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Got a poké bowl from Aloha Poké, and it was honestly pretty nice. I have no energy.

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Made an acai bowl, which I hadn't had in a while. My eating disorder thoughts are kinda meh, but I've been in a hole of depression. I don't know how to get out of it now. Will goji berries save me?

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I was able to start cleaning without going into an obsessive state! I had an obscene amount of Crayola markers, so believe me when I say that this is the decluttered version.

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This was a major challenge I tried to avoid, but my mom said I had to. I got vanilla ice cream with one chopped fresh strawberry. The tea counted for my snack as well. It took me so long, but I got through it.

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IDGAF

I realized that most of my issues come from caring too much. What could I have achieved if I didn't spend all this time obsessing over everything?

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There different meals, they might be on the same day I don't really know. Things are tough right now. Motivation is almost nothing and depression is bad. I feel like I can't do anything now.

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Life Update

It feels like a life time has passed since I last posted. I had to admit to the hospital which sucked, but I'm doing a bit better now. I'm at a different treatment program who does exposure response therapy. I deleted this app because I got messaged by one too many sex working accounts. I don't know what about my demographic attracts them, but they keep appearing. I'm just seeing what is going to happen next.

Hope better times are coming.

Edit: this got liked by a sex services account. Why are there so many here?

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TW: eating disorders

(I'm a ana fighter but I still struggle sonetimes)

This was a challenge for me definitly. I finished the lemonade which was a "natural" drink made from lemon and apples. Kind of bs but also had froth so fun? The vegetable tips were eaiser, but I only had a couple bites of the sandwich. It falls apart because I'm gluten intolerent which just discourages me more. But pretty good for a challenging enviorment. Also peak the girl showing her grandmother memes in the backround.

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Day 2 of Treatment

Today was hard, as it always is. I had granola as snack today which was really a challenge. I've been watching rebecca sj on youtube and her journey really helped me. She does challenges eating 5000 calories because her mom is going through a really intense MS treatment. She wants to do the hardest thing for her right now, because if her mom can get through horrible chemo, she get through eating 5000 calories. She explains it better, but it's nice to replace the negative influences I had before. Maybe I'll stick with my recovery this time. We'll see.

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Relapse

Tw: eating disorders, anorexia

I'm back in IDP, or intensive day treatment, for my eating disorder. This means I have to drop out of school. I was in treatment for six months but I was doing well. Or I was. I'm back to the beginning again. For some reason I think everyone will like me better if I don't eat. It just makes things worse. I found a positive youtuber that really inspired me. I think I'm going to use this as an outlet to document my progress in recovery.

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Anti-Pro-Ana Content

Trigger Warning: Eating Disorders

What do you guys think about reporting ed content/ people posting ed progress pics? I just reported a person’s blog who is posting body checks and stats and progress updates with descriptions. I hate pro-ana/ diet content, but don’t know the best way to go about helping a sick person. I’ve been there and was luckily too paranoid to post anything online. I could have done so much damage and I want this person to get help. If there is even a small chance that they could get help or stop posting these things, I want to take that chance.

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Made blanket fort in my porch and slept outside. It's so cozy and beautiful. Seriously considering keepingit up full time.

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I took a really aesthetic picture and had an allergic reaction from the same skincare I have been using for a month.

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You guys really like my last post, so here's more of my trip.

Sorry I've been gone so long, my mental health hasn't been the best. I found out I have to go off pne of my meds, so the next few months are going to be rough.

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Went to the Capital to celebrate the 99th anniversary of women getting the right to vote. The architecture of this building is amazing.

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Made it through my first week of school. 👏👏

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Needing lots of study inspo cause school started today.

- really really old math notes

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hey y'all! i haven’t been active in a few weeks because i’ve been swamped with production week + getting sick, and i actually have another performance this friday lol🌟tbh i’m still kinda sick and coughing, but who’s got time for that when my TOK research essay is due next week🤷🏻‍♀️

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IG: @studybroe