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do you have any flashlight? cause i think i need one.

"Tell me where does it hurt"

"Everywhere" I like to observe.

Seeing the way people tell their thoughts, 

their passions, 

their dreams, 

their day, 

or even just reading something out loud.

I like to imagine what it was that make anyone does what (s)he did, and having lots of theories on my mind, making it stopped thinking about myself. Drowned in others' thoughts, that's comforting. More than anything, i love my own solitary moments. But there came a point, yeah, I've came to bunch of points til this day, a point where I thought maybe, just maybe, speaking up my own voice won't be a burden. My thoughts deserve the same place as others'. It was okay to ask to be listened. Then I did, I started to open up. It was fine, somehow, but I still prefer my own solitude. I still hold some of me for myself. That night, on my way back, Suddenly I wanted to share all of my darkest thoughts and urges to you, Is it normal to always imagine how does it feel to fall from somewhere so high? will it hurts? how does it feel when a knife touched my vein? with all those blood? how does it feel crashing my car? hard? lethal? how does it feel to just be....gone? But that night, that very night, was the time you shut me out. So, how does it feel?

-150314

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a cry for help

lemme show you a peek from a certain girl's mind

she is silent, not because she wants to. 

words betray her. 

each time she tries to talk, tears are ready to pour. 

no, she doesn't pretend to be a heroine for her life. 

she keeps her mind at bay simply because if she let it drop, even a little, she won't, can't, control it.

more often than she admits, 

on those long driving nights she suddenly cries. 

hard. 

like a part of her body is taken roughly. 

she knows she needs help. 

she doesn't know what kind of help she needs. 

those moments, she keeps in the dark. 

as long as she smiles, none would ask.

none.

-div, feb 2nd 2018. previously posted here

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Doctor: What do you depend on?

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https://www.theawkwardyeti.com

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don’t make unexpected visits at my doorstep promising love, only with the intention of disappearing a few days later.

iambrillyant (via wnq-writers)

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I was like a patient who cannot tell the doctor where it hurts, only that it does.

Khaled Hosseini, And the Mountains Echoed (via theliteraryjournals)

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I am no fit person to love... I have never loved without causing harm.

Albus Percival Wulfric Brian Dumbledore

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a random scribble

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“If you are interested in stories with happy endings, you’d be better off somewhere else. In this story not only is there no happy ending, there is no happy beginning, and very few happy things in the middle.”

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Things you can say in response to literally anything, when you have nothing else to say:

As the prophecy foretold.

But at what cost?

So let it be written; so let it be done.

So…it has come to this.

That’s just what he/she/they would’ve said.

Is this why fate brought us together?

And thus, I die.

…just like in my dream…

Be that as it may, still may it be as it may be.

There is no escape from destiny.

Wise words by wise men write wise deeds in wise pen.

In this economy?

…and then the wolves came.

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My name is Lemony Snicket. It is my solemn duty to bring to light the sorry history of the Baudelaire children as it happened so many years ago. But you in the audience have no such obligation, and I would advise all our viewers to turn away immediately and watch something more pleasant instead.

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Stop crying. Stop yelling for help. Stop waiting for someone to notice that you’re a mess. No one is coming for you. Get yourself up off the damn floor and get dressed. Put on a brave face and fix yourself. Stop looking for someone who will put you back together, you made this mess, now clean it up.  No one is coming to save you; you are the hero in this story. Stop believing that someone is gonna come and fix you. You’re in charge of yourself and it’s about damn time you started acting like it.

h.r., (tough) love yourself. (via creatingaquietmind)