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HOLY SHIT WHY DIDN'T ANYONE TELL ME ABOUT JOHANNESBURG, AFRICA??? I mean look at this place!

ALSO THE AFRO PUNK CULTURE IS LIT THERE LIKE?????

I FUCKING LOVE THIS!

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Almost 11:11 (wish time).

I’ve always imagined myself wasting the night with you.

Practicing in distracting activities but the only thing distracting me is you,

You halfheartedly ask if the moon is a star,

I reply with “no”.

Telling you that the moon simply reflects light.

And you not realizing that you’re the light it reflects.

You give the moon it’s light and feed off of the suns energy.

You give not only the earth itself light but everyone around you.

Including me.

For you to be so dark sometimes you never fail to make my life brighter.

I’ve never seen anyone absorb their surroundings like you do.

You genuinely remind me of a sunflower.

“I wanna grow” you say.

“I want new surroundings.”

I believe 100% that I’m not apart of those things.

I believe that my darkness hurts your light sometimes instead of balancing it out.

But you don’t need someone to balance you.

You can do all of those things yourself.

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Almost 11:11 (wish time).

I’ve always imagined myself wasting the night with you.

Practicing in distracting activities but the only thing distracting me is you,

You halfheartedly ask if the moon is a star,

I reply with “no”.

Telling you that the moon simply reflects light.

And you not realizing that you’re the light it reflects.

You give the moon it’s light and feed off of the suns energy.

You give not only the earth itself light but everyone around you.

Including me.

For you to be so dark sometimes you never fail to make my life brighter.

I’ve never seen anyone absorb their surroundings like you do.

You genuinely remind me of a sunflower.

“I wanna grow” you say.

“I want new surroundings.”

I believe 100% that I’m not apart of those things.

I believe that my darkness hurts your light sometimes instead of balancing it out.

But you don’t need someone to balance you.

You can do all of those things yourself.

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So, if anyone is interested I just made an instagram for my poetry and maybe my photography. If you’re interested feel free to follow. It would mean allot. 💜 I don’t wanna post until I have atleast 10 followers. So if y’all could try and get me there I’d be extremely grateful. ☺️☺️

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Hi y’all, ik I haven’t posted in awhile but feel free to message me 💜💜

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How to make anything you do sound suspicious.

Be mostly specific.

I.e. “Yes. I bought this with legal, tender, money that was acquired legally.”

“I met with a friend who is alive.”

“I went to the still standing, not-burned home of my enemies.”

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🧩

We fit together like puzzle pieces,

My chin on your head,

Your hand intertwined in mine.

I always felt like perfect didn’t exist,

But that was before I met you.

Now I know,

You’re the missing piece I never knew I needed.

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@my followers

I know I haven’t posted anything in awhile, but this writers block has gotten to me again, which it always does. And I’ve just been all over the place. So to those who care, I’ll be trying my best to finish something and update you all with some new writing as soon as possible. Thanks again for supporting me. 😘😘💜💜

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Long Distance

“You should go.”

She says,

Half heartedly.

The supportive girlfriend part of her encouraging me,

But I know the rest of her doesn’t want me to leave.

She doesn’t want me to be over 1,000 miles away all over again.

She wants the best,

She wants me to live my dream and be happy.

But she also wants me.

I remember the tears in her eyes when I told her I was leaving.

“I’ve been making her cry allot.”

I thought.

The same girl I promised that I would never make shed a tear.

It’s never really on purpose,

I either say something stupid,

Or tell her the truth.

They both end the same.

In the end, I wanna make the decision that’s not only best for me.

But for us.

- xicodin, April 2019

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Hi everyone!!! I just wanted to say thank you to every who has liked, rebloged, followed or showed any love to my blog in general. I really appreciate it, this honestly turned out better than I ever expected. And that makes me really happy, so thank you all. 💖💖💖. I’ll try my best to give you all something new every other day. I get writers block all the damn time so it’s kind of hard but I’m getting better day by day I think.

That’s all I wanted to say, thanks again. I really appreciate all of you. 🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡

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Unstable

I don’t want you to get used to me leaving.

To always have to pick up the phone,

To hear the sound of my breathing.

I want you to get used to the smell of me,

The way that I hold you when you go to sleep,

The moments we have that take control of me,

And when I whisper in your ear that we’re meant to be,

The feeling of my hands,

Us wanting to get close so bad,

Get you used to feeling protected when I hug from the back.

And the smile on my face when we both wear all black,

The way your lips taste,

The way my hand shakes,

How I try to hide when I’m nervous,

But then we both know that it’s all fake.

The way your cheeks turn red,

When I stare for too long.

The way our bodies fit together,

The days I really hate the weather,

And you laugh at me and tell me that it’s fine cuz we’ll be together.

Let’s get used to being together.

Being each other’s comfort when we’re under the weather.

Let’s get used to being in love.

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Theatre 🎭:

I made her cry on our third date,

I wouldn’t let her put her hand in my shirt in fear that the other people in the theater would notice,

She turned away from me,

I touched her cheek and asked,

“Are you sick?”

“No.” She replied.

I was oblivious,

I didn’t notice the shake in her voice,

I didn’t know she’d get that emotional.

We’re almost 6 months in our relationship,

I know when she’s crying,

I know when there’s a change in her voice,

I know what makes her sad, mad and what makes her happy.

I know why she’s such an emotional person.

I know what I should joke about, and what not to joke about.

I know some of her,

Not all of her,

But some.

I’m patient enough to wait,

I never liked studying much but I don’t mind studying her.

- xicodin, April 2019

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Her:

I never really liked avengers that much,

Honestly I haven’t seen many of the movies either.

But she talks about them like they’re the best thing in the world.

Even though we’re just on the phone,

I can hear her smile.

She likes Thor,

He’s her favorite.

She talks about the movies and I began to like them too.

She talks about her favorite songs and sooner or later they become my favorite too.

I hear the love in her voice,

when she talks about her younger days.

How nature and her were basically best friends.

Sometimes I wish I could take her back,

Let her feel that love and peace again.

A part of me wants to recreate that feeling, take her back to that place.

Make her feel like she did during those days.

Fill that piece of her that’s been lost.

A part of me wants to be that place.

- xicodin, April 2019

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Untitled:

The sky gets gray sometimes,

So don’t think it ain’t okay when you do.

The clouds get dark and shake sometimes,

So don’t think it’s not okay when you do.

They even cry sometimes,

So it’s perfectly fine when you do too.

I want you to admire yourself the way you do everything else.

I want you to love the way you smile and laugh, the same way you love the colors of the sunset.

I want you to enjoy the way your body looks, the same way I do.

I love every piece of you,

And I want you to love them too.

I accept the scars you have,

And I hope you do too.

- xicodin, January 2019

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Body:

Your body is your body

it’s mine for the moment

but it’s yours for forever.

with the state we’re in

it’s only mine when we’re together.

the moments our bodies share

feel like they last for eternity.

so when you share it with him,

you should know how bad you’re hurting me.

- xicodin, May 2018

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Greetings I guess,

Well this is my first post, I’m not really sure what to say except that I hope that this is the beginning of something productive. I’m not really open when it comes to sharing my writings so this is basically my first time exposing myself. So if you like what you see, feel free to follow me and like or reblog my posts. I’m open to any criticism and/or tips you all have. I would also like to make sum new friends, fellow writers would be nice too. :)

- xicodin