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Guess who is relapsing ed? This guy..

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WHEN DID THIS MATH POST BECOME A DEPRESSION/PSYCHOLOGICAL POST?!?

Every single odd number has an “e” in it.

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Okay so

I’m actually not mentally okay. I haven’t been posting because of how bad my mental health has gotten recently. Things have gotten worse than before. I have the darkest circles underneath my eyes from no sleep, pale from not enough nutrition, and fatigue from how depressed and anxious I am. Can someone help me? Send me cute cats or talk to me?

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I S  E V E R Y O N E  O K A Y ? ? ? ? ?

Every single odd number has an “e” in it.

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Someone worry. I’m highly on the edge again 

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What were three things that, however slightly, made you feel happy today? It could be anything, an object or a song, even a meme.

A boy I really like asked me out on a date ^^

But the small things that made me happy was when I seen a cute frog outside in a puddle, or maybe when I got some weed from my cousin and smoked with her. (I don’t condone smoking anything if you’re underaged.) 

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I hate this fandom. 

If you’re a true A.R.M.Y. Reblog this and let’s bleach out all the stains in our community. 

So there’s some Jimin hate going around again

About his fucking voice cracks and his body n shit, and let me just say as a performer and as someone who has an eating disorder, I’m pissed.

Listen. Yeah his voice cracks sometimes. So what?? Most lines Jimin has are at the top of his range. That he can do it while moving on stage like that is testament to dedication and a lot of painful rehearsals. Let me explain

As a singer, I have two ranges. My ‘regular’ range - the one I can reach easily. I’m comfortable in it even if I haven’t warmed up. The second is my “I’ll reach those notes if I’m doing well. (Alto, vs soprano 2) If I’ve warmed up. If I don’t have to strain my body in any way other than singing”

Jimin sings at that last one a lot. Which is fine! He sounds lovely and can absolutely reach high notes. But it’s not easy, singing like that. Add in the dancing?

Do you know how hard it is to dance and sing at the same time? Near the top of your range????

Probs not because if u did then you wouldn’t be pissy about fucking voice cracks

The human body can do a lot of things, but a lot of dance moves constrict your vocal cords, put pressure on your lungs. There’s nothing you can do about it. Not to mention no matter how fit you, you WILL eventually lose your breath. Some people’s bodies can cope with it easier (JK is known for a steady voice while dancing. That’s not like,,, a normal thing for most people y’all. That’s a jk thing. And even he gets tired.)

The hate Jimin gets baffles me because as a performer I see the effort, the strain. And I get it bc I’ve done it (clearly not on that level lmao. But that’s because I’m not physically cAPABLE of that level. Guys. Guys why the fuck are you criticizing him when you couldn’t do half of what they do. None of us can. That’s why THEY are bts)

but like. Jimin tried so hard to please the fans and it’s like you’re all being mean just to see if it’ll do something. You realize he’s still human right? Barely older than a lot of us. He’s given his life to bts and you’re?? Making fun of shit he can’t fix? Are you in fucking middle school??

Dancing is hard. Singing is hard. Standing in front of thousands of people must be fucking difficult bc the 700 That fit in my theatre makes me want to hide andnever come out.

Not eating for ten days between full meals? God. That’s exhausting. That’s debilitating. That’s deadly. Not eating regularly or eating under your TDEE, especially with so much dance rehearsal is too. It takes a toll on the body whether you can physically see it or not. And some of you fucking want him to go back to it? Because you don’t like his cheeks?? Fuck you. Fuck you.

Park Jimin is strong and beautiful and human. Maybe go outside and learn how to be a decent human being.

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Pain.

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I’m worthless 

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Get ready for me to be really depressed. There might be a death in the family soon if he doesn’t make it out of surgery.

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Faking this smile has become my own version of the Olympics. 

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I have a theory about things.

Wanna listen to me be annoying about it? Message me ;)

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I’m sorry, I’m leaving for a while. 

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Burns all over my hands again*

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You need a private talk? Just send me an ask!:)

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I’m never what anyone wants…

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