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on @norgodly tonight <3

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smth smth myunggi and his lack of trust in others. not being able to form those common relationships. instead relying on the parasocial relationships he builds online with no commitment

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people talking like they know my son he’s gay and kinda homophobic

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kinda pathetic

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ok Actually replying tonight

i’m Actually gonna reply to messages tonight. pinky promise

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myung-gi’s childhood dream to be a businessman. definitely had a businessman father that he looked up to. constantly striving to be better and better and just. Not being better

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random sentence prompts  ━ from various tv shows, part 23  

they’re so cute and innocent.

you think i know what i’m doing? no one knows what they’re doing.

you know you have this bad habit of taking away my money, right? 

if you let your guard down, anyone can win.

i’ll be right beside you.

you’re lucky. you still got somebody to save. that’s rare.

some things just can’t be replaced.

you saw me as someone worth saving. that’s who i wanna be.

guess it's up to me to prove i can be more like you.

we either get hurt, or we have to hurt them.

we all have parts that we want people to see and parts of us that we want to hide. it’s all real.

you take me for everything i’m worth. 

when we get there, we’ll be different. we’ll be ready.

someone once told me that i’m brave. that i have to be.

some people make it look so easy. starting over.

you wanna leave, then leave. i got nothing left to lose.

i don’t ever want to be afraid again, but i know i probably will be.

once someone leaves, that’s it. that’s who they are.

hate to interrupt your little overreaction you’re having, but tick tock.

here’s the thing about violence. sometimes it is very much the answer.

you’re angry, but you love me. and i want you to keep loving me.

whining about your shit never helped anyone i know.

i want you to get everything you want. that can’t happen if i’m holding you back.

some nights it's so damn dark. and then they still manage to get darker.

history. that’s all you have with them. they are not your future.

power. power is what you felt out there. power is what we need. it’s what we eat. 

together, we can be unstoppable.

it felt so good to be safe. i’ve never felt that before. like i had a home.

your home is with me. okay?

i don’t want to be who everyone thinks i am here.

i do like that they consider me slightly dangerous.

yeah. because we don’t talk about stuff like that. not what went on, not what goes on.

why do you do what you do when you have what you have?

falling apart is for other people.

whatever choice i make, someone always dies.

i used to feel like i belonged here.

you thrive on the unglamorous because you’re still trying to prove yourself.

i have waited so long for you to see me.

it’s me. i’m on your side always, but you gotta tell me what’s going on.

thanks for listening to all my shit.

we’re over. i need you to accept that.

i just feel discarded.

if we fight, then we die.

our fight is not over.

we’ve been through a lot together, you and i.

either you lead us into battle or get the hell out of my way. 

you know, sometimes men just need to die.

you did nothing wrong. this is all my fault, and you did nothing wrong.

i have good news. it can’t get any worse.

you’re breaking my heart again.

just because it ended doesn’t mean it wasn’t real.

i’m not upset, i’m terrified. so tell me. tell me that you don’t want to be with me. 

the world sucks, but you are my favorite person.

don’t look at me like that, all accusatory like you don’t believe i’m fine.

you can judge me all you want, but i was there.

i don’t know if i’m a good person.

you’re just fine. you never fall apart. i wish i was like you.

you make sense to me. i’m not letting go of that.

sorry, you’re unlucky in love? 

you���re not terrible. i quite like you. sometimes.

i like reducing men to tears.

don’t pretend like you’re doing this for me, ‘cause i don’t want this. i don’t want this, i want you.

being loved takes work. i don’t have it in me to be loved right now.

i’m actually trying this new thing called staying in one place. 

i am there just waiting for you to let me in. when is that going to happen?

life is a game. and if you’re not playing, chances are, you’re the one getting played.

if you’re about to ask me how i’m doing, don’t.

i see you. i see how hungry you are. 

what do you want for yourself? when you close your eyes and you picture it, what do you see? what do you really want?

don’t get a nosebleed up there on your high horse.

you came up in here like a tornado, and now you’re just leaving.

the only thing you can trust in this world is that you can’t trust anyone.

you think you are so clever, but you are playing with fire.

scared of me? i’m scared of you. you can’t be trusted.

it’s getting harder to pretend that something’s not going on with you.

is it weird i think you might be one of my only friends?

i took all the darkness, and i ate it. i became it. 

you had the guts to do something big. something crazy, something that meant something. you should be proud.

i’ve had to change a lot. i’ve gotten good at it.

love is not giving up. it’s sticking around.

maybe we just grew apart a little bit. maybe that’s okay.

i feel safe with you. i feel more me. like… real me. 

i don’t want to hide things from you.

i can’t get what we did out of my head.

i’m so tired of running. i just wanna stand still.

i had a plan. you just destroyed it.

hope is what makes you willing to suffer.

i can’t go back.

so you’re not gonna sleep, and you’re not gonna tell me what’s up? great.

i wanted to be brave. i wanted to be more like you.

i’m not brave. i’m a shit person who does shit things because i don’t give a single shit about anything. 

bullshit. you never loved me.

i would laugh if i wasn’t so hungry.

you think it’s too late to reinvent myself?

i got second thoughts on my second thoughts. 

monumental shared experiences like this pretty much bonds you for life.

it’s always complicated shit with dads, you know? they have a funny way of showing they give a shit sometimes.

we still got a shot. i’m gonna take it.

i used to think that we were the same, but we are not. we are not the same.

you turned me into the worst possible version of myself because you are insidious. you poison good things.

i don’t hate you. i hate me, okay? i hate me.

you can be impressed with me later. 

i may not hate you anymore.

i belong nowhere.

why are you trying to save me?

me. i’m afraid of me.

think about what you want. they’re all counting on you.

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my day today was somehow worse than the whole work week combined

stressful work week, will be back at the weekend 🫡

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i’m Actually gonna reply to messages tonight. pinky promise

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this is just a reminder to myself but things i need to talk about:

— upbringing + it’s impact on his view of fatherhood and family

— sexuality + perception of masculinity [bonus: body image]

— pre-show myung-gi and jun-hee

— post show survival

— rise to fame, downfall of fame

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shows over pack it up

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stressful work week, will be back at the weekend 🫡

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might. try and get on my multi for a few days

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said it briefly to joseph the other day but myung-gi comes from a relatively well off family. comfortable. gave him the freedom to devote his adult life to building a youtube channel and the money for the initial investments. probably got cut off around the time he started getting involved in crypto, leading to more losses and the eventual collapse of his brand

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see you all probably on monday

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said it briefly to joseph the other day but myung-gi comes from a relatively well off family. comfortable. gave him the freedom to devote his adult life to building a youtube channel and the money for the initial investments. probably got cut off around the time he started getting involved in crypto, leading to more losses and the eventual collapse of his brand

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gonna try and be about over the next few days <3