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hello, anyone else feel like they are stuck in a loop of eating everything they see and then feeling nauseous at the thought of consuming anything ✨

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Just broke my fucking fast for a god damn muffin. have never been more pissed off at myself.

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I’d do anything to have cheekbones and collarbones this sharp

Plzzz

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My favorite low-cal substitutes and options! All under 50 calories.

Feel free to add to this! I didn’t include everything out there :)

Drinks 🧋

0 cal - herbal tea 🫖

0 cal - green tea 🍵

0 cal - water flavoring like Mio

0 cal - Diet Coke 🥤

0 cal - pretty much any diet soda

2 cal - Black Coffee ☕️

2 cal - black tea

10 cal - monster ultra (I like paradise and fiesta especially)

20 cal - other sugar free energy drinks

39 cal - shot of sake 🍶

Breakfast (snacks, smoothies, etc)

25 cal - 1 large egg white 🍳

32 cal - 100g Strawberries (~50 cal per cup) 🍓

40 cal - 1/4 c low fat cottage cheese 🦴

42 cal - 1 kiwi 🥝

42 cal - 84 g (1 thick slice) pineapple 🍍

47 cal - 154g (1 c) watermelon 🍉

50 cal - 1/2 grapefruit 🍊

50 cal - 3 oz plain Greek yoghurt

50 cal - 2 tbsp serving powdered peanut butter 🥜

50 cal - 4 oz (120ml) low fat milk 🥛

Meals (mix and match this shit!) 🍴

0-10 cal - serving shirataki noodles 🍜

0-20cal - Broth 🐥

5 cal - 1 c lettuce 🥬

6 cal - 28g (1 oz) pickled onion (do this yourself! So easy! So good on everything) 🧅

7 cal - 1 c spinach 🥗

16 cal - 70g (1 c sliced) mushrooms

17 cal - 1/2 c kale

20 cal - 1 c zucchini 🥒

20 cal - 82g (1 c. cubed) eggplant 🍆

21 cal - 1 tbsp parmesan cheese 🧀

25 cal - whole tomato 🍅

25 - 148g (1 med) bell Pepper 🫑

30 cal - 78g (1 med) Carrot 🥕

30 cal - 116g (1 c) pumpkin

30-40 cal - 1/2 pack or can tuna 🐟

35 cal - 1/2 serving (1.5 oz) cod 🐠

36 cal - 1 c miso soup 🍲

37 cal - 40g shelled edamame

38 cal - 1 c Brussels sprouts

39 cal - 1/2 hard or soft boiled egg 🥚

39 cal - 1/2 serving (42g) halibut (white fish) 🐟

40 cal - 1 c arugula 🥗

40 cal - 186g (10 spears) asparagus

45 cal - 148g (1 med) broccoli 🥦

45 cal - 6 med raw oysters 🦪

45 cal - 3 oz/85g lite tofu

50 cal - 100g (1/2 small-med) sweet potato 🍠

50 cal - 1/2 corn cob 🌽

50 cal - 50g shrimp 🍤

Snacks 🍬

0-8 cal - pickles 🥒

5-10 cal - 1 tbsp salsa

17 cal - 1 passion fruit (18g)

23 cal - 1 tbsp hummus

25 - serving seaweed snack

25 - 1 med bell Pepper 🫑

30 cal - 22 Organic Yogis (okay technically this is baby food but it’s just freeze dried Greek yoghurt and fruit so shut up it’s good) 🍓🍌

30 cal - 300g/1 Cucumber 🥒

35 cal - 1 cutie (small orange/tangerine) 🍊

40 cal - 1 light babybel 🧀

47 cal - 1.5 c Air popped popcorn 🍿

50 cal - 6 oven-baked parm crisps 🧀

50 cal - >1/2 c unsweetened apple sauce 🍎

50 cal - 3 dried apricots 🍑

50 cal - 15 pistachios 🌰🥜

Dessert 🎂

0 cal - Diet Root Beer (I don’t care that it’s a drink! It’s so insanely sweet and it kicks the ass of my cravings. Also, my list my rules. Sue me) 🍺

5 cal - serving Sugar Free Jello 🍮

5 cal - 1 tbsp Hershey’s Sugar Free Syrup 🍫

~14 cal - WHOLE BOTTLE Too Tarts sweet sour spray candy (so a few sprays is just 0-3 cal)

20 cal - 2 tbsp Frozen Cool Whip Lite (seriously, eat this frozen) 🍨

20-50 cal - baked fruit (bake some peaches, apples, etc. and mix with Splenda, cinnamon, etc.) 🍑🍎

23 cal - fun size sweet tart pack

25 cal - no sugar added small outshine popsicles 🍧

25 cal - 1 pack smarties (American) 🍬

35 cal - swiss miss reduced calorie hot chocolate ☕️🍫

40 cal - small Outshine Popsicles 

40 cal - 5 sugar free hard candies 🍬

42 cal - 1 Hershey assorted mini 🍫

43 cal - fat free green yoghurt with sugar-free jam 🍧

46 cal - 2 regular marshmallows

48 - 8 mini Cinnamon Sugar skinny pop Rice Cakes

50 cal - 1-2 squares dark chocolate 🍫

50 cal - 2 Dum dum suckers 🍭

50 cal - ~25 sugar free jelly beans

50 cal - halo top pops (lots of flavors) 🍦

Miscellaneous

0-2 cal - any herb/spice 🌿

4 cal - 1 clove garlic 🧄

5 cal - 1 stick sugar free gum

50 cal - 1/4 container White cheddar seasoning (2 cal per 1/4 tsp) 🧀🧂

50 cal - 10 sugar free mints 🌱

Disclaimer: actual calorie counts many vary depending on serving, brand, tracker, etc.

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this user has an ED but supports and encourages recovery

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i wish i was a small as a ballerina but without having to be a ballerina ✨

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so over this back and forth with my mind. i tell myself to not eat it but then i eat it plus some. i hate my body and the dumb choices it makes. so here’s to doing this shit over again. cheers 🥂

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𝕋𝕎!!//

𝕙𝕖𝕝𝕝𝕠! 𝕤𝕠 𝕪𝕖𝕒𝕙 𝕨𝕖’𝕣𝕖 𝕤𝕥𝕒𝕣𝕥𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕥𝕙𝕚𝕤 𝕒𝕘𝕒𝕚𝕟. 𝕚 𝕙𝕒𝕥𝕖 𝕞𝕪 𝕓𝕠𝕕𝕪 𝕒𝕟𝕕 𝕒𝕞 𝕙𝕖𝕣𝕖 𝕥𝕠 𝕗𝕚𝕩 𝕚𝕥. 𝕚 𝕥𝕣𝕚𝕖𝕕 𝕕𝕠𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕚𝕥 𝕥𝕙𝕖 “𝕣𝕚𝕘𝕙𝕥 𝕨𝕒𝕪” 𝕓𝕦𝕥 𝕚𝕥 𝕚𝕤𝕟’𝕥 𝕨𝕠𝕣𝕜𝕚𝕟𝕘. 𝕤𝕠 𝕙𝕖𝕣𝕖 𝕨𝕖 𝕒𝕣𝕖.

ℕ𝕆𝕋 ℙℝ𝕆.

𝔹𝕦𝕥 𝕪𝕖𝕒𝕙, 𝕥𝕙𝕚𝕤 𝕚𝕤 𝕨𝕙𝕒𝕥 𝕨𝕖’𝕣𝕖 𝕕𝕠𝕚𝕟𝕘. 𝕚’𝕞 𝕔𝕦𝕣𝕣𝕖𝕟𝕥𝕝𝕪 𝟚𝟜𝟝𝕝𝕓𝕤. 𝕚 𝕜𝕟𝕠𝕨..𝕕𝕠𝕟’𝕥 𝕘𝕖𝕥 𝕞𝕖 𝕤𝕥𝕒𝕣𝕥𝕖𝕕. 𝕀 𝕙𝕒𝕕 𝕝𝕠𝕤𝕥 𝕤𝕠 𝕞𝕦𝕔𝕙 𝕒𝕟𝕕 𝕘𝕒𝕚𝕟𝕖𝕕 𝕚𝕥 𝕓𝕒𝕔𝕜 (𝕠𝕗 𝕔𝕠𝕦𝕣𝕤𝕖 𝕚 𝕨𝕒𝕤 𝕕𝕣𝕚𝕟𝕜𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕒 𝕝𝕠𝕥 𝕥𝕙𝕚𝕤 𝕥𝕚𝕞𝕖 𝕤𝕠..) 𝕓𝕦𝕥 𝕚 𝕟𝕖𝕖𝕕 𝕥𝕠 𝕗𝕚𝕩 𝕚𝕥. 𝕗𝕠𝕣 𝕣𝕖𝕒𝕝 𝕥𝕙𝕚𝕤 𝕥𝕚𝕞𝕖.

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𝐻𝑜𝓌 𝐼’𝓂 𝓉𝓇𝓎𝓃𝒶 𝓁𝒾𝓋𝑒 😵‍💫

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⚠️𝐓𝐖⚠️

⚠️𝐁𝐋𝐎𝐂𝐊 𝐃𝐎𝐍𝐓 𝐑𝐄𝐏𝐎𝐑𝐓⚠️

𝐈 𝐚𝐦 𝐢𝐧 𝐧𝐨 𝐰𝐚𝐲 𝐩𝐫𝐨 𝐨𝐫 ✨𝐠𝐥𝐚𝐦𝐨𝐫𝐢𝐳𝐢𝐧𝐠✨ 𝐚𝐧𝐲𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠! 𝐉𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐤𝐞𝐞𝐩𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐨 𝐦𝐲𝐬𝐞𝐥𝐟! 𝐏𝐫𝐨 𝐭𝐚𝐠𝐬 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐜𝐡!

𝐒𝐖//𝟐𝟓𝟎.𝟎𝐥𝐛𝐬

𝐂𝐖//𝟐𝟒𝟎.𝟎𝐥𝐛𝐬

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𝐆𝐖𝟐//𝟏𝟗𝟎.𝟎𝐥𝐛𝐬🔒

𝐆𝐖𝟑//𝟏𝟕𝟓.𝟎𝐥𝐛𝐬🔒

𝐆𝐖𝟒//𝟏𝟓𝟎.𝟎𝐥𝐛𝐬🔒

𝐆𝐖𝟓//𝟏𝟑𝟎.𝟎𝐥𝐛𝐬🔒

𝐎𝐩𝐞𝐧 𝐭𝐨 𝐦𝐮𝐭𝐮𝐚𝐥𝐬! 𝐍𝐨 𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐨𝐫𝐬! 𝟏𝟖+

𝐈 𝐚𝐦 20!

𝐌𝐲 𝐧𝐚𝐦𝐞 𝐢𝐬 𝐚𝐤𝐚𝐫𝐢 🍵🌱🌼

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𝔻𝕒𝕪 𝟙

𝕀𝕥’𝕤 𝕔𝕦𝕣𝕣𝕖𝕟𝕥𝕝𝕪 𝟙𝟚 𝕒𝕞 𝕒𝕟𝕕 𝕀’𝕞 𝕤𝕥𝕒𝕣𝕥𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕟𝕠𝕨. 𝕀 𝕝𝕠𝕠𝕜𝕖𝕕 𝕒𝕥 𝕞𝕪𝕤𝕖𝕝𝕗 𝕚𝕟 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕞𝕚𝕣𝕣𝕠𝕣 𝕒𝕟𝕕 𝕔𝕠𝕦𝕝𝕕 𝕡𝕙𝕪𝕤𝕚𝕔𝕒𝕝𝕝𝕪 𝕊𝔼𝔼 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕨𝕖𝕚𝕘𝕙𝕥 𝕘𝕒𝕚𝕟. 𝕀 𝕜𝕟𝕠𝕨 𝕀 𝕙𝕒𝕧𝕖 𝕔𝕠𝕟𝕥𝕣𝕠𝕝 𝕠𝕧𝕖𝕣 𝕥𝕙𝕚𝕤. 𝕀’𝕞 𝕒 𝕓𝕚𝕟𝕘𝕖𝕣. 𝔸𝕟𝕕 𝕀 𝕗𝕦𝕔𝕜𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕙𝕒𝕥𝕖 𝕚𝕥. 𝕊𝕠 𝕀’𝕞 𝕘𝕠𝕟𝕟𝕒 𝕔𝕙𝕖𝕔𝕜 𝕚𝕟 𝕖𝕧𝕖𝕣𝕪𝕕𝕒𝕪-𝕖𝕧𝕖𝕣𝕪 𝕠𝕥𝕙𝕖𝕣 𝕕𝕒𝕪. 𝔹𝕦𝕥 𝕞𝕪 𝕨𝕖𝕚𝕘𝕙𝕥 𝕟𝕠𝕨 𝕚𝕤 𝟚𝟜𝟘.𝟘𝕝𝕓𝕤. 𝕊𝕠 𝕙𝕖𝕣𝕖 𝕨𝕖 𝕘𝕠.

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Cant believe in starting this again. I just want the control. Tired of being a pig. (Random pic)

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Just a little check in. So my original weight was 250lbs 🤢 but i just hit the 230s. Yes I’ve been restricting a lot and work definitely helps as well. I wear an apple watch from the moment I wake up to the moment I go to bed, so it helps keep track of all the calories i burn through out the day. My goal is to be 216lbs, that’s where barbie from euphoria is, and that’s my ultimate goal for now. I will update once I hit that or lower.

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Day I have no idea:

Okay so basically i started over and it’s been about 8 days. I had one slip up day but it was only one meal so whatever. But I want to know what to do to make me lose even more weight when I am already not consuming more than 1000 cals. Any suggestions?

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Day 2~~~

day 2~~ yeah yeah..its 1 am but im here to check in. Went to work and didnt eat anything. I work at starbucks so you can see how tempting that it. I got this protein box, it had 450 calories. Then I came home and we ordered pho and spring rolls. At that point I just hate myself. I heard about the "grapefruit diet." And honestly, i wanna do it but in my own way. Like basically live off of grapefruit lol. Idk. I know my limit is 1000 calories a day. But I want to lower it to 700-800. Anywayy, yall ever feel like rue from euphoria, but with food? yeah, we live off of bingeing, then not eating for days bevause we feel guilty, vaping until we throw up, and drinking monsters at 1 am.

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Day 1~ So i ate literally nothing today until around 7. I consumed like 600 calories which was great. Then I gave in and ate this rice stuff my mom bought. BUT THEN I got super nauseous ( i am now) from vaping. It happens when you do it wayy to much. So i threw up (literally liquid) and it didnt help. So now i just feel sick and dizzy. Sooo to sum up the day, i sucked and then overdosed. I am gonna lie down, i literally feel terrible.

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i start tomorrow. i genuinely believe that if i come on here and keep track. that you guys can hold me accountable. butttttt lets do this shit huh