unhingedgreenbeans

[unhingedgreenbeans]

HOW BOUT THAT HALFTIME SHOW???? 👀👀👀👀

[unhingedgreenbeans]

Scratch all of that shit I said 2 months ago LMAO

[unhingedgreenbeans]

is someone wrong with me or what??

so i just recently attended a wedding with a friend of mine. mind you, i had no idea who these people were, i was just there as my friend's plus one because he didn't want to go by himself.

so a little back story about me is that i don't date. i don't have time or energy for it. plus, i'm in college and i'm very dedicated to my education. i've come to the conclusion that i just....won't date? i just don't believe it's in the cards for me at the moment or anytime soon and i'm completely SET on that. but like....is it normal to have a feeling of longing for love?

back to the present, as soon as this wedding is over i'm planning for my own wedding from my brides maids, to times, catering, itinerary, music. i'm scrolling through pinterest trying to find dress, hair, venue inspo, completely enamored with the idea of having a wedding, but completely forgetting that my love life is nonexistent and. so i just pause and im like 'wtf is wrong with me?' and the disappointed i felt when i realized that i was doing it for nothing was palpable. little girls and teens fantasize about their future weddings all the time, but have they felt that same disappointment when the realize that possibly it's not going to happen for a really long time?

but like obviously i'm not going to run and go search for a guy just to make it a reality because i have goals and fully intend on sticking with them but sometimes i wish i could see into the future and see if maybe i'll get the wedding i started planning or if ill even get one at all. it makes me feel like i was a different type of person. the type to allow myself to get attached to someone and actually understand what love is like with a romantic partner. the type we're i can dedicate myself to multiple things instead of one at a time.

i don't know, it made me feel like i got my hopes up in some time of way.

ANYWAYS best pray bout it! 😁🤷‍♀️

yours truly,

T

[unhingedgreenbeans]

i have a hunch that ghost face calls his significant other 'doll face' 👀🤭