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[tilskkarishma]

A CALL TO THE COMMUNITY: This Space Deserves Better!

Let's be honest: this place feels dead. Not only because people lost interest in roleplay, but also because the noise of some troublemakers got too loud.

But I still believe in this space and that is why I spend hours creating things that could bring us back together. Not because I have to. But because I care! ♥

We came here to create, to connect, and to escape. To build worlds together and tell stories that mean something and not to recreate real-life toxicity in a space that should feel safe!

The real world is already heavy. Why make this one worse?

It’s time to shift the tone towards respect, creativity, and fun. This space should be a safe haven for all of us, not a breeding ground for conflict, fueled by psychos/bullies and sustained by attention. And yes drama thrives on attention. Let’s starve it. Let’s shut the door and move forward!

This community has so much more to offer than recycled chaos!

I invite everyone (no matter if you're new or old, silent or active) to remember why we came here in the first place! ♥

→ So, let's leave the drama behind. Let's build, write, share, laugh. Let's prove that kindness, imagination, and joy are louder than any drama.

If you feel the same → you're not alone. Let's do this together because:

EVERYONE HERE MATTERS AND EVERYONE CAN MAKE A DIFFERENCE!

And I don't just want to talk about change:

If anyone's interested in being part of future missions I'm planning, reach out!

I'd love to include more characters, locations, and ideas to bring more life and connection into the world we're building.

After all, we all live in the same city: @bsd-yokohama ;)

[tilskkarishma]

THEY HAD THEIR NOISE – I'M ENDING THE DRAMA CYCLE NOW!

From now on, anyone who continues stirring up drama, spreading gossip, or obsessing over me in any form will be blocked without comment.

I do not owe anyone an explanation. I am not here for witch hunts, gossip, or to satisfy people's need to feel righteous by twisting things.

I am here to create, have fun and roleplay!

And to those who are so obsessed with me (please seek help!) that they spend their time digging through old content, making false connections (like mixing up blogs, timelines, what I said, etc.), or spinning conspiracies:

What have YOU actually done for this community?

I've spent hours building the @bsd-rp-masterlist, @bsd-bdays blog, @join-the-pm blog, etc.. I created the @bsd-yokohama blog with locations, missions, and events to bring energy and creativity into our space. Also right now I work on a video puzzle game. So, I want to offer structure and effort for those who care about RP.

And you? Constantly targeting/bullying only for the cause of drama. Nothing positive ever came. Maybe don't spend time in looking like a psycho killer who stalks and instead create something FOR the community!

Let me be clear: The community feels so broken because of people who thrive on chaos and not because of the ones trying to build something.

SO HERE IS HOW I'LL HANDLE IT FROM NOW ON: → I will not respond to any toxic nonsense anymore → I will not explain, because: do not feed the troll → I will block toxic people and their other tons of fake accounts...

The stage is no longer yours! I won't give anymore energy to parasites. Because this shit ruins the whole community and I want to nurture it unlike some troublemakers here.

So can we PLEASE go back to normal? I want to keep focusing on those who came here to create, collaborate, and roleplay and not those who feed on conflict. ♥

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I will not engage with individuals who take my posts out of context, fabricate accusations, and continue to involve themselves in my life despite being blocked.

There are multiple narratives being falsely merged here — different blogs, different contexts, different timelines. I do not tolerate being misrepresented, nor do I owe anyone an explanation beyond this.

I have no interest in continuing any form of contact, directly or indirectly.

Do your drama somewhere else.

Bye + I block you.

Can someone please tell me why tumblr is so damn toxic sometimes? -.-

I thought: "Hey, I'll try to rp a little today, even though I actually don’t have time or energy." And then I got a message from someone who told me before I went to Japan how sorry she was about everything, now accusing me of having generated the text I wrote after returning from my trip?

Seriously?

What's next, that I faked my photos of Japan too? Oh wait I have videos too. But maybe this is also fake, or what?

That text was deeply personal (of course it is after a damn broken relationship after 5 years and visiting the graves of the people I love, etc.)! It expressed what I felt after coming back (which took me anyway ages) and included my updated boundaries. (Because those new rules were part of it, I decided to block her. I have enough of this kind of behaviour!)

Honestly, things like this make it harder and harder for me to return and to stay. It's exhausting. And it hurts. Also it makes everything feel unsafe. And I'm tired of it. I will never understand why it's always like this here. -.-

To make it clear: Yes, I may have sounded cheesy, but Japan REALLY changed me. I felt a connection I've never felt before. So if my words sound fake to you - I'm sorry?

I'm even planning to return in two years with @ochitsubaki. I've already built a savings plan with excel sheets, goals, and everything. That trip means something to me. It's not just a vacation, it's a personal mission!

So yeah... I wish I could just ONCE post something positive here. But either I get scammed or insulted… -.-

Still, to end this on a somewhat brighter note, here's a photo of me at Hirotsu's grave (because it's his birthday today and good luck faking that, considering there's only one photo online, and even that one shows the wrong stone). I truly hope I'll be able to visit it again one day with @ochitsubaki. ♥

And much love to the less people here who are not utterly psychos! 😘

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Now I just read this and honestly, this is next level! If this woman isn't projecting, then I really don't know anymore. This is by the way the person who made me write the post in the first place!

So the same person who accused me of using AI to write my texts (she should see how much I write by hand every day, that's way more than what I post here!), is now openly admitting that she herself used generated content? Is someone seriously projecting their own behaviour onto others here? -.-

And why was I always the one being treated like shit by her? I never messaged her. I never initiated contact. It was always her.

It all started when SHE inserted herself (uninvited!) into a roleplay between me and @offsetthedeath and then started hunting me down! She went off on me, calling me disgusting, a p3do and sick because I do agere. That's something I'm already extremely insecure about, and I've only ever done it with @offsetthedeath and never with anyone else. And I don't remember anyone asking for her opinion, and yet she decided to throw it at me anyway. She bullied me so much that I backed out entirely back then, because this is already a very painful subject for me, and it took a lot for me to open up in the first place.

Then she sent me a long so-called apology (which I sadly no longer have, because I blocked her now, because of my new rules). But that "apology" didn't feel sincere at all. It read more like: "Yeah, forgive me already. Sure, I hurt you, but that's just how I am." I didn't reply because it made me even angrier and also because it was before I went to Japan.

By the way, after I had stepped back, I saw her roleplaying agere herself as 15fukuchi with @fukuzawa-armeddaddyagency. I couldn't believe my eyes! Like I said, I was then in Japan and afterwards drowning in work (still am and today was another shit day at work...), @strawberrywhosobbed showed me that this woman actually has disturbing fantasies of her own! She just wanted to tear me down to clear the space for her own twisted crap. I mean... WHAT. THE. HELL?

And one more thing: as far as I know, this woman is not underage, even though she constantly uses that as an excuse card. From what I've gathered, she lives in a country right next to mine and is in her twenties. Though I can't prove it, so I'll state it here as a personal assumption (especially since I've blocked her and honestly have zero interest in dealing with this toxic nonsense anymore).

In any case, I sincerely hope this is the end of that chapter!

And to end this also with a positive message: I work on a mission for the yokohama blog again! I know the community is dead, but still want to do something for it.

Much love AND PLEASE NO MORE DRAMA! T.T

(p.s. had to block her again now, that is why this comes double -.-)

Can someone please tell me why tumblr is so damn toxic sometimes? -.-

I thought: "Hey, I'll try to rp a little today, even though I actually don’t have time or energy." And then I got a message from someone who told me before I went to Japan how sorry she was about everything, now accusing me of having generated the text I wrote after returning from my trip?

Seriously?

What's next, that I faked my photos of Japan too? Oh wait I have videos too. But maybe this is also fake, or what?

That text was deeply personal (of course it is after a damn broken relationship after 5 years and visiting the graves of the people I love, etc.)! It expressed what I felt after coming back (which took me anyway ages) and included my updated boundaries. (Because those new rules were part of it, I decided to block her. I have enough of this kind of behaviour!)

Honestly, things like this make it harder and harder for me to return and to stay. It's exhausting. And it hurts. Also it makes everything feel unsafe. And I'm tired of it. I will never understand why it's always like this here. -.-

To make it clear: Yes, I may have sounded cheesy, but Japan REALLY changed me. I felt a connection I've never felt before. So if my words sound fake to you - I'm sorry?

I'm even planning to return in two years with @ochitsubaki. I've already built a savings plan with excel sheets, goals, and everything. That trip means something to me. It's not just a vacation, it's a personal mission!

So yeah... I wish I could just ONCE post something positive here. But either I get scammed or insulted… -.-

Still, to end this on a somewhat brighter note, here's a photo of me at Hirotsu's grave (because it's his birthday today and good luck faking that, considering there's only one photo online, and even that one shows the wrong stone). I truly hope I'll be able to visit it again one day with @ochitsubaki. ♥

And much love to the less people here who are not utterly psychos! 😘

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1. HINT!

And damn I feel so stupid xD

But hey I wanted to make this so I just do it. ^^;

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New Yokohama mission! :D

A poetic, story-driven puzzle event taking place across YouTube and Tumblr! :D

You can uncover the truth behind a series of cryptic haikus delivered by fictional characters (yes I will cosplay... send help xD). Each haiku (it will be 8 I guess) hides part of a secret message! ;)

No need to switch platforms – join from where you are! :D

And because you read this on tumblr: use it for rp! ♥

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Happy birthday Hirotsu! 🎉

Today we honour the birth of Hirotsu Ryūrō: a man whose presence echoes far beyond the pages he once filled.

Whether you know him through literature or through Bungo Stray Dogs, he remains a symbol of elegance, loyalty, and quiet strength. To me, Hirotsu represents calm in chaos, dignity in despair. He inspires me to keep creating, even when the world feels heavy.

I'll be lighting incense for him today - a small offering, a quiet moment of remembrance. If you feel connected to him too (even just a little) I invite you to join me. :D

Let's remember the ones who shaped us, even from afar. 🌸

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This space is dedicated to fun and creativity, and everyone is invited to participate. However, I want to emphasize that I do not tolerate any form of hate! This means that everyone is welcome. I don’t care about your identity, beliefs, or background.

What matters is that you are here to enjoy and contribute. As long as you don't try to impose your beliefs on me, we will have no issues.

(Especially since I use this during my limited free time, I'm not interested in drama!)

Keep in mind that I am an adult. If you have a problem with it, please leave and save us both time. Also no dms plz. Thanks.

Anyway, let's keep this community friendly and supportive! 🌈💖

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I ♥ LaCroix although I am Tremere (my character):

I am a practitioner of magic and embrace the path of Luciferianism. (At the moment I kinda pause, because I still feel blessed from shinto)

I love Yu-Gi-Oh! and these (Bakura and Seto) were the first characters I simped for in my life:

Currently, I'm simping for these two (Hirotsu and Mori):

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I am from Austria (not Australia!).

My mother language is German and my English is not that good.

But hey, I try my best! ^^;

I am really strange sometimes.

Often I get too deep into things and then it is like an addiction.

I love daydreams and I think I was never awake.

I work a full-time-job and have many, many projects (youtube, soundcloud, etc.). If I do not answer that quick it is because I have a stressful real life (no need to force contact!) I am not a person who ghosts people, but keep in mind that I ignore most dms because it's mostly like spam for me and do not wish to get contacted this way, because too many people used it as their personal litter box...

I also drew much when I was younger. But sadly I don't find time anymore for it. :(

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Oh sadly I smell horrible but I am very sensitive to smell. I also hate smoke (sry Hitotsu). But yeah when I was in america everything was kinda too much. But like I said I am super sensitive. And I love our deos which do just kill the bad smell without covering it. Sadly too many people here still use one with vanilla or stuff like that. I could puke, because it is horrible for me. XD

And I have no idea if he liked beer and usually I never drink during the week but I will drink one for him (I saw they do in japan at the graves so why not? ^^)

Since someone asked about scents earlier, I think this fits the theme: I lit an incense stick I got from a japanese temple in memory of Mori's death anniversary. (Haha it is almost invisible because of my wallpaper xD)

OOOOHHH THAT'S SO COOL and don't worry about the wallpaper LMAO

Feel free to talk about the smell of that incense (?)

Also your additions are always appreciated, thank you my friend <3333

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As a child I started reading and writing very early and was always fascinated by script and words. I used to read a lot, but sadly that faded more and more as I grew older, because everyday life became very stressful and harsh. I still read, but unfortunately I often fall asleep while doing so or notice that I have trouble concentrating. That is also because my work consists of reading and writing. Since I work for the justice system, I obviously have to be very precise.

I also learned a few writing systems because I find it interesting. Now that the desire to properly learn Japanese has become stronger in me, so I can one day translate works into German, the way Mori Ōgai translated German works into Japanese, it helps that I have been able to read katakana, hiragana and some kanji for a long time already. On my skin I have German gothic script, Tibetan Sanskrit and Cyrillic tattooed, and in general, most of my tattoos are words and symbols.

My grandmother always thought that I would one day become an actress or a writer. I have always written a lot, but most of it was never published (and I still do not intend to publish it, because much of it is very personal and sadly the internet is a place where everyone only speaks English).

Still, I chose a Gō (Japanese pen name) for myself and opened a sideblog. I plan to go to the Japanese teahouse in my city every Friday to write haiku. It is a task that is supposed to ground me. Life wears me down a lot and since it is my goal to one day write in Japan (I know how stupid and almost impossible this dream is, but it gives me a direction) I want to allow myself this little taste of it.

The name "Haisō" is the Gō I write under. If one day I feel worthy enough, I will change it to another Gō I've already chosen. That name, and more about this project, can be found here:

As kids, my sister and I used to write fanfics together. Mostly about Yu-Gi-Oh! and One Piece. Most of those early writings are long gone, and what remains is in German and was written by teenagers. ^^;

But later, as an adult, I wrote a few fanfics (Maniggy, bsd) and other stuff in English. Some of them can be found here:

→ AO3

→ WATTPAD

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This smell is really heavy. But here in Europe you also use heavy smells for holy stuff like frankincense.

But as a witch and as a gothic I have millions of scents at home. I collect and burn them since I was a child, because my father let me decide which religion I want to choose and loved as a kid Hindu the most 😅

The smells I love the most: rose, lavender, sandalwood etc.

Japanese do not really wear parfumes. Me neither but when I went to the butler café I did because in my country it is to show you are female haha. I kinda stood out and I do not like that, because I hate myself and hate the idea of bothering people with my presence. 🙈

Maybe Mori liked the nice smell of green tea? 🍵

Since someone asked about scents earlier, I think this fits the theme: I lit an incense stick I got from a japanese temple in memory of Mori's death anniversary. (Haha it is almost invisible because of my wallpaper xD)

OOOOHHH THAT'S SO COOL and don't worry about the wallpaper LMAO

Feel free to talk about the smell of that incense (?)

Also your additions are always appreciated, thank you my friend <3333

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#003

Habe heute ein paar Haikus geschrieben:

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In Memory of Mori Ōgai – July 9th

Today marks the anniversary of Mori Ōgai's passing. A man whose life and words have left a deep mark on my own.

I will light incense for him. I will pray. And if fate allows, I hope to offer a sotoba in his honour two years from now (a wooden memorial board bearing his name, placed with care and reverence).

Mori lives on → in literature, in thought, and in the quiet hearts of those who remember.

Today, I am one of them.

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BSD:

My main RP blog:

Other Characters:

15!Chuuya: @leaderofthesheep

Elise: @cakesandchaos

Gin: @pm-assassin

Higuchi: @girlinmafia

Fyodor: @leaderofthedecayoftheangel

war!Mori: @leaderoftheinfantryunit356

Where I try to connect people:

Birthday Masterlist @bsd-bdays

General Masterlist (TELL ME AND I WILL ADD YOUR BLOG TOO!) @bsd-rp-masterlist

Mori's Orphanage BEAST! @moris-orphanage

Port Mafia blog @join-the-pm

Yokohama (mission) blog @bsd-yokohama

For people who annoy me because they believe still the worst of Mori, read this first:

P.S.: I also said from the very beginning that it is obvious that Tanizaki and Naomi are not really siblings. I got hate for it and now it is canon... ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

VtM:

Holiciana: @holya-the-tremere

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