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One last picture: the blizzard i got from Dairy Queen

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Day 30

2/21/20

This morning. I woke up at 10:30 because it was my day off - the mom of the kid I nanny is finally giving birth! So thats exciting, and convenient for me because then I got to do whatever I wanted today. I made ramen for breakfast and had an apple. I talked to my friend Chloe. I then ate some cereal and kind of did nothing for the morning. Then she drove me to Bob’s Java Hut and i did some homework for my identity and symbols class. I had a croissant and a pot of earl gray tea. It was pretty nice, aside from the fact that it was too hot in there and i was in direct sunlight and was overheating.

Anyways, then my friend miranda showed up and we went to the store Art Materials so I could buy some board for my class. It was 7 dollars, and then I went to this thrift store called “old school” where I bought a dress and two blouses for 14. They were all super cute and vintage brands that are good quality. Then we drove home and I changed into a different long floral dress - actually the one I ordered on tuesday that finally came in the mail this morning. I ate some yogurt and relaxed and then I went to black sheep pizza with my roommates. It was tasty and expensive. And then we went to dairy queen for dessert. I got a reeses blizzard of course and that was 5 dollars- spending a LOT of money today but I am going to try to not care because its all been on good friendship moments and then thrifting clothes is always something i shouldnt feel guilty about.

Then we drank some Charles Shaw wine and my friend grace came over. we played the card game anomia but apparently it involved too much thinking for some people so we stopped. I decided to do this thing called “36 questions in love” which is just a list of deep / emotional questions to help make your bond with someone stronger. Its just interesting and a way to create a conversation where everyone is equally sharing things about themselves. It was very nice, especially when everyone went around and said what they like about each other person. Other questions were like, what is one of your best memories, one of your worst memories, what do you value in friendships, what one thing would you save if your house was on fire, etc. It was fun. We stayed up until 2 am and now i am in bed writing this blog. Its been fun kind of, and I guess i’ll probably think its funny when I read back on it later on, although in the moment I feel like it has been kind of a burden. Good night 

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Week 4 Collection (in order):

Thursday February 13: Stairwell I take to get to the gopher spot in the st paul student center to buy chips/coffee.

Friday February 14: Spotify screenshot of one of my favorite songs.

Saturday February 15: Steak dinner I made with potatoes and salad- a five star meal.

Sunday February 16: My shopping basket at the northeast Target when I went to buy glue to make slime with.

Monday February 17: My lunch from keefer court bakery on west bank: a curry beef bun and a tofu kimchi steamed bun for only $4.50 total.

Tuesday February 18: A funny edit i made of my starbucks cup in class and posted on my instagram story for no reason - It just made me laugh.

Wednesday February 19: Screenshot of the dress I bought on the app depop- I love the pattern and collar and am excited to get it in the mail soon.

Thursday February 20: Picture from the free art event I went to with my friend that had 70 pieces by young local artists in a tiny room - Much to see. And free wine.

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Day 29

2/20/20

Today I woke up and got scared that I was sick because I had a sore throat and runny nose. Even though I always wake up with a sore throat because of how dry the air in my room is - it’s just a really bad time to be sick right now. i was really slow to get ready because I was so tired. I made my lunch (which was pasta salad) and then I ate some of the pasta same before running out the door to catch the bus. I went to get coffee at the st paul student center for $1.71, and was disappointed to find that they were out of the different chilled creams - which are kind of the reason I get that coffee to begin with. So I had to use the room temp coffee mate which just isn’t the same as real cream if you know what I mean.

I went to class which was pretty enjoyable today believe it or not. In illustration i found out I got an A on my first project, then in identity and symbols her husband came to present which was really entertaining and they both answered a lot of useful questions about career and design stuff and grad school which is something i’ve started considering these days. In packaging I just had fun talking to some of the people in the class and I got a breakthrough idea about changing something in my box that was bothering me. After class, i tried to go buy boards to build a box with but the bookstore closes at 4 which was sad. Ill just have to go out of my way to buy some tomorrow or saturday. Anyways then i went to meet my friend grace at the restaurant Camdi in dinkytown. I bought chicken for 15 dollars which is kind of a regret, but whatever. I am working tomorrow so i will be getting 50 dollars. 

After that we walked to this art gallery in como to this free event. They had a bunch of cheese and crackers and cute food but I was too full to enjoy them, so i just had a plastic cup of wine because it was free. It was cab sauv as they call it.. Then we walked back to my house to do some homework. I am really excited to turn in my paper and be done with it. So excited to go to bed too and R E L A X !!!!! 

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My receipt collection from the past month. There are more, i need to just take time to dig through my different jacket pockets and backpack to find them. I’ll look through them soon.

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Day 28

2/19/20

Today I tried to sleep in because I didn’t have class. However, I woke up at 8:30 to the sound of my roommate coughing downstairs - She cant stop coughing these days. I layed in bed a little longer and then got up to shower. it felt great to not be greasy again. I changed and then went downstairs and made ramdn for breakfast while listening to music. I also made an iced chai with almond milk because i’m out of oat milk - so it wasnt as delicious. I found an ant in my room crawling on my books which was disgusting and annoying - Luckily i have a lot of free time today so maybe i’ll make more of those borax sugar cotton balls that poison them. I just hate seeing bugs in my room because it makes me think about them possibly being in my bed or getting on me.

Anyways, I decided to go to fairgrounds and try to finish my splurchase paper. I always dread writing papers for some reason, even though its never that bad. i got a “power flower milk tea” which is iced matcha with jasmine syrup in it. It was amazing. I was productive but also got stuck looking for long floral dresses on depop - I ended up buying on for $15. I basically finished my paper and that was impressive- although I was there for about 3 hours, I am just really bad at writing papers and it takes me a while. After i got that far I decided to leave and walked to whole foods, where I bought a protein bar and a frozen burrito. Then i took the bus to west bank for work. 

Work was fine, it was only 2.5 hours and there were a few students that came which was annoying. I left at 6 and then went to trader joes with tyler because he invited me, so i used that opportunity to buy oat milk, tomatoesl, and wine!. I bought this charles shaw wine thats only $2.99! So amazing. I came home and made a grilled cheese and tomato soup for dinner and then had some wine. Now i am watching the bachelor with my friends and Victoria is acting like a sociopath.

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Day 27

2/18/20

Today was the first day where I woke up at 7am not feeling completely exhausted. I was still tired but getting up wasnt as excruciating as it usually is. I took my probiotic pill and went downstairs to pack my lunch. I didn’t have breakfast because I was just not feeling yogurt or cereal and didn’t have time to make anything else. Plus I was up late last night eating fruity pebbles so I wasnt that hungry. I wanted starbucks so i went to east bank and took the campus connector from there. I got a tall honey oatmilk latte and it was $4.27 (AKA free because I have a gift card). So incredible and delicious. After overheating on the campus connector, I finally made it to mcneal.

My classes were all fine, kind of boring but we are starting new projects in illustration and identity which is great because I was getting sick of the old ones. Its always exciting to start something new. I ate my pasta salad and a peanut butter and jelly sandwich. When I got to work, i decided to just watch the bachelor instead of do homework, which was an excellent choice. I dont have class tomorrow so i can just work on my stuff then. Work was slow which was nice because then I only had to pause the episode twice. It was the episode where we find out the top 3, although i know who the top 2 are due to reading a spoiler earlier this week. Im sad that its going to end soon, because it is always something to look forward to in the middle of the week.

After work i took the bus home, and i immediately made ramen with peas and pot stickers with salad on the side because I was so hungry and craving salty stuff. Ramen never gets old for me because i always use my own spices and put in a little sugar so its like sweet salty and spicy. I talked to Miranda about my day and other random stuff, and went on instagram and depop. I am interested in buying these black Jeffrey Campbell platform boots but they’re expensive so I should probably reach some sort of milestone before I buy them. maybe after spring break or when april begins or something. Around 11:20 I made a bowl of fruity pebbles and went up to my room to lounge in bed. I will take pictures of all the reciepts ive been collecting tomorrow hopefully! Although I havent been posting them weekly, I have been making sure to store all the reciepts ive gotten in the past weeks. Lots of trader joes, cub, and target recieps. Good night...

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Day 26

2/17/20

So close to being done with this blog!!! Thats exciting news. Today I woke up at 9 and prepared my lunch for tomorrow - So i wont have to do it when i get back from work at 10:30 tonight. I just made two pb & j sandwiches and put my “pasta salad” in a container. I am also going to bring an apple. I have been having issues with eating breakfast because I always am not craving the stuff I have. I always want to have something savory like pizza or ramen in the morning when I dont really have time for that. So i had this honey vanilla yogurt thats my favorite brand (Greek Gods is what its called). Then I went up to my room and was kind of packing up getting ready to leave for a coffee shop but then was overcome by an urge to clean...

I picked up random crap and dust from the floor and organized my desk which I havent sat at in months because of how much stuff is piled on it - Maybe now ill start doing homework there, although my chair is not the most comfortable or stable... Thats still something to work on. i also took my bookshelf out of my room because it makes things feel cramped. So now I have a rustic stack of books on the floor and a lot more open space. I went to workhorse for the rest of my morning /early afternoon and had an iced caramel latte with oat milk - very tasty. I was kind of not doing my homework and doing other tasks, but i was sort of productive. I went back to west bank, were I got a curry beef bun and a kimchi tofu steamed bun from keefer court for lunch. It was $4.50 total - never ceases to amaze me how cheap and delicious that place is... Then I went to rarig for my dj shift - My last one of the semester because i am giving it up to this random girl who wants it. Very convenient because I would very much like a break from radio k for the rest of the semester...

Afterwards I went straight to work and was warned that its really busy today by the girl who works before me. So thats bad news, and so far, it has been pretty busy. But I finished the most pressing homework that I have, so I am feeling good. My depression that i kind of went into last night is wearing off and i can notice myself entering the emotionless state that is going to make it easier to get through the school/workweek.. I am really excited for spring break even though I won’t be doing anything. When i get home from work, I am going to probably have a snack, whether its ramen or a smoothie or maybe frozen tamales with salsa if my friend is able to pick them up for me at trader joes. I am feeling tired, which is a good thing because I always force myself to get up early the day before i have an 8:30 class because then I can be sure to go to bed sooner. in 4 hours I will be home.....

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Day 25

2/16/20

This morning, I woke up after having a restless night of stress dreams about hearing back about that job. I woke up several times really sweaty and had to change shirts. I got some sleep though, and got out of bed around 10. I had cereal, tea, and salad for breakfast and did a bunch of packaging stuff to prepare it to be printed. Then I went to rapson and wasted 4 dollars getting my stuff printed because the guy working there was not only giving me rude vibes but also loaded the paper in wrong or something because my print was really bad and had lines on it - its just a draft so i dont think she’ll be mad when i bring it on tuesday, but it still is annoying. 

Anyways, then I went  home and showered, because I felt so greasy and disgusting. I changed into my new dress and made a croissant and some ramen with peas and pot stickers. Then i started cutting my packaging mock ups and putting them together. My friend came home and i was talking about how I wanted to make slime with glue and borax, so we went to target to get some. While i was there, i got a lunchbox and ice packs so I can start bringing cold things with me to class - like pasta salad which is what I wanted to make for this week.

When we got home, i microwaved some leftover mac and cheese that was in the fridge and had that while i made my meal prep for the week which was pasta with roasted broccoli, chickpeas, random vegetables, and pesto. I made a ton of it too, so it will last a while which is ideal. Im getting really good at doing meal prep. I got an email finally saying I didnt get the job, which really frustrated me. Basically, I knew I was the most qualified person for the jobs since im majoring in graphic design and have a lot of experience and knowledge . But they decided to reject me and hire this other girl who isnt in the major and has been abroad in the past year so I just didnt understand that at all until I realized her sister has an important job in radio k and there is also other social politics and clout stuff going on there. So that was just annoying and I was more mad than anything, because its not like i got rejected for not being qualified. Its all a favorites game where they hire their friends so I should have known. i am just going to channel my anger into building my portfolio and applying for other jobs and internships. Listening to random music on youtube right now that isnt popular enough to be on spotify. Also Ive been collecting my reciepts from all my shopping ever since i started this blog so i want to round them up and get a picture.. I was also thinking it could be cool to like make an artwork thats pictures of everything i consumed (physically) in the whole month... Goodnight

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Day 24

2/15/20

Today, I woke up at 8:30 and lounged for a bit before getting up and dressed for the day. I was feeling like I was going to get a lot done and get ahead in my school work . I microwaved some of that fried rice that I’m getting sick of and had that with soy sauce just to get some food in before leaving. I couldn’t decide between fairgrounds and workhorse, but ultimately chose fairgrounds because I was craving that incredible iced matcha- it also only takes one bus to get there, while it takes two to get to workhorse. So I got there, ordered drink, and found a seat to start working on my logos, which surprisingly were taking me a lot of time. The coffee shop was really busy because it was a saturday and all the rich north loop people were having brunch or whatever. But thats what earbuds are for, and I listened to my land of the loops spotify playlist over and over. When I couldnt bear to sit any longer I decided to leave. I did finish my logos at least, and I had a good time drinking my favorite beverage (which is like 5.50 plus a 1$ tip).

Because it was such a beautiful day out, I decided to walk to trader joes instead of take the bus or train - I also didn’t want to sit anymore. At trader joes I bought some produce, almond milk, canned beans, and frozen fruit for smoothies. It was around 25$. I’m thinking this week’s meal prep will be some sort of pasta salad with crispy chickpeas and roasted vegetables and corn - pretty tasty and nutritious. I came home and cooked some pesto gnocci with cheese and had an apple. I tried to do some homework but got distracted when Alexa got home, and we made some ant traps together. Basically we disolved sugar and borax in water and soaked cotton balls in the solution to place around the places we see ants the most. The sugar attracts the ants and then the borax kills them. We tested it out by sprinkling borax on an ant we found... Yup, it worked. 

Around 4:30 Tyler came over and we decided to go to Savers (thrift store). I know I say i’m tight on money, but new clothes is something that makes me so happy so i think its worth it - especially from a thrift store, since thats cheap and doesnt hurt anyone. i bought two skirts, a shirt, and a gorgeous dress that’s become my new favorite for 30 dollars. Then we decided to make steak and potatoes for dinner so went to cub - I got fruity pebbles and bread as extra things for myself. Then we went back to his apartment and cooked the food and enjoyed it with the champagne i bought after my birthday (lest we remember). It was the best meal ive had in a long time - I mean, all ive been eating is fried rice for the past week - but anyways. It was just perfectly done with a great crust. Then we watched Avatar the last airbender and listened to some random 90s techno music on spotify. 

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Day 23

2/14/20

Today, I slept in, which is something I haven’t let myself do in a while. But it felt nice to lounge in my bed for hours and drift in and out of sleep. i always have this feeling that I need to be productive. Likewise, when i end up wasting time I’ll feel guilty about it or like I’m being stupid. Only during school though, i think the thought of having so homework, although it is doable, will stress me out and make me be more hard on myself. But I guess it works, as I don’t procrastinate that often and I am a “good student”. But anyways. I had a bowl of cereal (which i am getting sick of) and left for the bus to go to the radio station interview - I wasn’t thinking much of it /wasn’t that nervous. I guess I usually think, if it happens it happens, and if not, thats just life and there are other opportunities out there. I try to be as real as possible and not fake in interviews because being fake is kind of against my morals / feels painful sometimes. The interview went pretty well I guess, and they told me I would know by the end of the nigh (Spoiler alert: that didn’t happen). Afterwards I got back on the 3 to go to st paul for my nannying job.

I get 50 dollars every friday for nannying which is nice, especially for how little work it is. Sometimes I even regret working in the photo crib, although that is more hours. The mom is expecting a baby that was due last sunday, and still hasnt had it yet. I feel like I would be tired of waiting in that situation, and I almost told her that she was close to missing the chance for it to be aquarius, but i feel like astrology isnt really as common among older people - its definitely something that just got big when I was in high school. I listened to a lot of the band built to spill during my bus rides today, as well as land of the loops which is one of my favorite artists. It was so cold and windy, but I had errands to run after work so i had to deal with it. I took the bus to the train station and then took the train to fresh thyme to get some food and valentines day gifts. I spent 25$ on a pretty good amount of stuff including apples, gummy bears, tea, fancy salad dressing, and a giant cucumber. I took the train and bus back home where I made some mac and cheese and chilled until it was time to go to the rollergarden.

I went with Alexa and Tyler, and it cost 12 dollars to get in - which is fine, and definitely worth how good the experience was. I practiced my spins and going backwards and made so much progress in my skills - it was really rewarding. Its definitely one of if not the most rewarding activities I do in my life these days. And it was a good workout, which makes up for me not really having time to go to the gym this week (hoping I can change that in this coming week). When I got home i was physically tired and hungry - so i showered and then made a frozen tamale with salsa. I had forgotten about how I was supposed to hear back about the job but then remembered and then got annoyed that they didn’t keep their word. But i guess it’s not unexpected. It makes me think that I didnt get the job because they may have told the person who did and then said nothing to everyone else. I love to think negative and expect the worse,.... Something I’ve realized. 

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Day 22

2/13/20

Hello. I am in class and so bored and tired that I decided to start writing today’s blog post. I am craving chips and want to go buy some from the st paul student center. This morning I woke up to my alarm at 7 as well as the squirrels on the roof being really annoying as usual. I hit snooze three times before getting up, making my bed, and choosing a wool sweater and jeans. Its so cold out that there is ice forming on the inside of my windows in my room. So that’s great. I was really hungry but was just strongly not having the appetite for cereal. So I just had a string cheese. i was also in a hurry so I guess I wouldn’t have had time to have cereal anyways. My transit app was tweaking today and said the bus I usually take was late which wasn’t true which was annoying. I prefer to take the 3 to st paul and then the 87 as a way to avoid being on the campus connector. But because of the app lying to me, I took the other 3 to campus to avoid being late for class. The perk of being on east bank was being able to buy myself some starbucks before catching the campus connector. They have oat milk now, so I bought a grande (16oz) honey oat milk latte for 5 dollars. Which is pretty impressive considering they use the best quality brand of oatmilk (oatly). The drink was incredible and I drank it on my way to class. The bus ride wasn’t that bad either.

In illustration (my first class) I became bored so easily and i haven’t stopped. Maybe im just ready for it to be the weekend. And I usually am bored and tired but for some reason the feeling is especially powerful. Before my last class i went and bought some salt and vinegar chips to snack on from the st paul student center. After class I took the campus connector to west bank and now I am at work. I might journal, since I haven’t in a while, but I may also try and force myself to get some work done. People wont stop coming here and asking me about random stuff... which is my job but I still want to relax. Tyler just brought me some chipotle (a bowl with chicken) and its really tasty. I deleted the instagram app BTW. Right now I am listening to my spotify playlist and digesting that huge burrito bowl. When I go home I am probably going to lay in my bed and drink tea or a smoothie, and possibly read stuff about the bachelor or journal until I fall asleep.

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Week 3 Collection (pictures in this order):

Thursday February 6: Picture of myself waiting at the bus stop - Something I do twice a day or more.

Friday February 7: Picture of the TV with the bachelor playing - this is the show i have been consuming the most for the past two months.

Saturday February 8: Hot air balloons in Hudson very early in the morning

Sunday February 9: Everything bagel and vanilla steamer at workhorse coffee shop

Monday February 10: My new sweater I got on depop which came in the mail

Tuesday February 11: Eating snacks from the st paul student center in class

Wednesday February 12: Large iced matcha with oat milk from fairgrounds (This was 7 dollars.....)

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Day 21

2/12/20

Today has been pretty good so far. I woke up at 8 - before my alarm which was set to 9 - and layed in bed for a while as i always do on my days off to savor the feeling of not being in a hurry.. I finally got up 30 mins later and got dressed for the day. I made a fozen tamale and salad and a croissant.. big breakfast because I wanted to not get hungry at the coffee shop i was going to and  waste money buying any stuff there. I have been craving matcha for a while now which is why I decided to treat myself and go to fairgrounds. I also finally got paid from my new job - after 4 weeks of waiting. So I feel good knowing I have money in my bank account / am not as concerned about every little purchase.

I took the 3 to downtown which was at first a crowded and annoying bus ride, but once it went through campus, I was only one of two people on the bus and it was a relaxing ride. I got to fairgrounds and was pleased to see that it was pretty empty. On weekends a lot of people go there for brunch which gets loud and annoying to those who are there to study. I bought an iced matcha with oat milk, of course, and decided to upgrade from a 12oz to a 16oz - I guess i’m worth it or something. It was like 6 dollars and I left a tip which brought it up to 7 dollars. Thats expensive but it was worth it for the experience and the indulgence. And they use really high quality matcha as well which I love. I already wish I could go again tomorrow - Not that I would, but thats how good the matcha is. I left and then stopped at whole foods on my way to the bus stop. I was going to get this mango ginger tea I like but its way too expensive there so I didn’t. But because I was already there, i decided to get a bag of vegan cheese puffs or whatever... Theyre pretty good and i remember trying them as free samples one time. they were $3.50. 

I was planning on going straight to work, but I forgot my computer charger at home and had to go back. I have been on a roll with getting stuff done lately. I just feel like I have been good at focusing for some reason. I started going on twitter again but I think I’m going to stop because it bothers me how much people complain and talk about pointless stuff that I dont need to see or care about. I feel like going on it can clog up my brain sometimes - same with instagram - and so I feel more clear minded when I’m not active on it. When i got home I made a smoothie and changed into warmer clothes because the temp is dropping this evening. Now i’m at work writing this and am feeling pretty tired. I want to go to the gym after this, but my chronic knee pain is acting up again so i dont want to push myself or anything. I took ibuprofen so I hope that helps. I really hope random students dont come to buy random stuff from me in the next hour and a half.. I’m just feeling tired all of a sudden. I do want to go to the gym though, i feel like it has many positive effects. I will be rewatching the latest bachelor episode tonight although i’ve already seen it. I might go to bed early too.

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Day 20

2/11/20

Hello.... Today is the so-called “torture tuesday”  - But its actually not going that terribly. I am tired of sitting all day but.. I will most likely be going to the gym tomorrow so I look forward to getting some of my restlessness out. Today I got to sleep in an hour extra because my illustration class was starting at 9:30 instead of 8:30. So that was nice, although I still was in a hurry to catch the bus and was kind of late.. I had cereal of course.. Don’t really have time to eat anything else. My day of classes was just like... boring as usual. I really appreciate the feedback i get in my packaging and identity and symbols class. Its a nice change from some classes I had last year thats for sure.. Before my last class which is design and discontents, i went to the gopher express and bought a coffee and bag of chips for $2.77. I just thought why not, and was craving something salty as I always do. 

After class, i took the campus connector to work which was a bad experience, I just really hate crowded situations and sitting between two people who are way too close to me. I was very uncomfortable and happy to get off and walk to work. Now, i’m at work. It is boring and i’m tired of sitting, but I actually have been doing some homework at least. I want to watch the latest bachelor episode and might actually do it.. Although me and my friends all watch it wednesday nights. My body is sore from doing cartwheels last night, although it was worth it. I’m getting paid tomorrow which is exciting. About time. I feel like the end of the month is approaching and...while that means the semester is getting closer to ending, it also means that i have to pay rent 🤢🤢. Its ok. I’m wearing my new sweater that I ordered last week, and it’s amazing. I love it so much. I feel like I always get into phases where i get sick of all the clothes i have and start wanting a lot of new stuff but I do have consistent pieces I’ve had since high school.

Anyways. I just got home from work. And I’ve made a smoothie and have decided to watch the bachelor but then just act like i havent seen it yet tomorrow when i watch it with all my friends. Call it unethical, but I want to watch it twice anyways. And i’ll keep track of my thoughts and predictions so i can repeat them tomorrow as if i’m watching it for the first time 😂. I guess if i were to say the top three things that affect my consumption, it would be money, my emotions, and my social life. I will also throw in that I love going to the grocery store for no reason but to look at the products.. which is consumerist of me

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Day 19

2/10/20

Today I woke up at 8:15 - before my alarm which was set for 8:30. So thats kind of funny, that never happens on a day where I have actual places to be. It must have been from getting into bed so early last night. I was a little sore so decided I would wait and go to the gym on wednesday instead of today. I had a pretty productive morning. I did laundry, washed dishes, swept, and did some homework. I made a smoothie and a toasted croissant for breakfast and then made grilled cheese and tomato soup with salad for lunch. I kind of just kept busy which i hope I can keep up for the rest of the week. I left the house at 2:30 to go catch the 3 and go to west bank for my dj shift. I just realized that when I’m djing for radio k I am kind of helping to create something that many people consume. All I do is talk about the music I play, maybe mention the weather, or throw in some random story about my day, but there are always people listening. 

After my shift i walked across the street to regis for my long shift in the photo crib. It has been going by really slow. The only interesting thing thats happened is a guy brought in his dog (with no leash) and the dog went into the darkroom. The guy was yelling “HEY! MA’AM” at the dog which I thought was funny. But aside from that I’m just tired of sitting and just tired period. i am working on some homework but it is kind of slow going and my stomach hurts. I microwaved some fried rice for dinner and ate a granola bar and some chessmen cookies as snacks. 

I haven’t spent any money today, and I probably won’t tomorrow either unless I decide to buy stuff at the gopher express... Thats very possible. I always buy coffee because I feel exhausted and its so cheap. I am going to try very hard not to have negative thoughts this week and just accept things as they come. When I go home tonight, I am going to meal prep a peanut butter and jelly sandwich or two and make a container of salad as well as a jar of fried rice to bring tomorrow. and a few granola bars. Hopefully it will be enough! I will also make tea and relax in bed a bit before I fall asleep around 11:30 or midnight. 

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Day 18

2/9/20

I chose to wake up early this morning and go to workhorse. Although I was tired I was strong. The snow was so annoying but I finally made it to the green line train station on west bank. At workhorse, I bought an everything bagel with cream cheese and vanilla steamer with oat milk. I did all my packaging work at once which was good, then I took the train back to east bank and went to go print stuff to make mock ups. Then I took the 3 back to my house. By then it was 2pm. So i had a pretty productive morning and was proud of myself. I did spend 9$ because I left a tip - but im trying not to care as much about money anymore. Like, of course I spend responsibly and try to save, but I also understand that in college, having savings isnt very realistic and I shouldn’t be guilty over everything I spend money on. 

Anyways, when I got home, i did some cleaning and then microwaved some rice from last wednesday lest we remember me getting it from keefer court bakery. I also had a bowl of cereal. I put together my packaging mockups and also made tater tots in the oven to share with alexa. around 4:30 or so we went to the gym together which was nice. I went on some random machine for 35 minutes and she ran around the track. Then we walked home because the bus wasn’t coming for a while. its her 21st birthday today and the earrings I bought her on depop still havent come yet, but i’m hoping they come tomorrow! 

Because I am ahead in the game this weekend, I did my meal prep today (I usually end up having to do it monday morning). I made fried rice with brown rice, peas, corn, broccoli, carrots, fried onions, and fried tofu. And a special sauce made with coconut sugar, soy sauce, chili paste, and rice vinegar. i made a humongous pot, so will have more than enough food for the week. I’ll probably have it for breakfast and lunch/dinner everyday -which is fine by me because I have been craving rice and the flavor of soy sauce all week. I posted a happy birthday post on instagram for Alexa with a bunch of pictures I have of her from the past months. After I ate my rice, I sat in the dining room trying to do other homework but getting distracted by talking to my friends. Which is okay because I am honestly quite ahead FOR ONCE! Maybe this will be a good week... Hoping for the best. I emailed my boss today as well. Right now i am listening to Young Thug on spotify and am about to do something I rarely (aka never) do which is watch tiktok compilations on youtube - because its 10:30 and I’m in bed drinking tea and relaxing. Self care sunday as they say. I can definitely see the impact of working out on my attitude. Also the choice not to “party” this weekend - I was able to wake up early and get things done which also makes me feel very calm.