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how to unlove someone • ch. 1 [tom holland x reader]

how to unlove someone • ch. 1

tom holland x reader

words: 2.7k

warnings: cursing, i think implications of smut, cheating (ish)

a/n: it’s supposed to be all lowercase :) please read prologue first!

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you sat down in a chair at small round dining table in your apartment across from tom, who had his macbook sitting in front of him, lighting up his features.

piper was out on a study date with matthew, something you’d grown used to hearing in conversations when she and him were together. she wouldn’t be home for another hour and a half which gave you and tom some time to go over things in the ‘plan’.

he said it was composed of 5 steps that were supposedly fail-proof. he was serious, much to your surprise, but you agreed to it and there you were, listening to the brown haired boy prepare you for this process.

“so, we might need to make adjustments to the steps since you might do different things,” he told you and you smirked. “just, uh, what do you do to talk to him?”

“i text him?”

“other than that, y/n.”

“well, sometimes i stop him on campus to talk, or piper invites me to his apartment sometimes and i go.” tom nodded, thinking.

“okay, so that’s just a quick edit,” you rolled your eyes at his ‘sophisticated’ vibe. his outfit didn’t serve him any justice to his fake mannerisms either. a uni sweatshirt and sweatpants didn’t really scream “i’m an intelligent man who has all my shit together” and so that hinted to you that he was faking his attitude. he knew you knew that. “what’s his name in your phone?”

“just in my contacts or…?”

“anywhere you have him.”

“...it’s just his name.”

“that’s bullshit, y/n.”

“no!” you tucked a strand of hair behind your ear.

“gimme your phone so i can see then.”

“no!” you said again.

“what is it?” you didn’t say anything for a moment.

“why does it matter?”

“so i know if a part of this step is needed.” he looked at you, waiting, as you unlocked your phone and pushed it towards him so he could snoop around for himself. after about a minute of him opening and closing different apps just to make sure, he handed it back and began typing on his keyboard.

“what’re you typing?”

“i’m adding something to the rule, hold on.”

he asked you a ton of questions and typed away, leaving you confused, until he turned his laptop so you could read the screen. a google doc was open, and it was named ‘copy of how to unlove someone’. a singular list in arial font sat there.

“we’re going in order for this, starting with step one,” tom informed you, as he highlighted the first line with his cursor. “say you don’t like him.”

“it’s that simple? all i have to do is just say that i don’t like him?”

“just tell people that when they ask. tell yourself that. you just gotta say it until one day it’s true.”

“tom, are you sure this is gonna work?”

“‘has before, why wouldn’t it work now?”

you nodded, but still held your breath. you trusted tom and all, but this didn’t seem legit. you had your fingers crossed.

piper walked into the apartment, hung up her jacket, and turned to say something to you and paused when she saw tom.

“y/n, i-woah, hey, tom! what’re you doing here?”

he smiled.

“we were just catching up and studying.” tom replied, shutting his macbook before piper could read it. you nodded.

“oh, that’s great. how’s harrison?” you looked down at your hands in your lap.

“he’s doing pretty great, as far as i know. i bet he misses you.”

piper giggled, looking down at her feet. you rolled your eyes, she was doing her classic ‘that’s just how i talk to guys’ flirting. she does it with almost every guy, no matter what her relationship status is, and uses the excuse that it’s how she talks to guys. it usually didn’t irritate you. but today? you weren’t really sure why it was rubbing you the wrong way.

“i’m sure he’d definitely say so, that cheeky shit,” she responded, yanking her vans off her feet, and setting them on your shared shoe rack. “well, i’ll leave you guys to studying.”

and with that, your roommate went to her room.

“she hasn’t changed.” tom commented after hearing her bedroom door close and lock.

“what do you mean?” you almost didn’t want him to answer. it’s always the same with guys and piper. they all have the hots for her, and would always choose her over you. it’s the curse of having a more attractive best friend.

“she’s still kinda desperate as hell for attention. her personality’s the same as i remember it being before she and matt broke up last time.”

“yeah, she claims it’s just how she talks to boys but, like, no. it’s not,” you told the holland boy and he nodded, yawning. you glanced at the clock on the stove. it was only 11 o’clock. “you wanna watch a movie? i don’t have classes tomorrow so i don’t need to go to bed early.”

tom smiled and nodded.

“yeah, same. let’s do it.”

you picked out a movie, made popcorn, got tangled together under blankets and watched the movie almost all the way through, but you both fell asleep.

piper left her room to grab a bottle of water to find the credits rolling on the screen, a nearly empty bowl of popcorn on tom’s lap, and you two snoring softly on the couch. she smiled at the sight as she turned off the tv, took the bowl and set it on the kitchen counter, and turned off the lamp in the living room. she was glad you found someone to take your mind off of matthew for once. she got her water, and went to her room to leave you and tom to peacefully sleep.

the next morning at 7, you woke up to the sound of piper rushing to get to her class because she didn’t follow anyone’s advice and took an early class. tom was still across from you, his legs underneath yours as he slept through piper’s curses from the bathroom where she tried to brush her hair and her teeth at the same time. you heard someone’s laugh come from the bathroom that wasn’t the one of the blonde you knew and loved. you carefully got up and went to check on her, and found her phone propped up on the sink. she was on facetime with matthew, who was laughing at her being a mess.

a gorgeous mess.

you could almost hear his voice correcting you in your mind. you sighed and said good morning to the two of them.

“can you get my contacts from my vanity?” piper asked after spitting her toothpaste out. you nodded and walked into her room. the dark blue walls were filled with posters that she only bought for laughs, and a message board that had the same quote from matthew for ages. you grabbed her a sweatshirt from her laundry basket because you knew she’d regret it once she was out the door. you then grabbed her contacts and went back to the bathroom. you handed them to her and she thanked you. you nodded and suddenly tom was beside you as you stood watching her from outside the bathroom.

“hey.” you murmured.

“hi,” tom replied. “is that matthew?”

piper nodded, pulling the sweatshirt over her head.

“yooo, tom! what’re you doing over at the girls’?” matt’s voice rang out from her phone.

“i hung out with y/n last night and we fell asleep.”

matt wiggled his eyebrows, laughing. he ran a hand through his black quiff. you bit your lip, looking away from the phone. piper started to apply her lip gloss, and matthew turned his attention to her again. you tugged on tom’s sleeve to try to signal that you should go eat breakfast. he caught on.

you two started to make pancakes and a couple minutes later, piper (and matthew on her phone) came running through to get her shoes on her feet and her backpack on her back. they called out goodbyes before she rushed out of the apartment with only 20 minutes to drive to campus and get to class.

“you did good.” tom said, flipping a pancake.

“what?”

“you did good.”

“i didn’t really do much, but okay.”

“it’s a progress, you lead up to these things, love.”

after getting the pancakes done and sitting down to eat them, you tilted your head, looking at him.

“tom?”

“yeah?”

“how’d you come up with these steps anyway? like, who caused you to make them?”

he chuckled, pouring syrup all over his stack.

“some girl from year 11. you wouldn’t know her.”

“was that the only time they were ever used?”

“no. harrison used ‘em once,” you smirked as you took a bite of your breakfast. “you should’ve seen him, he was so whipped for her.”

“who was it?” tom raised his eyebrows, realizing that he shouldn’t have said that.

“that is confidential information.”

“it was piper, wasn’t it?”

“damn, how’d you guess it that fast?” tom groaned and you sighed.

“i’m used to it.” you replied and he gave you an sympathetic look.

“that really sucks, y/n.” you shrugged.

you both ate in silence before cleaning the sticky plates as a team. tom then invited you back to his apartment to hang out with him and harrison, but you declined.

“i’ve got to study, i have an exam tomorrow.” he nodded and waved goodbye before you closed the door.

your phone buzzed with a text from harrison himself. he was asking about piper and matthew. more specifically how you felt about it. you decided to follow tom’s advice and say you didn’t like matt anymore so you didn’t really care. and haz responded with a tea cup emoji, making you laugh a little. this was already kind of easy. hopefully tom’s other steps were as easy as this one.

piper came home later that evening, looking exhausted as she dropped her bag onto the floor, slipping her vans off, and flopping next to you on the couch. you paused the movie you were watching on netflix and set your bowl of ice cream on the coffee table in front of you.

“how was your day?”

she didn’t say anything at first, and you sighed, ready for either a really long rant or a ‘i just want to be alone’.

“everyone was calling me a hoe and a slut because matthew and i are back together even though i just got out of a relationship two weeks ago.” she said quietly, staring at the ceiling.

“p, i’m sorry about that,” you said. “people just can’t seem to grow up and realize that this isn’t high school anymore.”

“they’re right, though,” she spoke up again, this time looking at you as she sat up. “i am a hoe. i can’t stay single for a month at a time, y/n. what they say about me is true.”

“piper-”

“y/n, don’t even lie to me.”

“i’m not. you’re not a hoe, you’re not a whore, you’re not a slut. none of it. this is something you just need to realize. you don’t always have to be in a relationship.”

“that’s the definition of being a hoe.”

“i’m not so sure about that.”

she made a face and sighed, stealing your bowl of ice cream to eat the rest of it before it could melt.

“let’s talk about something else, i don’t wanna think about this anymore.” you nodded, pulling your feet under yourself.

“okay,” you put your phone on do not disturb, and piper did the same. the phones were both set on the coffee table, face down. you two always did that when you wanted to get away from the drama and just talk. you did it together, you did it with your entire friend group, you did it by yourselves. it was a way to escape from the web. “what do you wanna talk about, then?”

a grin spread on your best friend’s face and she gave you a knowing look.

“thomas stanley holland,” you rolled your eyes, already regretting letting her talk to you. “what’s going on with that? how come he all the sudden came over to ‘catch up’ and then falls asleep here?” she wiggled her eyebrows, before grinning. “are you two sleeping together?” you playfully shoved her.

“he came over just to hang out again, we haven’t talked in ages. and we’re just friends.” piper still had that shit-eating grin on her face.

“well, just friends don’t like at each other like that.”

“like what?”

“y/n, you’ve gotta be kidding me right now. you look at tom like you look at matt! and you look at matt like he put the fucking stars in the sky!”

“no. i don’t look at tom like that.”

“trust me. you do.” you shook your head and she nodded hers, causing a ‘yes’ ‘no’ battle to break out. eventually, though, it ended with the two of you falling into a pit of giggles.

“shit, man, have you talked to matt since i told you about us?” piper then asked after a moment.

“he texted me about it, but other than that and this morning on your facetime, no.” she nodded, running a hand through her hair.

“you still like him?” she whispered. she knew she’d hurt you by going to matthew again. she knew she’d hurt you all the other times too. she just couldn’t give him up, no matter how many times she tried. he definitely wasn’t the best person, but he sure the hell could pretend he was sometimes.

“no.”

your murmur surprised piper, but she didn’t show it on her features. she honestly was eighty percent sure you were lying, but she wasn’t gonna say anything. she knew you both wanted to believe it.

piper soon said goodnight and left to go to bed. you didn’t bother finishing your movie, turning off netflix and the tv. you went to your room afterwards, finding two texts waiting on your phone’s lock screen. one from tom, one from matthew.

the thing about matthew; he was your best friend at some point before you dated. after your breakup, you both just didn’t fall back into place. it wasn’t that neither of you wanted to be friends, you both did. it just was that it wasn’t gonna be the same and you both knew that, so neither of you bothered to try hard to get no new outcomes. the overall feeling hurt you, because although you knew there was nothing you could do, you still loved him and you missed him.

you sighed, unlocking your phone and opening tom’s text first.

tom holland

lunch tomorrow @ 1? step 2?

you responded with a ‘sure, lmk where’ and went to matthew’s text.

matt :))

is p asleep?

your thumbs hovered over the keyboard as you tried to figure out what to say. you weren’t sure why he was asking, so you were unsure what tone to use. you assumed she was asleep, though, so you sent a simple ‘yeah, i think so’ and dropped your phone onto the bed. you went to go wash your face and brush your teeth in the bathroom, thinking about piper and matthew and tom. when you returned to your room, you got into bed and looked at your phone again. tom hadn’t responded yet, but matthew had. twice.

matt :))

ight

matt :))

you wanna get drinks?

your heart stopped. surely this wasn’t him cheating on piper, because you guys were friends. friends ask each other if they wanna get drinks, right? but it was after he asked if piper was asleep. you sighed, staring down at his messages before responding. if you wanted to get over him, you couldn’t let him use you for attention. he had a girlfriend, too, who happened to be your best friend. you couldn’t do that to her. you said no. you said you were tired. he read them immediately, sitting in his dark bedroom, the only light source coming from his bright phone screen. before he could respond, another typing bubble appeared.

y/n

goodnight.

he sighed, not bothering to respond, tossing his phone to the side. it was a stretch anyway.

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[j4ylov]

Making New Rules

Pairing: Peter Parker x reader

Summary: After Papa Stark finds his daughter and Peter getting steamy, he decides they need to settle some rules if those two are going to become an item.

word count:1798

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To say dinner was awkward was an understatement. Neither of them knew what to say or do, especially since every time the teenagers glanced at each other Tony sent glares in Peter’s direction.

Y/n couldn't believe her father. Hadn't he been the one that suggested they dated each other? Sure, he had find them making out in her bed, but still! She glared back at him, trying to make him drop his attitude.

Everyone could feel the tension in the air, especially with the silence that filled the room. Peter wanted to make some conversation, but he knew if he did Mr. Stark might throw the knife at him. He felt really bad about dating his daughter, the one girl that was off limits, but still, he couldn't believe the girl he had had a crush for over a year actually liked him back. It felt too good to be real.

Everyone ate their food lost in their own thoughts, trying their hardest to avoid what they knew was next. Y/n knew her father would have a “friendly” conversation with Peter, which would scare him off, just like every other boyfriend of hers. The difference was she would actually care if this one went away.

They spend the longest hour eating, but after it was obvious what they were doing Tony finally stand up, dragging the chair loudly, making both teenagers look at him.

“Well Peter, if you’re done pretending to eat, I’ll like to have a word or two with you, in private”

Peter stared at Y/n and back at her father. He knew she couldn't save him from this one. He had to go with him and hope for the best. He stood up and followed as Mr. Stark went into his office, not waiting for him. He glanced back at the girl one more time, and just the sight of her giving him an apologetic and worried look was enough for him to gather some courage and finally step into the room.

He closed the door behind him and looked around the office, until he finally spotted the man, looking through the big glass wall, staring at the city under them. He approached him slowly, remaining a couple feet behind him.

“Peter, you see the city, all the people in it? How many people do you think there are in New York? How many girls? There has to be at least a dozen girls in it, different sizes, shapes, ages”

“I uhh- I guess there are many”

“Then-” Tony turned around and faced him, getting a step closer to him “Why did you choose the one girl I told you not to?”

Before Peter could even open his mouth Mr. Stark was talking again, not caring about his actual answer.

“My girl is the most important thing for me! If all you wanted was a pretty face to fool around with I can introduce you to someone! Obviously not prettier than Y/n, cause she has like, really good genes- but still”

Peter could not believe what he was listening to. It had taken him a whole year for Y/n to notice him, he wasn't about to give up on the girl of his dreams.

“It's not like that! I- I don't- I don't want anybody else!”

“Why not?!”

“Because she is Y/n! I mean- her looks are a bonus but I want to get to know her, I want her to fall for me and make her happy. She is not only intelligent but also the kindest person, and she is also very funny and I just-really like her”

“How would you know? It's not like you ever talked to her before!”

“I didn't knew I had a chance until yesterday! If I weren't spider man she would’ve rejected me!”

As soon as the words left Peter mouth he realised it wasn't the smartest idea, but it was already too late. The man in front of him got an upset and angry look that suggested he wanted to murder him in the spot.

“If you really think that way about my daughter then you shouldn't date her”

Peter knew it was wrong to even think about it, but honestly, why would the perfect girl even glance in his direction if it weren't for the suit? Also, she just made a move once she realised who he was.

“Why else would she even think of dating me? I’m nothing compared to her”

Tony sighed as he took a seat in the couch in his office, patting the seat beside him for Peter. The boy went and sat next to him, as the man spoke.

“Lemme tell you a story about Y/n’s first day at school Peter. I thought that maybe homeschooling wasn't the best option for her, so hey, why not send her to a public school? Get her to have the whole high school experience right? However after she arrived from her first day I knew I  was fucked. Peter, why do you think Y/n is so popular?”

“Because of you?”

“Exactly! So like at first it was ok, she had a ton of friends, but all of the sudden all the boys wanted to get into her pants, apparently you included- But she never payed attention to none, until that first day she arrived home from school and started rambling about a familiar sounding boy-

“She said she had seen the cutest boy in her Chemistry class. Apparently not only was he “cute” but also super smart.”

Tony proceed to try to imitate his daughter puppy eyes and her voice, making a lovesick grin while he continued.

“I’m telling you dad! He has the softest brown eyes! And curly hair and he is just- the most handsome boy I’ve ever seen. He is also super smart and- has like all the answers for everything! He is in the decathlon team and seriously dad, he might be smarter than your geniuses in the lab down here!”

“Everyday she would come home with one of her stories about cute brown eyes boy, until she finally discovered your name and told me”

Peter had never felt so confused. Did Y/n liked him since so long ago? Why hadn't she said anything? They had both been pinning when they could have actually been together?

“So, you see why I’m not into the idea of you guys dating? You’re the one boy that might actually hurt my daughter, or take her away from me”

“I would never do either of those things. I really like her and I know- I know how it feels to lose people, I would never do that to you”

Tony finally loosen up to his words and gave him a side hug, while ruffling his hair.

“I know you mean no harm kid, but she is the most important person in my life, we gotta settle some rules if you really want to be with her”

“I do, and I promise I’ll try to follow them this time”

“So, first rule, no touching kid, even though you already broke that rule, try to keep your hands to yourself”

Peter knew that rule was going to be broken many times, and Tony seemed to realise as he pushed the boy and punched his arm.

“You could at least try! Okay new rule, no touching in front of me, and once the time is right we’ll have a safe talk- but that doesn't mean I give you permission to bone my daughter!”

“What? No- Of course not! Okay so, second rule?”

“Your job is to protect her, if I’m not around then it's your duty! Don't let people find out about her and you being spider man! Don't let your enemies get close to her or I swear I’ll kill you myself kiddo”

“I won't let them anywhere near her I promise”

“Last but not least you have to maker her the happiest girl okay? She comes home crying because of you and I’ll make sure you pay for it Peter, and I mean it- especially if you break my rules. There’s nothing I wouldn't do for my daughter”

“I know Mr. Stark- and also- I- I wanted to apologize for before. I shouldn't have betrayed your trust, especially after everything you’ve done for me and-”

“I’m sorry Peter, I overreacted- and to be honest, I’ll rather have her date you than any other asshole. Anyways, We should go met Y/n, she must think I already killed you”

With these final words Tony got up and opened the door as he called for Y/n to come in, even though she was probably pretending not to spy on them.

“Everything’s settled then, I have a meeting to go, you guys finish your homework. Goodbye honey”

He kissed Y/n’s forehead, ignoring the surprised look she gave him and stepped out, leaving them alone.

“God what did he told you? I thought I’d heard some yelling in here”

The girl came next to him and cuddled beside him as he hugged her from the side.

“He was actually very cool about it, he even told me some interesting stuff”

She looked at him while Peter played with her hair, a knowing grin in his face.

“What did he told you?”

“Just stuff”

“Tell meeee!”

“He might've told me the story about the soft brown eyed boy”

She blushed and hide her face in his chest, as he laughed at her reaction.

“I can't believe you had a crush on me!”

“Pete stop it! We’re dating!”

“Still! I still can't believe it tho, we could’ve been dating for almost a year!

“Well, it's your fault we had to wait all this time! You should’ve asked me out!”

“Well, you never talked to me either! How was I supposed to know you liked awkward dorky Peter?”

“That's because I always thought you saw me as a mean superficial bimbo girl! I never thought you’d go out with someone like that! At least not when there were a dozen of girls better than me!”

Peter looked down at the girl in his arms and removed the hair from her face, cupping her cheek and bringing her close to him. She looked perfect next to him, looking expectantly at him, trying to get closer before he talked again.

“You’re the only girl for me”

He finally pulled her in for a kiss. This one felt different. It was sweet and slow, making his heart full with happiness. He knew next to her he didn't had to worry about anything else, he had all the time in the world by her side.

“I guess the wait was worth it”

“It totally was”

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A. Age: 17

B. Biggest fear: bridges make me feel so physically sick like i start shaking on a bridge but I’m not necessarily afraid of heights because i love rollercoasters. Weird

C. Current time: 2:40 pm (Sunday, feb 12-my brothers birthday!)

D. Drink you last had: milk

E. Everyday starts with: moisturisation bitchezzz

F. Favourite song: probably This Must Be My Dream atm

G. Ghosts, are they real?: I don’t think about that kinda stuff very much, reckon it’s unlikely haha

H. Hometown: if i say the actual name I may have to move haha so I’m just gonna say the midlands of Ireland I. In love with: this could be anything I suppose but I feel like in my life there’s two people that I’ve just fallen in love with (as a friend), my current best friend and this guy Andrew I met on a summer course two years ago. I haven’t talked to him properly since then but we met last summer and I practically cried. We both kinda screamed when we saw each other and he was surrounded by all of the people we were friends with the year before but I was the main one he really wanted to see. If we’re talking unrequited unconditional love, it’s a holiday romance who had to cut all ties once he came home and got back with his “ex”. Tbh I don’t know if they were ever really broken up. Seven months later and not a day goes by that i don’t think about him. And if we’re talking celebrities (probably what this meant in the first place), I’d have to say ed sheeran, the man who literally formed me and my teenage years. Also would do anything for matty healy and jake gyllenhaal but I need to stop ranting lol.

J. Jealous of: almost everything. My friends when they speak to other people. The girl who’s with my ex that I wasn’t even very fond of. The list goes on

K. Kill(ed) someone: ehhhh hahhahah not literally but a couple of people are pretty dead to me

L. Last time I cried: probably a couple of weeks ago tbh all these things kinda morphe into one. I don’t cry often but when I do it’s brutal and I can’t stop.

M. Middle name: Marie

N. Number of siblings: 1

O. One wish: to meet any of the 1975 or ed sheeran of course. But I suppose thats just like a fairytale. My real wish for life is to fall head over heels in love with somebody who feels the same way.

P. Person you last called/texted: I’m basically constantly texting in a group with my two best friends

Q. Question you’re always asked: is your hair natural omg? Nah man I just woke up four hours early to put tiny little curls all over my head. I wish i was able to straighten it.

R. Reason to smile: music, duh (no need to even change Annamarie’s answer lolll)

S. Song last sang: the last song I recorded myself doing was John Wayne by Little Green Cars

T. Time you woke up: about 8 today but I just kept my eyes closed til 10 hahah

U. Underwear colour: blue

V. Vacation destination: the place of my dreams would be anywhere carribean or something, but really my ideal holiday would be wherever he is this summer:(

W. Worst habit: probably my inability to be okay with someone even after they’ve apologised, I can only talk to someone again after a nights sleep. But in worse cases if I’m mad at a friend I can literally never look them in the eye again. I’ve lost two of my best friends over my own stupid reasons that should have been sorted in a day but I’m just too damn proud/ moody hahah

X. X-rays you’ve had: neverrr thankfully! I have a vague recollection of an X-ray on my teeth years ago but I feel like that could just as easily have been my brother

Y. Your favourite food: hmm yeah I dunno it varies so much, probably my mothers curry or chocolate biscuits

Z. Zodiac sign: Capricorn

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- I am 5'7 or taller (i fucking wiiiiiiiiiiiiiish)

- I wear glasses (i’m meant to but i don’t because they get dirty and that bothers me)

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- I have at least one piercing (6 distributed around my ears and 1 nose)

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- I have brown eyes

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- I have or had braces

PERSONALITY:

- I love meeting new people

- People tell me I am funny (ppl tell me nothing. also i never speak out loud)

- Helping others with their problems is a big priority of mine (i mean i’d like to but i have no idea what to say)

- I enjoy physical challenges

- I enjoy mental challenges

- I am playfully rude to people I know (i mean kinda sometimes? idk)

- I started saying something ironically and now I can’t stop saying it 

- There is something I would change about my personality (everything i would love to not be a bland robot)

ABILITY:

- I can sing well

- I can play an instrument (i can sort of play ukulele and guitar. and ocarina i guess lol. i also took recorder lessons when i was in primary school. now that was a bad time)

- I can do over 30 pushups without stopping (lol no)

- I am a fast runner (actually i can sprint really fast but for only like 10 seconds)

- I can draw well

- I have a good memory (HAHAHAHAHA NO)

- I am good at doing math in my head

- I can hold my breath underwater for over a minute (i used to when i was like a teen but my asthma and stuff has gotten real bad since then)

- I have beaten at least 2 people arm wrestling (idk probably i mean see aforementioned unbolded good memory i can’t even remember two days ago at all i must have beaten 2 people at arm wrestling. i mean i know i’ve wrestled the arm)

- I can make at least 3 recipes from scratch

- I know how to throw a proper punch (well i mean i can do a karate punch. you start with your fist closed and facing up, held next to like your hip and your elbow’s like pointed back, and then you thrust forward and up a bit and twist your fist down inwards, so you end up with it at chest level. idk)

HOBBIES:

- I enjoy sports (i feel like eventually i will end up watching something like women’s soccer or women’s basketball, because i am a pathetic virginal gay that can’t talk to and is unattractive to girls)

- I’m on a sports team at my school or somewhere else (i tried out for soccer twice. since i’m a fatass they didn’t go well)

- I’m in a orchestra or choir at my school or somewhere else (i was in primary school i have no idea why i think it’s cuz my grandma wanted me to be? but it wasn’t all bad i mean one time we went to like a choir competition and the conductor called me a boy so that was neat as fuck. man i got called a boy a lot when i was a kid it was fucking heaven compared to now, assholes calling me ma’am and shit man get fuckt)

- I have learned a new song in the past week (what does this mean? like to play on an instrument? bitch i can’t even concentrate long enough to learn Honeybee by Steam Powered Giraffe i just get discouraged and shit)

- I exercise at least once a week (listen i intend to rectify this and go swimming every day, now that i finally realised like last year that i actually have fucking dysphoria and that’s why i hated wearing swimsuits (aside from because i’m fat as shit and disgusting to witness in a fucking onepiece like what the fuck were my parents fucking thinking making me wear shit like that when i’m obese as sin) i’m gonna get board shorts and a rashguard and wear one of my less liked binders and it’ll be so fucking good)

- I have gone for runs at least once a week in warmer months (fuck off i’m not leaving my house in fucking summer it’s fucking 40°)

- I have drawn something in the past month

- I enjoy writing (man i haven’t properly written in like 7 years because idk depression but i still write stories in my head when i’m going to sleep at night and showering and whatever)

- Fandoms are my #1 priority

- I do some form of Martial arts (i used to do karate when i was uhhh 14?)

EXPERIENCES:

- I have had my first kiss (hahahahaha *sob* i fucking wish)

- I have had alcohol (yeah man i love jagerbombs and blue lagoons, defuckinglicious)

- I have scored a winning point in a sport (fuck sports)

- I have watched an entire TV series in one sitting (okay wait does this count for like rewatches? because when i saw my first anime i was obsessed with watching it - martian successor nadesico btw - for the entire day and that’s all i did, i sat in bed and watched it all morning to night)

- I have been at an overnight event (i meannnn when i went to see the last jedi slash meet some of my friends from my guild irl for the first time i stayed over at their house on the sofa and left the next morning does that count)

- I have been in a taxi (yeah it was only recently actually, our car fucking died and we had to take some convoluted fucking public transport out of our place from middle-of-dead-ass-fucking-nowhere-ville (needless to say i hate the suburb i live in. and country) to somewhere where we could get a taxi to a car rental place. or was it a dealership? i can’t fucking remember man do you see this shitty memory in action?? it was only like 2 years ago fuck me)

- I have been in the hospital or ER in the past year (well i was IN a hospital but that’s because i was going to a dental clinic in the building)

- I have beaten a video game in one day (what game can you beat in a day man???)

- I have visited another country (i haven’t got enough fucking money lad)

- I have been to one of my favorite bands’ concerts (listen fuck you i’m totally counting livestreamed concerts, i’ve seen all of Steam Powered Giraffe’s youtube concerts and the one recorded in 2013 and you bet your ass i’m gonna pay $20 for the right to see the film of the anniversary concert)

MY LIFE:

- I have one person that I consider to be my Best Friend (i kinda consider my friend bunny my best friend but i doubt he considers me his bestie)

- I live close to my school/work (HAHAHA GET REKT I TAKE MY UNI COURSES ONLINE AHAHAHA)

- My parents are still together

- I have at least one sibling (i mean technically i have 3 but i’ve never met them. at least i don’t think i have. they can get lost far as i’m concerned)

- I live in the United States (i wouldn’t live there if you paid me. maybe if obama were still president you could’ve got me to live there if you gave me like 5 million dollars, but now i would actually rather die)

- There is snow where I live right now (god i would fucking kill for some snow)

- I have hung out with a friend in the past month (yooo i was boutta unbold this because i have no fuckin friends except my online pals but then i remembered going to meet two of my friends from online and seeing star wars with them!! holy shit i feel validated and less lonely)

- I have a smartphone (samsung galaxy s6 BOI i am so fucking angry i was gonna hold out for the s7 cuz 7 is my second favourite fucking number (first is 14 but i wasn’t gonna wait a decade for that or w/e) anyway i finally decided to just get the s6 and the fucker asshole 7 is announced like a month later aaaaaarhghdks)

- I own at least 15 CDs (i have a whole fuck ton of videogames and they’re on CDs get owned HAHA FOILED but i also have probably about 15 CDs of music if i’m gonna count the stuff my family has)

- I share my room with someone (man my room isn’t even big enough for me how you gonna fit a whole nother person in that cupboard)

RELATIONSHIPS:

- I am in a Relationship (*cries uncontrollably*)

- I have a crush on a celebrity (well i mean i wouldn’t say no to like scarlett johansson if she told me she wanted to rail me. or gal gadot. or kate beckinsale. or kristen stewart. or - okay this is probably a massive list of ladies i want to rawdog me)

- I have a crush on someone I know (i’m slightly in love with all of my female friends because they show me kindness)

- I’ve been in at least 3 relationships (alright fucking buckle up kids: i don’t count online relationships because i’m a bitter person but when i was like 10 i was in a ‘relationship’ on runescape with a boy the same age at me and i legitimately think it was actually a kid like me and not a predator because all we did was stand next to each other and talk about cows or something and make the avatars kiss (we both had male avatars because i was obviously subconsciously aware of my gender identity at that stage). when i was like 13/14 i met a girl at a camp during the school holidays (i went to camp almost every holiday) and we chatted over msn after camp ended and tbh i think she forgot who i was because she suddenly said she liked me one day so i decided i liked her too and we started to ‘date’. lasted like 2 weeks? idk but she broke it off cuz i was inattentive (i can’t remember but i guess i could’ve been i’m not a very social person believe it or not *snicker*) anyway i saw her at the next two camps and it was hella fucking awkward the first time because i wanted to be friends with her but her other friends intimidated me so i just hovered around her creepily and she got angry at me and i got sad, but the 2nd time was a lot better i think, i was extremely distressed when i saw her at the bus station for the camp transport and i sulked the entire ride, but when we all got there i accidentally fell into her friend group (i actually think it’s because the other girls were really nice and they’d seen me sulking and wanted to cheer me up, man kinda fucked up huh) i pretty much ignored her the whole time and after camp ended she contacted me on msn for some reason and idk she like asked me how i’d felt when i saw her at camp and i was honest and told her i’d been pretty upset and then she got pissed at me and never spoke to me again. wow such drama huh? oh and my 3rd ‘relationship’ was when i was uhh 16/17-ish with this girl i met on some naruto fansite. i don’t even like naruto, and i actually remember absolutely nothing about my interactions with her. like at all. i don’t remember how we met or who dumped who or whatever bullshit. i’m not sure why this is i mean maybe it’s because this was at the same time i had a massive fucking obsessive infatuation with a girl at my school and well it didn’t turn out so hot and i think i’ve blocked out a lot of shit. anyway i hope you all enjoyed that wall of text haha of course you fucking didn’t. well tough titties me lad)

- I have never been in a relationship (*cries*)

- I have admitted my feelings to a crush (fuck no holy shit)

- I get crushes easily (yeah well if any female is nice to me i’m a goner. also one time during high school i started getting crushes on all the girls in my extended english class like i think it was a new girl each week. it was a tiny class there was only like 8 of us, no stinky boys (even if i’d realised i was trans at the time, i’m not stinky :P))

- I have had a crush for over a year (it was not fun)

- I have been in a relationship for over a year

- I have had feelings for a friend (do semi acquaintances count. or ‘girls that tolerated me enough to let me sit with them at lunch’)

RANDOM:

- I have break-danced

- I know a person named Jamie

- I have had a teacher that has a name that is hard to pronounce (listen i don’t fucking remember. but i’m good at pronunciations and shit anyway)

- I have dyed my hair (it was really short and blonde i kinda looked like a skinhead)

- I’m listening to a song on repeat right now (tongue tied from red dwarf)

- I have punched someone in the past week

- I know someone who has gone to jail

- I have broken a bone (broke my ankle in primary school because i’m fat and dumb and tried to slide along the grass into the safezone during tag or whatever, also i broke my wrist when i was 18 because i’m fat and dumb and i was learning how to drive a scooter but i went around a corner too slow or idk unbalanced or some shit, i think i broke the mirror on it but fuck that infernal machine i had to get fucking surgery and get pins in my wrist. when i got them out it was actually the closest i’ve ever come to fainting like the doctor dude was straining hard to pull these ones on the side out and when they finally popped out and a ton of blood gushed out i like deflated and teetered in my seat a bit it was an experience)

- I have eaten a waffle today (never had a waffle)

- I know what I want to do in life (well idk about an actual career but i want to write a book and get it published and make tons of bank)

- I speak at least two languages (i took japanese for 6 years don’t fucking tell me that doesn’t count just because i can’t carry a conversation in the language. also i took a class on latin for a semester it was dope af)

- I have made a new friend in the past year

[stuprosu]

march 17th, 2020 1:50 AM

yeah

listen

it’s pretty well established that i am absolutely atrocious at keeping this updated. and i always say that i am going to keep it updated. but i never fucking do, do i? so i’ll say it again. and maybe i’ll mean it it this time. but i really do want to keep this up. there’s so much that i am forgetting lately. things i shouldn’t be forgetting. things i want to remember. this is another situation where i am going to have to outline each thing by each month. hold on to your butts. 

[october 2018] see i don’t remember even what’s going on. this is almost two years ago. i saw the national this month. i also went on a date with sam. it went fine but i just wanted to be friends... so he ghosted me. yahoo. it’s coming back to me now. i go to worlds of fun with kady, marissa, ashleigh, amanda, and conner... love these goons so much. 

[november 2018] my other friend - an online friend, one that lived close. we talked all the time and we played a lot of overwatch and shit together. and i’m intelligent. i’m smart. i know when i’m being taken advantage, or know when people try to do this. he asks me out on a date. we meet up in leavenworth. we spend the whole day together and we drink alcohol. i found out later i have a pretty severe alcohol intolerance. i don’t remember much of that night. maybe everything that falls down eventually rises. that whole experience was that stupid fucking bright eyes song. i can’t remember much - that pretty much makes it nonconsensual, right? i have no memory. but it’s been too long. the next day he texts me and tells me he only wants to be friends. i only remember him kissing me and his house and brooklyn 99. my aunt said i was pretty incoherent when he dropped me back off there at 2am. 

i don’t really know what to make of that whole situation. best to not think about it. we have a friendsgiving. but we don’t relaspe. i actually took up smoking, lmao. i cut him completely out of my life. i am talking to people again. i start dating a boy named drew. we were both pretty lonely people.

[december 2018] yooo drew gets in a fucking wreck after leaving my house at 2am lmao i forgot about that. he was trying to avoid a snowstorm and like broke his femur in half. he was hospitalized for 2 weeks. i visited him. he couldn’t walk for about two months. i felt really bad but i didn’t really want to keep dating him. the whole thing was my fault and i don’t know how to feel about it even now. nothing else much happened during this month. someone wrecked into my parked car. i got zaba this month, my ball python. 

[january 2019] kady asked me to be a bridesmaid in her wedding. i break up with drew. it’s cold as fuck. i am sure there are other details. oh, ashleigh tells kady and i she will not be renewing the lease as she is going to move in with her boyfriend. ashleigh, in the past, like august 2018? was dating this homophobe so i didn’t talk to her. when he dumped her (after taking the old v card, which she told me about, which i responded to with indifference, which upset her) i was there to pick up the pieces but i told her she made a really dumb decision and i don’t know what else she expected and that it hurt that she knew my feelings about something and still dating someone so gross. ANYWAYS. new boyfriend. ashleigh wants to move in with the new boyfriend even though they havent even been dating a month... okay. we tell her not to. she doesn’t listen. ashleigh just starts being shady as fuck. jake , her bf, dumps after 2 weeks after she decides to not renew the lease. dumbass. 

ashleigh is still set to move out in may, when the lease is up. so, that’s not my problem. 

[february 2019] i really love my classes. i took ornithology that semester and i really loved it. i also cut my hair then and i came out publicly as bisexaul cause i realized how problematic being pansexual is. i also think i came out publicly as a nonbinary person, too. for so long i had issues with my gender, but i always pushed it aside and literally told myself don’t think about it, don’t worry about it, just stop. cringily, steven universe helped me figure out a label for what i was experiencing through rebecca sugar. pretty awesome stuff. 

[march 2019] a lot of shit went down this month. ashleigh started dating a guy named zane, who she first originally described to me as a creepy guy in her history class. they went on one date and fucked in her CAR in a museum PARKING LOT. lmao  and then proceeds to never sleep with him at our apartment, but will book hotels and shit. like how self conscious can you be?? anyways. i am fed up with it and i vent to some discord server and forgot ashleigh was in it. i delete it just in case but turns out she got screenshots and never told me. ash wanted to come to nakakon the weekend of march 16. march 15, ashleigh brings over zayn and theyre in her room. kady and conner are watching the office and marissa is there too. 

i come home at like 1am and they tell me ZAYN is there and has a fucking GUN on his hip and i’m?? what the fuck. so we start playing that episode of the office with gun safety dwight really really loudly. and then marissa messages ash and asks zayn to put the gun in his car. the gun is a REVOLVER and doesn’t have a fucking safety. she also doesnt have a gun safe? everyone is just super uncomfortable. zayn comes out and makes a huge deal. he tells us we’re being immature and that it isn’t a big deal. i said something along the lines that we live here, he didn’t ask, we’re uncomfortable, respect it or perish, smth like that. he leaves to go put it in his car. comes back in and starts it back up. says that “the big scary gun is put away” shut up cuck. 

anyways we get into and conner steps in because zayn is yelling at me and i am ready to brawl. zayn mentions something abuot how i treat ash like shit. i can only assume she showed him the screenshots of my discord message lmaoooo . anyways the day after that incident ! i cannot resolve it because ash is coming with me and staying at my dad’s apartment with marissa and i for nakakon. ashleigh is really obnoxious some of the time but mostly quiet. but since we were in such close quarters, i couldn’t bring up the whole shit with zayn. so. 

i am fed up and amanda, kady, marissa, ash, and i go to ihop to try and hash this out. we have a talking straw. we talk about alllll of our issues. i thought it went good. i was not aware that ash was aware of the screenshots. we told ash we were uncomfortable with zayn and would appreciate if he would apologize for disrespecting kady and i in our home and how he talked to me especially. this wasn’t unreasonable, considering three other people were witness to how zayn was talking to me. 

zayn said to ashleigh he wouldn;t apologize because he’d done nothing wrong. i told ashleigh i didn’t want him in the apartment. she moved out at this point and we got into it pretty heavily over messenger. ashleigh blocked all of us on facebook. i miss her but she’s a really toxic person who is in a relationship with a really toxic trump supporter who hates antifa and is really cringe. 

[april 2019] nothing much happened. college is good. i still have a massive crush on carter. marissa moved in. she has found out i am a giant recluse by nature and i think that has had an impact on our relationship even today. my past journal articles have illustrated i can only take people in doses, but we’ve found how to get along. 

[may - july 2019] nothing too crazy happened here either. it was an incredible summer, though. i worked, but i went to the lake so much and got close to toby! i hung out with marissa and kady so much and i really love those two girls. dad and amy are together all the time but they’re not “dating”. i know they are, just amy’s kids are young and wouldn’t understand. i know they’ll tell me when they’re ready. i also watched all of hunter x hunter and loved it. rewatched neon genesis evangelion, too, and loved it. i can’t remember when, but danielle handed marissa a letter for me to read. it was really intense and kind of perception-shattering. i texted her and we agreed to become at least non-hostile and chill with each other. i have really been meaning to see danielle irl and talk to her... but i keep forgetting and don’t have much time during the semester. i feel bad but... i don’t know what else to say. i reached out to her in december but was left on read. that was my fault, as i hadn’t responded to her in months. it’s better than what it was, to say the least. 

[august 2019] golden year baby ! just kidding my golden year was whenever i turned nineteen. anyways august is pretty chill. i started my senior year and took entomology. i loved that class so much and had it with carter. i really love the people in my field and i am going to miss them so much. love the biology goons. i also found out from my doctor i am allergic to most alcohols after i had an allergic reaction on my 21st and went to the doctors. i have a pretty severe intolerance. also started playing dragon age again. i don’t really talk to mom at all. my maternal grandfather, cliff, who i have never met/spoken to, has a relationship with my sister ashlee and was at my nephew’s first birthday party. cliff met my brothers and i and was very kind to us. however, i love my aunt shanna with my whole heart and she doesn’t like him at all. there was a very clear and obvious divide of my mom’s sisters and family, like jordan, kenadee, brettney, nana, and my grandfather’s family, like his other children and their spouses. it was all very difficult. i know my grandfather doesn’t have much time left in this world, but he still was rude and treated the family who HAS been there like shit. i know my mom cut my grandfather out, but i am inclined to side with my aunt because she knows best. however, she didn’t pull me aside at the birthday party and tell me not to believe a thing cliff says. cliff, however, did that. told me to believe what nana says and that it was all in the past. that rubbed me the wrong way. i still don’t know what to think about that situation. 

[september 2019] just school and work still, nothing crazy. mammalogy trips, entomology trips, school is really really fun and a lot of work but i love it so much! oh, and carter got me a bernie2020 magnet for my birthday. 

[october 2019] i saw the band cigarettes after sex. they were really awesome. i broke my glasses. i went to ren fest. nathan was creepy. i saw my mom and my aunt brenna at toby’s marching band game. dad, ash, and bentley were there. it was awkward and i didn’t try talking to my mom. a few months prior i kind of ripped into her on messenger and tried to tell her that i wanted a relationship but she had to acknowledge that what she did in the past was wrong (and i told her exactly what she did wrong, and i had talked about this with my siblings and dad, who agreed) and how she could fix it and how i still wanted her in my life. and she refused to acknowledge this. i kind of broke down over it because i realized my mom was never ever ever going to change and it broke me. anyways, i saw her at the game and i didn’t talk to her and answered her questions with as much grace as i could manage. that’s all. she lives in olathe now. that guy and her broke up. toby lives with dad full time now. dad has a good job and bartends part time at top golf. 

[november 2019] there was a praying mantis on my aloe plant! she laid an ootheca. it should hatch any day now :)i went to a deer aging check station. i slept in a bath tub. had some good conservations with my sister. we also had kady’s bridal shower. kaycee’s house is amazing and so is kaycee! i wish she lived closer. 

[december 2019] kady got married! it was a really beautiful reception. i finished my semester with all As and Bs! entomology was really hard, but i got a B in there! most people in ento got Cs or Ds so i did really well :) we started playing left for dead again 

[january 2020] kady is on her honeymoon. marissa and i watched midsommar on new years eve. i started my new classes. i am taking herpetology and paleontology and local flora. i also TA for plant phys and am doing research with dr. barta! life was pretty good. oh, i tried getting glass animals tickets, but they sold out, so i was really bummed :///

[february 2020] chiefs won the superbowl, played dragon age, went to class. i spend a lot of time with amanda and love her so much. i also got my resume together! waiting to hear back so i can start applying for jobs.

[march 2020] it’s the current month. it’s been a wild month because of the virus. i was supposed to find a place to live by may and a job this month but the virus has made that pretty much impossible. my dad has been reassuring but also not at the same time. it will all work out. i voted for bernie in the primaries. i have become extremely socialist in my views. right now, i am really into NGE and jojo’s bizarre adventure and i am listening to a lot of the kinks. jyro turned 11 this month. 11! he’s getting so old. i hope i can find a place to live but i need to find a job first. it’s a stressful time. hopefully i won’t get the virus but... we will see. also, i’ll try to keep this updated. maybe monthly! 

see ya xox

lex

[rosecolored-gay]

All zeeeee questions

Yooo, thanks anon!1: Let’s start with a tricky one; what is the real reason you are confused right now? - Umm, honestly I gave up on feelings, now I'm just kinda chilling so, no more confusion.2: Do you ever get “good morning” texts from anyone? - Depends on the day3: If your significant other smoked pot, would you care? - as long as it wasn't like an everyday thing, it wouldn't bother me too much. 4: Do you find it easy to trust others? - I don't really trust easily, but I'm good at making it seem like I'm telling someone everything while only telling them a little. I only tell like 3 people literally everything.5: What were you doing at 11PM last night? - Watching Gossip Girl6: You’re drunk and lost walking down the road; who is with you? - Either Abe or Caitlin, definitely.7: What would you do if you found out you had been cheated on? - I'd be pissed and hurt, but there's not much you can do about it. What would suck would be wondering why you weren't good enough. 8: Are you close with your dad? - Eh, sorta. I think the fact that I'm gay really keeps me from connecting with my parents, but my dad is better about it. 9: I bet you kissed someone last night, right? - Haha nope. 10: What are you listening to? - Knuckles by Moose Blood 11: You can only drink ONE liquid for the rest of your life - what is it? - Water; you can always flavor it. 12: Do you like hickeys? - I love them, totally love them. Just don't make them obvious all over the neck, bc then it looks bad. 13: What time do you go to bed? - Either super early/a reasonable time or like 4am14: Is there someone who continuously lets you down? - Until recently, yes there was. But I'm finally done with them. 15: Can you text as quickly with one hand as you do both? - I have small hands so if I text with one hand it takes me forever :(16: Do you always answer your texts? - Almost always. If I don't there's got to be a reason for it. No one ever texts me though lol.17: Do you hate the person you fell the hardest for?- Honestly I don't hate them for me falling for them, but I have some hatred for what they put me through for so long. 18: When was the last time you talked to one of your best friends? - Pretty sure I was snap chatting Caitlin this morning. I talked to Abe yesterday for like 3 seconds. 19: Is there someone that makes you happy every time you see them? - Definitely Abe or Caitlin. They're my 2 favorite people who can always put a smile on my face.20: What was your last thought before you went to bed last night? - "This is the cutest video ever, I'm glad I was recording this"21: Is anyone else in the room with you? - Nope, I'm in bed22: Do you believe what goes around comes around? - Yes23: Were you happier four months ago than you are now? - HAHAHA NO. Oh god, I was a miserable, heartbroken mess 4 months ago. Honest to god, I would cry at least 2x a day after what I was going through.24: Is there someone you wish you could fix things with? - For a while, honestly I wanted to fix things with someone, but they want nothing to do with me, and I think it's for the best. 25: In the past week, have you cried? - Yeah, but it's because of Mother Nature haha. 26: What colour is the shirt you are wearing? - Faded red.27: Do people ever call you by your last name? - Sometimes, a couple of people I went to high school with. 28: Is anyone ignoring you right now? - Nah.29: Do you have a best friend? - Yes! I have one that I've been friends with since I was 3 (Brandi), and then two other ones that are the most important people to me; Abe and Caitlin.30: Would it be hard seeing someone else kiss the last person you kissed? - I hate this question, because yes it would probably kill me inside, but they hurt me so badly that it would be a weird feeling.31: Who was your last call/text message from? - My last text was from Reshma, my last call was from Abe.32: Are you mad at anyone? - My manager.33: Have you ever kissed someone older than you? - Yes34: How old will the last person you kissed be on his/her next birthday? - She'll be 19.35: How many more days until your birthday? - 21 DAYSSSS!!!! Unless I counted wrong lol.36: Do you have any summer plans yet? - Well, I work Sundays - Thursdays, and then Fridays and Saturdays I go out with my faves. My Fridays are literally reserved for Abe.37: Do you have any good friends of the opposite sex? - Yes, only like 3 though. Kevin, Jimmy, and Fred. 38: Are you keeping anything from your best friend(s) now? - Yeah, but it's for a good reason. 39: Do you have a secret that you’ve never told anyone? - Mhm.40: Have you ever regretted kissing someone? - Yes. 41: Do you think age matters in relationships? - Depends on how large of an age gap we're talking here. 42: Are you available? - in what sense??? I'm single if that counts.43: How many people have you had real, strong feelings for since high school ended? - 2. One ended in a mess, and this one probably will too. Oh well.44: If you had to get a piercing (not ears), what would you get? - I already have my nose, which is the only one I want. 45: Do you believe exes can be friends? - I think it really depends on how the relationship ended and the circumstances.46: Do you regret anything? - Yes.47: Honestly, what’s on your mind right now? - Tomorrow night.48: Did you ever lose a best friend? - Yeah, but it was more of like we grew apart.49: Was your last kiss a mistake? - Yes.50: Why aren’t you pursuing the person you like? - It's so complicated oh my goodness. It'll just end badly if I try anything, so I'm just going with the flow. If it happens, it happens.51: Has the last person you kissed ever seen you cry? - Yeah, we dated for 2 years so.52: Do you still talk with the person you LAST kissed? - Hahaha no.53: What was the last thing you ate? - A hotdog. 54: Did you get any compliments today? - I got a bunch of compliments on my haircut and eyebrows at work today. 😊55: Where are you going on your next vacation? - Hopefully somewhere fun. 56: Do you own anything from other countries? - Yeah, I have some souvenirs from Greece, Italy, and Turkey.57: Are most of your friend guys or girls? - Girls. 58: Where have you lived most of your life? - Florida 🙄59: When was the last time you took a long drive? - I mean every Friday I drive like an hour to see Abe. But like super long? I drove to Georgia in February. 60: Have you ever played Spin the Bottle? - in middle school.61: Have you ever TPd someone’s house? - nah.62: Who do you text the most? - I think Abe over text, but I mostly use Snapchat with Alexa.63: What was the last movie you saw? - Hush. It was fucking creepy. 64: What’s preventing your current boyfriend/girlfriend from going back to their ex? - I don't have a current anyone.65: How many boyfriends/girlfriends did you have in 2011? - I was like 14, fuck if I know.66: Is the last person you kissed younger than you? - Yeah, by a year and 3 months.67: Do you curse around your parents? - All the time, its a horrible habit I have.68: Are you happy with where you live? - I'll be happier when I move out with my fave person next year, let's just say that.69: Picture of yourself? - If anyone actually reads these, send me a "anon" and I'll post one. 70: Are you a monogamous person or do you believe in open-ended relationships? - Monogamous.71: Have you ever been dumped? - Yeah, it was a shitty feeling.72: What do you most like about making out? - Idk, it's just nice. 73: Have you ever casually made out with someone who you weren’t seriously involved with? - Hah yeah. It was a disaster though, because I ended up liking her.74: When you kiss someone for the first time, is it usually you who initiates it or the other? - I'm a wimp unless I know you like me. If I know you like me, I'll initiate it. Otherwise you'll have to kiss me. 75: What part of a person’s body do you find most attractive? - Shit, I love a good smile and pretty eyes.76: Who was the last person you talked to last night before you went to bed? - Last night?? Uh, I think I was snapping Alexa. 77: Had sex with someone you knew less than an hour? - Nope.78: Had sex with someone you didn’t know their name? - Nope.79: What makes your heart flutter and brings a big cheesy smile to your face? - The cutest videos I've ever taken oops. 80: Would you get involved with someone if they had a child already? - Yeah, I don't think I would let that stop me. As long as there was nothing between them and the other person still in that sense. 81: Has someone who had a crush on you ever confessed to you? - Yeah. This kid I work with asked me out like 3 times but I keep telling him no haha. I'm nice about it of course, but still.82: Do you tell a lot of people when you have a crush? - Sometimes I will, but I won't say who. 83: Do you miss your last sweetie? - I miss the memories, not the person anymore.84: Last time you slow danced with someone? - As a joke like a month or so ago. For real, at least a year ago. 85: Have you ever ‘dated’ someone you’ve never met? - No86: How can I win your heart? - I literally doubt anyone's reading these hahahaha. But.. just talk to me honestly. I love sarcasm, horrible jokes, music. Talk to me about stupid things, and just be real. 87: What is your astrological sign? - My sign has a horrible reputation, but I'm a Gemini. 88: What were you doing last night at 12 AM? - Sleeping89: Do you cook? - I can, yes. But I only cook for special people. 90: Have you ever gotten back in touch with an old flame after a time of more than 3 months of no communication? - Yeah. 91: If you’re single right now, do you wish you were in a relationship? - I am single. I think if it was with the right person I'd want it.92: Do you prefer to date various people or do you pretty much fall into monogamous relationships quickly? - Monogamous93: What physical traits do you look for in a potential interest? - Idk honestly. 94: Name four things that you wish you had! - Money for more tattoos. - Tickets to see Hayley Kiyoko. - A rope necklace with like something cool on it. - Better shoes with more support lol.95: Are you a player? - No, but I'm a huge flirt. I'm loyal as hell when I'm with someone, but if im single, im a huge flirt. 96: Have you ever kissed 2 people in one day? - Yes, but it was during a game of truth or dare.97: Are you a tease? - I can be.98: Ever meet anyone you met on Tumblr? - I don't think so.99: Have you ever been deeply in love with someone? - Yeah, it fucked me up.100: Anybody on Tumblr that you’d go on a date with? - Yes, but I'm not giving names.101: Hugs or Kisses? - Depends honestly.102: Are you too shy to ask someone out? - Haha yes. I'm a huge flirt but unless you outright tell me you like me, I won't ask you out in fear of rejection. 103: The first thing you notice about the opposite sex? - Smile I guess. 104: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you babe? - I LOVE ITTTTT105: If a sexy person was pursuing you, but you knew he/she was in relationship, would you go for it? - Nah, I don't do homewrecking. One thing that's important to remember though. If someone is willing to cheat with you, they'll cheat on you.106: Do you flirt a lot? - I am a HUGE flirt. Honestly, we could be friends and not be anything romantically ever and I'd still flirt with you by accident. 107: Your last kiss? - My ex.108: Have you kissed more than 5 people since the start of 2012? - Yes109: Have you kissed anyone in the past month? - I think it's been about a month now.110: If you could kiss anyone who would it be? - Someone...111: Do you know who you’ll kiss next? - I have no clue. 112: Does someone like you currently? - If you do, please step forward haha.113: Do you currently have feelings for anyone? - Yeah, but I'm currently just pushing it under the rug.114: Do you like to be in serious relationships or just flings? - I like serious stuff. If I feel it won't be serious, I will say something.115: Ever made out with just a friend? - Hahahaahhaha116: Are you happier single or in a relationship? - Depends.117: Your own question that you want me to answer. Just write it.- Okayyyy