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tan-ge-rine · 6 years

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I would write about how hurt I was on this stupid page. About how I still had love in my heart for you despite all of that. About how much I cared. You completely broke me with no remorse and I still cared. I still loved you. I wanted you to have a good life. I still wanted you to be happy. Despite everything else.

People like you don’t deserve people like me. It’s as simple as that. And I am so glad that I finally realized that. You’re actually really evil and selfish and abusive and manipulative. You’re a horrible human being. I don't hope that you’ll get better or learn from your mistakes. I don’t care if you do. It’s already a cemented fact that you don’t learn, you don't take ownership or responsibility for your actions; you don't care about the wellbeing of others.You don't give a shit about anyone else other than yourself.

I can see right through you.

You’re fake. You try too hard. I can see your feeble attempt at being friend worthy and approachable on twitter by only ever posting vague, weird shit that’s “relatable” and completely not your character. Or how you pretend to care about social justice issues but only when they're talked about by everyone else. Or how your art is not even remotely creative, but stolen subject matter and content and style because you don't have the substance or capacity to come up with anything yourself. Or how you leech onto everyones personalities because you are a psychopath and don't have any positive qualities to you. All of these things you pretend to like are just attempts at being interesting and worth talking to. You’re not.

You're weird. You're fake. You're a narcissist. You're abusive. You’re pretentious. You're gross. You’re manipulative. You hurt everyone.

And yet you still think you’re better than everyone else.

Doesn’t it ever get tiring, always putting up a front? Always hurting people? Never admitting your wrongs? Avoiding everything uncomfortable?

You’re a piece of shit and I deserved better since the beginning.

I deserved more than two sentences and a “gbye.”

I deserved more than being put off to the side after doing so fucking much for you.

I deserved a real apology for EVERYTHING you did.

I deserved more than putting myself through your bullshit because I thought I loved you.

I deserved better.

I am so fucking happy now. I am so glad I know my worth. I am so glad I found people who do things that you said were “too much.” I never asked for too much. I never asked for a lot. I settled for you. And I am so glad that I don't settle anymore.

Yeah, so I just wanted to say that I actually really hate you and I am comfortable with that. I hate the person you've become. I hate who you always were. I hate that I didn't see that the first day I talked to you. But now I do.

I don't care about you. I don't care what happens to you. You proved to me that you don't change and that was enough for me to finally realize that I spent too much time and energy loving you while you emotionally fucked with my head for over a year.

I am finally fucking free. I’m happy. And you have nothing to do with it.

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