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Hey, listen. If you're trying to be better, working towards a goal, making a changes in your life, I think you might need to hear this- Your efforts matter. Maybe they're not yielding the results you want or expect yet. Maybe they are a long time off. Who knows, maybe even your efforts aren't enough. But there is one thing I'm sure of, and it is that you are enough. You don't have to reach some arbitrary level of achievement to be enough. You are enough, and you matter. And your efforts deserve to be appreciated.

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Don’t wait for something to happen. If you want to do something, do it! Learn that language that you always wanted to learn, you can start simply by downloading an app. Dance in your room. Sign up for a course that sounds interesting. Write that story that’s in your head. Talk to a friend who you haven’t spoken to for a long time. Take risks and make mistakes. Life is here now, so go for it!

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This is your reminder that you don’t need anything fancy to make a good day. Just a soothing shower, a nice meal, and a little fun activity. Don’t overlook the little nice things in life. They’re right in front of you. you just have to be the one to notice them. It’s your first time experiencing today: let it be fun and enthusiastic!!! It’s your first time being the self that you are today— i’m so excited for you!!! I love you so much <3

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The fact that you fear not being enough, not being able to get what you want, not feeling able to get where you want, that you feel so insecure about yourself is probably not just related with your childhood but also with past friendships or any other type of relationship that didn't end well or in which you weren't treated correctly. You were probably left out from group activities and jokes or not invited to places; you were made to believe you were very important but at the same time you were kept hidden and later you were left alone and forgotten as something of not great value; you were probably easily judged as uninterested because of your decisions or behaviours without asking for further reasons...

I know all these experiences (and many more than these ofc) hit you deep and now are rooted inside of you as a confirmation of your unworthiness and unlovability but it was not your fault. Or at least not just because of your decisions or behaviour (of which not everyone has the empathy to understand or even guess/imagine the reasons, if you don't talk about it): in relationships there are always at least two people involved. And when one of them moves away or leaves you out of their life without asking for or giving an explanation, it's a relationship that is already crumbling (and it's best if it ended this way, even if it pains you because you felt guilty about it). When there's not communication nor interest in the other and in their feelings, despite how strong and indipendent they may look, despite how far they may have moved, a relationship is already ended.

It's not about your worth or lovability, which you possess just because you're alive. It's just about people's decisions, it's about lives taking different turns, it's about the fact that some relationships just need to end or evolve into something different that is not a deep friendship anymore (if you both agree ofc). It's about people growing and changing, and following their own path. Keep going on onto yours so to find new friends and even lovers if you want (cause you will anyway: life is made of cycles, as you had friends in the past, you'll have friends in the future; as you didn't have good friends in the past you will have good friends in the future. It's all about you, you can change your life at any given minute. Take your time to understand your emotions and process them but then let the past go, heal and move on to something new -and even better, seen how you were treated).

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every time you assume that others are thinking negatively of you or judging you behind your back, you are bullying yourself through them. at the end of the day, you don't know what thoughts are running through their heads unless they verbally express them to you. until then, every one of 'their' opinions about you is nothing more than your fear, and whatever assumption is born from your fear is yours to let go - not theirs to disprove.

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Please stop attacking the past versions of you. They were doing their best at the time and they got you here. It’s amazing how much progress you’ve made and how much you’ve grown but please don’t think your past self lacked worth in any way.

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I just want to find peace and happiness in spite the chaos. May life fill us more meaningful reasons to keep on turning pages.

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just because everything feels hopeless doesn’t mean it is. i spent years of my life thinking there was no hope for me, that i would genuinely never get better and if it were possible, it would have already happened. but then i got better. i have hope. and i’m so glad i pushed through the hopelessness because let me tell you: you might not think it’ll happen to you but it will. you’re gonna get out of this one day and you’re gonna realise things are actually okay.

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manifesting march to be a month of opportunities & blessings ✨

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February has been: romantic movies, lots of coffee, less social media, self-care days, good books, devotional, meditation, zoom meetings, breakdowns, breakdowns, breakdowns .....

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a reminder:

although you may fail, but you are not a failure

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teach me to wait and hope

your promises never fails ♡

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be proud of yourself for

the progress nobody sees

feeling all of your emotions (and learning how to make peace with them + give them space)

standing up for yourself even though you lost people because of it

making time for yourself

doing better

saying no to people

letting go of people for your own sake

no longer allowing others to decide when you can and when you can’t be proud of yourself

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4 things about other people I think everyone should keep in mind (myself included)

People go home thinking about their embarrassing moments and overthinking their mistakes, not yours – people aren’t as critical of you as you are of yourself

People’s opinions of you aren’t shaped by how weird they think you are or how odd you come across as much as they’re shaped by how kindly (or rudely) you treat them – although you don’t entirely control the way you’re perceived, you have more control than you think

The things people like about you are often things they can relate to, and the things people don’t like about you are often things they cannot relate to or don’t understand – how they see you is a reflection of how they see themselves, and how they treat you is a reflection of their character (not yours)

There are about a million things throughout someone’s day that can affect the way they feel, and the way they feel affects the way they express themselves. If someone’s annoyed, it doesn’t mean you’re annoying. If someone’s being short with you, it doesn’t mean you did something wrong. You aren’t entirely responsible for other peoples feelings, you aren’t always the cause – practice separating your sense of self worth from their feelings, that (emotional) security should come from within yourself and not from factors around you that you don’t have any control over

People are multidimensional and their thoughts and fears and feelings are as intricate as yours. Make peace with the fact that you don’t know everything and that you’re not responsible for how they choose to treat you.

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I had no idea just how much I dealt with this until a few days ago when I got extremely down and anxious after I sent a text and didn’t get a reply. My entire week fell apart and I couldn’t figure it out. It was all for nothing though. These more rational perspectives certainly help.

Source: https://www.facebook.com/cptsdandme/photos/a.1968259653393491/3125296977689747/

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this is just to appreciate you

yes, you! the one who holds on patiently when even everything seems to be falling apart. the one who remains calm even in the face of frustrating situations. the one who tries hard to be a kinder person each day. the one who keeps doing their best.

the one who gets disappointed but never gives up hope. the one who is strong, beautiful, and reading this thinking, 'do i even do all this?' because they think they don't deserve appreciation.

you do deserve this appreciation. you are amazing. be proud of yourself ✨

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october dump ♡