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Save the exorcist! Best show ever!

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Dont you love it

When you ate way to much the day before, and you're sitting on the toilet with sweating cause your stomach hurts so bad.. and you literally just wanna die

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When its 2am

And you cant sleep cause you drank and you keep making yourself puke...

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Sos

No matter how much I drink.. how much I smoke.. it still hurts the same.. the feeling never changed. Those thoughts.. they are still there.. the way it makes my stomach turn.. being alone.. when I look in the mirror.. do I like what I see? Or is it an empty hollow shell looking back at me?

Yes you make me feel.. yes you turned my world around.. yes I wanna be a better person for you. I want to give you everything and then some.

Recently, you are all I think about.. driving me crazy from the woods that you said. I wish you didnt do this to me

I wish I didnt care

I wish I was thin.. maybe then you'd care...

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Tattoo Thinspo 🌹

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How I Express my feelings 😂😂😂

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The struggle

When you haven't pooped in 4 days and your stomach hurts like hell 💀

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Things I’m so excited for

🌸Jeans in the single digits! I’m so close I could scream.

🌸Sitting down with high waisted jeans and no belly bulge/not hiding the top of my jeans with my shirt.

🌸SHORT DRESSES that I look cute in and not like a fat slut!

🌸Being a literal fairy.

🌸Submitting modeling photos to be a Suicide Girl!

🌸 MORE TATTOOS

🌸Having my long red hair look magical and not like I’m a drug addict

🌸Being the girl at the gym everyone stares at!

🌸SEXY LINGERIE AND PJS

🌸Big sweaters!

🌸A perfect jawline.

🌸No double chin.

🌸No fat arms in pictures

🌸Not looking like a goblin in any picture that isn’t a well planned selfie.

🌸Being the girl in the coffee shop that’s little and blends in perfectly with a book or studying.

🌸Never feeling like I can go to the fancy coffee shop because I’m too fat and everyone else there is beautiful.

🌸Being comfortable on hot days.

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~July 2019~

reblog if you’re an active ed/thinspo blog in July 2019!☀️

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July - August 16th rules and goals

Rules

1.only eat food before 1pm

2. Save all extra money

3. Spend NO money on food or at the store

4. Stay away from sugar

5. Try to only drink water and anything 0 cal

6. Be in bed by midnight every night (usually end up binging after midnight)

7. Go swimming/tanning at least 4x a week

8. Stick to a daily schedule

9. Be up by 7-8am daily

10. If I can fast 2x a week

11. Stay away from carbs

12. Eat lots of fruit and veggies

13. Read for at least 30 mins a day

Goals this month

Get back into the 100s. I'm sick of being over 200lbs.

Keep binging to a minimum

If I feel like binging. Take a nap or paint nails

Feel free to add and whatnot 🥰

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Update

This is all I ate today 👌

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PARK SHERIDAN

↳ Eleanor & Park

not my post, credit to owner.

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Update

Ended up binging on cake in a cup, some mini roll up tacos, chips, pita chips, oranges and some other fruit last night at like 1am.. then I puked about half of it up so I'm just gonna assume I destroyed about 1,500 calories last night 💀

Did not weigh myself because my mans has been monitoring me hardcore. Have not eaten since I got up at 6am..

I'm struggling hard asf but I'm going to keep my goal in mind and try again to fast the rest of the day 🥰

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some ribspo☁️

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Today 6-27-19

I ate breakfast today, stopped and grabbed a breakfast burrito and hash brown from McDonald's. About 500 calories all together.

I decided that I am going to go on a fast again. Start time is 12:30pm and I'm going to try and go for the rest of the night and hopefully all day tomorrow.

If I feel weak or light headed I will eat some frozen blueberries.

Going out tonight with my mans. Hopefully he doesn't ask if I ate today or if I am hungry cause I think I'm going to have to lie 💀💔 more updates later 😁

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This photo gives me life. Fuck her legs are goals 😍