ssort of #way it doesnt normally feel and I'm hyperaware of my breathing and also nauseous for no reason' and like half of those things I #think '''normal''' people wouldnt even notice or at least would be able to just live through. but for me it's like.. nealry impossible to i #gnore and soooo distracting always. like 'wahh.. nooo we can't draw or get anything done.. my legs feel slightly heavy or something!!'#like............. ok......... who cares. thats not even a PAIN sensation it's just something weird. but it's just like.. NO. constant #mental alerts about the 'heaviness' of your legs be upon ye. Though Imean like.. yes.. 70% of the time I am in genuine pain #or having some sort of actual ailment with trackable physical symptoms. but sometimes it's just like... we could totally be working right #now and ignoring this silly thing but my brain is fixated on it for no reason uncontrollably. etc. etc. I guess it's the same way that like #most people can go to a grocery store without the whole experience being so overwhelming and so much stuff going on at once #that they have to rest afterwards but like.. in my own HOME doing NOTHING i feel like I should be able to not get overwhelmed lol. ANYWAY #Rolling my bastard little rock up a dumbass hill and so on and so forth

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astral-catastrophe · 1 year

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Anyway I’m just so fucking done

#I’m probably just being stupid and not actually being talked over in the server #And these people probably don’t care anyway #And hhhh #im just being stupid again aren’t i #Bc its totally 100% normal to say something in one of the channels when nobody is talking #then immediately people come in with a whole other conversation and don’t even acknowledge what you saidLove getting talked over and ignore #Yea. Yeah. Yep. Totally normal. And definitely not feeling avoided anytime I try to talk to people #And funniest part is that it’s usually the same person who will say something after I do and start a different conversation. Nice.#Immediate response for them and I’m ignored. Being avoided like this does wonders for my mental health thanks.

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kingdomoftyto · 5 months

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...BIG FEELS AND BIG PLOT DEVELOPMENTS AT THE END OF THAT BOOK, HUH

#Tyto reads WoF #i know it's not the most pressing issue what with the vengeful ex-Queen and the murderous sister and all #but I still want to point out how alarming it is that the new crew are all going to be wearing seemingly radioactive rocks as jewelry now #Turtle please don't pick up strange rocks that give off their own heat for the love of all that's good #ANYWAY yeah what the actual frick is going on with Darkstalker huh. I genuinely do NOT know whether he's trustworthy or not #desperately lonely and unfairly demonized? absolutely. truly cares about Moon as a friend? I think so.#capable of integrating peacefully into modern dragon society without letting his own ego turn him into the monster he denies ever being?#....... 😬 remains to be seen #god and there's Scarlet's mysterious new accomplice(?) with the maddeningly vague physical description and also THE SCROLL(!!!!)#and i just realized we failed to get resolutions in this book for EITHER the vision of Turtle attacking Anemone OR #Flame's unique and frightening ability to sense and/or attack mindreaders????#where the HECK are we going with Flame I am going lowkey INSANE over him #ugh frick and Umber and Sora are both on the run too...!! this book is nearly as cliffhangery as Dark Secret #(though thankfully i prepared for this by checking the next book out ahead of time so i wouldn't have to wait LOL)#uhh buhh final thoughts before i force myself to go to sleep:#I love Moon and everything going on with her but I do feel like on some level it's even more of a slap in the face for poor Starflight #that the only tribe to get multiple POV characters in this first. like. extended arc(?) appears to be the NightWings #and Starflight himself doesn't get any of the tribe's unique defining features or abilities #i mean i guess the same is sort of true of Sunny and yes i know it was the POINT of book 4 that the tribe had no powers #but still idk it just feels like kicking the poor boy when he's already down. in addition to him literally getting beaten up again #(... now watch me be a total fool and the arc actually extends past book 8 or something making this point moot lol)#(I'm only assuming it ends at 8 bc that's where the previews in the back of the previous books have stopped)#EDIT: LOL yep turns out this arc does extend out to book 10 and the other POVs are Turtle and Qibli so I stand corrected.#that's what I get for nightblogging

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dontforgetoctober3rd · 2 years

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Itachi Uchiha’s relationship with Sasuke was not that of a normal, caring older brother but straight up parentification. It’s obvious Mikoto and Fugaku *constantly* left baby Sasuke in his care leading up to the nine tales attack, as evidenced by Itachi’s ability to get 3 (4?) month old Sasuke to stop crying and Itachi wearing a sling to carry Sasuke (you only do that if you would carry a baby for long periods of time). In this essay, I will

#itachi uchiha #Sasuke uchiha #uchiha clan #naruto #is this me projecting my own trauma onto one of my blorbos?#yes 100%#but Itachi WAS parentified! I will DIE on this fucking hill #like hello why do you think Sasuke was so heartbroken #his primary caregiver seemingly betrayed him and said he never cared #imagine your MOM or DAD saying that to you #also how many montages of Sasukebeing sad over good memories of itachi did we get #versus how many with his *actual* mom and dad #like can you name me ONE good memory Sasuke has with Fugaku #and no the fireball jutsu moment doesn’t count #now name some memories with Mikoto #yep #like even when they are older at 11 and 7 Itachi is STILL being charged with his care #he is cooking him up a meal and it comes out great meaning he does this a lot #hell even in the tsukuyomi OVA special Itachi cooks for him! he’s still being a goddamn mom in an ILLUSION for Pete’s sake #none of that microwave chicken nugget type crap either but actual meals that require a good deal of prep time #so I think you can understand that I am not pulling this parentified theory out of my ass #when Itachi fades away he isn’t saying goodbye to his little brother #he’s saying goodbye to his baby 😭💔💔💔💔💔💔

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taegularities · 10 months

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So cmi jk

⭐️

barring the l-word 🙄… but not jk knowing how much money she's got, but still constantly worrying about whether she's doing okay and has eaten or not, stop!!! 😭

but yk what he'll do even more frequently than reminding her of his card?… remember how he'd be sending her hourly updates on whatever he was doing in cmi4/lights? so similar to that, whether he's at work or in the gym or just an hour away from coming home and seeing her again, he'll be texting her all the time asking if she's eaten/okay/needs anything and i just 🥺

#funny bc cmi11 mentions this smol bit too #hourly updates bc he's obsessed with her yep #notes for rid 🌹#⭐️ anon #fic: colour me in #also wHY do i talk so much lol my responses are so long like rid they might not even care lmao!!!

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gayspock · 9 days

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dead serious about work

#egg.txt #the nightmare persists i feel like a failure i want to quit but what else do i have #part of my life again where the fond reminder that being alone is not a sustainable way of living but this is all there is and all there #ever is or whatever when everything is too fucking much and theres nothing you can fucking do or whatever. big smile #something something did anyone else ever get sooo sad abt loneliness as a teenager but then realise it only ever gets worse and worse and w #why are we alive etc or whatever what is there but this shit and nothing else and nothing else and nothing else #and who even cares . no one. yep. well what you gonna do #something somethingwhy did i think it was ever going to get better #the best youve ever had was stilljsut a resounding feeling of being fucking alone and hating yourself and hating your LIFEEE DUDEEEE END IT

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gay-artificer · 1 year

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Seeing people complain about how people make shipping content of the slugcats/ slugcat ocs and 'furrification' of the fandom while also being involved in a bunch of iterator shipping/roleplay/ocs like do you actually hate the that the fandom has focus on shipping and ocs over reflective stuff or are you just mad that a lot of it is focused on the slugcats

#like no shade to people who just dislike it all as a whole i get it i really do #but making big posts about how shipping and cutesy stuff is 'against the vibes' while doing all that for the iterators?#like yeah the slugcats are more animals but ultimately their all fictional elements of the same game so if you think slugcat stuff is #bad for the more spiritual and reflective vibe of the game that should ALSO apply to the more human characters #sorry im a creature enjoyer even if im not really a shipper so yeah im not gonna focus on the robots that much. thats just my element.#i care about survivors plight more than pebbles and im more interested in pebbles disease than he himself #like yep the slugcats are little beasts to me for the most part but i feel like if youre gonna whine about how people tend to focus on them #than its a lil hypocritical to turn around and fully immerse yourself in the same thing but with... just a different type of character from #the same exact thing that narratively has similar focus

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drowzyscatterbrain · 2 months

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I have many fears.

but currently, one of my greatest fears is having the most wonderful and sweet dreams of being lovey dovey with sans...

and forgetting it upon waking up.

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seariii · 7 months

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I am exhausted??? For some reason I woke up and I feel really really tired? Zero energy???

#like im glad the fever isnt coming back but damn... im gonna try to sleep a little longer #its probably part of me being sick i believe...?#... sigh. i guess i do wish i had someone taking care of me. if even for just a couple minutes #petting my head or my back as i try to sleep... really that's all i want not even bringing me food...#maybe one day mom will be around.... and maybe one day ill have someone who will.... yeah #the future will come and it'll be pretty and warm i hope #seari talks #i almost fell asleep writing the notes so.... yep going back to sleep

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ceolocunt · 4 months

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#its times like this Im like hmm maybe I have bpd because. some how I dont think this is a normal human reaction #idk my emotions have always felt like extremes and its like . ah . a lot would MAKE SENSE but I also just dont know enough to be like yep i #its bpd for shure. especially because emotional regulation is strongly tied to adhd so maybe its just that??? who fuckijg know #anyway I just. checked life360 and saw all my friends were at dennys #like literally all of them but me and the other who doesnt even live in the city #and its like oh #they didnt think to invite me #even though it wouldnt be out of the way. considering one lives in walking distance of me #they never welcomed me home either #and its just so #I havent interacted with them but theyve just dropped me completely. every interaction feels flat and it just hurts so bad #I want to cause a scene and throw a fit but I know they genuinely do not care about me enough to be affected by that #anyway even before this ive just been. weirdly aggitated today #I kinda know what caused it but also not reallY? GL was watching anime withj his bf and he said something slightly off #and then that was just like. it. and suddenly its like pure anger for no reason and its like #hm.. that feels like a symptom ! and then suddenly every single interaction with anyone feels like im eating glass and its so.#who fuckingknow

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alltherelicsofalifelonglived · 1 year

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alright having mostly played thru rain world (havent finished gourmand bc i'm not emotionally ready to be a slugpup parent, havent finished hunter and saint yet bc i suck at this game) im going to weigh in on the slugcat fur argument. i think they all have fur, however, i think its constantly way too humid on account of the daily torrential downpours for it to ever be fur-like in appearance, and is instead has more of a gel-like feel to it. like if the structure of the fur and whatever skin oils are produced reacted with water/humidity to form an insulating coat. saint, however, doesn't get the daily downpours and humidity is much lower, so it's fur is fluffed, which helps insulate against the cold. basically all of them are wet cats all the time, except saint bc climate change.

#can you imagine how fucking humid rain world is #how does shit even breathe #anyways dryest to wettest is obviously saint is dryest #then artificer who is always blowing shit up #then spearmaster with the Weird Vibes #monk survivor and gourmand are all normal slugcat wetness #hunter is close but slightly wetter due to the Turbo Cancer #and rivulet is obviously the wettest of beasts #artificer's skin oil is explosive out of sheer spite and rage and her burning hatred also keeps her dry #spearmaster has more surface area for airflow so dries out easier at least in the tail region #slugcats are Wet is the hill im going to die on today #rain world #slugcat #do i care too much about the biology of slugcats? probably. am i gonna continue speculating? yep.#slugcats probably have naturally hydrophobic coats #the dryest ones are worse at swimming because that hydrophobic coating isnt established on them #its either this or they're literally the texture of pipe cleaners #also when i say i havent finished hunter i havent even made it out of farm arrays on them im so bad #saint ive at least gotten some progress on

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the-feral-sequel · 1 year

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Owen Zhanshi Lee

He knows how to life. At least in the best ways he can. Studying, playing the drums, occasionally but regularly working out, going on dates or talking/texting to Aslan and wearing crop tops.

#OCs #my oc moodboards #yep Owen's face claim in Josh Dun from twenty one pilots uh yeah refer to previous post's tags #hehe #i looove writing Owen hes so cute and caring to all his friends and he also tries his best to not be a doormat with the help of his friends #and Aslan because even with his pretty packed schedule he tends to not say no when anyone asks him to do something that would be sorta hard #to do without taking a lot out of his own time and energy

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