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Apart from Karan’s singing, it’s his crazy thoughts that keep him from being annoyingly perfect. ACHI + being incredibly fond of karan

CHERRY MAGIC 30 ยังซิง (2023) dir. X Nuttapong Mongkolsawas

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I just keep thinking about how Yuan had already faced his own death with the avalanche, had thought he was going to die but came out the other side thinking about Qian and then how he offered himself to Le for the game first because all he wanted to do was protect Qian and how Qian tried to teach him to fight so he could protect himself but Yuan truly never learned to fight because his experience with fighting was watching Qian hurt for him, watching Qian bleed for him, and so he never did that.

Yuan faced his own death and his love for Qian and he accepted that his world is Qian but he still carries that trauma inside him, that hurt that he blames himself, the way Qian bled for him is written on his soul just as much as his love for Qian is written in every moment he keeps on living.

This is a bond written in the blood shed and in abandonment and in being found and in being seen and in holding up the world when it comes crashing down because the world will never end as long as Yuan has Qian, as long as Qian is there at their home in the end.

Qian is facing how easily his life could have been without Yuan and without him ever knowing and facing how they have shaped each other and facing that, yes, Yuan would hold the world up for him if it came crashing down because that is why Yuan went to Le and why Yuan takes care of him, because Qian is the world and Yuan will hold him up no matter what it takes.

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It's the way they touch each other and hold each other and grab each other and take up space with each other and have for so long that it's as natural as breathing and even more important because neither of them would keep breathing without the other.

(Qian's blood is written in Yuan's soul with sacrifice and Yuan's care is written into Qian's soul with tenderness.)

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I have been thinking about the shifting dynamic between Qian and Yuan all week. A ton of people have written really insightful posts about these two, and I can’t get them off my mind.

I’ve said it before, and I’ll say it again and again: the tragic backstory is not used as a shock factor or just to make you sympathetic towards a character. It is ingrained into Qian and Yuan’s thoughts, behaviors, actions, and responses. And it contributes to their compelling relationship.

Qian is hesitant around intimacy of any kind. Yuan is eager to care for the person who saved him.

We’ve seen from the beginning how much of a caretaker Yuan is for Qian. The vast majority of intimate physical contact Qian accepts is from Yuan (and by intimate I don’t mean romantic. I mean familiar, personal, etc.).

Qian rarely ventures beyond surface level relationships with people. His experiences growing up left him in a constant state of survival. He focuses on work as a means of survival and doesn’t consider slowing down as an option.

We see this at work, where he is often separated from his coworkers and rarely interacting with them outside of a professional capacity. He often stays late and arrives early at the expense of his own wellbeing.

It’s Yuan who bridges the gap. Who asks coworkers to take care of his brother. Who makes Qian sleep and eat right. Who is there at work and at home ensuring that Qian won’t overwork and exhaust himself.

But their relationship is not one-sided. Qian takes care of Yuan as well, making sure he’s able to take advantage of academic opportunities and clubs and things that Qian never had a chance to partake in. He gives Yuan a life where survival is a guarantee, not something to earn.

Qian protects Yuan through hard work. Yuan protects Qian through tender care.

When Yuan is sent away to study abroad, the time skip works because it isn’t used at the very end of the series to jump to happily ever after. Too often, time skips force us to miss important character growth and leave us unsatisfied and wanting more. By placing the time skip towards the middle of the series and using it as an actual part of the story and character development, we are able to see how Qian and Yuan live during the separation and the impact it has on their relationship.

And their reunion is more than one scene before the credits roll. There’s still many episodes for them to keep learning and growing together.

Once Yuan returns, the line between them has shifted. Qian actively seeks out Yuan’s care in a way he never did before. He��s always watching Yuan, reaching out for him, and aware of his presence. He had always welcomed it, but the separation forced him to feel what the absence of Yuan’s care was like. He was miserable.

Yuan matured on his own and still knows that he loves Qian. Being away only confirmed what he already knew. And Qian is starting to realize that he loves Yuan too.

Yuan knows exactly where the boundary is between them, but he’ll let Qian be the one to break it down. They have complex relationship, and it is being respected, not rushed. Moments are earned, not pulled randomly from the trope bucket.

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Yuan sat across the hall in his room to confess to Qian that he almost died.

I wanted Qian to close the distance, and the long trailer told me . . .

That Yuan is wearing the same shirt in both pictures with the bruises.

Qian left the door open!

And Yuan is coming in!

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Yuan holding Qian’s hands first.

Qian responding by covering Yuan’s hands with his 😭😭😭😭😭😭 GIVE THEM TO ME!!!

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Furuya Robin as Iwanaga Takashi Love Is Better The Second Time Around, ep. 5

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Every time this picture shows up on my tl I have to stop & stare.

This moment is so HUGE & not just cause they’re kissing, but because Qian initiates the kiss. Qian is holding on to Yuan savoring the moment, savoring Yuan himself & that drives me INSANE!!

And that’s just me thinking from Qian’s perspective. Imagine how Yuan feels. Yuan who has dreamt of Qian loving him back the way he loves him, Yuan who kept his love hidden, Yuan who fought/waited/hoped for this moment. Dammit they drive me insane!!!!

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UNKNOWN 關於未知的我們 (2024) dir. Ray Jiang

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Josi! Hello and thank you for all the emotionally destructive Unknown gifs! Can I request a gifset comparing the hug Qian gives Yuan after he’s let go by the gangsters in episode 1 (YouTube 22:42-22:47) to the hug he gives Yuan when he is let go by the gangsters in ep 9 (YouTube 25:52-26:06), to the hug he gives Yuan when they are walking home after Russian roulette (YouTube staring at 28:00)? Thank you 🥰

Hello 💜 You are very welcome 😅 This series is just so good and gives us all so much to work with! I have so much fun, giffing this show 😭 So, thank you for this request!

I hope it is, what you had in mind! You can find it here 🌹

As always, it was a pleasure working on your request! And I can't wait for us to lose our shit next saturday! Why is it not saturday yet??!!

Have a beautiful day! 🥰

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Evolution of Desperation a hug

for @wen-kexing-apologist 🌹

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