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Not all who wander are lost. Some who wander, however, are extremely, extremely lost.

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Me, writing the character from the "will not talk about their problems so badly they got stuck in a time loop" game: why the fuck aren't you talking about your problems

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Dropout makes you say sentences.

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your name is kipperlily copperkettle.

there is a knife in your hand and rage in your heart like a twenty four pointed star. like a name you dont know. like fire.

(we keep the fire lit, a girl you once knew would say. you keep the fire lit for her. you cant remember if you killed her or not.)

your name is kipperlily copperkettle. there is a girl who comes to school a mess and takes her clothes off in the hallway and doesnt seem to care about anything. there is a girl who has let not one but two gods die. there is a girl who brought a god back from beyond death with the force of her conviction.

(you once knew a girl that you admired for her conviction. a girl that was too stubborn for her own good. why can’t you remember whether or not you killed her?)

your name is kipperlily copperkettle. there is a boy in your party that you requested specifically. he worships a god that a girl you think you hate once worshipped. he seems like he only worships this god out of habit. conviction seems uglier on him than it does on her.

(you aren’t sure who you mean when you think ‘her’. there are two girls who it might mean. one of them is dead. there is a knife in your hand.)

your name is kipperlily copperkettle. you want the success that seems to come easy to her and nothing you do will ever get you there. the thing you’re striving for doesn’t exist. you know that and pretend you don’t because when you tell yourself something, it becomes true.

(you can’t remember if you killed her, so you tell yourself you didn’t. the lie tastes like honey on your tongue.)

your name is kipperlily copperkettle and the girl you think you hate is stronger than you could have ever known. she and her friends tear through the world like wet paper and you have to watch it happen. a boy who breathes ugly conviction watches with you, though he doesn’t know it.

(you have a knife in your hand and you smile at her as you slit his throat. his blood is hers on your hands. can you make her conviction ugly when you make what’s his hers?)

(you’re still not sure who you mean when you say her.)

your name is kipperlily copperkettle.

there is a knife in your hand.

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this almost didn’t get finished because i hated it

they were napping

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[You run quickly to them. You need to. You need to.]

[Past the old man and those kids, past Mirabelle who is about to question.]

[Down.]

[There!]

"Hey Bo-"

[You hug them with all of your might.]

[You can barely breathe as you hold them. You watched... watched as they were held by that stupid crabbing King..!]

"I'm sorry, Frin!"

"Huh?"

"I'm so so so sorry! I was such a crabbing idiot! I'm sorry!"

[You hold them tighter, maybe as tight as the King did...]

"Hey, what's wrong? You look nervous."

"The King! He had you, I was so crabbing stupid to think that it would work. I got you killed! I'm sorry! Its all my fault."

"Bonnie?"

[Your words keep spilling.]

"I'm sorry, Frin! I let you die! The King killed you! He had you!"

"Bonbon!"

"I'm sorry! I'm sorry! I'm sorry!"

[You can barely let go of Siffrin. You feel horrible.]

[You want to throw up. Whatever food you made last loop for the others... you want to throw it all up.]

[All you can see is the King... grabbing Frin and squeezing as he spoke of Wishes and all.]

[But... it's not Frin's fault. Isn't it yours? Because you can't figure out how to escape... isn't it your fault?]

"Hey, hey..."

[Siffrin's arms wrap around your body.]

"Deep breathes. You must've had a bad dream. We haven't even left for the House."

"Right... we haven't."

[You breathe. You haven't gone into the House yet. Siffrin hasn't... not in this loop.]

[But you let Frin die.]

[You were stupid... you just watched...]

"It's okay Bonbon. It's okay now."

[...]

[. . .]

[Y o u h o l d o n t o F r i n]

"It was a bad dream. Just a horrible crabbing dream."

"It's okay, I'm here."

[It's okay...]

"Uh, you're kinda squeezing me a bit tightly."

[Hah... hahaha... hahahahahaha...]

"...sorry..."

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I felt like making this child sad. (Probably not canon, but I think that Bonnie would just spill as soon as they see Siffrin after Act 3.)

In Recipes and Repetition is a Bonnie looping au made by @startagainaprologue

Edits are made by me.

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note: am v aware i have horrible taste lol

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match percenteges, helping is allowed

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enough about taylor swift already. reblog and tag the smallest, least known artist you listen to

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people with siblings: how do you feel about them?

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ATTENTION

If you see this you are OBLIGATED to reblog w/ the song currently stuck in your head :)

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