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tag 10 people you would like to get to know better

favourite color. usually goes back and forth between maroon and like a lavender purple

song stuck in my head. mama's boy

last song you listened to. thy mission

favourite foods. cheese burgers, flautas, kbbq

dream trip. as silly and simple, mainly florida for the theme parks

anything you want right now. i wanna hang out with my friends -- but we all got conflicting schedules.

tagged by: @gravityfought

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( wakes up in a haze )

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𝐻𝐸  𝑆𝑃𝑂𝐾𝐸  𝑇𝑂  𝑀𝐸  with  a  voice  to  sweet. i  thought  i  heard  the  shuffle  of  angel’s feet. he called my name,  and  my  heart  stood  still  when  he  said,   “ 𝑱𝑶𝑯𝑵,  𝑮𝑶  𝑫𝑶  𝑴𝒀  𝑾𝑰𝑳𝑳. ” // 𝚓𝚘𝚑𝚗 𝚖𝚊𝚛𝚜𝚝𝚘𝚗 from     𝐑𝐄𝐃 𝐃𝐄𝐀𝐃 𝐑𝐄𝐃𝐄𝐌𝐏𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍. 1 and 2 canon & headcanon - based. wanted by hari. ©

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emotional prompts.

basically i got soap in my eye while i was taking a shower and now i'm angsty so. bon appetit!

" i needed you. i needed you, and you weren't here! so where the HELL were you?! "

" i... i'm so tired... "

" everything's falling apart. "

" i loved you! i l loved you so bad it hurt! and now i'm over you, and you're telling me it wasn't all for nothing?! when it's too late?! "

" how dare you! "

" i'd move all the stars in the sky if i thought it would ever make you happy. "

" please... please, tell me how to fix this. "

" i did this. i ruined everything... "

" don't go. please. i... i don't want to be alone... "

" i tried fixing this. i knelt down and put it all back together, but... it's never going to be like it was before. is it? "

" could... could you just hold me, a while? "

" oh, love... what have you done? "

" i just... don't care anymore. "

" you aren't a monster. "

" you never talk about your past... why? "

" i never want to see you again! "

" you asshole! you asshole, i hate you! i hate you, i hate you, i hate you! "

" why would you DO that?! "

" i don't hate you. god, i could never hate you... "

" i would've done anything for you. but now... i mean, it seems so clear how one-sided this whole relationship was. "

" i think this is where we part ways. "

" for what it's worth... i always liked you. "

" do you have any better ideas? because trust me, i'm all ears! i don't want to do this! but we're literally out of options! "

" if i could take it all back, i would... but i can't. "

" i should've listened to you. why... why the hell didn't i listen to you... "

" you're not your past. "

" you know what? you're on your own. i can't watch you get yourself killed. "

" if you could only see yourself through my eyes... "

" we've all done stupid, terrible things. but it's not about that. not anymore. all that matters is how we proceed now. "

" none of it was real. "

" to me it was real! it felt real! "

" don't do that. don't act like you don't give a damn. "

" we both know there's nothing here for me. not really. but you... you have a whole life here, ready and waiting to be lived. "

" don't be angry. please, don't be angry. i can take it from just about anyone, but not you... "

" i can't let you do this... "

" why are you still here?! why?! i destroy everything i touch! and yet you still stick around! "

" i love you. always have, and always will. i... i need you to remember that for me. please. "

" this is what your plan is? hiding? disappearing and running away when the going gets tough? fuck you. "

" they've/you've taken EVERYTHING from me! "

" i trusted you! "

" i lied. "

" i'm sorry. "

" you/they don't get to walk away! you/they don't get to act like nothing ever happened! "

" i forgive you. "

" i'm not angry. anger is a luxury i afford for the people i love and care about. but you... well. i'm just resigned to it, i guess. "

" we're done. "

" i don't love you anymore. "

" you don't get to be mad at me! "

" don't touch me. "

" please... say something. "

" none of this would've happened if you had just listened! "

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she's pretty, ur honor.

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salutations, friends! this is an independent, private roleplay blog for dutch van der linde of red dead redemption! maybe give this post a boop around if you're interested in interacting? thank you !

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✧˚ · . 𝐒𝐎𝐍𝐆 𝐎𝐅 𝐀𝐂𝐇𝐈𝐄𝐋𝐋𝐄𝐒.

john  never  really  minded  going  out  on  his  own. as  much  as  he  didn't  mind  company  where  he  got  it,  things  had  just  been... weird. the  young  adult  was  still  getting  used  to  everything... and  after  just  returning  from  his  time  away,  he  was  unsure  if  he  was  even  worthy  of  anyone's  company. he  didn't  blame  anyone  for  being  mad  at  him. john  was  mad  at  himself.

 after  settling  his  bedroll  on  his  thoroughbred,  eyebrows  furrow  as  the  older  man  speaks. it  was  like  every  day  arthur  had  to  pry  open  wounds  john  was  desperately  trying  to  close. ❝  i  don't  need  a  damn  babysitter,  morgan. 'm  sure  dutch  would  rather  you  do  something  '  more  important. '  ❞  he  replies  with  a  frown.

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john and abigail mean so much to me.

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she's pretty, ur honor.

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im so normal about john and his dynamics with others.

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♡ The Song Of Achilles Sentence Starters ♡

Quotes from the book ‘The Song of Achilles’ by Madeline Miller! Feel free to adjust as needed

“And perhaps it is the greater grief, after all, to be left on earth when another is gone.”

“Name one hero who was happy.“

“They never let you be famous AND happy.”

“He is half of my soul, as the poets say.”

“When he died, all things soft and beautiful and bright would be buried with him.”

“We were like gods at the dawning of the world, & our joy was so bright we could see nothing else but the other.”

“I am made of memories.”

“He waits for you.”

“He smiled, and his face was like the sun.”

“There are no bargains between lion and men. I will kill you and eat you raw.”

“He is a weapon, a killer. Do not forget it. You can use a spear as a walking stick, but that will not change its nature.”

“I will never leave him. It will be this, always, for as long as he will let me.”

“But what if he is your friend?”

“You ask a question that philosophers argue over”

“And perhaps it is the greater grief, after all, to be left on earth when another is gone. Do you think?”

“I wish he had let you all die.”

“Will you come with me?”

“We are all there, goddess and mortal and the boy who was both.”

“When I am dead, I charge you to mingle our ashes and bury us together.”

“It is right to seek peace for the dead. You and I both know there is no peace for those who live after.”

“I am air and thought and can do nothing.”

“I would know him in death, at the end of the world.”

“She wants you to be a god"

“He is more worth to you, perhaps “

“Now I know how to make you follow me everywhere.”

“If you have to go, you know I will go with you.”

“There is no honour in betraying your friends.”

“The sound was pure and sweet as water, bright as lemons.”

“I yearn for the darkness and silence of the underworld, where I can rest.”

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do i make a cowboy multi sideblog or do i just make a sideblog for my oc, hmm...

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he's  definitely  had  too  much  to  drink. though  his  wife's  words  were  calming,  john  still  couldn't  help  but  feel  guilty. the  former  outlaw  never  entirely  thought  of  himself  as  a  good  person. in  fact,  he  wasn't  sure  if  he  was  fully  capable  of  a  clean  life,  no  matter  how  hard  he  tried.

 he  wonders  if  he'll  ever  feel  deserving  of  abigail. she  wasn't  perfect  either,  but  she  deserved  much  more  than  him. she'll  always  deserve  more  than  john  can  ever  give  her. ❝  don't  i  know  it,  ❞  he  responds  to  her  first  statement  with  a  slight  chuckle. out  of  everyone  they  ended  up  with... uncle  was  last  person  john  was  expecting.

  ❝ 'm  fine,  i  just  --  ❞  there's  a  hand  that  rubs  the  back  of  his  neck. he  doesn't  want  to  accuse  anything,  because,  at  the  end  of  the  day,  abigail  chose  him. still,  he  was  curious  about  what  she  thought  about  the  situation. ❝  read  somethin'  in  arthur's  journal. it  got  me  thinkin'... ❞  the  pause  goes  on  longer  than  he  was  expecting,  ❝  did  you  know  ?  about  his  feelings  for  you  ?  ❞

SHE IS TIRED ENTERING the house, but it hardly shows. all in a days work. he's awful big on talking all of a sudden , and to be honest she can't help but find it a bit humorous. when john marston speaks up to have more personal moments , it's always over something that they left behind.

" i guess. " she'd say , simply. she is taking a seat with her eyebrow to raise at him. then the how are you question arises and she can no longer stifle her laugh. " you're .. askin' me how i am ? " he sure was funny , full of surprises. they don't check up too much on each other these days , but he does check once in a while to see if she's happy. that was nice. " got too dumb men in my life .. " she'd begin , slow to grin. " couldn't be any happier then i am , john. "

slow to lean close , she is taking his hand in her own and looking intently into his eyes. there are few moments they could be so pure with one another , but she had it in her today. " you alright , gunslinger ? " her words carry enthusiastically.

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he  was  sitting  down  at  the  table,�� finger  tapping  as  he  held  onto  the  bottle  in  his  hand. maybe  he  had  too  much  to  drink,  but  john  had  many  thoughts  that  raced  in  his  head  as  he  went  through  various  scenarios.

when  @charmedslugs  entered  the  house,  eyes  dart  to  her  --  but  he  wonders  what  her  life  would  have  been  if...

❝  hey  darlin',  i  --  do  you  mind  if  we  talk  ?  ❞  he  asks,  though  his  tone  is  unsure. still,  free  ha  nd  motions  towards  the  chair  across  from  him. ❝  how've  you  been  ?  ❞

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#𝐅𝐈𝐍𝐀𝐋𝐒𝐋𝐀𝐘  —  in  the  final  cut,  in  the  final  scene,  there’s  a  final  girl,  and  you  know  that  she  should  be  screaming.    /    written  by  grace.

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u know what, maybe i am thinking about how john finds out arthur's feelings about abigail after reading his journal, what about it ?