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HARUKA HASHIDA HEADCANONS AND THEORIES ARE DONE LETS GOOOOOOO

anyways hi, this is like, 10 pages/ 5,000 is words worth of stuff about my favorite boi haruka. so like... here u go. (I did not reread this, we are all gonna die like haruka's self confidence- /hj)

Haruka Hashida headcanons/theories lets go

-My man is extremely touch starved. Like- please give him a hug (This is 100% based off the one panel during our Yuka angst arc, when Haruka says that Yatora is a model student and Yatora grabs his arm and asks what he means, just for Haruka to give a confused stare in response, then properly explaining after he lets go of him.) ((This is literally him https://www.pinterest.com/pin/910641987190754649/ ))

-Remember that one line from him “Teaching is just another thing I ain’t cut out for”? (Absolutely destroyed me with that one) But what does he mean ANOTHER THING????? (Like- another was emphasized) Anyways he probably wanted to be a psychologist/therapist back when he was in middle school/ early high school, but probably decided against it since he gets too emotionally involved with the people he’s supposed to help. And he can’t help them properly if he is also drowning besides them. That’s also why he’s able to read people so easily, since to him it’s just a science. (You go into his room and he probably has an entire shelf full of psychology books or about brain chemistry or something.) Also I feel like that would also tie into his whole thing that hes better at art history and the logic of it, rather than actually putting that to paper.

-Circling back to the previous one and this one post I saw (Also from the Yuka arc) where when he was saying to truly understand someone who is drowning, you also have to drown (And the post was basically saying that he wasn’t talking only to Yatora, but also himself.) He’s extremely empathetic. That’s also why he said things that are too strong affect him negatively. It affects him negatively since he can almost feel everything just as strongly (Thus why he decided to drop the idea of going into the psychology field in general, as well as why he didn’t want to get involved with Shoya when Yatora mentioned him. But we see with Sae, since she really likes Hashida as a teacher, he couldn’t really avoid getting involved with her.) Haruka really does try to think of situations “Logically”, but every time he goes in heart first. That’s probably why he says strong feelings affect him negatively too, since sometimes his own feelings are so strong it scares him.

-Question, where are his parents… We never see them and he never mentions them. I feel like with most of the main cast characters we know something about the parents, or we actually get to see them, but not Haruka’s yet… Anyways my headcanon is that he usually stays at his older sister’s place. Haruka just doesn’t like being around his parents in general, and he feels bad about it cuz, well, that’s his parents… (I would have said something about his parents maybe not being around and his older sisters took care of him, but in one of the volume extras we see his sisters wanting a date with any of the students there, which all would be around Haruka’s age (We know most of em are either fresh outa high school or 2-3 years older). And I just doubt if there was a significant age gap between them that would allow his sister to raise Haruka, they probably wouldn’t want to date his peers.) (edit: JUST THOUGHT OF THIS WHAT IF HIS PARENTS ARE GETTING DIVORCED AND IT WAS REALLY MESSY AND EVERYTIME THEY SEE EACH OTHER IT'S JUST A FIGHT SO HE GOT TIRED OF IT SO HE STAYS AT HIS SISTERS INSTEAD-)

-I feel like Haruka’s parents are pretty well off, like both of them have “Ideal jobs (By that I mean the jobs strict parents always want their children to be. Doctor, lawyer etc.) and they both want that for all their children too. Like they really tried hard to make sure their children grow up to be smart and logical and foster a care for those things in their kids. That's why Haruka is more logical with his paintings and how to get a message across and not as great with the execution of drawing, like Ooba said when she was going through all of the students and seeing if they had what it took to pass the exams.

-Also on the topic of his parents, I feel like he sees himself in Sae, thats why he was so invested with trying to refuel her passion for art, because he also knows what it’s like to have your passion for art killed, time after time. I feel like his parents really do try to be supportive, but deep down they really don’t believe art is a “respectable” job, and it sometimes shows with how they talk to Haruka. (I feel like they would insinuate it’s childish to draw. “Oh when you grow up i'm sure you’ll find something else to entertain you” “Oh, it’s intriguing how you can still hold so much child like wonder at your age” etc.) He’s had his passion for art killed over and over again by his own parents (And his lack of self esteem), and that might also be why he says that some kids will only enjoy art while they’re children. To him it’s because of the pressure from their own parents that make them quit, the pressure from society to stop being “childish” and do something “meaningful” with their lives. That might also be why he likes consuming art so much, because even when he had his creative passions crushed, his passion to see all of the art around him never died… So others art has always been there for him, even if his own art wasn’t.

-Lighter headcanon, He listens to Will Wood, Jack Stauber, and Panic at the Disco. His favorite songs are “Hand me my shovel, I’m going in”,”Tomcat disposables”, “Um, It’s kind of a lot”, “Kaleidoscope Eyes”, “The calendar” “Viva Las Vengeance” And all the songs from “Opal”(Especially Mirror Man) Also, “Ship In A Bottle” by Fin Argus

-I feel like if he was in a relationship, his love languages are quality time and acts of service (But mainly acts of service), but loves being on the receiving side of gift giving. Not in a gold digger kind of way though, in a, if his S/O handmade something for him he’d think they are the most attractive person alive for that.

-He either has the biggest sweet tooth known to mankind, or just hates sweets. No inbetween.

-Mk, back to the heavier ones. Y’know the one chapter cover with Haruka painting in the corner of the room? Yeah that one. Y’know how Haruka said to Sae “I wasn’t planning on painting in this place? Yeah that scene. You know how Yatora talks about whats going on with his art to Hashida, but we never hear from Hashida how he’s doing at Tama? Mhmm. You know how Haruka changes the topic a lot in this volume? You see where I’m going here? So, he’s probably going through another rough patch in relation to his art. His own creations at the moment are just… Passionless. That might be another reason why he also wanted to see the kids’ art, since it is winter break he doesn’t have to stress about making pieces for school, or pieces at all. So he’s focusing more on seeing and learning more, hopefully to rekindle that passion again like he usually does. Anyways, somewhere along his time working part time with Saeki he probably stayed late to try and paint something… Anything… Just to get him back into making art. He probably didn’t paint anything though and just gave up and probably wanted to avoid the topic of his art in general. That’s probably why he said he didn’t plan on painting there. (Also remember where he says he loves art, loves people who make art, and makes art himself? He said he loved art, and artist. Yet that repetition ends when he mentions himself. No, “I love making art”, No, “I love my art as well”, just “I make art too”…) ((Crying rn))

-Another scene in the 11th volume, right before he sees Sae again and he’s in the back organizing stuff or something. The next few panels linger on that. His hands are on the shelves being busy while Yatora’s still looking, then when the door shuts his hands drop and he’s just standing there… Then he goes back to looking/organizing things before Yatora bursts in again. You guys think he volunteered to organize the back just to avoid the whole art exhibit they had on. Cuz I feel like if it was up to him he would want to see the kids art and peoples reactions to it… Just so he can stay there alone and just be himself… What do you guys think he was thinking about? Probably Sae since she just quit… Probably just negative thoughts in general. Then actually seeing Sae just sorta made him snap (not fully, but enough to have his little “I aint cut out for this” line.) Also I think the scene with him in the back just represents his character well… Being busy and keeping up that look when people are around, and it only drops when he’s truly alone.

-Him avoiding topics isn’t new at all dudes. He’s been doing it since volume 2 (We see him do it when Yotasuke has his little “Im not going here no more” scene, and Haruka was quick to immediately go, “Guess its just the two of use going out Yatora :/ What cuts ya like?” He only goes back to the topic of exam pieces after Yatora asks AGAIN. So he only goes back to the topic once FORCED to (Sorta).) So what if during back pack arc Haruka’s really just being held together by a thread and he’s really trying to avoid any of his own touchy topics and Yatora’s just so insistent on hearing his thoughts. (Yatora’s “Why why why why why why why” Era) then Haruka just straight up snaps and we get ALL the back story :D

-On Back Pack arc theories sorta, I saw a poast saying if the next time we see him and he cut his hair they were gonna lose it (I will also lose it because how dare he, I love his hair.) Anyways, I feel like they jinxed it, it’s gonna happen (I can feel it in my bones) and I am no longer well. Anyways hes gonna cut his hair and cry during the back pack arc and he will just drop another stupid emotion damage liner and then they go home. Thats the arc. Thats why I will be crying for the rest of my life. (Also the meaning behind cutting his hair??? Yall think this is gonna be his last burn out period since his braids are a “Symbol of his dedication” as he says. And if he cuts it… No more art D: And he just drops out of art school.) ((Crying)) (I SWEAR IF THIS HAPPENS IM GONNA CRASH OUT YOU BETTER NOT, I LOVE THIS MAN AND HIS STUPID ART AND HIS STUPID BRAIDS DONT YOU DARE DO THIS TO HIM)

-Actually, if he drops out of Tama after that arc, I swear the only way Ill accept it is if he just lets himself ‘Quit’ art for a year or two, then gets back into it applies to gedai again and then Hashida gets in and all is happy. He regrows his hair and everything is fine again. The arc he deserves. Imagine, Yatora’s on his last year there and he unexpectedly sees Hashida in his first year, then Yatora’s the one giving small pointers (Like hashida did earlier in the series) it would be so cute. It Feels kinda like Kuwana’s arc tho lol.

-This isn’t exactly a hc or theory, but I wanted to point it out. I’ve always loved his self portrait, like- It’s my favorite of the bunch. Am I playing favorites? Maybe, but his and Yakumo’s are the most pleasing to look at for me. Anyways, it’s pretty on the nose that what its meant to be is a representation of him masking (Like, he literally has a mask of his own face lmao) But it’s the details I also want to point out. Mainly I just wanna point out how different that the mask and Hashida are. Firstly I just wanna point out how the mask is rendered and how Haruka is. Haruka himself in the portrait feels like it was drawn a lot rougher. Does that make sense? It looks very detailed, you can see the different ways his hair curls and what direction it goes. It’s flawed, the proportions aren’t perfect, his eye is too big, mouth isn’t quite centered, whatever’s going on with him holding the paper is a little hard to see exactly what is cut out and what isn’t. Hashida himself doesn’t have much contrast with the background, making him look like he’s fading out. His mask on the other hand, look like it’s laminated and the way it’s rendered looks much smoother to me. And lighter, like he was afraid to make any of it too dark. You can tell exactly where the mask ends because it’s not fading like Haruka. The mask is cut out from the paper he’s holding. To me this just comes off in a way that shows Haruka is a flawed person, it shows that he isn’t sanded and polished, like he’s an unfinished product that isn’t meant to be seen. His mask is much more subtle, being much easier to understand and see. It has less detail so as to not confuse. It’s shiny and in a sense “Perfect”. It was cut out carefully and made with care, and is even covered so that it can’t be smudged or ruined, and it gets that plasticy shine. Like the mask is crafted to be seen and cherished, to interact with things and take minimal damages… It’s this persona Hashida has so carefully crafted to be this “Perfect” guy and be enjoyed by many, while his real self is to be stored away to never be seen… That’s why there’s not a lot of contrast between Haruka and the background, compared to the contrast between his mask and the background. (Hashida I swear to god… #Still crying)

-I feel like every time Hashida is painting we see him with this smile plastered on his face. I mean, go back to the exams. Everytime we get a panel of all of them painting, Yatora Kuwana and Takahashi look concentrated, eyebrows furrowed, Kuwana’s tongue is out etc. but everytime we see Haruka he just has a smile… The same unserious smile we always see him with. The only time we see him not smiling while making art is during volume 11. He actually looks serious as he makes that painting with Sae. And we also have our first impressions of Hashida and his art when he;s introduces, simply by Ooba calling his art “Fun and simple”. Do you guys think he treats his art as a joke? We already know he sees very low worth in his own art… Do you think that’s why he doesn’t treat it so seriously? Because even if he could muster up an art piece with meaning and emotion all it would be to him is something that will inevitably end up smudged and teared. So to him there is no use in making something with meaning, knowing that no one would glance at his art if it wasn’t “Perfect”. So he treats it as a game. And I know for a fact it’s a deliberate choice to make his art fun and simplistic, because he is a man so full of meaning and complexities and so deep. He’s even described as knowing more about how to convey themes than have practical skill, yet he decides not to use that. He decides not to use anything he studies, or any of his own feelings… That might also be why he says he looks up to artists that can keep painting with tears in their eyes.

-Y’know in volume 5 when Hashida asks Yatora if he’s confident in the work he did for the exam? Yotora just responds that yeah, he’s nervous and not confident at all, but it’s a relief to him that he still has so much to work on and Hashida just wide eye stares at him and calls him a freak? (I’m pretty sure Hashida staring Wide eyed is supposed to emphasize things, since we always see his eyes either squinted or straight up closed, so it’s almost out of character for him to go “0-0” just wanted to point that out) Yall think his reaction was like that because Yatora is finding comfort in the one thing that scares him? The thought of not being perfect and still needing to learn always haunts him, while Yatora here is like “Oh, yeah, I’m glad I’m not perfect yet” like-??? (Hashida was looking at Yatora as if he just said “Omg I love spiders, they’re so tiny and cute, and some of em are even fluffy!” To an arachnophobe)

-I also feel like he’s the friend to remember everyone’s birthday but not many people remember his…

-I also feel like he’s very good at writing essays in general. Like he always got 100% on every essay he has ever had to write for a class because he’s very thorough in explaining everything. He’s probably been told that his essays are too long sometimes though. (He’s probably the reason some of his past teachers put max word counts on assignments.)

-He also probably knows german or french or some language like that (Or both idk) along with english and Japanese (obvi) since sometimes he finds art books that explain the artists life, but he can never find translated versions of those books, so he spent an entire year learning the basics of the language so he can read them.

-Probably really liked Musicals in Middle/High School.

-Anyways, do yall wonder what made Hashida go into art? Like, for Yatora it was Mori and Yuka. But what specific event made Hashida go into art?I personally think that one day he just saw a painting while on a field trip ore something and was just… Absorbed by it. To think that another person made that with their hands was fascinating to him. He literally just thinks about that painting for weeks before trying to replicate it from memory (And failing) and decided he wanted to get better at it because he too, wants to leave something behind on this world when he’s gone, to inspire some little one somewhere in the world. (Also I feel like his discovery of his very strong liking to art and him getting into drawing himself go hand in hand. They were discovered at the same time.) That’s also why he doesn’t “Love” his art. It doesn’t get that same reaction out of him that someone else’s art would make. The process of making art and enjoying the final product isn’t the same feeling that made him want to paint in the first place. Which he sees as a failing. Because if he was “good at art” he would like his own pieces just as much as other people’s pieces.

-Idk why but he gives me Gomez Adams vibes. Weird, might seem crazy, but all in all a really nice guy (Even if he doesn’t show it in a ‘conventional’ way) and would be all over his partner.

-I also feel like he either played bass or cello in middle school. (If he played an instrument)

-He’s also into conventionally “girly” things, since he has his 2 older sisters and one younger. I also feel like he got made fun of for his favorite color being pink (And it still is pink) or got made fun of for a while since a lot of things he liked were “girly” (This entire headcanon may just be based off of him choosing the unicorn parfait in the one chapter extra. I just think it would be cute if he liked “girly things lol)

-OH I THOUGHT OF THIS IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT SO APOLOGIES IF IT SEEMS RANDOM Y’know how Haruka is never really honest about why he has braids (Like in his character introduction extra all we get is he’s 6’2 and has at least 50 different reasons for his braids. So obviously they’re important to a point if thats what the author decided to focus on with him.) Anyways, the real reason is tying back to my hc on why he paints. He likes to braid his hair specifically because the painting he saw that inspired him to paint was a portrait of someone with braids… He’s just been trying to replicate that high that a singular painting gave him years ago. (I know his sisters have braids too so in all actuality it’s probably a religious thing or a family thing, but let me have this okay?)

-”Nothing’s working out” by Meiyo, and Hashida are so alike… I hate it so much. My experiences with them are so similar. (“Oh! This is fun! :D” looks up the meaning of the lyrics/reads volume 11. “OH!”)

-I feel like he had a pet ferret at some point in his life.

-Back to serious again, I feel like he likes to isolate himself when he’s upset. Like, he deliberately avoids everyone if he can and if he does have to interact with people he keeps it very brief. Mostly cuz he doesn’t want to burden others with his own problems. He knows everyone struggles with their own things, no need to add his problems into their life too. (Yes, this is also based off of the scene before Haruka talks to Sae for the last time.)

-anyways, there’s only one bed during the Europe trip arc and Hashida and Yatora have to share. (I don’t ship em but I think their dynamics would be funny if they had to share a bed.)

–Haruka is a very light sleeper. Yatora wakes up in the middle of the night and decides to go out to get a snack. 5 seconds later Haruka’s right behind him “where ya going yatora? Can I come :3” “AHH! Wth hashida?” “You woke me up :( anyways where we goin’?”

-I feel like Haruka IS childish. Not in the sense of immaturity tho, in the sense you tell a little kid “Wow, you’re so mature for your age” kind of childish? Do you get what I mean??? He’s child mature rather than adult mature…???? Mostly saying this because for volume 11, the extras about the kids it just says their observant, and it’s also pointed out throughout the volume that kids are observant. Throughout the volume who else is constantly pointed out to be observant? Hashida! That’s mostly where im getting the headcanon from lol

-on that, if hashida was in genshin and went to sumeru, he would be able to see the aranara

-also, his favorite character is Al Haitham (second is Kaveh though)

-He really likes mythology/learning about polytheistic religions since he loves to read about how people believe their gods act and treat each other and how they treat the mortals etc etc.

-You know how art is just drawing what you see in life? You draw and paint your interpretation to life? I feel Hashida’s art is how he WISHED the world was, rather than how he SEES the world, y’know? Funny, entertaining, and simple. We haven’t seen his nude painting but maybe thats why he failed, because he didn’t depict what he sees the nude body as, he painted what he wished it was. (Also i know he mentions this in the anime, not sure abt the manga, but he says he was basing his nude painting off of all the other nude paintings he knows of and that was the main thing. So I feel like his painting was through a rose tinted lense. Romanticized and beautiful. That’s taking in his views about art and such.)

-Also when he says that passing the first exam was just pure luck? I know that was before they got the results (I think) but i feel like he only said that to put himself down, like saying he was only gonna get by because of luck? Maybe it’s so he didn’t get his hopes high for the second exam, maybe because he truly believed his self portrait wasn’t worthy of passing. Both feel like him. (Edit: HEAR ME OUT HE MENTIONED HE WAS REALLY LUCKY AFTERWARDS TOO "I really am I lucky duck for passing the first exam. Now I can take the second one" and then he starts creepy laughing- idk but the way he was saying it and the panels of him make it feel much more condescending on himself I-)

-I don’t think he does sports but if he had to he’d pick up fencing.

-I feel like he grew out his hair mainly because he wanted to donate it. He either had a family member or a friend go through a tough patch and knows that even if having no hair is still beautiful, some people are insecure about it. So growing out and donating his hair sounded like a good idea to him. Whatever he could do to help people be less insecure. He ended up being really proud of his hair though, he found it pretty and he didn’t want to cut it. So he hasn’t donated it yet. He feels selfish every time he looks in the mirror.

-That’s also why they’re a symbol of his dedication to art. He was “selfish” enough to keep his hair and he was “selfish” enough to pursue art, despite his parents wanting something else for their only son. They are a symbol of his art, his soul, his selfish heart.

-Everyone has their little staple for their art style, y’know what I mean? Hashida would say he doesn’t have one, cuz all his art is HEAVILY inspired by other artists, so he doesn’t believe it’s his unique staple, but his staple is constantly doing pink or red underpaintings in his colored pieces. He likes the color and how warm it usually makes everything.

-He had 100% wore heels before (Nothing crazy, just an inch heeled boot or something) and I feel like he’d love heels. He doesn’t wear em often though since he feels like their too loud constantly going “Click click click click”

-On that note. It’s pointed out a lot that he just sneaks up onto people and no one hears him walking behind them. I feel like just cuz he walks on the balls of his feet/tippy toes. He doesn’t do it on purpose tho. If he did have heels on often it would help with his little habit also make more sound for other to be aware of him lol. Idk why or how he started his walking habit, yall can leave what you think lol

-someone draw him in heels IM BEGGING YOU-

-I feel like he’s dabbled with makeup. He just views it as a different form of painting. A paint you can put on your face :D He doesn’t see it as something to make you look prettier/ fix your “flaws” or anything like that, its to make fun wild shapes with vibrant colors. It’s yet another form to express yourself in, only difference is that it’s plastered on your face.

-I feel like it’s a little hard to make him laugh. Not too hard, but he has a really obscure sense of humor that’s hard to nail. When he does laugh it’s just a little giggle, but if you get him laughing hard he starts wheezing. Like, hands on his stomach, leaning forward, kind of laugh lol

-I feel like he’d love epic the musical also miracle musical. I know I should have mentioned this when I went over his music taste but to bad I’m adding this now

-He also probably has a huge collection of poetry, like books upon books filled with peoples poetry. He likes trying to decipher the meaning behind them.

-he just has a collection of like 50 black turtlenecks in his closet like a cartoon character would lmao

-Has “girl nights” with his sisters. They all have their little spa night and do face masks and do each other's nails.

thats all i got thanks for reading my probably incomprehensible thoughts

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