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i hope that one day i will finally be ok….i’ll make a cherry pie when it is all over

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it fucken WIMDY (via)

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every golden retriever ever (via)

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A Coelophysis pair enjoying the early morning hours

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why did I find a reaction image in the cemetery

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Frustration

Okay, so I'm looking for a job. I've got two associate's degrees plus nearly had my BSN. Thanks to my physical disabilities, working a full-time on-site job isn't likely to work out. I can't plan dislocations and sometimes I get into so much pain I cannot function.

So I thought I'd go into health information management because most medical coders work from home. I earned my degree in the subject and thought I had my answer. I've been looking for months and I've applied to several dozen jobs. I always get the same answer: you don't have enough experience.

I need experience. But someone has to hire me for that. But to be hired I need experience.

Even jobs marked 'entry level' and 'no experience' on job boards say 'at least one year of experience required'. I kid you not. Internships are hard to come by and often in other states, apparently.

So I'm now looking at part-time on-site positions and hybrid positions. I've applied to quite a few but it's the same deal- no experience no call back or the generic rejection email.

I've been asked why not just try for disability benefits? I live in the US and there's two types: SSI and SSDI. SSI is for the elderly and adults with low income and disabilities. I've applied for it as a backup, but the income limit is crazy low. My husband is a teacher and I was told he probably makes too much. A teacher. SSDI is based on work credits. You need 40 to get it. I'm not that old and spent several years in college (which feels like a waste now) so I don't have enough.

I hate feeling like a burden. I help around the house as much as I can, but I feel like a waste of space much of the time. My husband says I'm not, of course, but I hate seeing him worry about bills when I could be bringing in money somehow. We have so much to fix up around the house and can't for the foreseeable future due to lack of money for it. At least we got the house when we had the chance, I guess. House upkeep is so expensive.

I'm not giving up. Something will come through. Eventually.

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THEY LITERALLY HANG THEM UP TO DRY IN CRYING OH MY GOD

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My adaptation of the God of Arepo short story, which was originally up at ShortBox Comics Fair for charity. You can get a copy of the DRM-free ebook here for free - and I'd encourage you to donate to Mighty Writers or The Ministry of Stories in exchange.

Again it's an honour to be drawing one of my favourite short stories ever. Thank you so much for the original authors for creating this story; and for everyone who bought a copy and donated to the above non-profits.

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I am a shit load of both🙋🏻‍♀️

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It's amazing how much trouble having a chronic illness is. Even people close to me ask 'you still have that?'. It's worse when it's invisible. With Ehlers-Danlos, you can't see the problem, but the pain and dysfunction is there. And people can be cruel and always judgmental. For example, I was at the store with my husband. I was having a really bad joint day and walking was getting harder. There was a motorized cart sitting there that I could have used. But I refused. I always reason with myself that someone else is probably worse off or that people will think I'm just lazy because there's no outward signs of my problems. I knew damn well I needed some kind of intervention, but I can't seem to allow myself to have it. I'll keep pushing until I have nothing else to give. If I refuse to do things (like not go to the store), I feel guilty. I feel like I let people down and I can't stand the feeling. I know that it goes back to when I was a kid. My mom always expected me to sacrifice for her sake. She'd sell my things to buy herself cigarettes or pills and god help me, I'd be proud to help because she gave me a few minutes of positive attention. When she got worse and we had no more holidays, no more presents, no more happiness, I trudged along with it to make her happy. I like people to be happy. I want them to think nice things about me. Sometimes, it scares me how much I'll give up for that to happen. I'm trying my hardest to self-advocate now, but it's hard to throw that instinct away. It lingers and can feel so strong- "you're being so selfish"- but I have to keep trying.

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Please check out Crow Time on webtoon~

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Okay, so I have hEDS (hypermobile Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome) and if you don't know, it means my joints bend in weird ways (think contortionist) and can dislocate with little provocation. It's as painful as it sounds. It's supposedly rare, I've seen doctors literally Google it in front of me, no joke. There's no treatment, per se. Just physical therapy and enough ibuprofen to murder your liver, really. It's fun (sarcasm). More fun is how other people handle it. Here's some of my favorite things I've been told: * "You're too young to have joint pain" * "If it causes you to dislocate something, don't do it!" (On bad days, ANYTHING causes this. I've dislocated my shoulder making the bed. So just... become a plant, I guess.) * "You're still having problems?" (Chronic illness. An illness that is chronic.) * "Stop bending your arm like that. It freaks me out." (Sorry, it's literally how my arm bends?) * "You can walk so you're not disabled." (Sometimes, I can't walk, though. You dislocate a knee and go strolling. I'd love to see it.) * "...I can't catch that, right?" (It's genetic. So no.) * "If I had that, I wouldn't even want to live." (I've heard this from three different people!) You get the picture.

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