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they should invent a form of self harm where no one notices or gives a fuck

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Anyone wanna sit next to a lake a toss some rocks in silence with me

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Nicole W. Lee, from "Even the Dust"

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[TEXT: i looked up to the sky and said “god, if you’re fucking there, i could really use some help right damn now” and the sky said nothing back. we learn at very young age that inaction or silence is very much an answer itself /END ID]

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standing with her you feel more real

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its my own food, so why does it still feel like im gonna get caught again? im only stealing from myself.

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bro i think i smoked the weed that makes u 13 years old

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Jeanette Winterson, from Why Be Happy When You Could Be Normal?

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something about growing up suicidal and extremely mentally ill. being the kid that your parents fight about, that sees psychiatrists and misses school. and creating this character for yourself, accepting yourself as someone that loves suffering and victimhood and depravity, that relishes in shocking or disgusting adults, that seeks pity. seeing death as your destiny, as this beautiful catharsis that will relieve you of all your suffering. imagining your own death for a sense of comfort, because you needed to feel like everything would culminate and be worth something.

how do you heal and move on? how do you grow up and become a normal person. when you're used to walking around crying for help, trying to express the urgency and enormity of your situation at all times. how do you let go of that.

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Yeah i dont think i can take any more madness/pain

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