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Soukoku Week: Day 4 ー 21 cm / snow white

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soukoku week, day 4: 21 cm

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Soukoku Week: Day 6 ー “That time doesn’t exist.”

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Im begging you for help. 

This is my friend, he’s only 17 years old, 18 this July. He’s funny and kind and generous. He’s very smart and talented, and really cares about his friends and for others. Hes trapped. Trapped in an abusive home and with abusive parents. 

Things have always been bad, threats to be beaten, actually being beaten, constant sexist and transphobic bullshit. Everyday, almost every hour. My friend doesn’t get a break.He’s told how “disgusting” he looks, or how “unwanted” he is. Hes insulted for eating, for not eating. For how he dresses, how he talks, what he likes. If he ever found something he liked; drawing, writing, the computer, talking to friends, watching anime, it was taken away and insulted. He has no safe place, no support, no love. and today things got worse…..

His father has threatened to kill him

“Have you decided to die?? Then just go DIE?? Stop killing me everyday?? You better stay in the house and go to college and if you think you could run away with your friend and use their money or anything I wont be human, I’d cut you piece by piece.” His father, his own father, is now threatening to “bury” him.  "why the hell do you walk around this house like you’re dead?? Is this how you behave in a house?? What have we done to you so bad that you act like this? Did we hit and beat you up? Do you even know what true suffering is??” The answer is yes. They have hit him and beaten him up, many times. Yes he does know what suffering is, not only to be a  lgbt teenager in India in a unsupportive home. But also because abuse is as common as breathing for him. 

The last time I went to India the two of us tried to run away together and failed. We got caught. Im back in the states now trying to get a visa to return and I think they have turned off his wifi and blocked my number as of today. I have booked a ticket for July 4rd. His birthday. However I need your help. I need someone to talk to, to help me plan this out, to figure out what I should do. I need someone who can come with me to India, I need money, I need advice, he needs support.

Ive never met someone quite like him, he struggles everyday and despite it all, despite being told hes “better off dead”. Despite being called “worthless” and a “punishment”, despite the insults and the abuse. He loves his family and is pushing through it all for a bright future. We have struggled together on our own for so long. Its been over a year of trying to escape. We cant do this alone anymore. Please dont let him die. Not because of his father, or this world. 

Help me show him people care, that someone out there loves him and wants to see him smile. Help me bring him to a safe place where he can recover. Please. I couldn’t live without him. Dont let his life….or his hope slip away. 

Please. Save his life, save mine. His father has threatened twice to call the police on me and claims to “know everything you’re planning”. He doesn’t but his assumptions are way too close for comfort. Im all alone here. Please anything you can do literally anything. Help me. Help him. We are just kids, the world shouldn’t be so cruel. Hes all I have, please help me to save him.

My square cash can be found here:

My email is moonlightkaia@gmail.com

Please im me or send me a ask. 

My Go fund me is here

Please im begging you.

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29 Pictures to Love Nakahara Chuuya

Chuuya in all platforms

Manga Chuuya

Season 1 Anime Chuuya

Season 2 Anime Chuuya

OVA Chuuya

Dead Apple Film Chuuya

BSD Wan! Chuuya

BSD Mayoi Chuuya

Nendroid Chuuya

Chuuya of all ages

Kinder Chuuya-chan

15-year old Chuuya

16-year old Chuuya

22-year old Chuuya

Chuuya for all seasons 

Winter, Spring, Summer, Autumn

Real-Life Chuuya

Literary Master

Voice Actor Taniyama Kishou

Stage Actor Ueda Keisuke

Chuuya in AUs

High school Chuuya 

Chuunyaa

Bunny Chuuya

Chuuya in all days of his life

Megane Chuuya

Corrupted Chuuya

“I used Corruption because I trusted you” Chuuya

Drunk Chuuya

Pissed Chuuya

Blushing Chuuya

Crying Chuuya

Sleeping Chuuya

Rich girl Chuuya

Happy Chuuya

2018 April 29

HAPPIEST BIRTHDAY TO OUR MOST BELOVED CHARACTER, THE ONE AND ONLY NAKAHARA CHUUYA.

I wish you more screen time, but please do keep being extra even after becoming a main character now.  👍👍👏👏

And oh, who’s Dazai again? I only ship Chuuya x Happiness!  😂😂❤❤

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KING OF THE BEST ENTRANCES AWARD GOES TO….

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Ι am unsure of who I am anymore

Do I have the right to walk by your side?

All I know is that I am buried deep inside this darkness

No matter how hard I try I can’t escape it

I have been trapped into this abyss where nothing makes sense

(Nothing makes sense)

The sound of your voice reaches me from far way

I long for you, I want to stand next to you

but it’s impossible

The wall I built after those endless days of suffering and pain is still standing firm between us

I can’t do anything for it to crumble down

I want to see you but I am so afraid

So afraid you will deem me as worthless and walk away

But I know I am the only one to blame

(Am I really? Am I the one who is wrong?)

Isn’t it the world that always pushes me to my limits until I can’t help but break?

In this pitch black world where nothing makes sense it is I who is desperately trying to find the meaning

I follow the path to destruction and nobody even bats an eye

I am letting myself drown in this black sea of sorrow

The secrets we had shared no longer have any meaning to you

When our ways cross, you don’t care

When our eyes meet, you look away in disgust

Is that how you have always viewed me?

Years pass

I am used to it by now

Being a shadow of my former self

Now everything is black, the light has been extinguished and I can’t see anything but the black shadows of reality, nothing makes sense

(Nothing nothing)

The pills in my hand are my only relief in this darkness

I stare into the photos scattered on the floor in regret

In my dreams you are a constant companion

Laughing and loving

Just like how we used to be

But this is just a mirage I am trapped in

I don’t actually want you to come back to me

All that remains is this bitterness.

You made me forget who I was and why I deserve to live

So can I burn those photos until there is no trace of you in my soul?

The wounds you left will never heal but I can at least let them burn and light up my new path.

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i saw a bright world. i cannot go back to a time where i did not know such a thing existed.

( art cred. )

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I etch my own face upon my wicked flesh. / I am my own devastating god.

Rachel McKibbens, from “Shiv,” Women of Resistance: Poems for a New Feminism (via lifeinpoetry)

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You either learn to die or learn to kill, there is no other option.

a study of thoughts (via crowbound-archived)

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I was planning to do some drafts today but I think I am coming down with a cold, so I I don’t think I will manage. I apologize for the delay, I will try to do them when I feel better. 

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if he dies… the mafia will revert back to it’s old detestable ways

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look if we rp, you are more than welcome to send me headcanons at ungodly hours, TALK IN ALL CAPS ABOUT OUR BABIES, and send me like ten memes a day. I honestly won’t be annoyed and I won’t mind. In fact, I want you to.

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today again a little snow falls on sorrow already spoiled today again even the wind blows through sorrow already spoiled sorrow already spoiled is for example a fox’s hide on sorrow already spoiled a little snow falls and it shrinks sorrow already spoiled never hopes nor wishes anything sorrow already spoiled in languor dreams of death pitifully I fear sorrow already spoiled dusk and there’s nothing I can do against sorrow already spoiled…

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Send one in and I'll write a drabble about it!

LUCKY: My muse seeing yours for the first time thinking 'wow, s/he's cute'

HOUSE OF CARDS: Your muse and mine stuck in detention together

LAMPLIGHT: 3am phone call between my muse and yours

LITTLE TALK: My muse telling yours a secret

UP ABOVE: My muse pushing yours to talk to that one boy/girl they've been looking at for the past hour or so

BLUE CREAM SKY: My muse comforting yours while they cry

LOST: My muse and yours getting lost in the countryside

OCEAN BLUE: A midnight dip on the ocean

WILD THING: My muse getting a surprise to see yours dressed provocatively

DUSTY:Your muse and mine cleaning out the garage

FROM ME TO YOU: My muse reading a letter your muse gave them years/months ago

CRASH: Your muse crashing my muse's vehicle by accident

DAY TRIPPER: Your muse forcing mine to take them shopping

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Well, they say people have slimmer chance to grow much taller after they pass 20 years old… So…

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