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I miss my husband and I feel like he's gone off to a far away land and will never come home (he's at work and gets off in two and a half hours & my pregnancy hormones can't tell the difference between that and being abandoned)

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I literally have 7 weeks left until I'm pushing a baby out. SEVEN WEEKS. I start my weekly appointments this Thursday and my baby shower is on the 23rd aka a month to the day exactly until my due date.

I haven't been paid yet for watching my besties son, and i'm watching him tomorrow on what should be my off day while she goes to a concert - which, don't get me wrong, i love him and would (and i have) watch him for free BUT I need to make extra money so I can start to buy things for myself that i need, since my fiancé literally pays for everything else. I just dont want to have to remind her of her end of the deal, because I feel like it's rude since we literally live together for the time being. But it ain't easy chasing a toddler around from 5am to 5pm while being 8 months pregnant in the dead heat of Texas summer 😭

Not the mention, i'm going to be watching him after I have my daughter. (Her fiance is still in school and stays on campus during the semester, and his parents are older so it makes sense someone like me watches him) idk I'm so overwhelmed. I know i can do it, I am doing it all, but ya girl just needs help. With what, I have no earthly idea 😭

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i think this is my favorite kind of aegyo now😈

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I've always admired pregnant people who have toddlers bc you gotta be a super hero to survive the chaos, but now that *I'm* the pregnant one taking care of a toddler, i'm getting my ass beat by exhaustion 😭

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you’re not gonna fail. just b3cause your struggling doesn’t mean your failing. Life gets hard but you’re already being a great mom thinking caring of her. you’re facing life’s challenges and you’re still here, doing the best you can one day at a time. and the best thing you can do for her now, is just continue to take care of yourself. that’s enough. you are enough ♡

Oh my goodness, here comes the tears again. I try to remind myself every chance I get throughout the day that I am doing my best, sometimes it just gets hard. But i'm very proud of myself for continuing to push through. Thank you for this, sincerely 🥺

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I just need to vent bc ibhave no where to ramble where my family and boyfriend wont see.

I knew pregnancy wouldn't be easy, at least not mentally and emotionally. Physically, it has been smooth, baby girl is healthy and right on track; the due date is still September 23rd. I've had a few hiccups (my teeth) but other than that, it has gone swimmingly. But mentally? I am so drained.

In April, my boyfriend's truck got stolen. Two weeks after that, I was informed that my childhood home was being sold, so I was essentially homeless and staying with my sister. Then my sister, not making good choices with her money, needed my boyfriend and I to pay over a thousand dollars for rent. If it weren't for the fact he had just paid WELL over 3k to get his truck back and have it worked on, we would have been able to pay it. But, alas, we couldn't, and had to move AGAIN. Now, we are staying with my childhood best friend, and honestly, it works out better than what it would have if we stayed at my sisters. My best friend needed help watching her son while she works, and I'm going to be a stay at home mom anyway, so watching my god son is a cake walk and just makes sense.

I am with physically and mentally drained and I've spent the majority of my days and nights crying. And I feel so awful about it, because I don't want my baby girl to feel any of my stress and sadness. Don't get me wrong, I absolutely love being pregnant and I'm so incredibly lucky that my pregnancy has been smooth sailing. I'm just a giant mess. And I know it'll only be more hectic when she gets here, but it'll be worth it. I have a great support system, too.

I just hope I don't fail as a mom.

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3 years since...🥹

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my seven 😭

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four pieces of my heart here♡

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🫶

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Today's Bangtan

[#오늘의방탄] 석지니의 눈빛도, 목소리도, 존재 자체까지… 정말 행복했던 순간✨ 오늘의 감동, 앞으로도 아미와 함께 끝까지 달려볼게요!💜 #오늘의석진 #진 #Jin #BTS #방탄소년단 #Jin_TOUR_KOREA #RUNSEOKJIN_epTOUR_KOREA

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welcome home my beautiful 🥹

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his smile!! 🍞🐹

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This look, this hair

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all the hearts from hobi 🫶

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kim seokjin

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#RUNSEOKJIN_EP.TOUR - 250628 (cr. ouranxingg)