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Shoujo/Josei Anime

So I’m just now getting back into Anime and manga and I’m looking for some good Shojo/Josei recommendations:)

I have already watched:

Ouran

Fruits basket

Maid sama

Kimi no todaki

Monthly girls nozaki kun

My Little monster

Kiss him not me

Vampire knight

Toradora

Princess jellyfish

My love story

school babysitters

And Nana

But I’m still looking for more recs:), older shows like Lovely complex and kami sama kiss are on my Tbr/tbh but they’re not available on Crunchyroll in the uk.

Any and all recs would be appreciated they don’t even have to be shoujo I’d honestly watch any romance or slice of life as long as there’s no fan service.

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Intro Post

so i've never done this before but theres a first time for everything :)

the side blog of bluemirrorangel, strayclown101 and cowboyintheory.

name: Rowyn, Wyn or Ro

Age: 20

star sign: Sagittarius

ethnicity: mixed Caribbean and British

pronouns: they/them she/her

queer & autistic

ao3: emoking101

fandoms: haikyuu, BNHA, Danganronpa, Banana Fish, bad buddy, only friends, not me, my school president.

Hobbies: reading, writing, listening to music.

music: Clairo, Chappell Roan, Arctic Monkeys, Mitski, Lana Del Rey, Peach Pit, the cast of glee, BTS, Billie Ellish, Matt Maltese, The Smiths, The Cure, Beach Bunny, Fleetwood Mac, Lorde, Conan Gray, Coldplay, SKZ, Hozier, jomm, BIBI, Magdalena Bay, OnlyOneOf, The Marias, Red Velvet, TV Girl, Queen and Radiohead.

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haikyuu music headcanons part 2

kenma:gamer music and literally anything when  playing games but songs like treehouse by alex g to songs like rat , ciggerette aheago and lotta true crime by penelope scott lots of hyperpop

kuroo:mitski dear god does he listen to mitski lemon demon lots of comedy music  bo burnham , flo and joan,oats and garfunkle

iwaizumi: idek like anything the neighborhood,arctic monkeys indie rock

akaashi: melancholy love songs i love you so by the walters malboro nights looking out for you

tendou:mother mother but songs like it's alright burning pile and back in school

yaku:gorillaz ,studio killers

kyotani:mother mother,MCR,21 pilots,the crawlers,the oozers,nova twins ,fall out boy

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Haikyuu music headcanons pt 1

Asahi:listens to those lofi playlists that help with anxiety

Tanaka and noya:have a soundcloud

Yamaguchi:listens to Conan gray and peach pit Kai dreams

Yachi:girl in red beach bunny clairo king princess sir chloe hailey kiyoko

Daichi:anything on the radio

Suga:stoner music I’m talking Tyler the creator salvia plaith front bottoms

Tsukki:everything but I feel like he hasn’t gotten over his emo phase he has playlist for every emotion

Hinata:pump up music like early 2000’s party music black eyed peas lmfao anything you can jump around to

Kageyama: heavy metal or affirmation tapes no in between it’s either “I push my fingers into my eyes “ or “you are enough “ no in between

Ukai:classic rock and grunge Rolling Stones led zeppelin guns and roses AC/DC pink floyd nirvana

Takeada:classical and bubblegum pop it’s Beethoven or carley Rae jepson

Enoshita kinoshita and narita:chill indie cuco post malone cage the Elephant Rex Orange County mom jeans

Tanaka and noya: chaotic rap like rap in general but specifically chaotic Freddie dredd BOOGIE by brockhampton Tokyo’s revenge Tik Tokers start a riot by Duckwrth bonfire by childish gambino also a lot of female rappers cardi b Rico nasty Doja cat megan the stallion city girls

Kiyoko: you know the violin song from portrait of a lady on fire that idk like incredibly chill or straight up opera and classical

Saeko: riot grrrl and paramour queercore

Terushima: is in a band plays guitar listens to the neighbourhood arctic monkeys cigarettes after sex.

Bokuto: think Hinata but more memey weird al

Careless whisper by WHAM! Definitely rick tolls people has a Spotify playlist for Akaashi they definitely do that thing it’s like shared listening where you and a friend can choose the songs you both listen to they also have multiple collaborative playlists together

Oikawa: three moods bad bitch Kpop or depresive very much Beyoncé ,fergie Rihanna ,meg the stallion ,Ariana grande ,blackpink ,BTS , TWICE,EXO,ITZY,NCT, mamamoo,got7,hyuna,taemin miss A and sunmi or billie elish and as the world caves in

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Only friends ep 9

I have one (1) thought that I can articulate right now and that is that from looking at boeing Top clearly has a type.

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only friends episode 3 thoughts/debrief

ok so this episode was mad. and there's a lot to talk about.

Boston: I hate him. i feel like we're all so busy debating whether or whether not Mew's a bad person that we just let Boston be diabolical. i hate the way he toys with Nick and purposefully give him hope also the way he manipulates Nick into being ok with their dynamic; reprimanding Nick's valid concerns by calling him dramatic and convinces Nick to be ok with their current dynamic (implying that a relationship may be possible as long as Nick "keeps being so lovely")

this episode further proves to me that Boston doesn't actually want a real relationship with Top he just wants the control.

i think Boston views sex as a transaction and is used to using his body/sexuality as currency based on the way he reacts to Nick turning down his offer of sex in return for the cctv camera's.

i don't know why but i feel like Boston had feelings for/was attracted to Mew and was shot down, my reasoning is his comment to Nick about Top and his tweets. him comforting Nick by telling him he prefers cute to hot got me thinking and his old tweets about entitled to someone felt too intentionally vague.

part of me feels like Boston does like Nick. Boston seems like a commitment-phobe he hates the idea of being 'tied down' but enjoys the idea of someone being committed to him. in the scene of him and Nick in the car he tells Nick that he can define their relationship however he wants and i genuinely believe he means that because then he get's to have his cake and eat it too, he get's to reap all the boyfriend benefits without having to actually be in a real relationship and Nick get's to decide what they are.

bottom line Boston and Nick are now basically label-less which comes with it's own set of problems, a lack of labels means a lack of boundaries.

Nick: Nick doesn't seem to have any friends outside of Sand or at least none he feels comfortable enough around to ask for advice causing him to tur to twitter.

i think Nick way smarter than we anticipated, seeing photo's of Boston and Top and immediately deciding to look into it instead of giving Boston the benefit of the doubt showing that while he definitely likes Boston he also isn't delusional, him bugging the car while crazy and invasive is also pure genius.

while i know Nicks going to use the video to try and get Boston to date him part of me doesn't want him to, i want him to either use it to get Boston to come clean or show it to Mew because he deserves to know.

Mew: the more episodes i watch the more i begin to doubt the whole 'Mew the master manipulator' thing.

i was expecting him to be completely sober when he shut the door but he wasn't.

i think Mew is to Ray what Cheum is to him, his biggest supporter, the way he hypes way up to talk to Sand shows how much he cares, i think the photos are completely out of context.

i personally think the reason we want Mew to be a bad person is because it softens the blow of all the shit that's going to happen to him, it's a lot easier to watch someone suffer when we think they deserve it.

Top: I WAS ROOTING FOR YOU, WE WERE ALL ROOTING FOR YOU HOW DARE YOU.

no but for real Top got on my nerves this episode, is he allergic to communication or something.?

him seeing a photo from two years ago and using it as a reason to cheat is crazy because what supposedly happened between Mew and Ray TWO YEARS AGO none of your business but also it's a picture of them kissing that doesn't prove Boston's point Mew said he's a virgin not that he's never kissed anyone.

it's mental that he thinks a 'kiss' between two friends TWO YEARS prior to their relationship as a justification for cheating on him in present day.

Ray: i think it's interesting that the only way Boston's plan worked was by implying Mew was in danger of getting hurt which leads me to believe that Ray's love for Mew is entirely selfless. while i think Ray will always love Mew i also think he's falling out of love with him.

i understand why Ray dropped everything to pick up Mew because Mew is locked out on his own drunk (we know he doesn't drink.)

Ray's issues being handled with a surprising amount of seriousness (i.e being told to see a shrink, someone saying he spends more time at the bar than college) it's refreshing to see.

Sand: while i completely get why sand decides to not sleep with Ray because he's afraid of growing attached but in my opinion he's shot himself in the foot because they're gonna keep hanging out and he's gonna fall for ray's personality which is a lot harder to explain away.

yeah today's episode was mad, this is definitely going to be a weekly thing.

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only friends thoughts

i'm probably going to do this every week so stay tuned for that ig.

this is gonna be divided into sections because it would be a jumbled mess otherwise. i apologise for how messy this is my laptop is breaking and so am i (i'm sleep deprived.)

Boston: first of all this man sucks so bad like truly a bottom of the barrel friend, i wanna take a second to talk about the college scene in episode one where their giving the presentation, i personally feel like each role their given in the project reflects who they are in the friendship group, and Boston says himself he's the yes man his friends say things and he just blindly agrees i feel like that's exactly who he is in terms of group dynamics originally you assign this to Chuem however she clearly has her friends best interest at heart whereas Boston just goes along with whatever because he doesn't care. everyone else brings something to the table Chuem, Mew and Ray all seem to care about each other and in project terms they all have roles Mew and Chuem do the heavy lifting Ray provides a worthy location. All Boston does is go along with it he seems completely detached from the others. i saw someone say that Nick is who Boston used to be and as much as i love that idea i take that and i raise you Mew is who Boston used to be and that's why he resents him so much only i think Boston's situation was crueller i think Boston was used because while Top's intentions aren't entirely pure he does genuinely harbour some kind of affection towards Mew. i don't think Boston got that i think Boston got used purely for sex i think Boston was a virgin who fell in love with someone like Top and that person took advantage of him. and the reason he resents Mew so hard is because Mew got everything he didn't.

while Boston is a a massive dickhead a lot of the fandom still really like him he suffers from Vegas syndrome because both him and Vegas are terrible people who fuck up the lives of those around them they are also incredibly interesting to analyse.

Mew: in my opinion Mew is not half as bad as people think he's going to be Mew is the fictional equivalent of people who are virgins but think the can do shit because of how much fanfiction they read (i mean that affectionately.) i don't think he's an innocent baby who has no idea what he's doing but i don't think he's a master manipulator i think the main reason we see him that way is because of episode one but that episode is told mainly from his perspective i think we see how Mew views himself not how he actually is. i think Mew is a bookworm with a hero complex like he's been warned about Top from multiple people so he wants to flip the script Mew's trying to outplay the player. i think Mew knows Top might get bored and leave him so he's trying to get under his skin but he seems to genuinely like him.

i don't think Mew knows how Ray feels if he does he would have brought it up already. bottom line i think Mew's flying to close to the sun and doesn't know it yet.

Top: first off Top was assaulted this episode, i've seen people use the shower scene as proof that he's unfaithful but i don't think that's true. we see multiple times that he's not interested in Boston he TELLS Boston multiple times that he doesn't see him like that, he's clearly uncomfortable in that scene he even tells Boston no. that scene is assault the only thing that scene proves about his relationship with Mew is that Top keeps secrets which makes sense because he is new to the friendship group he doesn't know how close Mew and Boston are doesn't know if Mew will believe him, Tops place in the group is fragile it makes sense that he doesn't want to jeopardise it.

Top and Boston are different Boston tells Nick in episode two that Nick is his favourite he also tells Nick that they can either be fwb's or fuck buddies Boston doesn't do relationships while Top wants to date Mew and is trying to make Mew his boyfriend. Boston tells Mew that Top get's bored after a couple of months implying that while Boston is promiscuous Top is a serial dater or at least someone who hook ups with the same person more than once.

Ray: i feel like Ray views his money as his only redeeming trait and that's why he's so comfortable paying Sand to be his friend, we see that in the presentation scene as well (when asked what he is contributing he says that his dad gave him a house to use for the hostel.)

someone pointed out that Ray's mum died of alcohol poisoning and if that's true then i think that's such a meaningful scene.

i feel like a lot of the reason why Ray likes Mew is because Mew cares about him, like in his friendship group Mew is shown time and time again caring deeply for Ray the only other person who cares about Ray is Sand. Ray reminds me of those people who try and romanticise their suffering because that's all they can do, like he parties to be around people because he hates being alone and drinks to the point of unconsciousness constantly just so he doesn't have to be around himself.

Sand: i don't think Sand knows just how bad Ray's issues, are as far as he knows Ray is just a sad rich boy with mild alcoholic tendencies and i feel like most of their conflict is going to come from this.

i feel like him and Nick living together is such a good idea narratively like the possibilities are endless.

Nick: Nick kind of feels like Mew's foil, while Mew knows exactly what Top is capable of and tries to give as good as he gets, Nick has no idea what he's getting into, while he was originally interested in Boston sexually i feel like Nick really wants a genuine connection with Boston and got a situationship instead. Nick is the only one completely out of the loop, everyone kind of knows each other because of the bar but Nick is the only one who doesn't go. what makes his relationship with Boston more complicated is that when Nick asks what they are to each other and Boston gives him the options of friends with benefits or fuck buddies Nick immediately latches on to the lesser of two evils choosing fuck buddies to try and create distance between them to try and protect himself Boston basically takes away that option and insists that they become friends with benefits instead. one thing i haven't seen people mention is how after that scene Boston's behaviour towards Nick changes, he starts acting more affectionate; kissing his cheeks, using his childhood nickname being more touchy.

i feel like nick and Boston's relationship will get a somewhat happy ending (because it's gmmtv) but i feel like most of their issues won't be resolved on screen.

i don't think Nick has the best self esteem because of a multitude of things; teased for his appearance, hates having his photo taken, gave him himself a makeover/glow up because of that i don't think he's aware just how attractive he is, this could possibly end up playing a role in his relationship with Boston, as of now Boston is the only one we see openly find Nick attractive but if Boston brings Nick around to say the club that could definitely change and Boston could get jealous which would change their dynamic quite a bit. i see Nick getting tired of Boston's double standards and his 'one rule for you a different one for me' mentality.

Cheum: the most stable one in the friendship group, we don't know much about her and i truly hope that changes. she's the glue of the group. i love her relationship with April. i have a terrible feeling that something horrible happens to her (and the surfing accident was foreshadowing) i really hope i'm wrong.

yeah i really like this show, it's taken over my brain. i'm probably oing to post another one of these after episode 3.

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Fic requests

I really wanna write more this summer so if anyone has any prompts or requests I’d be happy to try and fulfil them :), the list of fandoms/ships I write/will write for are in the tags,my ao3 is emoking101. I’m not super comfortable writing explicit content but I’m fine with writing rated mature,I also tend to steer clear of most stuff that needs heavy archive warnings but I can/will write heavy angst if asked.(There are more ships but I’m only allowed 30 tags.)

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Hypothetically if I were to write a bad buddy (or eclipse) twilight au would anyone read it? Asking for a friend

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Ok so I’m watching not me the series

And the whole Gram/black Gram/Eugene situation is confusing me so what if the love note at Grams house wasn’t written by him what if Black wrote it and Gram has it because Black confessed it would also explain why black has both of the friendship dolls and why Gram isn’t jealous of white and Sean getting closer. And it explains grams crush on Eugene

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I posted it on Ao3 https://href.li/?https://archiveofourown.org/works/35551630/chapters/88628278

It’s a work in progress

The queer urge to write a angsty 50k bad buddy slow burn fanfic where pran and pat where secretly dating(unofficially) in high school with a break up scene that mirrors their fight in episode 5

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pat/pran fanfic

hey guyyys i finally posted the first chapter of my fanfic you can read it here https://archiveofourown.org/works/35551630/chapters/88628278

and i also made a spotify playlist and you can listen to it here https://open.spotify.com/playlist/4IHrYj8I6p2GWBZSoPLS2a?si=4f8eddf2b8c84bed

i'll try to update everyweek but i do have a couple chapters i'm already working on so i'll try and get those out soon

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Ok so I’ve started writing the fanfic and I’ll post a couple chapters this week hopefully updates should be every Friday or Saturday depending on how late I watched the newest episode I am still looking for a beta reader and participants tho so please be patient thank you guys for the support please stay tuned :) ♡♡♡

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Currently looking for a beta reader (or anyone that interacts with fanfic really) that would be interested in helping me write my 5k words (Ik I originally said 50k but I severely overestimated myself) bad buddy angsty slow burn fanfic where pat and pran were secretly dating (unofficially) during high school and had a break up that mirrors their fight in episode 5

If so please let me know any help at all would be very much appreciated

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Ok but would anyone actually be interested in helping me write this

The queer urge to write a angsty 50k bad buddy slow burn fanfic where pran and pat where secretly dating(unofficially) in high school with a break up scene that mirrors their fight in episode 5

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I want too sooo bad I just need a beta reader

The queer urge to write a angsty 50k bad buddy slow burn fanfic where pran and pat where secretly dating(unofficially) in high school with a break up scene that mirrors their fight in episode 5