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you're not stuck. it's not over. you can claw yourself out again and again. find strength in yourself. find strength in others whom you can trust. the fight isn't over until you're dead.

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Ruth Madievsky, All-Night Pharmacy // Suzanne Scanlon, Promising Young Women // Robin Roe, A List of Cages // Hayao Miyazaki, Kiki's Delivery Service // Susan Sontag, As Consciousness is Harnessed to Flesh: Journals and Notebooks, 1964-1980 // D. H. Lawrence, The Plumbed Serpent // Jennifer S. Cheng, "So We Must Meet Apart" // Haruki Murakami, Sputnik Sweetheart // Alice Oseman, Radio Silence // Franz Kafka, Letters to Felice

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"smalltalk" is a doorway. we need doorways. we need not to linger in them forever. small & big-talks and all in between have their place; many rightful complaints regarding the prevalence of smalltalk are really complaints about being trapped in the threshold when we desperately want to let & be let in.

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A triangle is a perfect shape, all equal angles, all equal sides, symmetrical and aesthetically pleasing.

It is safety and it is where people go to disappear. A guard with his knife on all sides and unity to be rivalled.

A hollow center where I threw my hat and forgot to attach myself to it. I am still here violently waving. My arms are gone it is only my heart that carries on.

Not fair, Not fair, Not fair.

Where is love destined to bloom? Never in a heart too busy waving at a guard ready to kill at the slightest touch.

Where is love destined to reside? Always in a heart waving to finally enter place where hats are thrown.

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الفنان مسعود كشميري - سكوت غير محسوس (٢٠٢٣)

Artist Masoud Kashmiri - Intangible Silence (2023)

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How does one fall in love?

How do you find someone to love?

I had a dream- i was holding hands with someone and it was so nice 🥹🥲

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Had a presentation today and i did sort of well 💖

Reblog this with something that you accomplished today and are proud of! You deserve to be proud of yourself. It can be anything, from taking out cat litter to getting out of bed to eating breakfast.

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Recently read “The Lonely Hearts Hotel” by Heather O’Neill and it was painful. I cried and my heart hurt. The wasn’t a happy ending but more of a bittersweet- “I’m glad things worked out this way” -ending. One of the themes in the book was addiction and I don’t know anyone dealing with it near me or anyone who has but the theme really stood out to me. For one: it was so heartbreaking because one of the main character deals with it after being kicked out of this rich person’s house he was living in. Reading about it broke a part of me because then you realize that it is so many people’s reality. To live with it and to want to stop but not being able to.

There was a part where his wife tells him not to come back if he gives in to the urge and she tries to stop him from leaving and the both fight and he doesn’t leave, and its inexplicable how painful the situation was to read. And to think so many people have lived through these times and it makes their journey out of addiction so much more impactful because you realize how hard, how much self restraint and dedication one would require. It’s never just a montage of someone, it’s life and it’s so much more gut wrenching when you come to understand that.

I have such a newfound respect for people and their families going through such extreme situations because it takes so much strength. I cried at the end because he does give in and passes away, and my brain can’t come to terms with the fact that this is also real for so many people.

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For later

YALL i just finished reading "emily wildes encyclopedia of faeries" and i loved it and it really reminded me of "howl's moving castle" by diana wynne-jones. especially the love interest. nothing beats an egomaniac charming magical long haired blonde man. howl + wendell are such twinsies and i am LOOKING FOR MORE FANTASY/FICTION ROMANCE featuring love interests like them!!!!!! pleasepleasepleaseplease PLEASE send reccs of any similar books that come to mind!!! 😊😊🙏🙏

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if this goddamn post gets 5k notes I’ll ask my mom to send me to the art school I want to go to but I’m too scared to ask

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Moon, tell me if I could Send up my heart to you? So, when I die, which I must do Could it shine down here with you?

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so embarrassing when i forget im checking someone's blog and i start scrolling through and liking and reblogging shit as if it's just my dash. it feels like wandering into someone else's apartment and not noticing and making myself lunch

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September will be full of happiness

September will be full of blessings

September will be full of growth

September will be full of surprises

September will be full of positivity

September will be full of love

September will be full of kindness