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My mother asked me to die.

Trust me mom, I’ve been trying

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tumblr pr dukh bhoolne aati hu phir tum sabke dukh dekhkar khudke bhoole dukh bhi yaad aajate.

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i never knew what death meant until i came to know what loss meant. loss is such a short word yet the most deepest and wrenchful feeling someone could ever feel. when i was young i never thought i would fear loss i thought losing a toy aint much of a deal for me. was it? it was. its just i had people to hold me through it all. but now as i am growing i fear what will happen if i lost the people who held me? i fear loss.

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it's so pretty to watch people in love. to watch them bloom while talking about someone wo made their heart go weeee. like LEGIT I've seen "THE ROMANCES" (platonic romantic both).

•when she wrote a letter for him during his last year of his schooling

•when he envies each person who get to see her regularly cause he misses her laugh

•when she was the happiest just cause they walked sath baarish mein.

•when he asked for geography notes(which he already had)just to start thr conversation.

•when she posts chand k photos which he took

•when he wears her hairtie on his wrist

•when they kissed while playing sky.

•when she makes him feel healed

•when he held her bag

•when she said "yaaar uski ankhein uski hasi uski battein".

•when he added "things to do with v" apne notes mein

•and last jb wo bhag kar gai just to hug him.

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i hate romanticizing shit its eating me up.i hate living in my head i hate how ill leave everything just to live in the figment of my imagination how ill settle for it how i know this is the present past me was romanticizing and its nothing like what i romanticized but still ill rather romanticize the future. idek if i make sense BUT ITS ANNOYING ITS JUST STRAIGHT UP EATING MY YEARS.

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And one of the best paradoxes I've ever encountered ? People who can be seen sparkling like the finest of glitter in a crowded room are really the most hidden people you'll ever encounter. It's not like they don't want to be known, on the contrary there is a beastly hunger in those people. A hunger to be seen. People like those, who are battling with the desire to shine like the best of marble are the same people who have been scrubbed their entire life to be furnished in such a flawless way. While, there's a never quenching thirst to be understood, all others are going to see is the shiny outsides. People whose appetite to pretend is never satisfied as pretention brings love. People who are so flawed that they'll transform their shattered pieces into the most beautiful of statues just to be appreciated. People who so evidently crave to be loved every single day and yet people who are never really loved.

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love how tumblr is my safe place yk its going downhill when i log back to tumblr.

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is being happy during adulting just a myth?(im not even adult abhi)

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currently feeling v BEHENCHOD MA CHUDI PADI HAI

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nice personality disorder did your mom give it to you

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what do you mean by "why do you hate me sm?" SIR I WAS FLIRTING???

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v grateful jag ne cheena mujhse mujhe jo bhi laga pyaara cause mujhe toh duniya k sabse neech galeech ghinone log hi pyaare lagtey.

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Haye raam mujhe toh ye itna pasand bhi nhi tha JITNA ISKE LIYE ITNE SENTI POSTS LIKHDIYE😭😭

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rona hai aur marna hai k alawa koi constant nhi hai meri life mein.

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hate how I'll never be able to believe his "i loved her once, but you're the one i love now" cause oh boyI was there when you loved her, I was there when you wished the lips kissing her was yours, I was there when you took deep breaths cause you couldn't watch her with someone else, I was there when each verse written in your notes app called her out,I was there when you called her your noor, I was there when you told her you would "always" go back to her, I was there when you promised to wait for her, I was there. Cause I was the one siting with you all along wishing I was her.

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yk how in Tumblr when you unlike a post, the heart breaks into pieces, it looks so painful (THAT'S EXACTLY HOW I FEEL WHEN HE'S SITING WITH HER, THAT'S EXACTLY HOW I FEEL WHEN HE LAUGHS WITH HER THAT'S EXACTLY HOW I FEEL WHEN HE GIVES HER THE GAZE FULL OF LOVE.)

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usko ye koun samjhaye ab, uska jisne dil toda uski baatein har pal sunkar ek dil yahan bhi tut raha.