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2 Years

Here’s your Tumblr post. Im hoping to make up for the delay by making this really, really good but thats for you to judge.

Happy two years my love (that’s 731 days, or 104.43 weeks, or 17,544 hours, or 1,052,640 minutes, or 63,158,400 seconds, or a lot of time). As i find myself saying a lot, these have been, by far, the best two years of my life, full of love and fun and memories i can never forget.

The beginning 

This isn’t actually the beginning. I wish i had the photo that you storied of yourself all those years ago in Colovray, but i dont. However, what I do have isn’t that far off. Remember when you called me talking about how you wanted me to teach you German, well here that is, along with some more screenshots of cringe 

Jacomoche, classsiiiicccc. We’ve come a long way from then, but then again a lot has stayed the same. We still crack jokes and laugh, we are still eachothers favourite people (you were mine back then too ngl) ,we still pretend to want to help each other with work and, evidently we are still horny (See: “Bangable Benji”, “Fuckable Fia”). Those two months leading up to Caribana were special, really special and despite what was said, I really do feel the same now as i did back then. I’ve always had that urge to talk to you, I’ve always gotten butterflies seeing you for the first time in a day,  i’ve always found your terrible jokes funny, and our conversations enticing and ive always loved every bit of you, head to toe. Summers our season, let’s have an unforgettable one and best that first magical summer we had.

The Middle

We’ve been together a long time, like a really long time. To be honest, going into this, i had no idea how long we were gonna last. Whether it was gonna be a week, or a year, or forever (We’re edging closer to forever ;) ). We’ve had some amazing times, some not so great, but when i think about us, only those great ones come to mind. We’ve had

Caribana 1.0/the beginning

Our first kiss

Our first date, getting ice cream

That kiss by the lake under the rain

All those days spent at mine, in front of the fire, on the balcony, at Mont Mourex, and in my beddd

Dates by the/swimming in the lake (can’t wait for some more of those this year)

Saying we loved eachother for the first time

Sara’s and that special night we had together

Caribana 2.0

Night of the lit condoms

Paleo

All the times spent away from eachother. idk they just stick in my mind because i always spend so much time thinking about you when youre not around

Courchevel (what a fucking paradise)

Valentines Day

The days spent at yours, eating pasta or Mcdo and watching netflix (my idea of pure relaxation)

Those are all muddled up and there are soooo many more that i’m missing, forgive me. These are memories that will always stick with me, no matter how old i get, whether I’m with you or not. I’ll always look back and think that was amazing, she was amazing. You’re the one person I can talk about my feelings with, you’re the one person who can make me laugh when i really need it, i dont know how to explain it but you’re just always there for me. You push me to do new things and to be a better person, and i really need that because without it i would literally do nothing all day. If i ever feel bad I just think oh, i’ve got Fia to make me happy and a simple text or conversation with you cheers me up more than anything.

Whenever you try to go 

Whenever I think of that god damn gorgeous smile or giving you a tight cuddle, I can’t help but let out a big stupid grin. You never fail to make me smile. Going through all our old photos has made me realise how much we’ve done in these past two years because for me, they’ve gone by in a flash. I remember that first Caribana like it was yesterday but yet here we are all this time later. You are my first (real) kiss, my first love, you have given me so much, i can’t thank you enough.

The Now

We’ve been through a lot of tough times recently and we’ve been way too close to this ending, but even after all that happened, after all that was said, i’m not worried. I’m not worried because i know what we have is special, I know that even if we did split up, we’d always find a way back to each other, I know that you are my ultimate goal and one way or another i will always end up with you.

We’ve made it out stronger, and getting past this milestone will only help us. That night of Arjun’s was a lot of fun even though Sara’s wasn’t. I loved going out on the lake and having dinner at Luigas and then Pirates of The Caribbean and then topping off the night sleeping at yours . I need more likes that and the fact that we’re having them is proof of us getting better

I look forward to 2/3 more years of school with you, meeting in the caf, walking you to class, having romantic lunches eating fries, sitting by the lockers and adopting children. After all that and Uni we’re gonna be free so start a life of our own and i can’t wait. Every time i think about my life with you and our future together i get butterflies. It’s safe to say I’m excited for what’s to come.

But for now, we sit at 2 years. 2 of the best years of my life, and 2 I will never forget. We have a lot to get through and this is just the beginning

Two years,

I can’t believe it’s been two

It all began with a lace from a shoe

From then on, thinks went quick

From the beginning people were sceptic

“10, 11 months tops, they wont last”

Now all of those haters can suck my ass.

For we made it to two years, you and I

A power couple, soul mates, we blocked out the haters with spoons on our eyes

This poem i must rush as my princess waits impatiently,

Ill skip to the end, when you walk down the isle, gracefully.

Until that day comes I will cherish what god has given,

Whatever you do or say, you are forgiven.

Time has passed so quick I can’t believe its been two

Never forget baby, that i love you

My love, my baby, babe, bb fi, Fia Khalifa, honey, Fuckable Fia, babygirl, FMOMC, fifi, darling, Pia, happy two years, i love you

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5 fab steps to having a 10 month relationship: 1. Have a 10 month relationship

Lord Edwards, Duke of the Fab Steps

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Happy 10 Months Baby

The 10 months, or 7320 hours, or 439200 minutes, or 2.635e+7 seconds (we’ve been dating for so many seconds its not even a number anymore.)(milestone btw) that i’ve been lucky enough to call you mine have been by far and away the best of my life. 

Every morning, no matter sunny or rainy, no matter where I am, no matter where you are, no matter what happened the previous day or what awaits in the next, I wake up and think about how fucking in love i am with you.

No minute passes without me thinking about your love,  your laugh, your smile, your touch. When I’m alone in bed (with babs) I go through our best memories, and when i’m bored I count the the time that I’ve had with you, down to the second. You don’t believe me but everyday i notice something about you that i hadn’t before, or you say something or you do something which leaves me there thinking to myself “fuck me, she just got better”. You’re doing this everyday baby, everyday, and its so cliché but i do love you more and more each day, even if i don’t show it.

 You see baby, 10 months ago you just popped into my head and haven’t left since, and the best part is, you never will.

So this is just a quick post thanking my baby for all the great conversations, kisses, fights, love, laughs and orgasms i’ve had over the best 10 months. 

Thank god for you, and thank you for everything else. I love you.

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I’m sorry

Hey baby, 

I just did what I’d never thought I’d do and do everything to avoid, I hurt you. I feel like such shit right now but that’s not what matters. What matters is the girl that I’ve been madly in love with for the majority of the year and a bit I’ve known her is mad at me and hurt because of something i said. Yeah i know, this wont fix anything, but i’m hoping it will help. 

My love, when i say something i mean it. Whether that’s me telling you you’re beautiful or me telling you that i’m not losing my patience. Im not. You could be unbelievably mad at me a thousand times, scream in my face for no reason, hell you just told me you want to hit me. I’m still going to be here, just as in love with you as always. 

I’d never try to hurt you baby, i’ll never purposely hurt you. Why would I hurt what I love most in this world? Why would i even slightly risk losing the most perfect thing in my life since well, ever. You mean so much to me, you’re everything. I know it doesn’t seem it but I get scared of losing you every time you’re mad and you offered for me to leave again which is always scary, but hurting you is the worst, even if i do it again, please don’t leave me, I need you in my life for as long as i can have you.

I know you love me like crazy baby, and I appreciate that more than you’ll ever understand. You’re the first and only person to properly love me (I’m not sad ok) and I hope that you’re the last . You actually do so much to show your love, you kiss me constantly, you always tell me you love me, you had a dream we had a baby (jealous btw), even your christmas present got your love across better than mine (”Love over money” Sofia Mareque 2016). I know you love me baby, and i love you for it. 

You’re scolding the fuck out of me and I deserve it, if you’re not done, don’t hold back, what i did was so wrong. Know that I’ll come out the other end still giving you googly eyes and a million kisses. I try but I’m not great at this, I slip up a lot, I guess I’m not very sensitive, and sometimes (now) I’m uncaring. 

I haven’t even left yet and I miss you. I’d still rather be with you when you’re mad, possibly hitting me, and definitely shouting at me, then anywhere else in the world.

Im sorry baby