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War Junkie

A crackhead , war junkie , a nuisance , slayer in play ,

A person in this cold night defending on your name ,

His brother , a sinner, feeds on saints, he hides his hate ,

Betrays his trust for lust , his thirst for blood fulfilled ,

The martyr slays his life in vain ,

He won't be coming home again ...

A world of hunger and pain , murders and rape again ,

Dividing on your name, a preacher's head with a serpent's tail ,

O God , if you exist , why wait ?

I've called you so many times , you're late !!

A martyr, righteous heart , slays !!

A sinner , a sinful soul , wins .

(This pain is burning in me, it's turning to rage

Faith is fading in me , it's fading away)

Forever bitter blasphemy ,

Fake religion filled with hate,

Choking in this world of filth,

will you throw me to my fate ?

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"I see the silence scream at me , as hunger blurs my sight..... . I tried to close my eyes for peace as my past haunts it's way inside . "

Poets of a dead society

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"I've built a nest on hills of dust, of sweat and blood , of endless thirst , blinded by this drive .

Drifting farther in the blank, i drag my feet to feed the need , with constant self denial ."

poets of a dead society

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"I've built a nest on hills of dust of sweat and blood, of endless thirst, blinded by this drive ."

Poets of a dead society

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ARE WE FATED?

But then the next question that arises is that if our life is fated then are we mere puppets? Are our decisions pre-written? How are we the creators of our own destiny ?

These two questions haunted me for years . I tried to find the answers to these questions but every article and video I absorbed had it’s own explanation .

So here is my perspective . It’s MY POINT OF VIEW .....

Life CYCLE . We use the word ‘cycle’ for a reason . Cycle is when a series of events repeat themselves in order continuously .

But when talking about our own life , we can never say that !!When death is the end then how could we say it’s a cycle ? I think , it’s more like walking upwards to a cliff .

We start slow , we speed up as we grow and then we slow down again as our system wears off ......until finally when we reach the edge , end of our road.

Sometimes when I am at the edge of my apartment’s roof (5th floor) , I am chilled to the bones by the fact that death is just a step away . It always is , always has been .

Therefore if it’s meant to be , it’s right there .

Hence we dodge death all our lives , living in fear , afraid to lose hold .

Why are we afraid ?

Because we are afraid of anything and everything that’s not in our control . Hmmm. Fair enough ..

But if our body is our own then why aren’t able to control everything ?

How can we speak inside our head even before speaking !!? Why do we get old against our will ? Why can’t we live forever ?

I think that somehow our brain is what connects our soul to our body .

Because , despite everything , we are free to choose our true reality , amongst all the parallel realities we could have created otherwise .

OUR FATE MIGHT CONTROL OUR CIRCUMSTANCES , BUT IT CANNOT CONTROL OUR DESTINY .

I think our soul actually borrows the body that we have on this planet . Our soul brings a set fate along with it , a path that was probably derived according to past life karma .

The GREEN line depicts the set fate we brought since the day we were born .

The RED area shows the time before we were born and after our death .

The BLUE line represents the path we desire , OUR DESTINY .

But as every body in this world is resisting change , according to the laws of physics .

Therefore , whenever we are trying to change ourselves for the better , we often seem to be getting pulled towards our original written fate (green line) . That is why we fail again and again !

Point B is our original end point but point B’ is where we could drag our fate , at a higher level .

So that our next body’s fate path starts from point B’ .

THAT IS WHY IT’S ALWAYS THE MOST DIFFICULT TO FOLLOW THE PATH OF TRUTH .

But here it gets interesting .

The body we receive is fresh . It demands a fresh start . Through our body comes our DEGREES OF FREEDOM in present life .

Therefore , although we might have brought a preset fate , but through our body we can actually alter our fate to our desired destiny .

THIS IS THE GIFT , THE FRESH START !

But for what ? Is there a way out of this maze ? Where there is no point A or B ? What then ?

That is the question that I am still trying to figure out ...

May be that’s what our real purpose is , to figure out ...

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Pop(Popular) music

More like a business model . A few days back I happened to watch a live video of a K pop concert . Oh my god !! Breathtakingly beautiful girls with such perfection ! From hair to skin to costumes , everything is just spot on ... dancing in synchronisation and weaving a dream world for us , dreams filled with bright colours , where happiness resides permanently .

Eating through our lives , everyday ... as soon as we open our eyes to a new day .

Internet is actually a miracle !! It gives us a virtual world of happiness , so fulfilling . A place where we are in full control . We create our virtual self .. profile ... using filters and shades that hides our imperfections .. . A best version of us . Flawless ... chasing perfection .

Hiding our demons ...

So the weird thing I noticed was that it was a live concert and these beautiful dolls of perfection weren’t even watching the crowd . They were looking at the friggin cameras the whole time .

Like they weren’t even performing for the crowd in front of them . They were actually performing for the cameras .. and you know what , as an artist myself , it wasn’t authentic at all . It seemed like they were puppets being controlled by some machine .

A huge crowd of young minds witnessing a live musical performance with no instruments and Lip synced vocals on a set of coordinated dance steps . Can it get more fake than this?

I wonder where these musical groups are formed .. where is the chasing dream , experiencing life part .....do they kind of bump into each other ... “hey! Wanna start a K Pop group?” ....wait ... they are manufactured ...like a pair of shoes in a factory . ...like our next household product ... at our service .....easing our pain ... creating new #challenges to indulge us .. providing new #goals to make our lives presentable in a virtual world (#social media).

Making us worthless and lazy in this real world ...

Appearing better and degrading by every passing second .

Filling our lives with choices .. too many to count ..

The fun part is that we think that we have a choice when in reality we are just like a rolling dice ..... thrown at random ... among players that we are forced to choose.... on a bet we always loose .

These hit factories chooses our next pop idol for us .

The most charismatic , most beautiful or may be just a clown .

Painting their lives colourful for our mobile screens .

Anything that engages our eyes , promoting more fake products to cover our true identity .. drain our money and time ... to keep the factory running ..

As long as they sell themselves and the products that they are supposed to .

At the end what we witness is just a business model , what we listen to has no soul .

Devoid of real experiences . Lyrics that pleases our mind .

Pushing us farther from reality .

What does music with soul mean anyway ?

Artists live a very different life as compared to a normal person . They are gifted to see our world through a different perspective. Therefore their lifestyle , their routine and profession is hectic and bizzare on a whole new level .They might seem they are lying idle or doing nothing when actually they are creating new ideas and expanding their horizons every second .

Due to this fact , they are never fully acknowledged by our society .

Almost all of the most creative artists on planet earth have lived a life filled with struggles and adversaries .

These daily struggles that artists face are however very similar to any person who is striving for real purpose .

Their experiences with life is reflected through their art .

People like us , living a normal life connect with this honest expression .

The truth that binds us all .

That’s where the soul in music comes from.

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I wanna go back home but damn these dreams ..

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