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no more am i vlaakith’s child. i have been born anew in gith’s son. the prince of the comet will soar and the age of vlaakith will end! ch'mar zal'a orpheus! mha stil'na forjun inyeri!

antigone’s private interpretation of a canon divergent lae'zel from baldur's gate iii, with heavy focus on post-game ( utilizing original lore and inspiration from an altered version of the lich-queen's beloved module ). unassociated with the fandom/rpc.

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MIDNIGHT MASS + vampire eyes

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' you know you can leave whenever you want - i told you that, right? ' / @tragedyplay ( from hexxat! )

Can she sense his anxiety? The way he drums his fingers on the table without pause, his focus centred elsewhere, distanced, but Hexxat's words still find their mark. He doesn't feel like a hostage. No, he wants to be here; needs to be. It is the closest he — they — have ever come to finding a solution that would once again allow him to walk in sunlight. His time in daylight ended too soon, and still he grieves for it.

Astarion forces his hand to still; fingers curling into his palm as he forces a weary smile. ❝ I want to stay. ❞ The feeling is most bizarre — to behold another vampire that isn't a threat to him or to a master who feared being overthrown. Hexxat has been more than hospitable; her willingness to allow them into her home, despite knowing nothing about them other than the obvious… He is another vampire wondering just how she acquired her magic cloak.

He grows quiet in his seat, fingers once again occupying themselves with a mindless task. ❝ We've been traveling for months. Seeking out any lead we've come to learn about, only to be met with another ending that goes nowhere. Everything is an adjustment, even being continuously let down. ❞ Finally, he looks to her, the elder vampire's demeanour calm and unassuming as she listens. ❝ It's so different when you're in a city without the… 'protection' of a master. Feeding has been hard; Laera worries I might get caught. For once, I feel as though I can be at peace here. Even for a little while. ❞

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did you know that astarion's name means "little prince of stars"???

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Matteo Martari as Francesco Pazzi S02E01 • Medici: The Magnificent

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i was chatting with @chmarva and we were talking about vampires, and they asked me if i ever thought astarion would be cured of his vampirism, and as far as my canon is concerned, he won't ever be cured (in the interim).

i feel as though curing him is almost like cheapening his character; as if curing him will erase all of his pain and suffering bc of its immediate connection to his abuser.

i fully promote the idea of astarion learning how to live as a vampire with people that love him, in a life that he can have complete control over — a life that he can find genuine happiness in — in spite of his vampirism. tbh i think that's beautiful, and that much, i think he deserves.

as a sidebar: i also appreciate how the game makes it very clear that in his epilogue (and before that, endgame), he isn't intending to cure himself, but rather find a way to walk in sunlight. bc that's what's important to him; he's mentioned how much he adores sunlight since early act 1 and he's determined to have it! 😭

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     the haunting of hill house      sentence meme

episodes 7-8

did you say you took cream or sugar?

the clothes okay?

if there’s blood on your clothes, we have to take them - you understand.

you know you can leave whenever you want - i told you that, right?

i’ve been up all night. i probably said some crazy stuff.

i’m not under arrest?

i’ve gotta be honest. it’s a mess. it’s a real mess.

you like to fix things.

you’re good at fixing things.

talk about what happened last night.

what a mess.

never seen a storm make a mess like this.

fother mucker!

i fucked up last night.

i mean, i really fucked up.

i should have made more of an effort with you.

people fuck up. i guess you don’t really get that until you fuck up.

gotta start somewhere.

you were always good at that.

i didn’t get a chance last night to tell you how proud i am of you.

it’s okay to just sit.

so you’re saying the best hangover remedy is heroin?

are you fucking kidding me?

you didn’t tell me that they died.

if i wanted you to know that i’d have told you that.

fuck my day.

i’m guessing you heard what happened at the wedding.

be safe down here.

it probably isn’t my place, but maybe she could use a little time away.

i mean, s/he’s brave, and these nightmares… they had her/him down in a corner, shaking so bad i thought s/he’d seize up dead.

we stopped coming here after dark.

never spend a minute inside after dark.

prayer’s not really our thing, but i take your point.

not everything’s about you.

you have problems.

if there’s one thing we can take away from today, it’s that in the end, all you guys have is each other.

we all fuck up and we can be upset with each other, but one day, we’ll wake up and it’ll be too late.

stay the fuck out of my business.

this one’s totally screwed!

i want to help.

alright, you fucker.

you didn’t see them, because they’re dead.

i’ve seen things all week, but it’s not real.

if you don’t get your shit together, like they didn’t get their shit together, you’ll end up just like them, you understand?

it’s in our genes - it’s a sickness.

get it together.

stop talking like a fucking crazy person.

i don’t want to bury you too, you understand?

we’re almost through it.

i was having a horrible dream.

you’re holding a fucking screwdriver to my throat!

maybe you should take a break.

you don’t have to feel crazy.

big boys know the difference between what’s real and imaginary.

you little shits are dead.

i’m sorry i didn’t talk, and i’m sorry i didn’t listen.

it’s the regret of my life.

oh no, she’s gonna kill someone.

the big question is how aggressive do you have to be?

i mean, suicides can cluster in families.

of course you’re safe with me.

jesus christ, you’re out of line.

she used to say she was the kite and i was the line.

i don’t even know how we got there.

what the hell, you stupid asshole. what are you, insane?

we still fought sometimes, but it was different.

you fight with love.

you’re on the same team, even in the middle of a fight.

i hope, really, that you get to experience that sometime.

i love her today as much as i did in the beginning.

can we talk when i get back?

i can’t lose anyone else.

everything i did, i did to protect you.

just take the fucking candy and go.

i’m not in the fucking mood!

what the fuck do you want?!

if you would just let me talk…

you ice people out! you always have!

i ice people out? have you met yourself?!

you fucking suck at apologies.

i’m an adult.

i am a fucking doctor.

you’re a fucking slut.

did you just punch me in the boob–?

that’s what you get. you get punched in the fucking boob.

some fucking kids playing a prank is what happened.

that’s not the only thing like that that’s happened here tonight.

that’s why you think you’ll never have kids?

the whole fucking family is on the brink of a breakdown and seeing things that aren’t there, hearing things that aren’t there, and that shit happened after the house. there’s something wrong with our goddamn brains.

i thought i was being kind. i really thought that.

see, we’re all fucking crazy.

did he say anything weird or do anything?

now you’re gonna listen to me.

our family is like an unfinished meal to that house.

that house is the most dangerous place in the world for all of us, but especially for you.

i know you saw a ghost.

do you know what ‘witness marks’ are?

witness marks tell the story of the piece, if you know how to read them.

you see the marks, but you don’t know how to read them.

you just don’t know what i’m dealing with.

the fuck is wrong with you?!

i don’t need to hear your excuses or your bullshit!

do you fucking believe that?!

it spread everywhere in me, this nothing, until i couldn’t feel anything anymore.

i drank and i drank and nothing worked. i couldn’t feel anything.

i just reached for him because i had to feel something.

i didn’t see him.

i felt shame, and i felt grief, and i felt scared.

i felt so fucking scared.

i had to do it, because it felt better than nothing.

thorough fucking shame was so much better than horrible, empty nothing.

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Matthew x Diana in A Discovery of Witches (2018-2022)

S01E02

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The mention of an arrangement forces the wily smile the young magistrate wears to fall from his face. He scoffs then, lip curling into an obvious expression of disagreement as his gaze averts to a painting on the wall. ❝ Always one to sour the mood, aren't you, fiend? ❞ The way Astarion punctuates his words, noticeably laced with a sort of disdain, but ignoring the obvious truth that if not for this fiend — and his own self-serving motivations — Astarion would not sit as magistrate on a highly esteemed council. He would not have the home he lives in; the praise he desired from his peers; the power to correct the lives of others. Everything he had was because of this fiend.

He remembers when Vespin darkened his door some years past, emerging with an offer of greatness in exchange for something he thought little of: His soul. The triviality of its worth truly meant little to him; not when he planned for the entirety of his living life to be lived in a way he wanted. Even now, he indulges in his many pleasures, free of worry.

❝ For me? You shouldn't have… ❞ Astarion replies, ringed hand reaching to pull the documents closer to him. ❝ As if I weren't already buried in case work as is… Organising upcoming motions, fighting off the criticisms of the defense — you know, I already have something of a reputation for being unfair. They call it unfair; I call it justice. ❞ Carelessly, he flips through the first folio, perusing only a few pages worth before he looks up to Vespin examining his wine bottle. ❝ Allow me to guess: Some asset of yours needs saving? ❞

Astarion @vampyrictus says to Vespin: ❝ i had a feeling you’d show up. it’s sort of our thing. like it’s fate or something. ❞

Or something. VESPIN watched with impassive eyes at the Astarion he had created – a magistrate, high and mighty, revered and feared. Wealth and power will come to him now, like water flowing downstream. An indistinct patch of his skin tingled when he came near Astarion. The elf's name scorched and carved under his skin forevermore. One of his trophies. One of his crimes. One of the many souls he had damned to the Hells.

“ We have a business arrangement, ” Vespin said mildly, taking a drink of the wine he lifted from Astarion's dining hall. He was never one for the fermented fruit juice when he was alive. But nowadays, moisture was moisture. He was always so parched when he first emerged from the Hells.

“ ... Looks you've settled into your new station in life comfortably. Surely you haven't forgotten about friends who got you here. ” A piece of parchment was pushed over the table. Vespin tapped at it with a clawed finger. “ A few cases that require your attention. Look them over, and rule accordingly. ”

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interview with the vampire by anne rice parts i & ii

this really happened, didn't it?

people who cease to believe in god or goodness all together still believe in the devil.

i thought you wanted to die, (name).

have you ever lost a great amount of blood? do you know the feeling?

don't fall so madly in love with the night that you lose your way!

do it. you can't turn back now.

i'll kill them all.

the fact is i want you gone from here.

you'll never forgive me, will you? not now, not even after i'm dead.

did i give you the impression that i could not feel?

do you think that angels are detached?

why have you come to me tonight?

i believe you come from the devil!

be prepared to kill!

i thought only of you, when i had no need to think of you at all.

you think i come from the devil?

i am to live to the end of the world, and i do not even know what i am!

good night, sweet prince.

you're being morbid!

it's only for a moment and there'll be no more pain.

i will not die, i cannot die.

are you afraid of me, (name)?

tell me what a monster i am.

what do you think a vampire is?

you are in love with your mortal nature.

does it bring you happiness?

you're dead, love.

all this time, i suppose i kept from straightening you out because you were best weaker.

it's as if you want us both to be destroyed.

i can't stand to watch what you're doing.

you won't let me die, will you?

i can't remember my sins.

let me show you what you are.

evil is a point of view.

i don't want it if it hurts you.

i should have known that it was inevitable.

did you bury them?

i bought this from one of the vendors.

you made us what we are, didn't you?

you could be dead by now if you were mortal!

be glad i made you what you are.

kill with me tonight.

i cannot bear to lose you.

you're the only companion i have in immortality.

aren't you the same as i?

i was your victim!

he will not let us go.

why do you never talk about him?

i want to make peace with you. i want things to be as they were.

i take care of you. you don't need anything.

come down into the darkness. let it all go away.

we deserve to die.

i did it for us. so we could be free.

do you want to come into the confessional?

do you fear god at all?

let the flesh instruct the mind.

someone followed me.

why do you look that way at me?

you don't understand the danger of fear itself.

what can the damned really say to the damned?

the night's no time for travelling.

i think i'm going mad!

do you think he knows we're coming?

let me lead you. there's no turning back now.

take me into your arms.

don't you sense the danger? can't you breathe it like the air?

do you hear it?

the final decision will always rest with you.

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all i'm saying is i'm thrilled my mans finally got some funky knife idle animations

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astarion: i could have lived eternally in cazador's pleasure chambers. i'm not afraid to die. i'm afraid i'll never have a new life after that.

i'm going through astarion's dialogues and this man wants so badly to be given the chance to live his life, one that was robbed from him....

😭

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Astarion holds his response, the brutality of the Drow's words pulling a tight-lipped smile across his pallid face. If nothing else, he's practical. He keeps his gaze trtrained on the shadows melting into the treeline, as if something were to materialise from them. As if the spectre in the woods would show itself. Astarion knows, however, the elusive suspect is not so far from where he stands… He wonders what compelled the other to act — a thought he rightly keeps to himself.

❝ Aha! I'm honoured you would even bother, ❞ The rogue at last says, hands dropping his belt as he turns to face his campside companion. ❝ Why not simply move onto the next place to rest? Alternatively, leave my corpse as a… warning for those who pass by. Beware! There's a vicious creature goring unsuspecting travelers. ❞ Despite the chuckle in his throat, it masks only the slight offense he feels knowing A'byssel would treat his corpse with so little respect. Telling. ❝ Indulge me if you will: What sorts of horrors lurked in the Underdark? ❞

❛ Not unless it kills you. We're no good to each other dead. ❜ A considerate gaze is cast at the trees, scanning for nothing in particular but engaging in the performative gesture anyways. ❛ If you want to wander the night, I won't stop you. But if I find your corpse at sunrise . . . ❜

He turns to offer a dry look & dismissive shrug. ❛ I won't waste daylight hours digging an Overelf shaped hole. ❜ He sees no less clearly in the dimness, watching the lines of his companion's face as he, eager to glean any reason to openly distrust him. Force of habit. ❛ I would, however, drag your carcass to the river so nothing else was tempted to draw near. Whatever was left of it, anyways. ❜

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Really quick doodles of a few scenes from the stream yesterday. Including combat flirting taunting, gale’s magnificently distracting shoes and.. whatever you wanna call gale agreeing to give 15 gold to astarion 😐😑😐😑😐 (that’s me blinking)

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me, casually adding into astarion's canon that he made a deal with a devil aka @vchloras at some point when he was a lawyer...

it's even more funny bc his initial intent to contact raphael is only bc he got out of that first contract with vespin on a technicality.

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His level of restraint surprises even himself at times. Freedom was so generous in what it gave him; rediscovering all of its pleasures could have been a fast and perilous descent into madness. Yet, sense was not wholly lost. The emergence of his newest problem, an unwanted tenant nestled in his skull, divides his focus between assisting in the search for aid, and occasionally indulging in his wants. ❝ I am excellent in the art of self-restraint… Except for when I'm not. You have nothing to fear though, Arlis! I wouldn't dream of purposely endangering your life, not when you've proven yourself so useful. ❞ Luck has perhaps favoured him. Astarion might have found himself in the company of others less as talented, and then where would he be?

❝ My expectations of your parents might have been slightly higher than the truth, but I can't say I'm surprised… ❞ He leans backward on his hands, the heels of his shoes digging into the slope of the edge that he sits upon. ❝ I've known many, many people who have given much and more for all of those things. Myself included when I actually had the luxury of commanding my own life. You bring up a fair point, although it doesn't necessarily absolve your parents of their treatment of you. ❞

As the words leave his lips, something sparks in the dark of his memory. Nothing exact, but a feeling: The forgotten warmth of the mother that raised him. Oh, if she saw him now, Astarion believes she might be utterly disappointed in the man he was and later became. ❝ You know, I made a deal with a devil once. For the things you say tempted your parents. ❞ He wonders what Arlis would think of that revelation, speaking of the experience as normally as one might discuss plans for the day. Despite his fractured memories, he remembers that one rather vividly. The shape of the fiend that took form in his doorway, promising him prestige and the awe of his peers, and in his clawed hands he held a contract… ❝ I said then I would do anything to advance in my career, and then.. a devil came knocking. ❞

𝐒𝐇𝐄 𝐋𝐈𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐍𝐒 𝐐𝐔𝐈𝐄𝐓𝐋𝐘, 𝐂𝐀𝐑𝐄𝐅𝐔𝐋𝐋𝐘 and with each word, regardless of the flash of that charming, suddenly hollow smile, arlis feels a slow, churning horror rise up in her. the only tales she knows of vampires are whispers and warnings, the sorts of stories parents might tell an unruly child to garner obedience, but this? this is a different sort of dread that now stirs in her, mingled with an undeniable fury. ❛ there's something to be said for the fact you didn't, astarion, ❜ there's a slow, soft somberness to her voice, admiration, ❛ had our places been reversed, i don't think i'd have been able to stop myself from gorging on everything, on anything i wanted after being denied for so long. i'd have sank my teeth into any throat within reach. i'd be tearing at the veins of the whole damn world. ❜

it's an ugly truth, but the elf aside her deserves to hear it. it's been a night of brutal confessions, whispered acknowledgements, but there is that strange, blinding sense of freedom that accompanies it all. ❛ no, i didn't know. i wasn't supposed to ever find out, not until it would've been too late. ❜ her fingers lift to plait thick hair into a braid, the gesture helping to mask their faint trembling. ❛ that bargain was struck before i was born. one child in exchange for survival, wealth & power. not a bad deal, truth be told. ❜

all these years later and still she remembers every moment of that night, at the cost of forgetting what color her mother's eyes were, how tall her father was. she isn't certain whether to mourn that loss or be grateful for it. ❛ i used to wonder why my parents kept their distance, figured i just wasn't the sort of child that was easy to love. ❜ her lips purse into a thin line, a thoughtful hum following before she glances to astarion. ❛ why try and love something you've promised away? of everything, i don't think i can blame them that. ❜

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thinking about when astarion is falling in love and he's unsure of how to show affection... and his lover shows him affection doesn't always equate to sex; real affection can take on many forms. so in this instance he allows himself to just held in someone's arms. his lover his warm; he can hear their hear beating. there's no words, just warm silence.

it's comforting.