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H U M A N

Sometimes, I seem to totally forget all the wonderful things about myself. I was convinced with the idea that I am not worth it. That I am not the type for big surprises or remarkable moments. I am trying hard to catch myself whenever a self-depreciating thought comes up. And I do let it slip, because I'm only human.

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T R Y

I'm sorry I'm sorry if my mind is a mess — if my thoughts are chaos That if I feel your switch flip off— I'd keep whining about the things I fear And the words I know you're already tired of hearing — I'm sorry I'm sorry if I turn The thinnest thread of problem Into ten rolls of yarn Because of these messed up thoughts that linger within me — I'm sorry I'm sorry if my insanity is starting to drive you away Even if you don't really want to— Even if I don't want you to So tonight, I'm going to beg my demons to leave— For you — I'll tell the voices to stay away For you — I'll try I hope you'd still stay, because I promise you, when all of this is over— When a rainbow has been drawn on this grey sky— When everything becomes alright— I'll look at you with no doubts— I'll trust you with no hesitations— And I'll love you without any conditions So please, I hope you'll be patient with me. —Thalia Bautista

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“Hello.”

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F A K E

I have mastered the art of faking my emotions.

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F E A R

I fear that someday you might leave me. . . that one day you'll realize you can do better. I fear that something is going to stand in our way and we will slowly drift apart. . . that you won't call me and ignore me. That you'll get tired of who I am. I fear that you might realize how you've compromised for me. . . that someone is going to steal you away. I fear that something inside of you is going to get annoyed with all the little things you used to love in me. I fear that one day something is going to happen and God will take you away from me. But most of all I am afraid that I may do something to make you cry, and if that happens. . . surely part of me will die.

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H U R T

When there is a lifetime of emotional investment involved, it is likely that any response will hurt and will require a huge push, whether it is walking away or fighting for the relationship.

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R O S E S

So much has happened, to us and between us, in just six months. He is everything I ever dreamed of, and everything I didn’t realize I should dream of. It took me a long time to believe he was real, to feel like we were real. But he is, and we are. I melt at the thought of him, and I never feel as at peace as I do when he finally embraces me in his arms. I never smile as widely as I do when he gets excited to meet me and spend the day with me. He makes me shine and I let myself shine when I’m with him.

We have shared so many memories. We’ve gone through some really tough, trying times together, but regardless of whether I was crying or laughing at the beginning of a conversation, I was always laughing at the end. I am so in love with him.

Everything came up roses because of him.

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Get Well Soon pt. 2

When you are unwell, I shed tears inside, but my love for you forces me to smile again because it assures me that you will be well very soon. Get well soon my love.

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Get Well Soon

If I were your fairy godmother, I would make a magic potion to beat your illness. But since I am only your lover, I am just going to cure you with smiles, laughs, happiness and love. P.S. Seeing your suffering makes me wither in pain. If only I could take away your pain. Please get well soon.

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K A D

"You were my home and that was more than I could wish for."

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“Words I should have said”

I had to be alone for a long time so I’d know what I’m capable of. Never did I intend to socialize with anyone who wanted something more from me. But there you go one day, unconsciously made ways to get closer to me. And then somehow you were able to pass through my walls of independency.

I wish you could have been here with me as I go through this phase of maturity. I know you are proud of me because of how strong I turned out to be and all the things I made it through. And so I’d appreciate having someone like you to understand me.

I’m sorry if I am still not ready. I’m sorry if I’m taking too much of your time. I’m sorry if I occupy too much space in your mind. I’m sorry if this setup is taking too long.

I want you to know how much you are making me happy; how much I appreciate you and how much this means to me. I don’t have the right words to say, I can’t think of anything that would describe how grateful I am that I have someone like you.

Please bear in mind that we won’t always get along. We both have some issues to deal with and we will more-than-possibly get into some misunderstandings, but I know that in the end, we can make it through because nothing is more important than learning and growing together.

We both have different interests, and that’s a good thing for us. We will make time for what is important to the other because we like making each other happy and contented.

From the bottom of my heart, thank you for making me feel this way--- for making me feel loved and needed. I can’t wait till the day that I am ready, so I can repay you with all the good things you’ve done for me.

For now, all I can do is to believe that all the heartache I’d ever had to endure will someday lead me to you. I have to believe that God created you because He knew I would need you. I have to believe that someone like you exists, someone who might not complete me, but can make life better. More beautiful. More meaningful. A guy who can make me believe in love again. I hope you won’t get tired along the way.

But if one day, you realize that this is not the path you wanted to go, I will let you go. Heartbreaking it is, but it has to be. I don’t want to keep you waiting, I don’t want to give you false hope. I don’t want you to hate me.

I believe that this distance is nothing but an illusion we both created to protect ourselves-- to protect myself, but we both know that we suck at guarding ourselves from each other.

One day we’ll find each other --- all grown up and resilient against the odds. We will come closer and we will meet halfway.

 -- AG 

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do you ever wonder why things turn out the way they do?” she asks but doesn’t wait for a reply. 
“i mean, do you question how two people can love each other so deeply, but no matter what, love isn’t enough? i think about it all the time, and i can’t seem to grasp the fact that in a society where love is so rare, it’s still not enough for two people to fight for each other.

unwrittenphrases (via wnq-writers)

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I see myself as someone who won’t ever hurt a person on purpose, never misrepresent any emotion knowingly. But I also know that I can hurt myself on the premise of not hurting others. That’s plain wrong, that needs to be discarded.

creatingnikki  (via wnq-writers)

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY

I may not have the right to kiss you or hug you. But I hope that I still have the right to wish you on your birthday. Happy birthday.

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She was the one with twinkling eyes. Now she is the one with a fading smile; The one with bruises on her body The one with bruises on her heart. Now she has lost the spark within For now her dim eyes struggle to find the path. But still… somewhere deep within, her lost warrior heart hasn’t stopped believing. For it knows eventually it will find the path.

Soumya Goswami (via wnq-writers)

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Intimate Feelings The Signs Will Never Tell You

Grounded, know it all, always certain in themselves Taurus is afraid of the biggest and most powerful thing in this world, love. Who would have thought a sign committed to themselves and everyone around them is afraid. But what could possibly shake up perfectionist Virgo? Do you think they will ever have enough confidence to tell you their innermost thought and reality. What about passionate Scorpio and Sagittarius? What are these mysterious signs’ innermost thoughts?

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