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i have a title and roughly 60% of a plot so that’s enough for me. it’s happening folks 🫡

thinking abt a yoonji x reader exes to fwb to absolute hot mess inspired by good luck, babe! by chappell roan

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217/638 days of missing yoongi

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how many times do you think i'll purchase photocards i already own before i get my shit together and stop doing that

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wonwoo x crop tops

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this hairstyle on him 💓

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day 136/547 until joon returns cr. jung-koook

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I thought your post said yoonjin x reader 😔

i mean the song does mention being a wife, so why not yoonji x reader x seokjin yanno

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🌟 glowing 🌟

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thinking abt a yoonji x reader exes to fwb to absolute hot mess inspired by good luck, babe! by chappell roan

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they all share one single brain cell (insp.) + bonus

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010424 | MINGI LIVE

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YUQI YUQ1 - CONCEPT IMAGE #1

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PTD Las Vegas PRACTICE & REHEARSAL SKETCH

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seokjins lil survey thing is so fucking funny that man is a king at minding his own business

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come back to earth | knj

→ summary: my regrets look just like texts i shouldn’t send

→ pairing: knj x ex!reader → warnings: angst; smoking cigarettes; drinking; implied exes-to-lovers; namjoon being down horrendous. the idea is that these are (mostly) drafted and unsent texts. some of the texts are incomplete, implying that namjoon never finished writing them. it could be canon-compliant but i can’t keep track of dates so my b. → word count: 1.4k → notes: this is mac miller’s fault. blame him (rest in peace king)

→ listened to: come back to earth - mac miller

my blog is 18+ only. minors DNI.

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[saturday, april 16, 2022]

you said we'd go see the cherry blossoms together. you promised, and now the cherry blossoms are withering and dying and sticking to the bottom of my shoes, and you're not here to pick them off like you said you would.

[monday, april 25, 2022]

maybe i shouldn't text you. does it matter if i did? don't you have my number blocked? 

i’m outside, taking a smoke break. still think about you sometimes. know how much you hated me smoking. swear i can still hear you whenever i light up

[friday, june 17, 2022]

doing so good, baby. i wish you were here to see me.

[thursday, july 7, 2022]

summer. went to get ice cream from cu like we used to. didn't taste the same.

[tuesday, july 19, 2022]

hyung and i went to the park last night. the same one where we used to practice dancing until our heels bled, scream until our throats went raw. it reminded me of that night under the stars. when i wiped melona off your chin, and you kissed me like it was nothing. i was dizzy on the taste of you for days.

it meant a lot to me, you know. to be kissed so casually. i thought maybe i could understand what all those love poems are about. you made me want to write about sunlight, and hands tangled under a blanket, and a strand of your hair on my jacket. you made me see a lot of things i'd never seen before.

fuck, i miss you so ba

[sunday, october 16, 2022]

it'll be six months soon. half a year.

i saw you post about halloween. you looked like you were having so much fun. i hate that it's without me.

i hope you're safe.

[saturday, october 29, 2022]

something about the weekend...

i was reading 'in praise of love' yesterday. of course i thought about you. i find that i always do.

arthur rimbaud once said that love needs re-inventing. risk vs. planning; adventure vs. comfort. this is the bind that modern love is in.

i thought about framing our love that way. maybe there was too much risk; giving our hearts to each other when we knew how it would end. or maybe there wasn't enough; complacency, seeking our own comforts over each other's.

in the end, i decided it doesn't matter. the love died, didn't it? there isn't anything left to scrutinize. pick apart.

i think maybe that's the thing with me. everyone else has moved on, but i'm still here. re-reading. re-imagining. re-every fucking thing.

you were always light years ahead. never looking back. maybe that was our problem.

[monday, december 5, 2022]

i visited the MMCA today. 

we used to love going there. or maybe i was the one who loved going there.

i think about that thing you said once, when we were at the ticketing counter. you said sometimes my interests loom so large that they subsume yours. like, what i wanted took up so much air that your wants never had enough to breathe.

i brushed it off, then. made a joke or something, i don't know. but you know these things stick with me. i carried that around for a long time. still do.

i never asked you which artist you liked best; i never asked you if you liked going to museums, period. i wonder if i just assumed i knew you, and so i never bothered to lear

[tuesday, december 6, 2022]

n about you. that was shitty of me, but it's too late for apologies. i know that more than anyone.

i know you liked kim kulim, though. that's one thing i think i'll remember forever. even if i wind up standing next to someone else.

[thursday, december 22, 2022]

it's the holidays. i still have the little charlie brown christmas tree you gave me this time last year. i wish i could throw it away.

[sunday, january 1, 2023]

happy new year. you’re doing well, aren’t you?

[tuesday, february 14, 2023]

happy valentine's day.

i don't know what to do with all of this want inside of me.

[monday, february 20, 2023]

please come over. be by my side again. i need y

[tuesday, march 7, 2023]

almost a year since you walked away from me, and every day i regret it more. i regret letting you get so sad that all you could do was leave; i regret not stopping you. everything with you is a series of regrets, and i'm the fool who can't seem to let go of them.

the one thing i'll never regret is lovin

[tuesday, march 14, 2023]

i'm so drunk. i never used to drink, but i'm drunk now. i heard 'killing me' by omar apollo and it made me want to drink because i would do anything to stop thinking about you, to stop dreaming about you, to break the surface and finally take a fucking breat

[wednesday, march 15, 2023]

happy birthday, baby

remember when? i think about that phrase so much, all it means. it means a shared history, a shared language made of the hours, months, years we spent together. it means something resurfaced in my mind that i think you'll want to hear, too. something we can relive together.

remember when. today i remembered the first time we celebrated your birthday. march is a good month. we talked about astrology, and how you're a pisces and i'm a virgo, and all that means for us. we took a walk in seoul forest. i ate miyeokguk with you while we watched broker. and then we went to bed, and i just remember thinking that if i were to live that day over and over again into eternity, i wouldn't mind.

i miss you. i miss getting to love you. i miss the little mole at your hairline and kissing you there. i miss making you laugh. i miss coming up behind you and holding you to me, feeling the outline of your body against mine. felt sweeter than anything. i even miss you resenting me, because at least then i knew you were thinking of me.

i miss being loved by

[wednesday, march 22, 2023]

how am i drowning in you when you're not even here?

[thursday, april 6, 2023]

come back to me, baby, i swear i'll make everything up to y

[saturday, april 22, 2023]

[Voice Note - 1:35]

i wrote this song for you. every song i write is for you. i know i'm sick, i'm abusing my reach, because in my darkest moments i think maybe you'll be forced to hear what i'm thinking, what i'm feeling. like maybe you'll hear me on the radio in a taxi, or in a shop, and then maybe you'll come back to me. my way of reaching you without ever contacting you.

selfish, again...

[sunday, april 23, 2023]

maybe i don't even know if i'd want you to come back. i don't know. 

i finally read that poetry collection you kept telling me about. 'autobiography of death'? i don't think i understand it. but maybe i understand you a little more....

i wish i could love you again. i wish i had the right. i swear i'd do right by you this time. i swear i'd be different. i'd ask about everything. i'd give you everythi

[monday, may 15, 2023]

it feels like spring. it feels like something new is beginning. i've always chased that feeling.

[monday, may 29, 2023]

i should probably delete your number. i should probably stop writing texts that i'll never send. i should probably stop thinking about you, too, but i don't think i'll ever be able to do that. 

because it's not just pressing a button, or changing a setting on my phone. if i want to stop thinking about you, it's a choice i'll have to make every single day. it's as hard as quitting smoking, but worse, because trying not to think about you is the same thing as thinking about you, and i'd give anything for a way out of my own hea

[Monday, May 29, 2023 — 1 new message from 🌸]

🌸: Namjoon-ah, it's me. I know it's been a long time. I've been thinking about you, and I was wondering if you wanted to talk. I know you're busy…. Let me know, okay?