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hey yall!! soooooooo i’ve been so sick on and off for weeks and the semester started up again and then we got snowed in for a week (which was crazy bc it never snows where i’m from!!) but i’m finally on the mend in hope to finish my christmas fics (in february 🥸) and get back on eyes off you!! so sorry for the wait😭

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thank you for sending this to me, angel!! here are my current top five songsᰔ

ᯓ★ no doubt - enhypen

ᯓ★ wish - nct wish

ᯓ★ teddy bear - nct dream

ᯓ★ good graces - sabrina carpenter

ᯓ★ iykyk - illit

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first nct fic + christmas fic posted, fraktsiya released (SAUR FUCKING GOOD) , first semester grades posted, got a new job. WE ARE SO UP!!

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synopsis! frat parties were never your scene but your best friends, chaewon and ningning, are nearly impossible to say no to. plus your crush needed a date! it was the perfect situation... or was it? well, there's always next year right!?

featuring! nct (taeyong, jaehyun, mark, renjun, jeno, jaemin, chenle), aespa (ningning, karina), le serrafim (chaewon), viviz (eunha)

word count! 4.57k

wanna read more? ➼ wonswondrland's christmas collection

December 16th, 2023

“oh i have to get this dress! It’s so perfect for the nct christmas party!” chaewon exclaimed, pulling a short glittery dress off the rack. “yes! and you can put that sweater you bought a couple weeks ago over it,” ningning gushed, holding onto chaewon’s shoulders. you stood behind them, scanning the racks of the random store your friends dragged you to. out of the corner of your eye, a cream sweater caught your attention. it had red bows and was perfect for christmas. you didn’t realize you had been staring at the sweater for a while until you heard ningning gasp, now holding onto your shoulders from behind. “y/n! you have to get that sweater! it’ll be so cute for the party,” she squealed in your ear. you shrugged her off, rubbing your arm with your hand. “no i just spaced out. i wasn’t looking at that sweater,” you lied. “no you have to get it! we’ll find the perfect skirt and shoes too. oh! and then we can go to that other store a couple doors down and get some thick tights so we’re not freezing our asses off,” chaewon laughed, pulling the sweater off the rack and handing it to you. “no way.” you pushed the sweater away. “i’m not even going to that fucking frat party,” shuddering at the sheer thought of stepping foot into the nct house. “what!” they both shrieked in unison. you shook your head, laughing to yourself. “you really thought i would go? i just came shopping with you guys just to get away from jaehyun, not to buy clothes for a stupid party.” jaehyun, your annoying, overbearing, overprotective brother. “plus i wasn’t invited and you know how exclusive the christmas party is.” “well jaehyun is your brother and he’s literally the social chair of nct so you kind of don’t need an invite,” ningning countered. “look, you guys have fun with jaemin and chenle and i will stay in and watch some christmas movies or something.” chaewon took the sweater and dress and walked to the register. ningning laughed and followed her, aiding her in buying the clothing. you shook your head as they walked back to you. chaewon handed you the now paid-for sweater. “merry christmas y/n! now for our present, come to the party,” ningning practically begged. “i heard jeno doesn’t have a date,” chaewon added, wiggling her eyebrows at you. “oh my god yes! stop this so perfect! i’ll text chenle right now and have jeno ask you tomorrow!” i sighed, following the girls to the next store. “there’s no way out is there?” “nope!” ningning giggled. you stared at the sweater in your hands. maybe it wouldn’t be so bad. you had liked jeno for almost a year now, which you’d never admit because a crush for that long in college!? everyone would laugh at you! maybe you’d just go for a couple of hours and hang out. it couldn’t be the worst right? 

December 17th, 2023

“what are you girls doing here?” jaehyun asked as you pushed past him walking into nct’s house. “jeno is asking y/n to the party!” ningning whispered into jaehyun’s ear excitedly. “yeah, not happening.” “why!?” both chaewon and ningning whined. you rolled your eyes at him. “she has no business being here, especially during a party. these guys are all sleazy assholes. you’re mistaken if you think i’ll let any one of them within a five inch radius of her.” chenle, jaemin, renjun, and jeno halted at the top of the stairs, watching the argument unfold. “oh come on! jeno is a sweetie!” chaewon argued. “the answer is no. jeno can find some other girl to ask and y/n will be staying at your dorm for the night,” jaehyun concluded, crossing his arms across his chest. “oh there you are!” ningning said when you all noticed the boys at the top of the staircase. “hey,” chenle said awkwardly, rubbing the back of his neck. jaemin pushed against jeno’s shoulder, signaling him to walk downstairs. the boys descended the stairs, jaehyun shooting daggers at jeno. the tension in the air grew by the second until a much-needed interruption poked their head into the living room. “hey jae can you come see? we need to talk about revisions for the flyers,” taeyong, the frat president, said, eyes quickly scanning the room. “oh hey! you girls need something?” chaewon shook her head no at him. “no just came to talk with jeno, we’ll be on our way soon.” chaewon flashed a smile and he nodded, returning the smile. “alright, then i’ll just steal jae for a minute!” jaehyun grumbled as he walked into the office to meet with the rest of the nct frat board. you turned around to see jeno in front of you. “oh! hi jeno,” you piped, embarrassed at your own reaction. he laughed gently. “hi y/n,” he smiled. “sooooo,” you dragged out. embarrassment began to eat you alive as your face turned pink. “do you want to be my date to the christmas party?” you looked up at jeno. he was smiling at you, looking oh so handsome. you nodded, fidgeting with your hands. “cute,” he whispered. you looked at him with wide eyes as he smirked at you. “we’ll come pick you guys up at seven okay?” “okay,” you said, almost whispering. you stood there just staring at him. your friends laughed nervously, pulling you away and out the house. “thank you!” ningning yelled, closing the door behind you. 

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“oh that was so bad!” you groaned into your hands, head leaning onto chaewon, patting the top of your head. “it wasn’t that bad!” ningning said, not convincing anyone. “okay it could’ve been so much worse!” “not helping,” chaewon shook her head at her. ningning shrugged at her, getting up off my bed. “yes it was awkward but it was cute,” chaewon said trying to make you feel better. “you can either sit here moping about it or see it as a small stepping stone to dating the guy you’ve been head over heels for since last year,” ningning suggested. “i am not head over heels for jeno!” both girls just laugh as you huff at them.

December 21st, 2023

you sat in your room, humming along to christmas music as you finished crocheting a crimson sweater. you decided to make it for jeno as a christmas present. “yo!” ningning announces her presence as she throws herself on your bed. you laugh, turning around in your chair to face her. “done making that sweater?” “yep!” you say proudly, raising it in the air for her to see. “ooh! it looks so good y/nie!” she exclaims. “thanks. i really hope he likes it.” “he’d be an absolute idiot not to.”

December 23rd, 2023

“okay how do i look?” you questioned, turning around to face chaewon and ningning. you wore the sweater chaewon bought you with ningning’s very short red skirt, thick tan tights, and white heeled boots. you had never worn a skirt so short in your life. you shimmied it down as you watched their eyes scan you. “you look so cute!” ningning squealed. chaewon smiled as she walked up and fixed the white ribbon tied around your neatly curled ponytail. “he’d be a dumbass not to ask you out immediately,” she joked. you rolled your eyes, feeling embarrassed by all the compliments. you grab the present you made for jeno and looked at yourself in the mirror one more time, smoothing your flyaway hair and pulling your skirt down, before making your way out to the living room where jeno, jaemin, and chenle had been waiting for the past twenty minutes. “ready to go?” jeno asked, watching you walk into the room. you nodded following him out the door. jeno opened the passenger door of his car, letting you get in. “thanks.” he nodded, smiling at you. “you look great, y/n,” he said, closing the door and walking around to the driver's seat. you blushed at his words, feeling giddy. the car ride was filled with jokes and laughter between you, your best friends, and your dates. he pulled into his parking spot behind the frat and began fixing his hair in the rearview mirror. you sat watching him, your friends already out of the car and making their way into the party. “oh, uh you can go head in y/n.” you looked at him confused. “oh, uh okay.” there was a deafeningly silent pause until you broke it. “i got this for you. you know, for christmas,” you said as you handed him a small gift bag. “oh thanks,” he said taking it from you and placing it in his lap, not opening it. “well, uh, they know you’re with me so don’t worry. uh come find me later okay?” you nodded, getting out the car. “chaewon!” you called out. your four friends turn around. “where the fuck is jeno?” jaemin asks. “oh he’s in the car he said to head in and he’ll be in soon,” you said, smiling awkwardly as you catch up to the group. “what?” chaewon asks, looking perplexed. jaemin and chenle share a weird look. “what’s going on? what are the faces for?” chaewon pressed. “n-nothing,” chenle stutters. jaemin wraps his arm around chaewon. “let’s just head in and he’ll catch up in a minute, okay?” chaewon looks at him and just nods. you follow behind the two couples feeling uncomfortable but try to push forward, not wanting to ruin everyone’s night. you all walk into the party and see all the frat guys and random sorority girls littered around the house. this was so not your scene.

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after several hours of following jaemin and chaewon around you began to feel like a burden. you still hadn’t seen jeno and were ready to leave. chaewon sent you a smile, trying to reassure you although you could feel she was also feeling weird about the whole situation. “um i’m going to go get a drink, okay?” chaewon nods as you walked away into the kitchen. you look at all of the half-empty bottles sprawled across the island. you had never really drunk much, always drinking whatever chaewon handed you whenever you guys had girl's nights in the dorm. you stood in the kitchen looking stupid while staring at all the bottles like a freshman at their first college party. in your defense, this was your first frat party but you were far from a freshman, just having ended your seventh semester. “never seen alcohol before?” an unfamiliar voice asked. you turned around to meet a beautiful sun-kissed boy. he smirked at you. “what? first time seeing a hot guy?” he laughed. you laughed at his ridiculous, yet half-true, statement. “sorry this is my first frat party and my friend usually mixes my drinks for me so i’m not really sure what to drink,” you ramble. he smiles at you, walking towards the counter. “want me to make you something?” “and how do i know you won’t roofy me?” he lets out a deep, addicting laugh. you can’t help but giggle. “look princess, i get enough play okay? i don’t need to drug you to get you in my bed,” he winks. you roll your eyes at him. “whatever just make me something fruity.” “you got it.” you watch as he mixes a few things in two cups. you sit on the countertop, and he hands you one of the cups. you raise the cup to your lips and take a small sip. “mmm!” “delicious, i know.” you smile, shaking your head at him.

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“what’s a pretty girl like you doing alone?” he asks, sitting next to you on the counter. “well my date kind of ditched me and i’ve been following my friend and her date around but it felt too awkward so i left to get a drink and now i’m here.” “you ramble a lot,” he chuckles, “so who’s your date if you don’t mind me asking?” “oh no i don’t mind. i came with-” “no wait, let me guess. is it renjun? he said he’d come but loves to ditch the party and hide out in his room.” “nope. he’s adorable, don’t get me wrong, but we’re not like that.” “oh well um maybe yuta? he’s notorious for making out with random girls when he gets drunk.” you laughed at him. “nope. you’re not very good at this game.” he pouts. “hey it’s not my fault all my brothers are assholes!” “touché.” “okay, last guess and then you have to tell me. Is it jaehyun? he usually never leaves his dates but i know he’s been stressed out because apparently one of the guys asked his sister, which is so ballsy, but it’s got him all bent out of shape.” “what the fuck!? ew!” you shove his shoulder. “ow! fuck was that for!?” you stare at him for a minute and he stares back confused. “are you joking right now?” “no! it was a genuine guess!” he stares at you for a minute and then it clicks. “holy shit! you’re y/n!?” you laugh at his reaction. “ding ding ding!” “wait so who was crazy enough to ask you?” “ouch! i’m not a hideous beast!” you yell, hitting his shoulder again. “you know what i meant.” “it was jeno.” he doubles over in laughter as you sit there watching him, puzzled. “what is so funny bozo?” he wipes a tear from his eye, still laughing. “there is no way! he brought karina. he always brings her. funny joke, who really brought you?” you feel your heart break at his words. “he brought someone else?” you ask, voice cracking as tears threaten to spill. he immediately stops laughing, looking at you in shock. “oh, you’re being serious. y/n i’m so sorry i didn’t know you weren’t fucking around.” you feel the hot tears begin to stream down your face. “excuse me,” you whisper as you get off the counter and head to the bathroom, abandoning your drink and the pretty boy. your vision blurs as you begin to sob, struggling to see where you’re headed. you bump into someone, quickly stepping back and apologizing, wiping your tears. you look up to see jeno with lipstick smeared across his face and karina’s hands all over him. he looks like he’s seen a ghost. “y/n,” he begins. you push him out of your way as you cry even more, hurrying into the bathroom down the hallway. you slam the door closed, turning and sliding down the door as you sit on the floor. pulling your knees against your chest, you sob cradling yourself. you should’ve known better than to come to a frat party. you should’ve been smart enough to realize jeno wouldn’t actually like a nobody like you. you should’ve never fallen for a frat boy. 

December 24th, 2023

you lay curled on the couch in your dorm, the tv playing reruns of friends but it’s drowned out in the background as you try to fight off your sleep. behind you, in the kitchen, chaewon and ningning are scolding jaemin and chenle. “we had no idea! seriously!” jaemin whisper yells. “we thought he broke up with her,” chenle defends him. chaewon leans against the counter, rubbing her temples out of frustration. “this whole situation is so shitty. poor thing is never going to go out ever again,” ningning turns to look at you from her spot on the island. “i’m sorry for yelling at you both it’s just so damn stupid. i mean she was absolutely enthralled with him! we would’ve never suggested this had we known,” chaewon sighs, laying her head on jaemin’s shoulder. he rubs her shoulder, looking over at you apologetically. you’re out now, light snores coming from the couch. “just make sure to tell haechan thank you for finding her and letting us know. i don’t even want to begin thinking about how long she could’ve been in there crying alone,” chaewon frowns. jaemin kisses the crown of her head. “i’ll let him know. you both try to get some sleep okay?” chaewon nods, hugging jaemin as she walks him to the door.

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you’re awakened from your sleep by a loud knock on the door. you groan as you sit up and stretch. chaewon rushes over and opens the door, revealing jaehyun. you throw your blanket over your head and lay back down on the couch. “y/n,” chaewon softly calls out. “no,” you croak out. she sighs. “she’s your problem now. go easy on her.” you feel the cushion by your feet dip, signaling jaehyun sat next to you. “you feeling okay?” you stay silent. “i’m sorry jeno fucked you over, it was really shitty and i plan on talking to him later.” more silence. he sighs. “i’m sorry y/n and i’m here for you okay? i thanked haechan too and i can give you his number if you want to thank him or like just talk with him,” jaehyun finishes as he gets up. you throw the blanket off your head. “haechan?” you sat up looking at him, “who the fuck is that?” jaehyun laughs. “i forgot he tells the girls he’s interested in his name is donghyuck.” “donghyuck!? what are you on about?” “did you have a concussion?” “jaehyun i literally have no idea who you are talking about?” he looks at you like you have three heads. “well he certainly knows you! he was the one who told chaewon what happened last night and where to find you.” you stared at jaehyun from the couch, trying so hard to figure out who haechan is. “i only met one guy last night but he never told me his name,” you admitted. he sighed, pinching his nose. “y/n you met haechan last night. hold on.” he grabbed his phone and after a couple of seconds of searching through his camera roll he turned his phone to reveal the pretty boy from last night. “that’s him!” you exclaim, excitedly. Jaehyun side-eyes your reaction. “well that’s haechan so if you want to thank him i’ll send you his number.” you nod. “but don’t get any ideas. he’s no better than jeno.” you roll your eyes at jaehyun. “don’t think i didn’t see your reaction to the picture! you obviously think he’s.. something so i’m just warning you before the same thing happens again.” “okay bye now jaehyun,” you say as you get up and push him towards the door. “jeez i’m going!” 

jaehyun opens the door to leave only to come face to face with jeno. “oh jaeyun,” jeno says awkwardly. he was stood in front of the door holding the giftbag you had given him the night before. “jeno.” you quickly move jaehyun out the way before he could do anything. “hi jeno. sorry about him,” you say, pushing jaehyun back. jaehyun scoffs backing up. “hey y/n i wanted to apologize and bring this back to you. i don’t deserve to keep the sweater you worked hard on after last night. i really didn’t mean for that to happen but it did and i’m really sorry i hurt you.” you nod, grabbing the bag from him. “thank you for the apology. merry christmas jeno.” he nodded. “merry christmas y/n,” he says walking back to his car. you close the door and stare down at the bag. “i’m sorry y/n,” jaehyun says gently, wrapping you in his arms. you hug jaehyun back, feeingl loved and protected. 

December 25th, 2023

you’re at the dinner table in your childhood home. jaehyun and his girlfriend, eunha, sit next to you. across from you are both eunha’s and your parents, your families together for a nice christmas dinner. the whole day you had been down in the dumps but spending time with the people who loved you most had helped. you were on your third drink, watching everyone play a card game, when your phone started ringing. “oh sorry i’ll be right back,” you say, slipping away to your room. you look at the unfamiliar number and answer the call. “hello?” “y/n?” you heard the comforting and warm voice of the pretty boy from the nct christmas party. “hey haechan.” “hey,” he laughs lightly, “i wanted to check up on you and see how you were doing?” “oh i’m okay, thank you. jeno came over, apologized, and returned the sweater i made him so i’m feeling better.” “oh.” you can feel the disappointment through the phone. “so you guys are back to talking?” he asks, a frown laced through the words. “oh no oh my god i’m not that desperate! i just told him thank you and merry christmas. i have absolutely no interest in him anymore.” “oh thank god,” he exhales. “hmm?” “oh sorry i just,” haechan stops to sigh, “i really enjoyed last night and was hoping to get to know you more.” your heart swelled, painting a big smile on your face. “i’d like that, haechan.” 

December 18th, 2024

you find yourself back at the same store in the same mall as last year. chaewon rummaged through the racks as ningning looked at all the jewelry on display. you stood behind chaewon, holding your coat in between your arms and chest. “i need something even better than last year,” she whined, disappointed in the selection hanging on the rack. “or you can be like me and just wear the same thing.” ningning gasps, dropping the bracelet she was looking at. “what!?” “you can not wear the same thing! you have a real date this time you have to look the hottest you’ve ever looked!” ningning places the bracelet back on display and rushes over to a new rack. you shook your head laughing at the girls. “haechan will not care what i’m wearing. we already agreed we were gonna hide away in his room anyway.” “oooh!” chaewon wiggles her eyebrows at you. “oh my god not like that!” you shove her shoulder as your face turns red. both girls laugh as they continue to raid every rack in the store. “look you two can introvert the night away but you need to look so good so when you walk in jeno sees you and immediately regrets his royal fuck up from last year,” chaewon smirks as she pulls out a short black dress. “yes that dress and this on top!” ningning says, holding up a long sleeve green knitted sweater. chaewon squeals in excitement, snatching the sweater and rushing to the register with far too many clothes for the three of you. you shook your head following her. “okay the outfit is cute and i have cute black-heeled boots to go with it. but i am wearing this for me not for haechan or for jeno.” you give in and pay for the clothes this time around. “thank you y/nie!” ningning holds onto you as she pulls you out of the store. 

December 20th, 2024

“okay that should be it,” you say applying your lipstick. you stand back and look at yourself in the mirror. chaewon comes up behind you and squeezes your shoulders. “you look great y/n,” she says softly. you smile at her and turn and see ningning giving you two thumbs up. “well then, let’s not keep these boys waiting.” the three of you walk downstairs to see jaemin, chenle, and, this year, haechan. you smile walking over to your boyfriend of ten months. he immediately smiles, wrapping his arms around your waist. “look at you.” you smile at him and leave a quick kiss on his lips. he smiles and squeezes your hip. “you look beautiful, my love.” “thank you baby.” 

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you sat in the same spot on the frat’s kitchen counter as haechan mixed you a drink. “déjà vu” you joke. he laughs, handing you your drink. “where it all began,” he added. he stands in between your legs and smiles up at you. you kiss the tip of his nose. “thank you hyuck.” you take a sip of the delicious concoction he’s specialized in, enjoying the warmth spreading as the drink goes down. he sets his cup down and wraps his arms around you. “you really do look amazing princess. I can’t wait to bring you to my room and have you all to myself,” he smirks. you roll your eyes at him playfully. “then why don’t we go?” “say less.” he holds your hand as you hop off the counter and follow him to his room. as you make your way into the living room you catch a glimpse of jeno sitting on the couch next to jaemin and chaewon, no karina in sight. he looks up and locks eyes with you for a brief moment. he smiles at you and notices haechan’s hand in yours, his smile immediately falling. you give him a tight-lipped smile and turn to follow haechan to his room. 

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“this might sound shitty but i’m so happy jeno fucked up,” haechan mubbled into your neck. you both laid on his, wrapped up in each other. “i’m so happy i get to have you now,” he concludes. you laugh at him, “well the heartbreak fucking sucked but i’m happy i have you.” you kiss the top of haechan’s head and he tightens his grip around your waist. “mmmm,” he hums into your neck, “so warm.” you run your hand through his hair. “i love you,” you whisper. haechan whips his head up. “say it again,” he whispers, eyes looking glossy and big. you blush and stare into his eyes, feeling shy. “i love you.” he smiles and throws himself on top of you. “i love you so much my princess,” he says, peppering kisses all over your face. 

December 21st, 2024

you stare at the ceiling, wrapped up in haechan’s arms. you listen to his light snores and heartbeat as the sun peaks through the blinds. “baby?” you whisper. you flip yourself onto your stomach and try to gently shake haechan awake, earning a groan. “hyuck, it’s almost noon we need to get up.” “five more minutes,” he whines, tightening his grip on you. “you said that an hour ago.” you run your fingers through his bright purple hair, earning a low hum. “let’s go get some food and get ready to spend the week at my parents.” “okay,” he says, slowly getting up. you lightly pat his chest, “there we go my big teddy bear is up.” he laughs, shaking his head. “you’re lucky i love you.” he kisses the top of your head and heads into the bathroom to get ready for the day. you lay back down in his bed, smiling, happy to spend this christmas with someone special, the love of your life, unlike last christmas.

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Wonswondrland's Christmas Collection (2024)

last christmas - fratboy!l.dh

synopsis! frat parties were never your scene but your best friends, chaewon and ningning, are nearly impossible to say no to. plus your crush needed a date! it was the perfect situation... or was it? well, there's always next year right!? word count! 4.57k

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santa, can't you hear me - bestfriend's brother!s.jy

synopsis! after years of pining after your twin brother's best friend, you devise a plan to get him to finally notice you at your families' joint christmas eve dinner. will it go to plan or will you spend another year wishing he notices you? word count! tbd

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i'll be home - idol!l.mk

synopsis! the holidays are hard to spend alone, except you have a boyfriend so why are you alone? your idol boyfriend can't help but struggle to balance you and his schedule so will he make it in time for christmas or you will spend the night alone? word count! tbd

read here! - coming tba

santa doesn't know you like i do - ex!l.hs

synopsis! christmas had always been your favorite holiday, except this year you were forced to watch your ex cuddle up with his new girlfriend. the jealousy bubbled up in your heart and there was no other choice then to show that you were the one meant to spend the holiday with him. word count! tbd

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mistletoe - bestfriend!h.rj

synopsis! your yearly christmas dinner with all of your plans was being held at your apartment this year. your best friend decided he would help you host the perfect evening but now you're both under mistletoe? word count! tbd

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all i want for christmas is you - boyfriend!y.jw

synopsis! your boyfriend had been asking you what you wanted for christmas for months with you're answer always being "i don't know" until a week before you respond with "you." what's so wrong with wanting to spend a cute and cozy christmas with your love? word count! tbd

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CHRISTENED TF OUTTA THAT HO

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Eyes Off You

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a/n! cliffhanger!! see you guys on december 27th and keep an eye out for a VERY SPECIAL CHRISTMAS *WINK WINK* SURPRISE!𝜗𝜚

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yes i'm okay just sad

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I WAS NOT MADE FOR DIVORCE😩

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a/n! yall having to decide if i was gonna kick her out of trbl was so hard.. but i think it's good for plot 😏 happy reading!𝜗𝜚

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departure

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i sat on the hard wooden floor of the abandoned practice room. the lights were dim, the leds from the hallway lighting up the room from the small windows. i sighed looking up at the clock on the wall. 2:47. i dissociated for a couple of seconds, staring at the wall, the faint steps of feet heard from the other practice rooms becoming white noise in my brain. suddenly the aggressive vibration of my phone rips me from the trance signaling renjun’s call. “hi baby. are you okay?” i smile at his sweet voice. “been better. it’s kind of just radio silence in my mind rn. I can’t help but dissociate every couple of minutes,” i chuckle, sadly, trying to pretend i’m okay. “baby” he drags out, “i’m so sorry. i’m on my way to your dorm right now and i’ll be waiting for you as soon as the meeting is done okay? i’ll be here with you no matter what happens today” i smile at his words. my eyes glance upwards at the clock again. 2:56. “i love you my angel. stay strong okay?” “thank you junnie. i love you so much” i whisper, closing my eyes. “you’ve got it, love. go to the meeting and i’ll be here waiting for you,” renjun sweetly soothed my nerves as he hangs up. i take a deep breath and make my way to the elevator.

i bounced my leg under the table, nerves surging through my body. yujin places her hand on my knee. “breath,” she whispers. i nod, trying not to have a mental breakdown as out manager and the higher ups of hybe and belift walk in. the door closes and the room suddenly feels heavy. i try my hardest to listen but i can’t help but feel like the walls are closing in on me. it’s not to rei waved her hand in front of my face that i’m snapped back to reality. “kl are you okay?” she whispers. i nod quickly, rubbing my hands on my legs, letting out a sigh. “so going forward, we have decided that kl is to be removed from trbl.” all six of us gasp, immediately realizing what was happening. i feel tears prick the corners of my eyes. “your contract with trbl will be terminated today and we will begin your transition into a soloist. you will move out of the dorm tomorrow into your own apartment provided by the company. we will meet again next week to go over your new direction with belift.” at this point we are all crying, the girls all hugging me. i quickly dry my eyes. “thank you,” i choke out. my now ex manager gives me a sad smile as everyone but the girls leave. as soon as the door closes i break down leaning on rei. “i’m so sorry.” 

i walked into my room to see renjun sitting on my bed. i immediately lay down on his chest, crying. “oh princess i’m so sorry,” he whispers, holding me close. he rubs my back and leaves a gentle kiss on the crown of my head. “i’m so sorry love.” i clung onto him like a koala, sobbing. after a while my sobs calmed as i listened to his soft breathing and rhythmic heartbeat. renjun continued to hold me tight, both of us eventually falling into a deep slumber. 

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a/n! okay im so dead wrong for waiting like 20 days to post.. i've had this written and literally have just been lazy and then has finals and shit but now i'm back! i'll be posting a couple more chapters tonight and then eyes off you will be on a short pause until december 27th but i will posting A LOT in the meantime!! enjoy!𝜗𝜚

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OKAY I HAVE A COUPLE OF CHAPTERS LINED UP I AM SO SORRY YALL😭 I FINISHED FINALS AND TRAVELED HOME TODAY SO TOMORROW I WILL POST THEM AND THEN I WILL BE PUTTING EYES OFF YOU ON A SMALL PAUSE FOR SOMETHING I STARTED WORKING ON THAT IM REALLY EXCITED TO POST BUT EYES OFF YOU WILL BE BACK BEFORE 2025, DW!!

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okay so ive been slacking MAJORLY!!! finals have been kicking my ass BUT i dont have anything to do tmr so hopefully i can post a few chapters (3-5) tmr to make up for my absence 🫠

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Okay user wonswondrland FOLLOWING ME??? Ong ive been a fan or your works and ive been in tye taglist of your smau!! OMG UTS SUCH AN HONOURRR

lil ol’ me!?🤭 tyty you’re too kind🤍🤍 i actually followed you bc i read some of your works too and was like oh yes this is good😌 🫶❣️

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Following solemnly for how pretty ur acc is + enhypen

that means so much omg thank you🤍🙇 i take embarrassingly too long on the theme for my blog + carrd😭

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unfortunately i don't think it worked...

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a/n! so… this is a bit of a filler before more drama but dw guys!!!!!!! everything works out for kl (and jungwon) in the end!!! enjoy and see you again tmr!𝜗𝜚

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last waltz

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i stared at my reflection on the phone screen, the "start live" button staring back. every ounce of dignity, hope, and confidence i had was all slowly fading by the minute as i looked at myself. renjun, sunoo, the girls, and our manager all sat on my bed and chairs around my room behind the phone propped up on my desk. "well, here goes the last waltz," i laugh, trying to mask the tightening of my heart. i took a deep breath and reached over to start the live. instantly thousands of viewers flood in, commenting all sorts of things. "is she going to confirmed the rumors?" "is kl really a cheater?" "it's okay kl we support you!" "belift should really just kick her out." the last comment completely shattered any confidence left in me. i blinked back tears, looking at my support system behind the screen. renjun gave me a weak smile, trying to comfort me. i sensed his wavering confidence fill the room, defeat flooding my brain. i look at my manager who nods. i look at the camera and put on the biggest smile i can. "hi trblmkrs! i wanted to come on live to talk about some stuff going around lately. i'm sure you've all seen the picture of me with enhypen's jungwon." i pause to collect my thoughts, biting my tongue so the tears subside. "i know this looks bad especially after my relationship with nct's renjun was confirmed. this is still true. i am sorry if i disappoint any of you but i am dating renjun. i am not with jungwon. and i will explain why i was with him in the first place." i stop to read a couple comments. "you don't need to explain we trust and love you!" "she lies straight through her teeth like a true cheater." the reaction was still cut in half, i needed the positive comments to outweigh the negative. "as some of you may know i used to be a trainee at sm before coming to belift. at sm i met jungwon and we became really close. we've been good friends since then and now that he is my brother's group mate we can still keep in touch. we went to lunch just to catch up and that was all. renjun knew about it and it wasn't secretive or cheating." i look up at my manager who is shaking his head as he reads the comments. i shut my eyes, fighting the floodgates threatening to open. i hear all the girls whispering "stop," begging me to cut off the live for my sake. i take another deep breath and regain composure. i sift through the comments, seeing plenty of support. "i hope you guys can understand and i promise to not be so careless about my image in the future. i ask for your support and love trblmkrs and i promise to not let you guys down in the future. i love you trblmkrs." i end the live smiling and making hand hearts. i look up to see everyone smiling at me, except for my manager.

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a/n! hey so this smau just kind of turned sad and stressful.. my bad.. im a sucker for angst!! anyway while it is stressful now, trust the process!!! see you again tomorrow night!𝜗𝜚

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DISPATCH SMD!!!!

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"look i know what this looks like and i swear on my life we aren't doing anything. renjun and i are actually dating, not even just for the media now, so i have no reason so be fooling around with jungwon. he's my brother's friend and my ex but he's also my friend and we just had lunch in the cafeteria. i'm not sure which staff member ratted me out to giselle but it's nothing, i swear. just please let me make a statement to trblmakers." the meeting room is filled with silence. my lawyer sits next to me in the room, patiently waiting for my manager's response to my plea. he rubs his hands over his face. "kl you're causing us so much more trouble than what it's worth. are you even trying to be careful about your image? Do you even care about being an idol?" the girls look at him, angrily. "of course she cares! she's been in the industry longer than everyone in this room! it's not any of her fault that giselle will stop at nothing to defame her!" yujin slams her hands on the table as she stands up shouting across the long table. wonyoung grabs her arm, attempting to calm her down. "i understand I've caused a lot of trouble and it was never my intention to. i really care about the girls and this group. i think if i did a short live talking with trblmakers it could-" my manager sighs. "kl, you can't just do damage control. this will follow you and the girls. how are they supposed to know that you're not cheating? how are they supposed to believe that you're not just a glorified sasaeng?" i scoffed at his remark. "with all due respect, i won't take that. i am not a sasaeng. i work too damn hard to be discredited. i am here because i love what i do, not to get into an idol's pants. jungwon and i dated years ago and are just friends. the entirety of enhypen are my brothers. trblmakers will understand, i know they will. please, just let me," i pleaded, voice cracking at the end. rei pulled me into her shoulder, rubbing my arm. "while personally i feel that you should go on a hiatus, i will allow you to do this," the girls and i jumped up, excitedly, smiles painting our faces. "but if it backfires, your contract with the group will be terminated and your contract with the company will be reevaluated." the entire room gasped. i sighed, slowly nodding. "then that's a risk i will just have to take."

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a/n! okay sooooo i've failed majorly this week BUT i've figured out exactly how i want this smau to end so next week expect an update wednesday, THURSDAY, and friday!! okay we're getting dramatic as hell but it's worth it for jungwon in the end, right? enjoy!!𝜗𝜚

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have fun talking w my lawyers! 😘

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a/n! okay i promise i had this chapter ready but i was talking with my roommate for hours and completely forgot to upload at 9 😭 literally always late… not very punctual. anyway more drama!! enjoy!𝜗𝜚

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