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Coping with your death - the brothers

info : angst warning : major character death, probably some grammar mistakes but pls bare with me it’s 4:45am as im writing this :’)

Lucifer tries to forget about you. Maybe if he forgets your existence, the pain will go away. Yet he keeps seeing you, no, imagining you at each corner of the HOL. He drowns himself in paperwork, maybe that will help. But somehow, he can still feel your hand on his shoulder, telling him to come sleep with you in bed and take a break. He becomes harsher with everyone, especially with Mammon who cannot stop sobbing about you. Not even Diavolo can bring him at peace again. Lucifer is slowly losing himself into darkness. You were his light and now, you’re gone. Forever.

Mammon spends all of his time at the casino. Money used to solve all of his problems before you came into his life. But now, now you were gone. Meaning money had to do it’s job again. But the feelings weren‘t the same. It wasn’t like your warm and affectionate hugs. It wasn’t like the small kisses you’d randomly give him throughout the day. It wasn’t like your sweet honey laugh he loved so dearly. It wasn’t like your beautiful smile. It wasn’t like your comforting hand in his cheek. It wasn’t like you. Money used to be able to by his happiness. Then why couldn’t money bring you back?

Beezlebub eats less and less as the days pass. Suddenly, his interest for food has died down. He blames himself for your death. Even if it wasn’t his fault, even if there was nothing he could’ve done, he still takes the blame. Everywhere he goes he gets looks of pity which are sent back by glares from Belphie, who tries his best to comfort him. But it’s to no avail. He lost one of the most important person in his life, again. It felt like a curse and he couldn’t help but think who would be the miserable next victim. He stays up at night wondering if he did something wrong for death to take you away; to take you away from him. He promised you he’d protect you and wouldn’t never let anything bad ever happened to you. And Beel was always one to keep his promises. So why wasn’t he able to keep this one?

Satan spends his day and his nights at the library, and he won’t leave until he found something to bring back the dead. No one dares to approach him. Not even Lucifer himself. They’re all too scared of the wrath he would unleash. He barely sleeps. The only time he does is when he accidentally falls asleep on the many books spread on the table. But he is quick to wake up and go back to his reading. Luckily, he still eats and drinks, Beel always dropping by to give his brother some food, he doesn’t want to lose anyone else precious to him. His legs have gone numbed. The bags under his eyes seem to be bigger than his knowledge. Yet he’ll never stop. Not until he can have you back in his arms, alive. Because why can’t you both live happily ever after like in his books? Why can’t he just have a happy ending?

Asmodeus doesn’t look as fresh anymore. Sure, he still takes care of himself. But no matter how much makeup he puts on, it is clear to everyone around him that his sleep doesn’t come as easy as it used to. He regrets not telling you how beautiful and perfect he thought you were to his eyes every minute. All of a sudden, he doesn’t find himself all that pretty and attractive. He doesn’t find the beauty in him. He can’t see himself the way you used to. Your shining eyes, full of love, whenever you’d look at him. He wants to see them again. He’d even be ready to turn into a monster if it means he could see your beautiful face again. It doesn’t matter if you’ll love him or not. As long as you’re alive, its the only thing that he needs.

Belphagor sleeps his pain away. People would think he went in a coma if it weren’t for him occasionally grabbing food, your favourite, downstairs in the kitchen. He tries to force himself to dream of anything but you. Happy memories or not, he doesn’t want any of them. Because just the thought of you brings all the pain back again. He hates it. This is why he never wanted to fall in love. Especially with a human. He should’ve known that this would happened. That’s why he tried pushing you away, yet you just kept coming. Even with his short temper, his direct and mean words he threw at you when he snapped, you never left his side. Damn you. Damn death, the one who took you away. If only you could still sing him to sleep like you used to do. If only you’d still cuddle with him while napping. If only you were still here.

Leviathan plays all of your favourite game and pretends you’re right here, next to him. He chose to stay in denial. To live in a world where you were alive. He would sometime record your gaming sessions, so he manage to find you saying various things. And whenever he’d ask a question, he could make you answer. Heck. He’s so desperate in keeping you alive he made a life sized cutout out of you. No one has seen him outside of his room for a while but they can hear at night his cries and sobs. It’s only at night, when he doesn’t feel you in his arms, that he realizes that you’re truly gone.

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It's how he looks like when he's searching for the ring he's gonna use to propose to you.

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Ima quote this on the daily now after watching this show, only the elite people will understand 🤌🏼

fireworks are already going off rn and i have the sudden urge to go to the restroom yikes

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pre-relationship valentines - hq

genre: fluff warnings: food mention (like, y/n going out for lunch) ft: oikawa, kuroo, akaashi a/n: happy late v-day to all who celebrate ! im not very good at writing akaashi so 😭 apologies

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OIKAWA TOORU ⤷ he may be calm and fine on the outside, but his heart is ramming in his chest. "hey y/n. you know what's on the menu? me n u." he flashes you a bright smile, confident that his (quite overused) pick-up line would make you fall for him. his eyebrows rise and fall back down repeatedly as he waits for your response, anxiety levels rising but smile still in place. the thing is, though, you'd already fallen for him way before he delivered his lame pick-up line. "i'd hope so," you chuckle and walk away before he can even process your response.

KUROO TETSURO ⤷ unlike oikawa, i don't think he'd be calm and fine on the outside. despite him being portrayed as this smooth playboy, i think he's just a dorky highschool boy who's a bit of a bully. "h-hey y/n," he starts, face red already. "i heard a thud. did you just fall from heaven?" then he'd laugh very awkwardly for about three seconds straight. you beam at him and laugh with no response, turning away before he could notice the heat rising to your cheeks.

AKAASHI KEIJI ⤷ flowers!! with a not-so-little note attached, but he would be too shy to deliver it directly. i imagine he'd leave it on your desk so you have something to come back to when you go out for lunch. to him, it didn't matter a ton if you knew it was him who left the flowers and the letter, all he wanted was for you to know that you were loved and remembered.

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If You Love Her (Shoto Todoroki Imagine)

Song Reference: If You Love Her - Forest Blakk 

In Which Case: It’s the day or your and Shotos wedding. It’s the moment of the final Bride and Groom dance, as you both step into the middle of the floor Shoto proceeds to take both of your hands gracefully as the song begins laying through the speakers. The love between the both of you illuminating the room blissfully. Shoto then begins swaying with you to the song he personally picked out. As he watches your eyes he starts reminiscing on the times that made him chose this song personally and more particularly: why he loves you. 

Take It

If she give you her heart, don’t you break it

Let your arms be a place she feels safe

She’s the best thing that you’ll ever have. 

She always has trouble falling asleep

      You always had trouble with your insomnia but of course, you’d never tell Shoto. You never wanted to worry him, so of course you kept it to yourself. That was until Shoto began noticing how tired you always seemed the next day, you’d start falling asleep in the middle of class or be to tired for any of the hero work you were assigned to do. But he never asked, he didn’t want to seem nosey. The following day Shoto asked you to study with him in his dorm so you could get caught up, you agreed. In the dorm it was quiet as you two studied, so quiet that you ended up falling asleep on your books. Shoto let you sleep, he might not have known why you were always so tired but he didn’t mind. He covered you up and let you sleep. When you awoke several hours later in the night you felt bad, so of course with the feeling of the guilt you explained your situation to Shoto, and Shoto pledged to stay with you at night until you were able to fall asleep. 

And she likes to cuddle while under the sheets

Anytime you and Shoto would nap in one another’s dorms, you always wanted to cuddle. Which Shoto never minded. One specific night while the both of you were laid up in Shotos bed under the covers watching a movie you were watching him as he watched the movie. Before you knew it, and he knew it you were throwing the blanket over your heads and wrapping your whole body around Shoto, who became a blushing mess. yet, you both stayed that way, tangled in each others arms. It became your favorite thing, wrapped in each others arms underneath the covers, away from the world. 

She loves pop songs and dancing

You and Shoto often studied in each others dorms often. Either for tests, to get caught up, or even not studying and just being able to be with one another. Today was just a simple day, you two in your dorm while he sat against the wall studying his books while you roamed your room. He watched you though, instead of studying. He couldn’t help it, everything you did he found himself watching you completely in love with you. Turning on your radio music began pouring out of the speakers to an older pop song. Listening to it and humming you were so into the moment you began dancing around, not minding the world around you, and Shoto just admiring you and the way you danced. The way you didn’t care how you looked or danced, you just lived in that moment. 

And bad trash tv 

There you were again, in his bed, next to him, cuddled into his side as he held onto you. You were watching a reality sit com that simply had terrible acting and the humor wasn’t there for him but he watched you, he watched you as you laughed and smiled during the whole thing. That’s all that mattered to him, if bad trash tv made you laugh and smile, he was more than okay with watching it with you. 

There’s still a few other things

She loves love notes

You and Shoto hadn’t known each other that long, a few months in the making. But of course, Shoto felt a love for you that he didn’t much understand at all yet but he knew when he was around you, he felt like he belonged. He felt at peace. He felt loved. Of course he didn’t know how to express all this to you nor did he know how to confirm his feelings to himself. So he wrote it all down, on a piece of notebook paper. Everything he felt about you, how you made him feel, how we wanted to love you the way he felt he didn’t deserve to do. He folded it, and placed it on his desk. When you came over his dorm the next day you saw the note, and without a doubt knew it was a love note. As it had a heart on it. Expressing to him you loved love notes and that you always wanted to have one from someone who loved you or felt a love to you. The next day, well the same letter you saw on that desk, happened to be on your desk. In your dorm. From there on out, you would receive little love notes on your desk everyday that expressed how you made his day that day or how lovely you looked, or how your smiled turned the rainy day sunny again. 

And babies

Shoto had decided to take you out for soba one day. As you were out you came across a single mother with two kids around the ages of 1 and 2. The mother seemed tired as the one year old was crying hysterically and the two year old was pulling on her skirt pointing to a stand of cotton candy. Shoto noticed how you watched them with sad eyes. You felt for the mother and watching as she seemed to get more stressed you couldn’t handle it. You quickly went up to the mother and asked if you could help, the mother simply nodded. You took the one year old into your arms and began humming to them, rocking them and simply just tending to him. The mother watched as her baby became quiet and started smiling and laughing again. The two year old began watching you as well once you started to sing to them. They were calm and the mother couldn’t help but cry with joy. You loved children and Shoto knew this, and though he doubted himself being a father, he knew they would have the best mother. 

And likes giving gifts

Christmas time rolled around and it was your favorite time of year, though you had money to get expensive gifts you always preferred to make yours for other. It was the meaning behind it that you loved so much. Every year you’d make gifts for everyone in the school, even the teachers. All throughout the Christmas month you were giving gifts. Everyone would tell you it wasn’t necessary but that never stopped you. You loved gifting them, especially around Christmas. 

Has a hard time accepting a good compliment

Shoto admired you, all the time. He’d always watch you, whatever you’d be doing. Cleaning, dancing, studying, sleeping, etc.. No matter what you did, you were always beautiful to him. One night you were putting on makeup for a date with a guy you’d met at a cafe, thought Shoto was devastated it wasn’t him he still thought you were the prettiest girl to exist. And he would always tell you that, but tonight. He would tell you that you never ceased to stun him with how beautiful you were. That the man who was taking you out tonight was the luckiest man in the world to be holding you by his side. Of course you just looked at him, smiling. You shook your head and laughed a bit before telling him he was just saying that. Though he knew you couldn’t ever accept his complimenting words, he knew you took them to heart and held onto them. 

She loves her whole family and all of her friends 

If there was anyone you’d protect with your life, it was your family and friends. Shoto would experience this when he was out with you and your family and an attack had happened. You were standing with your mother and brother when a large object came towards the three of you. You immediately placed your body in front of your mom and brother having it strike you in your back rather than hitting them. You only suffered minor injuries but when Shoto asked why, you told him they were your family and it’s your job to protect them, you’d do it for your friends too. Because you loved them. 

So if you’re the one she lets in 

Take it

If she gives you her heart, don’t you break it

Let your arms be the place she feels safe in

She’s the best thing that you’ll ever have.

She’ll love you if you love her 

On days when 

It feels like the whole world might cave in 

Stand side by side and you’ll make it

She’s the best thing that you’ll ever have

She’s love you if you love her like that. 

Kiss her with passion as much as you can

Whenever he can. whenever he gets the chance, Shotos wants to show you how much he loves you. He wants you to feel the love he has for you. So whenever he gets the chance or the time of day he simply takes you into his arms, pulls you as close as possible, places his hands firmly against your cheeks and kisses you with passion, the feeling of your blush pouring over your cheeks can be felt in his hands as he holds your face. 

Run your hands through her hair whenever she’s sad

Though you struggled with minor depression there were days it got the best of you and you were sad, all day. Shoto would decide to stay in with you, wrap you in his arms and hold you tightly against his chest as his fingers would run smoothly through your hair as he whispered sweet nothings into your ear all day long. 

And when she doesn’t notice how pretty she is

Tell her over and over so she never forgets

On your wedding day, Shoto knew the whole folklore of seeing the bride before the wedding but he never believed it. He knew you two were to last an eternity. So when he got news you were thinking of running he came to your aid. It was all because you didn’t thing you were pretty enough, on this day. Shoto was stunned by you. You were dressed in your wedding dress, your hair pinned back and your veil brushed over your face. He could've sworn he was going to cry from the beauty that radiated off you into the room. Even if you were crying in fear. Shoto approached you, taking both your hands into his where he whispered to you that no one could be prettier than you are. You didn’t even notice that the beauty that he swore you were could ever make him cry, but right here right now, he was crying because he was more than happy to be the one marrying you today. 

Take it

If she gives you her heart, don’t you break it

Let your arms be the place she feels safe in

She’s the best thing that you’ll ever have

She’ll love you if you love her

On days when

It feels like the whole world might cave in

Stand side by side and you’ll make it

She’s the best thing that you’ll ever have

She’ll love you if you love her like that

She’ll love you if you love her like that

She’ll love you if you love her

She’ll love you if you love her like that

She’ll love you

She’ll love you 

She’ll love you 

She’ll love you if you love her

On days when

It feels like the whole world might cave in

Stand side by side and you’ll make it

She's the best thing that you’ll ever have

She’ll love you if you love her like that

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CATCHING THE KNY BOYS STARING AT YOU —» scenarios —» ft. tanjirou, zenitsu, inosuke, sanemi, kyojuro, giyuu —» A/N: Elo guyssss! Another post for our KNY Boys every Monday!!! Donate ideas and please drop drop drop yer requests 🤣

»— TANJIROU

"Tanjirou, are you okay?" You waved a hand over his face as he suddenly stopped mid-way his sentence. "You just stared at me out of nowhere."

"Uh, ah!" He gulped. He blushed. Bby boi melt. So cute....

"Tanjirou?" You called out to him because he looked so nervous.

"So pretty. I-I-I mean you're just so pretty I just want to look at you!" Realizing what he just said, he covered his mouth. "F-Forget what I just said! But also don't."

»— ZENITSU

You were talking about your most recent mission when you noticed that Zenitsu wasn't listening to you anymore.

"Zenitsu-kun," you called out to him bursting his little bubble.

"Y-Y/N-chan? What is it? Is there something wrong?!" Zenitsu panicked

"No, nothing really. It's just that you're staring at me. Are you-"

He paused for a while then screamed. "I-I'm sorry, Y/N-chan! It's just that! How can I even explain it! Marry me right now please!"

»— INOSUKE

You placed another piece of meat on his plate just to see if you'll get a reaction out of him, but...

"I-Ino-" You started, however he's just staring at you bewildered, until he screamed and erupted.

"What are you doing to me, woman!?" He screamed while jumping up and down perhaps just as how erratic you made his heart beat deep inside with those fuwa fuwa feels.

»— KYOJURO

You were eating lunch together when you noticed that Kyojuro's unusually quiet. Looking up at him, you saw that he's just staring at you, his food untouched.

"Uh, are you okay? You're staring at me."

"Oh, am I?" He laughed. "Oh, right. I am, I am."

He continued his hearty laugh as you blushed.

"Can't help it! You're just so beautiful. I guess I got lost just by looking at you." Kyojuro proudly announced which got you even more flustered.

»— GIYUU

The two of you were playing shogi when you realized that Giyuu was not thinking of his move rather he was staring at you.

"Giyuu," you called out and it seemed like you finally brought him back to earth. "Uh, you were staring at me."

He just gave you a blank look. "Am I?"

"Yes," you answered.

"Okay," Giyuu answered, however he didn't even bat his eyes nor change his expression. His gaze still locked through yours.

"Uhm...you're still staring at me?" You told him.

"I know." He answered. "Can I stare at you some more?"

»— SANEMI

You placed a hand on his forehead and he flinched as if you surprised him. His face ultra red as he questioned you, "W-What are you-"

"Well, you're just staring at me all this time so I thought you're not feeling well."

"S-Staring!" He blurted out, pouted and turned his face away, all flushed while covering the lower half of his face with his hand. "'ts all your fault!"

"What is it?" You asked.

"Nothing! What're you talkin' about!" He grumpily returned.

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random boyfriend texts with oikawa <3

genre: fake texts

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Why won’t you love me?

SYNOPSIS: In which Keigo has been pining over y/n on the internet for a while now, but she wants nothing to do with him. Determined to win her heart, he comes up with a master plan.

PAIRING: Hawks x Reader

GENRE: humour/crack, actor au, smau

WARNINGS: a lot of swearing, mild suggestive themes, alcohol/drug usage

TAGLIST: CLOSED

SCHEDULE: posted randomly throughout the week!

Part One: shiggy stans🤤

Part Two:✨blocked✨

Part Three: I’m your clown😌

Part Four: I’ve heard of him alright

Part Five: then we kill him

Part Six: JUST SAY THE WORD AND ILL DROP HIM

Part Seven: GTG

Part Eight: Socks

Part Nine: I MADE YOU BLUSH

Part Ten: Mind ya business

Part Eleven: why are we running from Dabi?

Part Twelve: guess I’ll just die

Part Thirteen: Oh no

Part Fourteen: Say less baby

Part Fifteen: go to horny jail

Part Sixteen: panic

Part Seventeen: why won’t you love me?

Part Eighteen: break my back like a glow stick

Part Nineteen: sad juice

Part Twenty: it’s game on

Part Twenty one: Maid outfit

Part Twenty Two: love juice

Part Twenty Three: you forgot

Part Twenty Four: I may be number 2...

Part Twenty Five: he fucking what?

Part Twenty Six: We’re friends😇

Part Twenty Seven: GO OUT???

[...]

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How You Hug| The 100 Preferences

Bellamy Blake: 

John Murphy:

Jasper Jordan:

Monty Green:

Lincoln:

Finn Collins:

Jordan Green:

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How You Say ‘I Love You’| The 100 Preferences

Bellamy Blake: “You Complete Me” 

John Murphy: “Te Amo”

Jasper Jordan: “Life Would Be Boring Without You”

Monty Green: “Your Voice Is My Favorite Sound” 

Lincoln: “I’d Do Anything To See You Smile”

Finn Collins: “I Am Here For You... Always” 

Jordan Green: “You Are My Favorite Distraction” 

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Type Of BF He Is| The 100 Preferences

Bellamy Blake: Slightly Possessive Boyfriend

John Murphy: The Goofy Boyfriend 

Jasper Jordan: The Talkative Boyfriend

Monty Green: The Geeky Boyfriend

Lincoln: The Free and Wild Boyfriend

Finn Collins: The Logical Boyfriend

Jordan Green: The Complemental Boyfriend

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Wedding Lingerie + Their Reactions| The 100 Preferences

A/N: Credit to gif owners

Bellamy Blake: 

John Murphy: 

Jasper Jordan:

Monty Green: 

Lincoln:

Finn Collins:

Jordan Green:

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Pole Dance You Do Pt2 |The 100 Preferences

A/N: Scenario: Basically, this is the pole dance you perform/do for them in your own time. Part 2 of this scenario. Part 1 is here: https://www.tumblr.com/blog/simpinforlincoln

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Finn Collins: 

Jordan Green: 

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Pole Dance You Do Pt 1 |The 100 Preference

A/N: Scenario: Basically them pole dance you perform/do for them. Part 1 of the scenario. Part 2 can be found here: 

https://www.tumblr.com/blog/simpinforlincoln

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Bellamy Blake:

John Murphy: 

Jasper Jordan: 

Monty Green: 

Lincoln:

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Wedding Dresses | The 100 Preferences

Bellamy Blake: 

John Murphy:

Jasper Jordan: 

Monty Green:

Lincoln:

FInn Collins:

Jordan Green:

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reblog if you love Bellamy Blake

you know you wanna reblog this

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don’t read this while listening to ‘Give It All’ by Drew Ryn because... i sobbed 😩

𝚋𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚔 𝚊 𝚙𝚛𝚘𝚖𝚒𝚜𝚎, 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚗 𝚖𝚢 𝚑𝚎𝚊𝚛𝚝 ☁︎ 𝚍𝚊𝚋𝚒 𝚡 𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚍𝚎𝚛

not a request !

genre: angst

character: dabi

warning(s): cheating, intense swearing

i made a mistake.

the word itself, "mistake" was an understatement. there was no reason for me to sugarcoat a situation like thisㅡespecially not for my benefit. the odds weren't in my favor, and that's the way it was supposed to go. all because i made a grave error. a poor choice that, really, didn't seem all that bad at the time, but, shitㅡi was in the heat of the moment, intoxicated and confused. and i know i wasn't the only one.

i could've done anything. could've drank myself to death. could've smoked until my heart gave out. anything would've been better than keeping my dick out for a slut from a party. anything.

if i had known that, in the moment, while i was so enhapsed in the pleasure that a random bitch was giving me, i'd lose the love of my life the next day, i would've found a way to stop time. stop time, and rewind. make sure it never happened.

unfortunately, that was deemed impossible.

but, fuck, even with another girl under me, making me regret every choice i was making in the spur of it all, she wasn't as half as the gem (y/n) is. no other female could come as far as being compared to her, let alone compete. she's perfect. flawless. so flawless. the saying goes, "nobody's perfect. nobody's born perfect, and nobody can acquire perfection." yet, there she was, with every other male and female basking in her glory.

with her gorgeous locks of (h/c) hair, her welcoming (e/c) orbs, her soul that even the angels from above, if there really are any, would lust over and envy, and, of course, her figure. fuck, that was the same figure i had my hands all over. i was the one showing all of the other fuckers who she belonged to. she was mine. mines to treasure, to care for, and to cherish. she was the girl who made me into a totally different person. i wanted to brutally murder everyone. yet somehow, she never made it onto that list.

those same gentle, (e/c) eyes were now filled to the brim with tears and, shit, that broke me.

i was never one to give two shits about what everyone claims is "love." no, but this was entirely different. i never took it upon myself to hold back from who i truly was; a disturbed, psychopathic, selfish villain. i was a monster. and, i still am. but sheㅡshe was the only person that accepted me for who i am, and who brought a whole different persona onto me. one that stripped itself of its selfishness and greed, and became vulnerable for her. for her to love.

that's why i fell in love with her. the only person that got to see me smile. if i could cry, she would've seen unbelievable amounts. in the end, it was all for her.

those insatiable moments were now long gone.

"i'm leaving, dabi."

who knew that three words, alligned together in such a bitter, venomous sentence, could break down the heart of a man? those words, they taunted me, even as they slipped out of her mouth.

"hey," i spoke steadily, praying that my voice wouldn't crack. "i can't let you leave."

(y/n) turned around, giving me just the most heart-wrenching view of the tears that were seeping down her face. i did that. her puffy eyes that she rubbed with her small hands. i did that. glossy lips, puffed out, unfortunately cutely. i did that. shit, i thought.

"y-you did this," she spoke aloud exactly what i was thinking. i know i did, sugar. was what i wished to say. let me make it up to you. "you ruined everything."

"you told me you loved me."

i froze in my spot, alongside the wet spots that had risen in the corners of my eyes.

"(y/n)," i reached out, extending my hand towards her, practically needing her welcoming touch to reassure me. to tell me that we'll make it. that it'll be alright. though, it was no surprise when she snatched her hand away. "i did love you. i i've always loved you. i still love you, and i'll always love you." her tears never seemed to stop. i approached her, but she immediately backed away, leaving nothing but the burning edge in my heart.

"even while i was drunkㅡfucking shit, i regret letting toga talk me into doing those goddamn shots," i let out a breathy chuckle, and that's all it took for the tears to arrive. "but, believe me, (y/n), even with her, even with everyoneㅡyou were the only person on my mind. i swear it."

she scoffed, and those pure, beaming eyes darkened in under a second. "that must be precisely why you felt the need to get your dick wet? i doubt toga talked you into that one, she knows better."

"it was a mistake."

"no," her bitter tone was enough to shut me up. i hated it when he was angry, pissed, fueled by nothing but anger. she reminded me of me, which is why i hated it. reminded me of the person i used to be when we were together. it hurt. "no, dabi. the only mistake that's been made her, is this."

i could feel it.

is this what it was? heartbreak?

your heart growing heavy, slowly but surely. growing heavy until the pressure eased into it, sending it down into a great fall, just until it hit the pit of your stomach? that's when it would break. i could feel it there. all the way down there, the pieces unmendable.

"what changed, (y/n)?" now. now, my voice was shaking. quivering. dripping with anticipation and fear.

her gaze met mine and, even if it lasted just a second, it felt like forever. with her, it always felt like forever. she was slipping away, and i was letting her. "you did. the second you decided to throw away two years, for one night."

"let me make it up to you," now, i was begging. with a shaky voice and unstable legs, i could barely find the right words for her. "let me dedicate my life to you. i'll put it all aside. everything. i'll let everything go to waste, if it means you'll stay. you promised me that we would be forever, you can't just break it."

"you broke your promise first. now, it's my turn."

my eyes widened as she turned on her heel. all she did was sling her bag over her shoulder. one that was already packed, showing that she already knew about everything. as if she had predicted it. then, she left.

why wasn't i moving? why wasn't i running after her? out of all moments, why was this the one where my legs choose to go against me, turn on me, letting me bite the dust with karma kicking my ass, letting me watch the woman i love, the one i planned to marry, slip away?

was this really it?

of course it was.

because, just like that, she was gone.