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this  blog  is  now  archived.  i  won't  be  remaking  for  the  meantime,  but  i  have  re-added  cordy  to  my  btvs  multi  with  a  new  face  claim:      @hllmouths

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recasting is so hard because how can two people both be so perfect

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i unfortunately no longer feel comfortable using ch.arisma ca.rpenter as a fc and that may be why i've been neglecting this blog. i am currently searching for a replacement & am fully open to suggestions. i will then revamp with a new blog. i understand if people don't want to interact with a recast cordelia, so no hard feelings if you don't follow me over to the new place, but i cannot in good conscience continue to use her.

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i unfortunately no longer feel comfortable using ch.arisma ca.rpenter as a fc and that may be why i've been neglecting this blog. i am currently searching for a replacement & am fully open to suggestions. i will then revamp with a new blog. i understand if people don't want to interact with a recast cordelia, so no hard feelings if you don't follow me over to the new place, but i cannot in good conscience continue to use her.

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i unfortunately no longer feel comfortable using ch.arisma ca.rpenter as a fc and that may be why i've been neglecting this blog. i am currently searching for a replacement & am fully open to suggestions. i will then revamp with a new blog. i understand if people don't want to interact with a recast cordelia, so no hard feelings if you don't follow me over to the new place, but i cannot in good conscience continue to use her.

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BUFFY THE VAMPIRE SLAYER 1.11 “Out of Mind, Out of Sight”

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"I DON'T WANT TO GET INVOLVED" PROMPTS *  assorted dialogue for saying i don't want to get roped into your bs, basically, adjust as necessary

that sounds like a you problem.

i have no desire to get involved.

don't rope me into this.

this isn't what we agreed to.

i have limits, you know.

i'm retired. sorry.

everything's a life or death situation with you at this point.

this is getting to be too much for me to handle.

this is out of control.

we could get in serious trouble.

you're dragging me into something i can't handle.

please don't wrap me into something stupid.

you never told me you were involving me.

i'm not risking my life for you.

unfortunately, this is my breaking point.

i'm not here to solve your problems.

i can't help you.

go find someone else to bother.

you can say it until you're blue in the face. the answer is still no.

i can't fix this for you. you have to be the one to do it.

cry all you want, but i'm staying out of it.

you told me you would keep me out of this.

when were you going to tell me?

you did this, not me.

there are plenty of people out there willing to help you.

you're responsible for my safety now.

when did my name get thrown into the ring?

i want no part in your bullshit.

don't rope me in.

this is getting out of hand fast.

this isn't what i pictured.

you made it sound like it would be an easy fix.

you promised me you'd protect me from this.

no one's supposed to know i'm here.

that wasn't part of our agreement.

i do this one thing, and then you let me go?

what's it going to take for you to let me leave?

i'm up to my shoulders in bullshit.

you're the one who stuck your neck out. i'm just along for the ride.

how many times do i have to say it? i'm not interested in getting involved.

we can't make this work.

you'll never convince me to stay.

i've got my own problems i'm dealing with.

my world's upside down enough as it is.

i don't need to juggle your crap as well as my own.

there's gotta be someone else who can help you.

i left the business a long time ago.

unless you have any more questions, i'm going back to work.

well, good luck with that.

sounds like you've got a lot you're dealing with.

i hope it goes well for you.

you didn't have to drag my name into this.

why did you pick me?

i said i didn't have time for this.

i know what i said, but i'm taking it back.

that wasn't part of the deal.

you're using my words against me.

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CORDELIA & DOYLE in RM W/A VU 1x05 | ANGEL (1991 - 2004)

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she’s  been  placed    (  officially  as  well  as  begrudgingly  )    on  desk  duty.      ⸻      boss’  orders.  cordelia  doesn’t  care  a  whole  lot  for  it.  the  old  her  would  have.  the  girl  from  sunnydale,  dreaming  of  stardom;    she  would’ve  jumped  at  the  chance  to  sit  by  a  silent  phone  all  day    &    read  gossip  magazines,  but  that  wasn’t  her  anymore.  she’d  grown.  from  cheerleader  to  𝚌𝚑𝚊𝚖𝚙𝚒𝚘𝚗,  being  in  the  thick  of  fighting  the  good  fight  had  become  almost  second  nature  to  her  now.  being  taken  out  the  field,  even  if  angel  did  so  with  the  best  intentions,  had  her  shifting  around  uncomfortably    /    restless,  unable  to  relax.  he’s  looking  out  for  her.  ever  since  wolfram    &    hart  pulled  their  𝚌𝚑𝚎𝚊𝚙  𝚝𝚛𝚒𝚌𝚔  with  her  visions,  he’s  been  cautious.  too  cautious  almost,  though  bones  that  ache  and  throb  as  a  result  of  her  last  glimpse  into  the  future  silently  thank  him.  at  least  it  gives  her  a  chance  to  catch  up  on  research,  eyes  quietly  going  over  everything  they’d  tried  to  gather  on  the  man  angel  rescued  for  lilah.  it’s  become  somewhat  of  an  𝚘𝚋𝚜𝚎𝚜𝚜𝚒𝚘𝚗  of  cordelia’s,  given  that  he  only  did  it  to  save  her.    ＂    jeez.  you’d  think  a  dude  imprisoned  in  a  hell  dimension  might’ve  left  some  breadcrumbs  behind.    ＂    one  hand  lifts  to  massage  temple,  muttering  under  breath.  

the  last  thing  she  expects  is  another  voice  to  make  itself  heard.  gaze  immediately  snaps  up  and  widens,  stunned  into  momentary    (    and  uncharacteristic  )    silence  at  WHO  she  sees  standing  there  when  she  looks  up.    ＂    buffy?    ＂    eyes  have  to  blink  a  few  times,  just  to  be  sure.  yup,  that’s  definitely  one  very  spright  slayer.    ＂    buffy.  wow    …    you’re  actually  here.      ⸻      you’re  alive.    ＂    it  isn’t  news  exactly.  they’d  all  been  there  when  angel  received  the  call.  however,  there  was  a  big  difference  in  hearing  it  and  seeing  @insufferablemonsters  right  here,  in  los  angeles.    ＂    good!  good  for  you.  that’s,  um    …    good?  you  look  great.    ＂    it’s  a  struggle  to  find  the  right  words  and  nose  crinkles,  taking  a  moment  to  fully  process  before  trying  again.    ＂    hi.    ＂    this  time,  lips  spread  into  a  relaxed  smile,  placing  case  file  back  down  on  reception  counter.  she  can  get  back  to  those  later.    ＂    if  you’re  looking  for  angel,  you’ve  just  missed  him.  he  took  wesley    &    gunn  to  go  deal  with  a  𝚠𝚎𝚗𝚍𝚒𝚐𝚘  𝚙𝚛𝚘𝚋𝚕𝚎𝚖  downtown.  they  said  they  wouldn’t  be  long,  but  i  wouldn’t  hold  ‘em  to  it.  that  thing  was  huge.    ＂    visions  are  clearer  these  days.  she  sees  𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗿𝘆𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗴,  feels  everything.  even  smells  everything.    ＂    you’re  welcome  to  wait  though.  it’s  just  me  and  fred  here,  and  honestly,  you’d  probably  be  a  lot  more  company  than  the  gal  who  never  wants  to  leave  her  room.    ＂

EVERYTHING STILL FELT VIOLENTLY SENSITIVE AND BEWILDERINGLY FRESH TO THE REVIVED VAMPIRE SLAYER. after having to go through the gut-wrenching journey from ( what she could only assume as ) a peaceful, heavenly dimension back to reality where darkness and evil consumed all light. her friends felt foreign to her and her body felt detached from her own self. with every step she took in her own skin, it felt as though she was melting into the floor and falling into her own pit of hell. she needed a break from her daily responsibilities as a sister, a friend, and maybe even so as the slayer. she needed to feel something other than the consuming desire to return back to her tranquil state in the ground because she couldn't do that to her loved ones a second time; she doesn't think she could even bare the thought of letting them down again and abandoning them once more.

BECAUSE OF THIS BREAK SHE CRAVED IN HER NEW LIFE, SHE DECIDED TO TAKE A FEW DAYS OFF FROM SUNNYHELL AND PAY A VISIT TO HER EX-BOYFRIEND: A VERY MUCH BELOVED ONE. she heard he was running his own investigations firm and still following the mission of carrying the weight on his shoulders; protecting the innocents just as she has [ .... ] maybe not as much as she once used to. the people that aided him were old colleagues and maybe even ones she once at a time could call friends. she was hoping she could catch angel alone but once buffy entered into the massive, wide-spaced hotel, she could clearly see she wasn't alone and it was none other than @visiongrl standing behind the reception desk looking through what seemed to be case files [ .... ] or maybe it was celebrity magazines, you could never tell with cordelia chase. buffy dreaded making her way up to the desk but she couldn't pretend that she didn't see her. the slayer cautiously reaches the desk and taps her nails on the counter for a moment before finally speaking to catch her peer's attention. “ hey cordy, how goes it ? [ .... ] that's some quality research you got going on there ” she started, a hint of sarcasm dripping from her tone but she couldn't help it. she's always known cordelia to be the least helpful of the bunch; at least, that's the only way buffy remembered her and that's what left the slayer wondering how angel could have someone like her around. she was going to be in for quite the surprise.

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OH,  AND    .  .  .    YOU’RE  WELCOME.

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the  bright  light  surrounding  them  fades  as  shared  vision  draws  to  an  end.  shaky  breath  passes  through  parted  lips  and  the  hand  resting  on  willow’s  arm  offers  one  final  squeeze  before  letting  go,  moving  to  sit.  being  𝚑𝚊𝚕𝚏  -  𝚍𝚎𝚖𝚘𝚗  continued  to  be  a  learning  period  for  cordelia.  it  wasn’t  as  though  the  powers  that  be  gave  her  a  handbook  to  go  with  and  despite  the  slight  additional  power,  the  other  half  remained  very  much  𝚑𝚞𝚖𝚊𝚗,  bones  already  aching  from  the  energy  it  took  to  use  such  gifts.    ＂    nifty,  huh?  took  me  way  longer  than  i  care  to  admit  to  master.    ＂    when  skip  offered  her  the  transition,  he  had  done  so  with  ill  -  intent  and  sometimes?  that  unnerves  cordy;    a  part  of  her  worries  to  delve  too  deep  into  new  abilities,  just  in  case.  they  already  had  one  crazy  guy  on  the  loose  with  angelus.  they  didn’t  need  her  unleashing  any  𝘂𝗻𝗸𝗻𝗼𝘄𝗻  𝗶𝗻𝗻𝗲𝗿  𝗲𝘃𝗶𝗹  too,  even  if  a  reading  from  lorne  had  reassured    (  or  tried  )    her  she  was  good.  los  angeles  taught  her  to  be  cautious.  

＂    that’s  pretty  much  the  jist  of  it.    ＂    head  gives  a  solemn  nod,  though  eyes  widen  a  beat  later  as  something  else  comes  to  mind.    ＂    oh,  and  angel  has  a  son.  it’s  a  whole    …    him    &    darla  thing.  way  too  weird  to  get  into,  but  long  story  short?  he’s  feeling  extra  𝚙𝚊𝚝𝚛𝚒𝚌𝚒𝚍𝚊𝚕  after  this  temporary  kidnapped    &    sent  to  a  hell  dimension  glitch  that  we’re  try’na  work  through,  so.  if  you  spot  a  teenager  looking  surlier  than  usual?  feel  free  to  put  the  whammy  on  him.    ＂    heart  still  breaks  when  she  thinks  of  the  baby  she’d  previously  been  helping  angel  raise.  they  have  to  help  him  too,  but  one  step  at  a  time.  right  now,  getting  that  soul  back  was  the  𝗿𝗲𝗮𝗹  priority.    ＂    his  name  is  connor.    ＂

is  that  everything?  probably  not.      ⸻      they’re  both  a  long  way  from  who  they  used  to  be  when  they  discussed  strategies  in  sunnydale  high  library,  and  there’s  no  doubt  PLENTY  more  to  catch  up  on.    ＂    hey,  how’s  sunnydale?  that  pesky  𝚑𝚎𝚕𝚕𝚖𝚘𝚞𝚝𝚑  still  causing  you  all  the  problems?    ＂    and  sure,  she  already  knows  the  answer  from  vast  experience,  but  cordelia  asks  nonetheless.  if  all  this  is  happening  right  here,  she  can  only  imagine  what  madness  willow  has  left  behind.

@visiongrl gets a starter set in the much better Season 4 universe

"That's... wow."

What Cordelia just showed her on mystic playback... that was far above the advanced magicks Willow was doing these days. Made sense, what with Cordy being a half-demon now for... the greater good? If she didn't know better, she'd say they were all in a funny version of Sunnydale like out of one of Anya's wishes. But this was real life, and they had to protect what remained of it from Angelus. Again.

Willow had been brought in by the charming Winnifred, given her history with re-ensouling Angel once. But the Los Angeles crew hadn't been given the update on the redhead's whole recent... try to destroy all of existence thing. If only she could just grab Cordelia's wrist and share the memory like a highlight reel. But no, she'd have to use her words.

Maybe those could wait until after Angel was back safe, though.

Willow knew she posed a risk to everyone, using powerful magic again. But it's something she'd done once before, without touching a single shred of darkness. (Okay, maybe the teensiest shred.) She could do it again, no sweat.

"So, we've got a Slayer in a coma -- nothing new there -- and your visions. Angelus is also knocked out in the hotel basement, and there's a soul hidden somewhere in the ethereal plane. And if we don't fix things soon, we could have another apocalypse on our hands... No big, right?" She laughed somewhat nervously because this big was very big, actually.