aheartsodeep-blog

[aheartsodeep-blog]

Some people find it rude or silly when I say my dogs are my children and I find it hard to explain. No I know I didn't make them, didn't grow them and push them out of my foof, getting them was no pain to anything but my bank account. I don't have to watch them 24/7 or think about their futures, I don't have to worry about fights and quarrels with other children or if they're falling behind developmentally. I don't have the general worries of actual parents but the thing is, I want those worries, I want to think about the future and worry about how my children are feeling, I want children but, I don't have them. It's not the right time for us to have children and I know that and I accept that but it doesn't stop me from wanting them. So, instead I have my dogs. My dogs that I have raised, who have actually very much gained my attributes, my neediness, my anxiety and my constant need for entertainment and affection. My dogs that I've trained and raised and that I get to come home to and wake up to. My dogs that I treat and spoil and worry about when they've not eaten or don't seem themselves. My dogs that I care for and poor all of my love into. My dogs that are just as crazy and in your face as we are and they complete my family more than I can actually put into words. Yes I know they're not children and yes I know it's not the same but this is the closest I've got, the closest I can have right now. I'm a mum without children but at least I've got my dogs and that's good enough for me... For now ;)

[aheartsodeep-blog]

Just sharing because my cute doggies are my children

[aheartsodeep-blog]

Watching 'You Again' and I just can't help but feel like it hits too close to home. Talking about those people in high school who made you feel like you weren't good enough or you were different. People who knew they were being mean because it was just fun to them ... Did they not realise that people actually carry that with them after high school? That the fact that I went to school with someone for 7 years and in that whole time they didn't speak to me? Everyone else but me? What is that? I think of those people that picked fights and became key board warriors for fun... Who does that? I think of those people that were friends but weren't getting something that they wanted so they changed and became awful. And I think... I can't help but think, if they realise what they were doing? If, now that they're adults, they realise how awful they were and regret it? If they think about the lasting effects that behaviour had on people? Not just then. This movie completely outlines how hard that hurt is to let go. How it's harder to become yourself after being treated badly for just being you... Do people get that? Do they think about that? I'm 22 now and married, it took me a while to be comfortable with who I am and I'm over all of that but for a few years that was a struggle and that's not fair. #willdeletethisessaysoonjusthad #togetthoughtsout

[aheartsodeep-blog]

I have learnt that people don’t actually suck. I’ve learnt that I was just surrounded by the wrong people. I’ve found that once those bad relationships end, it opens gate ways to more posative relationships and interactions. I’ve found that when you’re surrounded by better people, people who make just as much effort as you do, people who support you for you, for the things you like, for your hobbies, for the way you speak your mind, your unique nerdiness and little quirks, you’re far, far, far more likely to like yourself and be completely happy. You’re more likely be open to new, posative, healthy friendships. You have more time for the people that genuinly care about you and always have. You see why those friendships didn't last and slowly, as much as it hurt you, you become ok with it. With positive, supportive people around you, you begin to have a brighter out look on life. You begin to realise that for the first time in a very long time, you don't actually hate people, that it's not you (or you and your partner) against the world, because the right people will support you and you know what? Sometimes, just sometimes, people are alright... And you kind of love them. Now that feels so good

[aheartsodeep-blog]

The future us scary because I fear what it may hold.

[aheartsodeep-blog]

I can't trust you. I can't tell you. I can't help you.

[aheartsodeep-blog]

About Rob's wedding day

Gary: I was amazed. I thought he was gay!

Robbie: He's amazed cos he KNOWS I'm gay!

[aheartsodeep-blog]

Said It All - Barlowen

[aheartsodeep-blog]

Puppy spam. How cute is our baby Laggie? I love her so much now that Buddy Bear and her are friends.

[aheartsodeep-blog]

We got a new puppy. Meet Lagertha

[aheartsodeep-blog]

[aheartsodeep-blog]

[aheartsodeep-blog]

Happy 19 Years Buffy!

19 years ago TODAY, Buffy premiered. It’s hard to believe this iconic show was a mid season replacement with a cast of new talent and an abysmal special effects budget. Buffy beat the odds because it was an AMAZING story. 

Here’s to 19 years of loving the best television character ever created.

Here’s to 19 years of loving the character who started my obsession with tortured heroes.

Here’s to 19 years of loving the most beautiful romance I’ve ever shipped.

I look forward to another 19 years loving these characters and this story.

[aheartsodeep-blog]

This day was amazing

[aheartsodeep-blog]

I wasn’t looking for anything at all when I met you. Actually, I wasn’t planning on falling for anyone so soon. But then I met you. And that was it…I guess things just happened. I found you and I found myself slowly wanting to spend time with you. It was simple. It was easy. And I think that’s how the best relationships begin. You’re not looking for anything and then suddenly you realize; you have something.

(via his-shotgun-rider)

Jesus how relevant…

(via literal-gay)

@untilanotherdayy

(via icanbemoreclever)

@r-edtape

(via xkillshot)

Exactly

[aheartsodeep-blog]

Doctor Who Pocket Watch Necklace “I am the Bad Wolf” No. 3 by BlueNightJewelry (50.00 USD) http://ift.tt/1NvvFDt

[aheartsodeep-blog]

Something happened