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been years and this post still brought me immeasurable joy when I found it, this series is staying in my drive FOREVER

since an anon requested nbc hannibal for free on google drive:

season one / season two / season three

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Robot of the year tho... isn't he...

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i thought this was genuinely a joke it CANNOT be real rn what the fuck

"I still can't get my kids back; with all the money and fame I still don't get to see my children" might be the funniest lyrics of all time lmao

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if it sucks hit da bricks <- litany against sunk cost

take it easy but take it <- litany against burnout/apathy cycle

fuck it we ball <- litany against perfectionism

now say something beautiful and true <- litany against irony poisoning

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Charlotte Brontë, one of the greatest writers of todays time, and back then, and she's STILL accurate, about 180 years later

So another interesting thing about Jane Eyre is its take on relationship inequality.

Like, Jane is 18 at the beginning of the story and Rochester is said to be something like 35-38. And it's not casually brushed aside like that was normal back in the day. It wasn't. Concerns about the age gap are raised within the text. But the story emphasizes that Jane feels comfortable accepting Rochester's proposal, despite the age difference, the class difference, and him being her boss, because Jane feels that Rochester regards her as an equal. When they converse, Jane doesn't feel any tension, like she has to impress him or try to read his mind and say whatever he wants to hear. She feels that he respects her and values her thoughts and isn't compelled to use his power against her if she says something to displease him. Around the midpoint of the story, Jane believes that Rochester is going to marry another woman, and resolves to leave because she's heartbroken, believing that because she is poor and plain Rochester can't possibly be as hurt by their parting as she is, and he'll forget her and move on long before she does. But it turns out to be the opposite. After finding out about Bertha, Rochester begs Jane to stay and insists he'll be miserable forever without her, while Jane, still thinking she's too poor and plain to ever attract someone like him again, resists all temptation and leaves him. And she does this specifically because she feels that if she were to compromise her morals and self-respect to be Mr. Rochester's mistress, then he would lose respect for her and the relationship would fall apart. It was only by maintaining her integrity that the relationship could stay in-tact when the reconciled at the end.

St. John Rivers on the other hand, I don't think is given a definite age, but I think he's intended to be a much younger man, probably in his early 20s. He is poor and without relations aside from his sisters or any other connections, just as Jane. Jane finds out they're actually cousins at the same time she learns she's come into a vast fortune that was willed to her rather than the Rivers, but decides to share her fortune equally with them. So she arguably had more social capital, even though she made an effort to put St. John on equal footing with her, because the money was hers by right and she could've presumably cut him off at any time, just as easily as Rochester could've terminated Jane from her job.

And yet, Jane's relationship with St. John is vastly more unequal than her relationship with Rochester. Even though Jane practically worshiped Rochester but only cares for St. John as a brother and is acutely aware of his faults, she still finds herself desperately craving his approval in a way she never did with Rochester. And St. John is willing to exploit that intentionally. He asks her to do things she doesn't want to and make sacrifices for him just because he knows she'll do anything to please him, and that's why he thinks she's the perfect wife for him. Where Rochester tries to explain himself and persuade Jane not to leave him by addressing her concerns, St. John basically tries to command Jane to marry him and refuses to accept her "no" as final. He withholds affection from Jane as a tactic to get her to compromise in order to reconcile with him when he's the one who should be apologizing to her and considering her needs and not just his own. Jane knows that she can't ever be happy with him because he doesn't respect her and his lack of respect only makes her want to seek his approval, which he is all too happy to exploit for his own benefit.

But Jane ultimately stays firm and rejects St. John's proposal of a loveless marriage, just as she rejected Rochester's proposal of an unlawful marriage, because both situations were doomed to fail if she didn't put her own self-respect first.

So this novel from 1847 was really saying that power dynamics aren't pure black and white. Age and class and wealth and status can be a factor in making a relationship unequal, but you can also be equal on pretty much all social axis and still have inequality in a relationship. What's really important is that there's mutual respect.

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this is all beautifully accurate and lovable <3

call me ignorant but i genuinely don’t understand why sports have to be split up by gender.

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from “baths”, 1987.

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"But I need wizard school media to live" just develop bad opinions about the X-Men like a normal person.

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Back on my sporadic tumblr-phase week again and I think everyone needs to see how beautiful this piece really is because it's silly and all but also Newt was a kid JUST like Luna, because nobody really took him seriously back when HE was a student and Luna is similar-- and it's just really sweet to me FUCK JK ROWLING THOUGH

Luna Lovegood writes to Newt about the magical animals be left out of his book.

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WHAT HAPPENED TO @plumbum-art

I just finished the good omens show (yes I know, I'm late to the party.) and found beautiful pieces of fanart on pinterest and Tumblr alike by this absolutely bonkers skilled artist named @plumbum-art on Tumblr (apparently), but when I try to click on their profile to get more of their content, it shows.. that it's a Ghost blog (or it doesn't exist?) now I just need to know 1 thing! Is the artist okay? Have they just changed the name of their blog (or shifted elsewhere) or did they just delete it :(

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FREE/PWYW Brush Pack for Procreate, Krita, and Clip Studio Paint

Just released an overhaul of an older brush pack of mine, now with Procreate support. Been working on this for a while, so I'm pretty happy to see it all come together. :D

Get it on my itch.io page!

This suite of brushes are designed to create gritty, crunchy, bold illustrations by utilizing toothy liners, stipplers, grimy texture stamps, and jittery coloring brushes, with a bonus texture overlay thrown in to bring it all together.

Brushes are inspired by various tattoo needle configurations, inking pens, and spray paints. The goal is to give your digital artwork a tangible quality to them.

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As tiring as all this shit is, I can't in good faith continue to use spotify.

For anyone else jumping ship, I used to exportify.app to save my favorite playlists.

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People I met for a few moments that live in my head forever.

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reblog to give your headache to elon musk instead

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okay you guys got me started on dishonored (the series) fucking IMMACULATE art direction. I'm going to try and sum it up but I'm honestly better with art than words so I'll try my best.

dishonored is fucking unparaelled when it comes to art direction. from when you first start the game, each level has a distinct style, color, and vibe. dunwall is dominated by cool greys, towering, imposing structures like dark sentinels watching over the land. twisting, rotting trees and an ever-present smog that overtakes the city. dunwall is inky blue darkness.

HOWEVER, from a gameplay perspective, there are visual points of interest still that stops you from getting lost in a wash of blue. dishonored is a master of using lighting and color to lead you to areas that it wants you to go.

for example, in the corner of a window you might see glowing purple lighting. these are void shrines - where the outsider will appear and share knowledge harass you. usually around shrines there are walls of writing, strange twisted words that lead you further into the mystique surrounding what the outsider is and what he *does*.

you might think the game is just awash in dull colors, but its not. one of the most beautiful and striking levels takes place in lady boyle's mansion, and it's INSANE how different it looks, because it's supposed to be a stark contrast. surrounding her mansion are the remains of a dying city destroyed by a plague. within her mansion, however, is decadence and debauchery gone awry.

it's amazing with a game that was made TWELVE YEARS AGO how this still holds up and looks fantastic. this is because they went for a stylized art direction. it's stylized, almost painterly. it looks fantastic. here is some of the amazing character design

(this is from dishonored 2, done by Sergey Kolesov )

LOOK AT THIS ART. IT'S SO FREAKING AMAZING AND THE THING IS THE CHARACTERS LOOK SO CLOSE TO T HIS IN GAME. its a masterpiece. if you haven't played dishonored, please play it. all of them.