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i think it’s amazing that despite everything life has thrown at you, you’re still here

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I was new, not known, not accustomed to conversations taken place here.

I was new, I was hopeful, I'd get to laugh, talk, share here.

Til I was here and they were there, an already molded group I said to myself.

But then they were new, not known, not accustomed to conversations taken place here.

They were new, they were hopeful, they got to laugh, talk, share here.

They were there and I was still just here.

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Coming from a dysfunctional family into a secure family is wild business, honestly.

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To be loved in one's own eternity is something so eternal and profound.

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🌾 You are allowed to unlearn parts of you that do not align with who you are now 🌾

💌 You are allowed to re-evaluate your beliefs

🍃 You are allowed to change your mind

🦋 You are allowed to redefine your identity

☀️ You are allowed to let go of behaviors and habits that hinder your growth

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Ldr literally feel like heartbreak everytime you have to leave

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Some family are looking for the cat in my brothers room but the cats just in my room hiding like 😗✌️ and honestly same

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*wakes up* hmm i wonder which repressed memory i’ll remember today

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I was the youngest trying to carry everyone else, being the rock, the cord keeping everyone together and now here I am with the aftermath, the damage and I only have me to collect myself.

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I'm well to familiar with the hands of neglect.

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There really is so much love in this world and the small things.

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reminder that good memories with your parent/parents doesn’t make up for all the bad things they did.

just because they comforted you after you fell out of a swing and hurt your knees doesn’t mean they didn’t neglect and abuse you in other ways.

you still have every right to be mad.

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My love, if I could stay wrapped in your warm embrace with you hands intertwined mine, I'd stay there forever.

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I've realised I really do offer something special to the people I meet in my lifetime.

I offer them acceptance, a safe place, I truly see them and hang on to no judgements, letting them just be. I care deeply and offer them a place, a person they didn't think was possible/existed, somewhere to let the weights drop from their shoulders, to talk about their heavy heart and crowded mind, giving them an open ear, a new view, space, advice and comfort. Something they should expect, something they needed.

Even if they don't end up sticking around, I'm glad I got to be that, even if I don't fully understand the significance. Hopefully they take it with them, hopefully it brightens their experience with others, their outlook, makes them feel warmer somehow, let's them believe they deserve it and know there's so much love to experience in connections.

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I never used to tell people my middle name when I was younger (literally made it a big secret) and if that isn't one of the most Scorpio moon things I could've done-

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I've came to the realisation recently that there are people out there that when they feel okay, that feeling actually lasts for awhile, maybe even the whole day unchanging.

They don't go through more than a few emotions in a day.

Mine switch often enough I thought it was 'normal' tho now I'm not sure it is...

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Maybe I just want someone to want to spend time with me, not just physically, like over calls and gaming together but I just don't always want to be the one to ask.