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comfort crowd ⋆˙⟡ ft. dan heng.

hot tears stung at your eyes as you slumped weakly into dan heng's embrace, burying your damp cheeks into his shoulder.

he held you close to his warm body without question—he knows you and your soul inside and out. he knows that all you need in your vulnerable state is for someone to hold you tight. he knows to allow you to unravel your tangled feelings without a single word exchanged.

his brow furrowed as he pulled you in closer, closer until you couldn't discern where your body ended and his began, persistently combing the archives of his brain in attempt to discover what was upsetting you and how he could help make it better.

for now, though, all you needed was for him to steady your breathing with soothing circles drawn on the small of your back, soft lips kissing away the tears rolling down your reddened cheeks, quiet hushes reassuring you that everything would be okay.

and just for a little while, in dan heng's arms, everything seemed okay. ʚɞ

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Phainon Post

Sometimes life is just staring at Phainon's eyes and saying "Woah"

They're so fucking pretty. He's so fucking pretty. But every time I see his eyes I get sad because oh my god, he's so tired.. :(

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PHAINONNN XKDK AHH

see we're literally meant to be yall

tags : anyone who wants to

^tagged by @soctherapy but the post was getting too long

this isnt a win for me.......

Tags!: @rae-unbeloved @lil-gae-disaster @fictionalcharactergraveyard @livelaughlovelams @alexanderhamiltonhasafatass

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thank you to the anon who told me that our works have been stolen and retranslated on wattpad by the user ( wanderersimp3 )

i'll tag everyone who got their works stolen from hsr and twst (if there's a number next to your blog it means how many times your work was stolen):

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「 EVERYTHING WILL BE OKAY 」

pairing: phainon x gender neutral reader

tags: gender neutral reader, no agab/pronouns mentioned, established relationship, hurt/comfort, second person pov

warnings: mental health, canon mass murder/destruction, canon deaths, suicidal ideation, grief, survivors guilt, mentions of a past suicide attempt, phainon breaks down, angst with a happy-ish ending (listen it’s amphoreus I did the best I could)

word count: 1.6k

a/n: phainon needs a little love and to be told everything will be okay, he’s been through so much… :( also, if you’re ever struggling with suicidal thoughts, please reach out. call your local hotline, reach out to a friend. you are not alone. also, I wrote all of this in a different style than I usually do, and on my laptop instead of my phone. this was a terrifying experience for me. I do hope it reads well lmao. and a little disclaimer, that I am not a mental health professional, how I wrote this won’t resonate with everyone, and may not be how you may handle things. everyone is different, everyone requires different tactics to pull them back in. it doesn’t make anyone or their experiences any less valid.

It wasn’t like it was a secret that Phainon was depressed. It was obvious to all the Cryhsos Heirs that the destruction of his homeland and the flame chase journey was taking a toll on his mind. To be fair, though, who wasn’t? Agaela lost her humanity from how big the toll has been. Maybe that’s why she has a soft spot for the deliverer—he has so much humanity.

He loves everyone, even a city that wasn’t his own. He cares about the fate of every soul on the planet like it’s his personal duty to do so. All of that weight, without stopping for one second to truly grieve.

His first suicide attempt was kept a secret. Castorice found him after having a gut feeling that something was wrong. Tribios wouldn’t leave his bedside. They were worried something would happen to their snowy. Aglaea tried to lessen his workload, but Phainon wouldn’t have it. He decided to take his failed attempt as a lesson and to keep pushing forward. No one could break through to him. They knew it would be a matter of time before that weight got to him again.

Until you came along. Things became easier, and he was finally able to breathe again after drowning for so long. With you, he could let his mask down and be himself. But that grief was still there. That weight. And it started to take a toll on him again. The Chrysos Heirs noticed the familiar signs again. And they were stuck with the pressure—do they tell you or not? About his depression? Surely you knew. Do they tell you about his past suicide attempt, which could break Phainons heart to tell you without his consent? The lines there were blurry.

But to Tribbie, it was clear. She knew it would be better if you were prepared, and she was ready for Phainon to be upset with her. She asked you to go on a walk with her through the baths, one you were happy to take.

“How has snowy been?” She asks softly, staying by your side. “The recent black tide attack I’m sure is taking a toll on him.”

You let out a soft sigh and look down at her. You smile sadly before answering. “He’s… Phainon. He’s upset and more fired up than ever to destroy the tide and for the flame chase journey to succeed.”

“… Look after him okay? He is always so strong for those around him. He carries the world on his shoulder as if it’s his burden alone to bear. But he isn’t alone.”

You both look over to the commotion going on not too far away. Phainon and Mydei are bickering—again. Something about another challenge. Phainon is smiling and laughing, but you know better. He’s happy, yes, but it’s only for the moment. Despite the worries of the other Chrysos Heirs, you are aware of Phainons mental state.

“I promise, Lady Tribbie, I’ll always look after him.”

And you mean it. And it didn’t take long for you to keep that promise.

To any outsider, the never-ending day cycle of the city of Okhema might mess with their sleep schedule, but it doesn’t for you. In fact, the times you’ve experienced night have messed with you more than anything. Due to the never-ending day cycle, it can be hard to tell what time of day it is. So opening your eyes to the light-filled room isn’t anything new to you.

What is new is waking up to an empty bed. You swear you went to sleep in Phainons arms. Even when he had an emergency, he’d still wake you up, give you a quick rundown, and even a kiss goodbye. So to say you’re a little concerned would be an understatement. You could feel it in your gut; something is wrong. You sit up in bed, looking around for your missing boyfriend. It didn't take you long at all to find him.

Phainon is sitting on the balcony overlooking the water, his sleeping tunic loose and falling off his shoulder. He's sitting with his legs close to his chest and his head resting against a pillar. He is... quiet. Just staring off into the distance. Then you notice his breathing is off. You feel a pit forming in your stomach as you slide out of bed. You quietly pad your way over to him, stopping just behind him, running your fingers through his hair.

He lets out a shaky sigh before looking up at you. His eyes are hollow, his broken smile doesn't reach them either. You've seen this once before when he woke up from a particularly bad nightmare about his hometown. All your alarm bells were going off—he isn't okay. You take a seat next to him, giving him some time. You couldn't deny, your heart was pounding in your chest.

"Do you... ever wonder... what things would be like if the black tide didn't exist?" He eventually asks in a low voice.

You reach your hand up to continue to play with his hair as you take in a heavy breath. No matter how much you try to prepare yourself for moments like these, it still terrifies you to the core. One wrong move, one slip-up, and you can cause more damage than good. But you are one of the only people he trusts. You know he won't easily open up to anyone else. Leaving him right now to find someone else is a terrible idea, and you know that.

"All of the time, actually. I hear your story, Lord Mydeimos' story, Lady Tribios, Lady Aglaea... All of the things they've been through. I think about the people I see every day who lost their homes and families from it." Your voice felt a little shaky. You've heard all their stories; you know how bad all of it is.

"I've made so many promises to save Amphoreus, to save Okhema. I made a promise to myself to avenge Aedes Elysiae, my family, my friends, Cyrene, and myself. But every time I fight back, every time I try to win... I fail. I... I'm not fit to hold a core flame, I'm not fit to lead Okhema if anything were to happen to Aglaea. I don't deserve it..."

He's barely able to get the words towards the end. His voice is breaking, his breathing unsteady. Your heart shatters, "Oh Phainon..." passing through your thoughts.

You move to sit more in front of him, bringing both of your hands to his cheeks and cupping them. You make him look at you, your hold is gentle but steady. His eyes are starting to gloss over as his breathing becomes progressively more unsteady.

"My love, this shouldn't be your burden to bear. You shouldn't put all of this on your shoulders alone. What was done to you—to everyone—it isn't okay. You're strong, one of the strongest people I've had the luxury to meet. I know what you're capable of. No one, no one, is meant to do any of this on their own."

"Who will look after them then? They have no one--"

"All of us, Phainon. All of us. Lord Mydeimos looks after his people as well as Okhema, and while people say Lady Aglaea is cold and heartless, she would never let anything happen to Okhema. Professor Anaxagoras, as rough as he is, will always protect the grove. Lady Hyacine, too. She protects everyone, no matter their origin. And despite Lady Tribios' condition, she will always protect her students. And me. I will always be here, by your side, holding your hand, every step of the way. And sky above, if something ever happens to Lady Aglaea, you still won't be alone. I can't change the past, but I can have a say in the future."

You could see Phainon fighting back tears the entire time you spoke. But the second you talked about yourself being there, he broke. You can't blame him. He always felt so alone. And the gentleness in your voice, you purposefully coaxed him into it. You know damn well he needs to get it out. You rub your fingers across his cheek to wipe the tears away before pulling his head into your neck. His cries grow stronger at the action, his arms wrapping around you.

Your voice starts cracking, you can't help it. You don't like seeing him hurt. "You are worth it Phainon. You're worth following, you're worth carrying a coreflame, you're worth being a deliverer. And most importantly, you're worth loving, you're worth having around."

Phainons' sobs grow stronger and more broken as he fisted your tunic. You can also feel his body growing more slack against you. He's clinging to you like you're his only salvation.

"I love you. Not the warrior you are, not what's expected of you. I love you. I love your laugh, your playful personality, and the little things you do to show affection to those around you, like a little puppy. You will get through this, my love, you're not alone." You whisper each word into his ear with gentleness and care.

"I love you. I love you I love you I love you." He cries quietly, his voice cracking every time. "I'm sorry..."

"Hush now, you have nothing to be sorry for. Everything's going to be okay."

You continue to hold him for the next couple of hours as he cries. His sobs move through different stages. Pain, grief, fear, anger. Not once do you stop your comfort, whispering reassuring words that you’re here for him, that you aren’t going anywhere.

You made a promise with Lady Tribbie, you will look after him. Not a promise for their sake or yours, but his. A promise to him. Including a hidden one in your heart. To cherish and love him through everything, no matter what. To stay by his side, as he would do for you. Because he was Phainon—your Phainon—and he deserves nothing less.

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Reasons why I think shopping with Phainon is great

☆ You can give him every bag of yours and you wouldn't hear a peep of him complaining

☆ Spoils you handsomely at the food court

☆ Gives you kisses for just existing

☆ Pays for 99% of your stuff (the 1% being the $4 drink you got him as thanks for paying for everything)

☆ Enables every purchase and doesn't question a thing (the only time he does is when you're trying to buy him something and he insists he doesn't need it)

☆ If there's an overpriced photo booth in the mall he's absolutely dragging you in there to take photos (has a collection of all previous ones in his wallet)

☆ Wins big at the nearby claw machine to add to the collection of your many stuffed children you have at home

☆ "I love being a father :D" "Please don't say that so loud"

☆ If there's a theater in/nearby the mall he def already planned for it already and got tickets just in time before you feel like leaving

☆ Somehow finds amazing parking every time so you never have to walk long than a minute once you leave

Reasons why I think it can be a nightmare

☆ Will keep talking to you after you mentally check out from shopping

☆ Puts together such terrible outfit combos for you that you're convinced he's ragebaiting you

☆ Impulsively buys you things you didn't come for and always does without asking you first

☆ "You said you wanted it :(" "IT'S FULL PRICE I was going to wait for the sale"

☆ Tends to get lost when you walk into a department store (Or vice versa, it's the only time you lose each other the whole trip)

☆ Wave at him when you see him go up the escalator trying to find you while you went down, also trying to find him

☆ Has zero sense of personal space when he sneaks into the changing room with you

☆ The changing room is already tiny as is why can't he wait outside

☆ Swears he's not peeking at you every time you change into something else in there

☆ "Can I look now?" He asks as if his fingers aren't already parted and he's not looking at you from behind his hands

☆ Keeps bumping into you by "accident"

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☆ Profit

☆ Says he's hungry when you get back to the car even though he ate a full meal just a couple of hours before

☆ Says he wants something sweet this time

☆ Profit continues

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The cruelty of fate pt3.

Phainon x H13! Reader <3

Part three is finally here (⌒‐⌒)

Continuation of this,

Sorry for taking so long, my lovelies. Thank you for your patience and support always ♡♡

Like, I'm still so surprised so many of you wanted to be added to the tag-list. It means a lot really <3

@rieeeel @shining-nebula2000 @phantom-101 @kyana-chan @shiholyn @n8mareee @ofcdimi @nayukiyukihira @simpforelysia @mousedit @bangchanbin @seikouryuu @axyulinx @aethenawhosp

I hope I didn't forget anyone 💔

As always, I have proof read but there's still likely to be typos or mistakes (／。＼)

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You were informed that your lover was done for the day, but knowing him best - you were already well aware that he was overworking.

And of course, you had been right.

When he was in your line of sight, you excitedly called out his name and practically lunged towards him for an embrace - just for him to stop you, gently placing his hands onto your shoulders.

He had an evident frown on his face, but eventually let go of you after giving your shoulders a light squeeze and speaking your name with a sigh.

"I'm untouchable now, you know this. My skin is too cold...You can't be hugging me like that anymore." Is what he had told you, causing you to be the one to frown this time.

He then turned his back towards you and you took that opportunity to attack.

You found yourself lunging towards your lover once more, embracing him anyway - he let out a small noise of surprise which you found cute, it took everything in you to not giggle.

He struggled and began to scold you, but you didn't let him go off at you for long.

"I don't care." You murmured, despite your obvious shivering; you just held onto him tighter and he paused.

"That won't stop me...You know that I've always loved holding you like this, you're not allowed to take that away from me. I won't mind if you even freeze me to death." You expressed rather dramatically, but it brought out a soft chuckle from him.

Your lover turned and your heart rate seemed to speed up as he embraced you in return - holding onto you just as tight, if not tighter.

How could you ever mind the cold he made you feel when he practically buried his head into your neck and snuggled himself into you?

"Thank you." He said softly and this time, he caused you to shiver by placing a gentle yet lingering kiss to your collarbone.

"Kevin..." You shakily whispered his name once waking up - a few tears dropped from your eyes, but you were quick to wipe them.

You hadn't dreamt of him since forever. Well, at least - it had felt that way.

Your heart felt heavy as you sat yourself up and sighed.

You knew that inside, he'd always be the one you'd love and even if you were to move on; he'd live in your heart forever.

That didn't make seeing him in your dreams any less painful, dreaming of all the times you remembered with him - it hurt to experience them again in your head, knowing you'd never truly be able to create new memories with him ever again.

So, you preferred when you didn't see him and you had gone a long time with doing so.

Meeting Phainon must've triggered those dreams to start once more.

Putting your hands to your head, you tried your best not to let tears fall again - Kevin was on your mind often, this shouldn't have been a problem but maybe it was because of how real the dream felt.

You quickly shook your head and moved to freshen yourself up.

It was okay, you were used to this.

The longer you stayed in Amphoreus, the more you yearned to go home.

Avoiding Phainon had seemed to become a lot harder too.

He was there when you went for a stroll.

He was often there whenever you visited the dromas too.

You didn't question his presence when the two of you were around the chrysos heirs - he had been friends with them much longer than you have been after all.

Yet, even now, as you left the room you were staying in; you were immediately met with the sight of him and Trailblazer having a conversation.

You really didn't need to see him right now, but you couldn't slip away - Phainon was quick to notice you and faced you with that charming smile of his.

And you absolutely hated how comforted it helped you feel.

"Good morning!"

Trailblazer turned at that and once noticing you, they greeted you a 'good morning' too.

However, you still weren't able to compose yourself.

"...Why are you everywhere??" You exclaimed in slight frustration before you could stop yourself.

Your racoon like friend looked as if they wanted to die from second hand embarrassment, staring your way with widened eyes.

Phainon seemed caught off guard at first, but soon he just tilted his head and let out a laugh that weakened you.

"Well, because I live here." He pointed out, still speaking in that kind manner - you wanted to melt.

Instead, you just sighed as you avoided the handsome white haired's gaze.

"Where's Dan Heng?" You then questioned, deciding to switch the topic.

"Still asleep." Trailblazer responded before they looked towards you, their eyes seeming more bright than usual.

"Come here. I'm showing Phainon our memories."

That was when you realised they had March 7th's camera in their hand.

You, yourself - had always wanted to look back on your journeys and admire the photos your bubbly friend had taken, but a chance never arised.

Now that one had, you decided to take it - regardless of the man you were trying so hard to avoid being there.

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Phainon watched as you smiled and took a seat next to Trailblazer. He couldn't help but focus on your eyes.

You cried.

He could tell and though, he yearned to know why and wished to comfort you - it wasn't his place.

Nor was it his place to notice such things about you, but it wasn't as if he was doing it on purpose.

You had become someone important to him.

Was it too soon? Maybe even a little weird, but he really couldn't bring himself to care.

"Oh, I remember this!" Trailblazer's sudden exclamation had snapped him out of his thoughts.

"So do I." You groaned in response.

The camera showed a photo of a young blonde girl with a smug expression, showing off a plate that contained the food she most likely made.

"This is our friend, Hook. She managed to cook something and was very proud of herself." Trailblazer started to explain.

"She deserved to be." You commented in defense, despite knowing how things ended.

Trailblazer couldn't bring themselves to argue with that and Phainon chuckled.

"Well, what happened?" He questioned, curious.

Your cheeks were quick to redden from embarrassment when Trailblazer wrapped their arm around your shoulder and slightly brought you closer.

"Our greatest, most precious friend here was a victim. She ate the whole plate out of kindness and suffered from food poisoning."

When your grey haired companion switched to the next photo, you weren't embarrassed but rather offended.

"March took a picture??" You exclaimed with surprise.

"It was too funny not to." Trailblazer responded, barley being able to hold their laugh.

"I was literally suffering!"

Your voices had drowned out - as the photo was quite a hilarious sight, but all Phainon could bring himself to focus on was how you were practically princess carried by a man that wore amour.

His smile slightly flattened the more he focused on it. He could feel a faint trace of dislike stirring within him.

He tried to smile once more, though it had felt more strained now as he questioned who that was, using his finger to point.

"Ah, Gepard. He carried you all the way to Natasha's clinic?" Trailblazer both answered his question and asked you another one at the same time.

You nodded in response.

"I told him he didn't have to. I was fine enough to walk, but he kept insisting. He's such a sweet gentleman." You then said with a rather fond smile.

Phainon felt his eye twitch.

Still, he just let out a soft laugh.

"How reliable." He commented, looking away.

Trailblazer found themselves raising an eyebrow with a knowing smile before gently lending March's camera to you.

"I'm gonna go check on Dan Heng."

"Oh, I could-" You tried to say, but they were quick to cut you off.

"No, I want to. I'll be back."

And, of course - you found yourself alone with Phainon once more.

You didn't bother to look his way, deciding to distract yourself with the photos. Though, you couldn't help the way your eyes slightly widened when coming across one of Jing Yuan, handsome as ever - sleeping.

Oh, well. You couldn't really blame March for that.

Phainon cleared his throat slightly and asked if it was still alright for him to continue viewing the photos also.

You saw no reason to why he couldn't, but you still didn't face him when offering the camera.

"While I appreciate that you trust me with your friend's camera. It wouldn't be right for me to hold it without her permission. With you still holding onto it, we can go through the pictures together."

The charming chrysos heir had a point with his words, but you were planning to escape.

And it was clear to him.

"March wouldn't mind-"

Once again, you were interrupted before you could even finish your sentence as Phainon wasted no time to shift closer towards you - causing your breath to get caught in your throat as his shoulder gently brushed against yours.

"Care to let me in more of your memories?" He questioned rather cheekily, making you sigh as your grip on the camera tightened.

Still, you found yourself holding it up for him to see the photos with you.

Phainon expressed his interest within almost every picture, making you explain the context and relive the many journeys you've been on.

In that moment, you found yourself forgetting that you were supposed to be keeping distance.

You warmed up, found yourself smiling and even laughing a little as you practically narrated and Phainon loved every second of it.

The two of you had failed to notice that Trailblazer was taking a rather long time to return.

The next photo you showed the deliverer was one of you and Robin.

The musician was clinging to your side with a huge grin on her face and you were covering your mouth with your hand, but it was obvious you were laughing as you also held onto the girl.

Phainon felt captivated, but he found himself feeling that strange dislikeness surge into him again at the same time.

He couldn't help but wish to have a photo with you too.

So, he found himself asking for one before you could go into narrating once more.

The way you blinked at him with surprise was adorable - he let out a light chuckle.

"If you don't mind." He requested softly and how could you ever bring yourself to decline that?

The truth was - you didn't mind at all, but it almost felt wrong when that one photo you had of you and Kevin was resting in your pocket right now because you always brought it everywhere.

You decided not to take it too deeply though and raised March's camera up, making sure that the both of you were in sight.

Phainon immediately grinned whilst you slightly smiled - you almost considered doing a peace sign before deciding against it.

However, you weren't expecting for Phainon to lower his head and have it rest side to side against yours when you pressed the button.

When the picture came into view, you saw that he was looking towards you instead of the front.

"Why didn't you face the camera?" You questioned, confused.

"Ah. I just..knew what I preferred focusing on..." Is what he had answered rather shyly.

A shade of red spread across your cheeks as you murmured a soft, "oh" in response.

"I got distracted. The whole reason why I came here in the first place was to inform you all that Aglaea had wanted to discuss something. It's best if I return now. I've been gone too long." Phainon suddenly said as he raised to his feet.

Strange. You didn't want him to go.

Still, you nodded in response.

For some reason, he reached his hand out and gently brushed the under of your eye with his thumb - causing your breath to immediately hitch.

"There was an eyelash."

There wasn't. He just hadn't forgotten the fact that you cried earlier and though, your eyes were obviously dry by now; he wasn't able to resist his urges.

"I'll see you later." He then says with a soft smile before walking off.

"S-See you." You were quick to wave but instantly cringed.

Did you just stammer?

Once he was out of sight, you tried your best not to let out a groan of embarrassment and instead made your way to Trailblazer and Dan Heng.

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You had been fooling yourself for way too long.

You should've expected destruction to fall upon Amphoreus sooner or later.

Okay, maybe you were being dramatic but you certainly weren't expecting for Aglaea to seek your, Trailblazer and Dan Heng's help in battle when the three of you had gone to see what she needed.

It was nothing too major - her threads had just informed her that some monsters would try to raid Okhema.

Phainon was alongside you, so it was impossible for all sorts of thoughts not to overtake your brain.

What if he forced the three of you to leave and stayed behind? What if there was a bigger source to these enemies and he decided to go ahead on his own? What if he took a heavy hit?

What if he sacrificed himself?

You wouldn't have that.

Not again.

You were experienced but distracted. You took down the monsters with ease, but your focus remained on Phainon. You desperately kept an eye on him, trying not to let that small sense of panic overtake you.

Which is why you failed to notice one monster lunging towards you.

Dan Heng yelled out your name and rushed towards you, but you had already been hit.

You felt pain, but you weren't able to tell where because you were already too used to this shit.

Despite being injured and staggering slightly, you wasted no time in using your weapon again and getting rid of the monster once and for all.

Thankfully, there seemed to be none left.

"Are you okay??" Trailblazer questioned with worry as they approached you with Dan Heng and Phainon - you nodded as you limped closer.

"No, you're not. You're bleeding." Your dragon friend pointed out sternly, rightfully frustrated that you were trying to act tough.

Yet, you weren't. You just hadn't realised.

Looking down, you noticed an open wound on your leg and soon were able to tell that; that's where you had gotten stabbed - though it hadn't hurt much, it painfully stung.

"It's minor." You tried to assure, but your friends weren't having it.

Especially Phainon for some reason. Without a word, he had lifted you effortlessly.

"Wh-What the. What are you doing??" You let out startled, your cheeks instantly had become a pretty shade of red but the deliverer couldn't bring himself to focus on that right now.

"Don't be stubborn. I'm taking you to Hyacine." Is what he had told you, but it still did nothing to calm the speeding of your heart racing.

"I don't need to be carried!" You exclaim, but Phainon wasn't going to be convinced.

"...You didn't need to be carried when you suffered from food poisoning either." You could've sworn you heard him grumble quietly from jealousy??

Yet, you weren't able to question him as he was quick to turn to your two friends who were just watching silently.

Well - Dan Heng was, at least.

Strangely, Trailblazer looked as if they were one second away from squealing.

"You two are okay, yes? Don't worry, I'll stick by her side till Hyacine assures if everything is fine or not."

"Take your time. Just be sure to let us know the results." Dan Heng answered nonchalantly whilst Trailblazer nodded, having a shit eating grin on their face which you felt rather tempted to smack off.

"Will do." Phainon promised with a nod of his own, then walked off with you in his arms - against your will.

Well, it wasn't as if you truly minded.

"I really can walk." You tried to convince him once more, but he simply laughed in response.

"And I can carry you. Stop trying to change my mind, you won't succeed."

You grew quiet at that, but the redness of your cheeks was more evident and this time - Phainon hadn't hesitated to admire.

You pretended not to notice his staring as you slightly cleared your throat and attempted to start a conversation once more.

"Does things like that happen often?"

"Hm? Oh, you mean the monsters raiding? No. This was an ambush. An order sent by that hag Caenis from the council of elders. She does everything in her power to make it seem like Aglaea is failing as acting leader of Okhema." Phainon explained and you sighed in relief.

You were glad that it wasn't due to something life changing that Phainon would be forced to go through.

You started to wonder or more so hope that maybe things would be different...

You weren't sure why you suddenly started to think that, you knew very well they wouldn't be. Phainon's handsome features being the only thing in your line of sight just seemed to be obscuring your thoughts.

He suddenly turned to you, catching you in the act and warmly smiled - you were quick to avert your eyes, regardless.

"What? Is there something on my face?" He chuckled and you shyly shook your head, hating the butterflies that attacked your stomach.

Phainon decided not to push, ignoring the urge to tease as his smile only widened. He brought you closer towards him, continuing to walk.

You stayed silent this time as all you could think about was how much trouble you were about to get yourself into since you had felt familiar emotions arise within you.

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Lovelies, am I boring y'all yet? Be honest, I feel like this is getting too cliché and it's making me want to bash my head against the wall (-.-)

I'm gonna try my best to finish this all up within five parts only, but if I'm not able to keep my word - I'm sorry.

Also, take this as reference to the photo you and Phainon took if you'd like (^-^)

Thank you so much for reading <3

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I NEED A PHAINON FOR MY PERIODS :(((

THE LANGUAGE OF LOVE! IN WHICH: how do they express their love?

wc: 1K , 1K , 1K this contains!: headcannons(?) , fanfiction

MYDEIMOS

i. Mydeimos is portrayed as a very scary individual. The lion among the others, he who suffered many deaths. It seems as if those who cross his path shake in fear as soon as their eyes land on him. He, for one, knows this and uses it, mainly for you, his partner. Any day, at any time, as long as you both are together and there's some annoyance in your way? With one glare, a shift in his stance, best know that your day goes smoothly till night!

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"Oh.." You muttered. Your mood visibly changed as soon as it landed on a group ahead. Your partner, who stood right beside you, noticed.

"What's the problem?" He barked. His eyes shifted down as you looked up at him with a small frown. His ears noticed the small sigh as you began to speak.

"That's the scammers I told you about.. They have been hanging around here now ever since they noticed I always pass here." You confessed, rolling your eyes just at the thought of the past experiences. Your eyes saw how slowly he began recollecting the memories, and a smirk formed.

His eyes landed on the group for a bit, then made their way back onto you, smirking slowly hiding as he tried to hide his future plans.

"Cmon, they can't do us anything. Let's go." He ordered, walking first, then taking a look back, signaling you to follow, leaving you to sigh yet again.

The group noticed you both, their moods quickly changing as bright smiles replaced the old ones, all lining up to block your path and in hands held their items that are sold at unreasonable prices.

"Good day ma'am! Oh it seems you brought a new customer! Sir-"

"Move."

"Oh."

With his very big frame.. and chest, he pushed the man out of the way, causing the item to fall and break into pieces.

It shocked the scammers and even you at his boldness, but then the shock was removed from your face when you realized who your partner is.

"Excuse me sir you bumped into be with your chest.. Please- Oh! What I meant to say was sorry for being in your way sir! Have a good day!"

The scammers all hurried away as soon as their eyes landed on the very not happy Mydeimos, leaving you both alone.

"Didn't have to be so mean.." You simply said, walking up to him with your hands on your hips.

All you got in response was a small huff as he turned around and resumed the walk.

ii. As someone who was blessed with a curse, immortality, on the battlefield, he sacrifices himself if it means that victory is close in their hands; it doesn't matter if it kills him or not. For you, his partner, he shares that habit of sacrificing anything, even himself, for you. As long as it results in leaving you in a very positive mood.

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"Mydei..." you whined.

There you stood, with cosmetics of many kinds in your hand. You had planned on using them on your partner, for various reasons, like testing them! and just to put makeup on Mydei...

It seems he has other plans, as in denying your idea. He watched as you waddle your way more into the room, plopping the makeup, hair brush and more on the bed, then stood right in front of him.

"Pleas-"

"No."

"No fun.." You muttered, staring at him with sadden eyes.

Slowly, it broke him as he let out the longest and biggest sigh, then finally caved in and muttered a small "whatever".

He may have regretted his choices later, but right now, he's enjoying the brightest smile ever as you heard his answer. Though he swears he saw the way your smile shifted into a more mischievous one as soon as you whipped out a bag of bows.

"Kay now sit still, lemme doll you up!"

Were the last few words he heard before he lost his dignity..

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"Y/N, is Mydei here?" A voiced asked as the bedroom door swang open.

Silence was heard for a few seconds until Phainon's eyes landed on a beautified Mydei, until he burst out laughing!

Your excuse was that you "forgot" to lock your front door!

iii. Mydeimos' key signature is his shoulder-length, orange hair. As it may be known in some noble stories, long hair is a sign of status. That status showed that you knew how to maintain your hair, keeping it clean and kept. Mydeimos, the prince of Kremnos, it may not be known, but he, for one, knows how to maintain hair, keeping it clean and letting it grow healthy. And when he wants to, he shares that side of him with you.

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Today wasn't one of your best days. You invited Mydei out for a date, but today was one of those days when you felt like grabbing the scissors and trying out a new type of hairstyle, being bald!

You were late to your own outing and, as a result, you were curled up in your own bed, trying to now explode out of emotions.

Thankfully, Mydei came over to check in on you and found you mid in act with a scissors to your hair.

"Is this why you're late.." He muttered, clearly confused.

You flashed him a frown as you dropped the scissors, sulking in your bed.

"I don't like my hair Mydei..." You grumbled, playing with the strands.

Your partner sighed, entering the room fully, closing the door behind and stood infront of the bed.

"What's wrong with it now?"

"It's not working." You sighed.

He rolled his eyes at your dramatics and grabbed a comb, making his way behind you.

"What hairstyle were you trying to pull off? Yet failed so miserably.." He asked, muttering the last part.

You sadly grumble out the hairstyle, feeling has Mydei got to work with your hair.

Suddenly, you weren't so sad about your hair not working with you; the feeling of Mydei's fingers in your hair is enough to make your day ten times better.

PHAINON

i. Phainon of Aedes Elysiae, The Nameless Hero. He is a symbol of hope and renewal.. and also your personal bodyguard! It may be out of habit, or just a Phainon thing, but he loves to keep you company whenever you're going somewhere, and it's only until you've reached your destination is when he will bid you goodbye if needed, in many forms: kisses, hugs, you name it!

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"Don't you think it's a bit too late for that?" Phainon asked, giving you a look of worry. His eyes scanned the area as the sun had already set, the people of Okhema slowly entering their homes, leaving them in a dark and quiet environment. Even if Okhema is a safe area, Phainon still needs to have a sense of your security.

You huffed at his words, yet still agreed.

"Of course I do, but I need to see them, plus my friends will be there waiting!"

You told him about your plans for tonight. You and your friends planned a night to go Dromas watching. Alone..

But Phainon doesn't feel safe with you walking alone at night, when there's clearly someone like him to guide you to your destination.

It caught you off guard when he suddenly stood from his seat and offered you his hand.

"What are you doing?" You asked, staring at his hand in the air.

"Cmon let's go, I'll walk you there!"

Yet you had no say in it as he grabbed your hand as it slowly neared his, forcing you out of your seat and began to lead the way.

"Phai.. that's the wrong way.." You giggled out, causing the male to laugh out of embarrassment as he turned around and resumed walking.

It wasn't the first time he's done this, walking in the wrong direction, and also making sure you arrive safely with his knowledge.

It always ends with a small peck on your lips when you arrive and you both are parting ways.

It's the same for today's personal drop, with a small wave as he walked away, as the cherry on top.

ii. As the golden boy hero of Amphoreus, he offers everything in order to save his homeland. In every cycle, there's one goal in his heart, to achieve his goal, he tries everything, offers everything, sacrifices, tears, it's too much to understand. So, something simple, for you at least, is that Phainon will always offer himself to you, in order to see that smile plastered on your face for eternity.

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Phainon came home to a very moody and grumpy partner. His mood completely switched as soon as his eyes landed on you, curled up with a deep frown present on your face; he did not remember leaving you like that!

He shared your expression, clearly affected by your mood as he slowly entered the bedroom, close to the bed.

"What's wrong sunshine?" He muttered as he got on the bed, his palm gently rubbing your back.

In response, he got a groan as you turned to face him. Though with his palm resting on your back, you notice how warm it is, just enough to soothe your cramps until the pain killers kick in.

So, you took his palm and guided it down to your lower back, a small sigh leaving your lips, thought that wasn't enough as your lower abdomen is still suffering.

Thank goodness the signals in Phainon's head went off as soon as he noticed what you were doing!

He got comfortable on the bed, lying right next to you as he slowly pulled you into his arms, slightly squeezing you a bit but just enough to satisfy you. With your back pressed against his body and his arms wrapped around your lower abdomen, you were just in enough comfort to fall back asleep with a smile on your face.

Not many words were exchanged, but with body movements, it was enough words to understand. With Phainon using his whole body, canceling his plans for the day in his mind as he now stays to make you happy, not moving until you are.

iii. As someone who's supposed to give the people of Okhema a sense of hope, security, and home. He gives them everything through actions and words. He does the same for you.. in various ways though! Don't be surprised when Phainon shows up with gifts and snacks in hand on a random Wednesday morning!

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You were in the middle of your sleep until the odd minutes of the early dawn, or in other words, at 5:35 AM, you were awakened by a few shouts and knocks at your door.

You wondered and pondered for a bit in your bed, thinking whether you should answer it, but made up excuses for yourself to stay in. Maybe it's a thief trying to trick you! Or something..

But as your ears caught onto the voice of whoever is banging on your door like the guards, you noticed how familiar it sounds.

So slowly and painfully, you tried to blink the sleepiness away, forcing yourself to get up and off your bed. You stared at the walls for a bit, but sadly, you got to stepping and made your way out of the room.

As you slowly made your way towards the front door, you unlocked it and were greeted with a very happy, smiley Phainon! In his hand held various snacks, flowers, accessories, and some other things you can't really make out.

"You're up!" He exclaimed, flashing you his pearly whites.

Sadly for him, you did not share the same excitement; instead, in response, he got an annoyed expression, but that did not affect him! He instead gave you a peck on your forehead and made it inside, leaving you to let out a sigh, as you turned around and saw as he drop the bag on the floor, making a loud thud as it hit the floor. You let out a lazy smile, watching as he went through the bag, pulling out random bits and bobs, explaining what each is and why he decided to give them to you.

But you were only stuck up on the fact that he did indeed come over on a random Wednesday morning. At least you got some free items! All filled with Phainon's love!

ANAXAGORAS

i. Anaxagoras the Blasphemer, the Foolish, the Great Performer. He who challenges the Coreflame of Reason, actively questions it. Knowledge is power, and he is full of it. It's something that is earned through hard work and dedication. He only shares when he wants and if needed. For you? He seems as if he's annoyed at the lack of knowledge, but it usually doesn't fool you.

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"These dromases are so cute, don't you think, Anaxagoras?" You thought out loud.

The man you addressed was too engrossed in his own world, or perhaps he was ignoring you after you asked him the same thing repeatedly, knowing the response you would get in return.

Though, you will not take silence as an answer!

"Hello?.." You muttered, looking back to see your partner quite fascinated at the other Dromases. He clearly heard you calling out to him, as he was conversing with the stranger beside him, conversing as in nodding at whatever they were saying about the Dromas infront of them.

"Anaxa." You finally said, hands on your hips. The man sighed, clearly not happy with the choice of name, so he finally caved in.

With a sigh, he made his way towards you and finally answered your question.

"Yes, they are."

You huffed at his monotone response, turning around to feed the Dromases some clay.

"Hm, they like these a lot, don't they?" You muttered, glaring at the man behind as he did not answer, causing him to sigh yet again and respond.

You held the piece of clay as the Dromas got closer to it.

Then a thought popped in your head!

"Anaxagoras, I have a question." You said as you finished feeding the piece of clay.

You turned to face the man behind you, as he raised his eyebrow, waiting for you to shoot another question yet again.

"Are the clay tasty? They seem to love it a lot."

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Physically, you saw his face twisted in confusion, as if he's wondering if you actually asked that.

"Is it?..."

"No.. Unless you want to try it." He simply explained.

You laughed at his words.

"No thank you! I have my smart boyfriend to figure out these things for me!" You exclaimed as you ran back to feed the Dromases.

He stared off at you for a bit, wondering if there were others who shared the same thought process as you.

ii. He is called the Blasphemer for a reason. He is willing to defy prophecy and delve into forbidden areas of study. He questions the established beliefs. He would rather believe in logic than faith. Though as Anaxagoras dug deeper into his studies, he realized that logic wasn't enough. But it was enough to set a wide grin on your face as he defends you in arguments.

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For the umpteenth time, Anaxagoras has heard you sigh. You were out buying market stuff and this one vendor does not want to give up.

You claimed that they're selling bad fruits, but the vendor doesn't want to believe it.

"Sir.. it's literally browning! I'm not buying it!"

"Ma'am, they do that when they get sweeter! You already have it in your hand!"

You were a hair away close to just throwing the fruits at the old man.. but that's bad manners, or something..

You weren't the first to complain about this old man; he does it with everyone passing by. They pick up the fruit, then he automatically pushes you into buying it. I guess he has a business to run!

Passersby hear, and some stick around to see what might happen. Will you finally put this old man in his place? Or will you suffer the same fate as them?

Anaxagoras listens to the argument, and slowly he loses his cool with this old man. For the first time today, Anaxagoras breathed through his nose, shifting in position and finally spoke up for you.

"You claim that, yet there is clearly a difference between ripeness and rot, sir."

The old man let out a surprised sound as he heard the new voice.

"Uh what-"

"Enzymatic browning happens when the fruit is ripe, but that isn't the case here." Anaxagoras started. He points to the fruit in your hand, at the brown spots on the fruit.

"This here shows oxidation. There are soft spots and bruising. This is decay, not quality improvement. Please do not sell this to my partner." He ended, taking the fruit out of your hand and guiding you away, leaving the old man stunned at the simple Biology he clearly just learn.

iii. At the end of the day, when the time comes, there must be a time when we all need to rest our brains. Anaxagoras, when that time for him comes, knows where he needs to be when he needs the most sleep. He finds himself in your arms, recharging and saving all the knowledge he has gained for the day.

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As the sun set, you were in the process of finishing up dinner. Before you could set your table, a knock was made at your front door.

"Coming!" You exclaimed, quickly making your way towards the front door. As you swung the door open, you were greeted by your beloved. It may not show, but for you, you were quick to notice the slight change in his facial expression. It is clear as day to you that he was exhausted.

You opened the door wider, inviting him in without any word exchanged, and got to work, taking out some of the dinner you had made for him.

But that wasn't what he had in mind, as without saying anything, he dragged you to your own bedroom, leaving you in worry as your dinner was still out.. It's still hot, so it will be safe for a while..

The change of warm, hearty food filling your senses, was now dark and filled with your scent. You were now in your room, being shoved onto the bed and then a head full of teal hair tickled your chin.

You didn't complain about the change to your plans. You simply have to work at helping your partner recharge his energy, inserting your fingers in his hair as he shoves his face deeper into your chest, sighing in comfort.

You both did not need to exchange any form of words, as it was a regular thing he does. You are always needed when he is low on energy.

IMRAESPACE || MASTERLIST

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Kind of late but just create another account to save the username you don't have to post lol, I have like 2 accounts with different names that I like, but a lot of ppls do that they just create another acc to save the username

waittt

actually yeah

i think its better to keep the art and POTENTIAL writing accounts separated

ill start posting art on that account soon then hehe

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chat i use a different user and name on insta/twitter for my art but like i dont want to change this one... IDK WHAT TO DO

originally i was gonna try and start writing and i made a separate user for it but idk now

HELP

i wanna write for phainon and like childe maybe..but im a little bad at writing so i might just stick to art...

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chat i just realised for some reason flame reaver isnt there i swear i added him :((

i wanna get out of artblock

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⋆.˚ ᡣ𐭩Thinking about Ex!Phainon, who still loves youㅡsilently, secretly, and solemlyㅡwhile his heart still aches for your sweet smile and your gorgeous eyes crinkling beautifully at him. Just him. Nobody else.

You had an okay breakup with Phainon. You had loved him to death, you did. And dating him was great when it first began! He would make you smile every second you were with him, embrace you in your most vulnerable moments like golden treasure, hold you so dearly in his arms when the nights stretched endlesslyㅡand make you feel as if the world moved around you.

But time decays even the strongest of steel, and graduallyㅡhe started treating you no differently from his other companions. His late-night visits to your house would become less and less frequent. He'd text you like how he texted Mydei and all of his other friends. He'd still caress you in his arms, of course, but the calming warmth you initially felt from him was now...faded.

Nearly at the end of your relationship, the distance between the two of you was evident. He felt so far away that, to you, your connection was beyond repair. Sometimes you would just stop to stare dumbly at your phoneㅡwaiting, wishing for his name to appear on your screen. You didn't even care if it wasn't a call at that point. Even a little text saying "Hey, what's up?" would've filled your entire day with bliss and elation. You missed him. Dearly.

Your mind would overfill with thoughts and despair over your boyfriend and his detachment. In late nights when only the moon would peek through your curtains, you would let crystal tears fall from your eyes as his voiceㅡstill as beautiful as everㅡwould echo repeatedly in your mind "Shh...I'm here, y/n. I am so sorry that I acted so shitty, my love. Please forgive me?"

The remoteness, the silence, and the agony were driving you insane. Your mental health was shaking, emotions overflowing. Maybe you were being overly sensitive, sure. But even so, it still hurt. It hurt that the person whom you always cared for was out of reach. Oh, how your chest felt as if it were being ripped to shreds when you scrolled through your previous text messagesㅡreminiscing on the days which shone brighter than gold, and felt warmer than the sun.

Not only that, the thought that you were being overbearingㅡthe thought that you had messed up horrifically somehowㅡwould circle inside your brain. Over and over againㅡlike the world's most cruel mantra. A mantra which, deep down inside of youㅡyou thought was true.

You couldn't continue like this. They say hope is a double-edged sword, and during those days you couldn't count how many times the sword ripped apart your flesh like butter and tore you apart limb by limb. You were so sick of the pain. You were so sick of the sufferingㅡso, you left.

You called him late at night, asking to meet him in the park outside your house. He agreed. Putting on your clothes, you took the hoodie he once left in your apartment. The hoodie, which felt like it had been here for a lifetime. Rolling it up neatly and tucking it underneath your arm, you took a shaky breath and headed out the door to meet your lover.

The chilly breeze hit you like a speeding truck. The loose jacket draped over your shoulders was insufficient to block the cold. But your focus was somewhere else. The burning rage and hurt inside of you made you immune to the chill. The hot tears that threatened to spill from your eyes cleared your vision from the blowing wind. You ignored the breeze, for your mind was only locked on the pain that you were finally going to spill to Phainon. The hurt-filled words which will seep endlessly out of your mouth. How you were going to yell at him for all the pain he caused you, the rage that bubbled uncontrollably inside you right now, and ask him why. Why was it so hard for him to tell you just a little, simple 'hello'.

You saw him at the far end of the street. He was wearing the blue sneakers from when you first met him, and the silver watch you had gotten him for his birthday. His periwinkle eyes shone underneath the yellow street lightsㅡwith a wisp of melancholy laced within them. It was unfair. He looked absolutely beautiful, just like when you first fell in love with him.

At that moment, the anger inside you shriveled to dust, and the enraged words threatening to spill from your lips died before they could be formed. Even at this distance, with this much pain and suffering, he still made all of your anger go away, huh? But deep down, you relaxed. His presence was akin to a bonfire in a harsh winter, a breath of fresh air from the smoke and fogㅡit made all of your worries go away just from the sight of him. You wanted nothing more than to run to him and hug him

And you despised yourself for feeling this way.

How could your mind betray you the moment your eyes landed on him? Why did your bruised heart soften the moment you saw the familiar watch on his wrist? It was unfair how much power he had over youㅡhow much power you let him have over you. Even as you were coming to this spot, a part of you deep down instinctively knew that you wouldn't do any of the things you said you would. It was certain that you would lose your rage the moment you got close to him.

You wanted to push this feeling away and scream at him for all of the painful nights you endured. The nights which felt so lonely and distant, the times you ate alone at the tableㅡwishing for him to be here.

But trying to calm the ocean to be a lake is no short of impossible. Your mind wouldn't let you be angry at Phainon. No matter how much you triedㅡyou couldn't. You had had enough. You were so tired from all of this. You wanted to quit on everything.

And so you did.

You gave up on your anger, you gave up on your sadness. You gave up on the words which had so desperately lodged themselves in your throat. You brush aside the days in solitude and despair. Instead of fighting it, you gave up. You let yourself walk closer to the man you loveㅡwill always love. You took his hoodie softly into your hands like gold, wishing he had handled you like that till the end. Your eyes softened unconsciously, and before you knew it, you were standing in front of him. Face-to-face. Those mesmerizing periwinkle eyes still as gorgeous as the day you first met him. His light-blue locks still luring you to run your hand through them.

You resist the urge.

Holding out his hoodie to him, you look down as you mumble softlyㅡsteadying your breath as you tried to blink back the tears.

"I...I think we need some space..Phainon."

You couldn't see his face, but you knew it fell. Maybe he looked devastated. Maybe he looked disappointed. You couldn't look, and you didn't dare to. Not when you knew that you would go running back into his arms the moment you looked into his eyes.

"...Why?" His voice came out in a soft whisper. Shaking almost unnoticeablyㅡbut you heard it. You always do.

You took a deep breath, thinking about all of the times that you spent with him. All of the smiles exchanged in secretㅡthe soft, chaste kisses shared underneath the silver moonlight, which would all become a page of painful history.

How you wished this moment would never come.

"Phainon, I-I'm sorry it's just that...we feel so distant nowadays."

You finally looked up, e/c eyes meeting soft periwinkle ones. You almost immediately stiffened. He was looking at you with such...care and heartbreak in his eyes. At this sight, you faltered. How could you ever say something like that to him? When your words failed to come out of your mouth, he silently gestured for you to continue with a slight nod of his head.

You took another deep breath, forcing yourself to come back together. How did he expect you not to break down when he was looking at you like that?

You continued, voice cracking slightly. "I waited for you every night, you know? I waited for your calls, your textsㅡa simple greeting. I wanted you so, so bad, and I hated myself for it. I wanted you to kiss me on the forehead once more. I-I wished that you would check up on me, at least once, but I despised it because I felt as if I was being overbearing. I hated the fact that I couldn't reach out first, even when I desperately wanted toㅡI really did, Phai. I felt so lonely when you weren't here, and then felt so selfish because I felt that way. I..I can't go on like this anymore Phainon.. I'm sorry."

Wet tears streamed down your faceㅡyou didn't even know they had begun to. Phainon reached his hand out to brush your cheekㅡthe familiar touch of his making you want to melt like fondue in his hands.

However, you denied yourself the pleasure of doing so, as you lowered the hand that was wiping your tears away.

Phainon closed his eyes for a moment before opening them to reveal sorrow swirling within his eyes. Yet there was acceptance in his gaze as wellㅡacceptance for your decision, acceptance for your choice.

"I understand."

His voice came out barely above a whisperㅡlike it pained him to say those words. You knew it did. His expression was screaming, 'Please, please don't do this,' and all of his body language pointed towards embracing you and never letting go.

Yet he still accepted it anyway. You were once again reminded of one of the many reasons why you had fallen for this amazing man.

Phainon took a step closer to you. You could now feel the heat radiating off of himㅡlike a warm fire. The distance between you two was now so close. Closer than it had been for the last few weeks. It was how it used to be in those glorious days when you first started dating him. But even so...you still felt like he was a planet away from you. So close, yet so eternally far, if that made sense.

Phainon reached out to grasp your shoulder and then paused right before touching it. He retracted his arm silently while looking at you with a longing expression.

"i'm sorry I left you to endure that alone all this time. I'm sorry that I made you think that you were selfish, because godㅡyou are the most selfless, kind person I've ever had the blessing of meeting. Maybe it's too late for all of thisㅡmaybe it's past the point of apologies. But I still want you to knowㅡI love you. Till the moon finally loses its shine, till the stars start falling from the night sky. You meant everything to me, and I was a fool for not treasuring the most precious thing that existed in my life. I- I'm sorry y/n."

He grasped your hand gently as tears gently descended like waterfalls down your cheeks. At the sight of you crying, he gave you one final look of agony before speaking again.

"Thank you for giving me the chance to be your lover, y/n. I was blessed to spend this time with you. I...I hope that you'll find a guy who loves you as much as I did...I'm sorry."

You grabbed him into a hug, crying uncontrollably, as you mustered with all your strength, muffled words through broken sobs and heavy cries.

"Phainon... If- If you'd like to...Do youㅡ still wanna be friends?"

Phainon froze, tears welling up in his own eyes as well. He looked at the hand which was holding yours before mumbling softly.

"If you'll have me as a friend...I'd be honored."

And for the last time as lovers and first time as friends, Phainon wrapped an arm around your back and gently stroked the back of your head. Not like how he used to during your late-night shenanigans. Not like how he used to when he spoon-fed you ice cream. He hugged you as no longer the person closest to your heart, oh, how he desperately wished to, though. The moonlight shone over the two of you from the blossoming of your love, and witnessed the shriveling of the flower which once was.

After that day, you moved on. Phainon was now one of your closest companions, and you two still kept in touch sometimes. You also found another guy you met at a cafe. His name was Dan heng. He was always nice to you. He would make you smile uncontrollably like an idiot, and laugh so hard that you accidentally break into a coughing fit. He would go on phone calls with you till 3 A.M., and make sure you went to sleep. He would check up on you dailyㅡalways asking whether you had drunk plenty of water, and ask if you got much sleep.

You got your smile back, you got the shine in your eyes back. You seemed happier now, and Phainon noticed it.

He won't lie and say that he didn't feel a pang in his chest every time you mentioned Dan heng's nameㅡhe won't lie and say that every time he sees you smile because of Dan heng, it makes him want to cry his eyes out.

Phainon misses you, and dearly so. But you look so happy now don't you? Dan heng does all the things that he used to doㅡand all the things that he couldn't do. Dan heng makes you smile when he made you cry. You're happier now, so it's fine. Phainon can endure the pang of misery in his chest. He can endure the jealousy emerging from the deepest, darkest parts of himㅡtelling him to fight Dan heng. He can face the fact that you smileㅡnot because of him, but another man. That bright smileㅡwhich was once reserved all for him.

If he finally gets to see you happy once more, even if you no longer smile because of him, even if it feels as if his heart is tearing in twoㅡeven if he despises the fact that you're no longer his. He will go to the ends of this world and back, all just to see the beautiful smile brightening your features.

A/n: This was NOT my best work and was written on a whim when I got the inspiration by talking with @devdozes about my previous ex. Y/n is literally me except for the fact that I didn't cry and chose to keep my feelings all bottled up haha...DW WE'RE ON GOOD TERMS NOW AND WE'RE BEST FRIENDS :DD This is also my first time writing angst (fluff writer over here lmaoo) so it may be cringe and it may be fast paced. Thank you for reading anyways! I hope you enjoyed this (terribly written) angst piece that I wanted to try for a change hehe!

Taglist!: @winteryreads @millucid

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good boy ! ⋆˙⟡

°˖➴ ft. phainon, sunday, dan heng.

in which you experience your boyfriend's cute reaction when you call him a good boy for the first time!~ (♡ˊ͈ ꒳ ˋ͈)

₊˚⊹♡ phainon !

you unceremoniously flopped onto your bed, every limb in your body aching from an excruciatingly long day at work.

before you could even close your eyes, however, you heard a soft rap on your bedroom door. “excuse me, miss?”

you barely turned your head to see your boyfriend approaching you with concern written all over his pretty face. “hi, phainon..” you mumbled with your cheek pressing into the fluffy blankets.

"hi," he crouched down to your level before wrapping his strong arms around you. “did you have a long day?” he murmured into your ear, pressing soothing circles into your shoulder blades.

“mmm… yeah, tired,” you responded, letting your eyes shut as you savored the feeling of his nimble hands kneading into the knots in your back. "ohh, that feels so good, keep doing that..."

you felt the surge of enthusiasm from phainon's strong hands, working even harder to release the pent-up tension in your body at your words. "like this? does that feel good?"

your heart warmed at his overt eagerness to please. you opened your eyes to see him watching you with a cute, hopeful expression. "hehe, yes, it feels so good." you reached over to ruffle his hair affectionately. "you're such a good boy, phainon."

the instant shift in his gaze from curious to blissful was impossibly endearing; if he had a tail, it would be wagging furiously at your praises. he turned his head to nuzzle into your touch before pressing swift pecks from your wrist down your arm.

"i'll always be a good boy for you, especially since you reward me so nicely." ᢉ𐭩

₊˚⊹♡ sunday !

“ahh—wait, my laces came undone again,” you pouted, grabbing onto sunday’s arm as the two of you halted in the middle of the city sidewalk.

he turned to you with concern in his gaze, always the worrier whenever anything—even the most trivial of matters—ailed you. “aw, that’s alright, dear,” he said, already lowering himself to the ground to retie your shoes. “just give me a moment.” even in the middle of the hectic city, with hurried people bustling all around the two of you, he was willing to literally drop to his knees to help you in the blink of an eye.

and with a soft, loving tap to your knees, your laces were drawn taut, wrapped up in pretty little bows just for you. he remained on the ground, peering up at you with those gorgeous, hopeful eyes you always lost yourself in. “is it better now?”

your heart melted at sunday's innocence—his pure, unwavering desire to help you in any way he knew how. you nodded, reaching down to swiftly stroke his cheek. “good boy, sunday.” you reached out your hand to help him up, yet he was still in a daze.

the two of you continued down the street, arms linked together. as you snuck glances at your much taller boyfriend, you couldn't help but notice the way he slightly hid his face in his shoulder, a lingering blush still splayed across his cheeks as your praises rendered him speechless for a while~ ᢉ𐭩

₊˚⊹♡ dan heng !

“dan heng, could you fetch me a cup of tea, please?” you asked, swiveling your head this way and that in front of your vanity. “i’m sorry, i didn’t give myself nearly enough time to get ready..”

“of course, my love,” he’d say, infallibly at your service. he knew you tended to take longer than him in the mornings, so he was always ready to help smoothen the process at a moment’s notice.

he returned just a few minutes later, placing a steaming cup of your favorite tea on a dainty saucer, the fragrant aroma of tea leaves steeped to perfection warming your senses.

“thank you so much, darling.” a soft gasp escaped your lips as you noticed the assortment of biscuits he had arranged beautifully alongside your teacup. “oh, you really didn’t have to!..”

dan heng simply placed a soft peck on the top of your head, a gesture so comforting and affectionate your heart couldn’t help but melt. “i wanted to.”

you looked up at him with nothing but love in your eyes, freshly-done lips curving into a bright smile as you cradled his head and pulled him close to your chest in a warm embrace. “thank you dan heng, you’re such a good boy.”

you felt his muscles tense at your words before he quickly relaxed into your safe touch, allowing his body to unravel in your arms. he let out a soft sigh, planting a small kiss to your neck before murmuring,

“i’d do anything for you.” ᢉ𐭩

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