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this man fucked Sufjan Stevens

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make a terrible comic day.... i missed it last year but not now

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The stab.

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there's a jewish story about a rich man who goes to his rabbi to ask him about building an orphanage, and the rabbi is like "yeah duh go for it!!" and then later the rich guy comes back and is like "actually I've decided not to... I was just doing it for my own image and not coz I cared about orphans" and the rabbi was like "bitch the orphans don't care why you're building the orphanage!!!" and sometimes I wish I could say that to lefties who haven't unpacked their christian upbringing. sometimes motives don't matter!! who give a fuck why a politician wants to do a good thing? bitch the orphans don't!!

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Potentially hot take but one of the reasons we need art and music in schools is that, taught correctly, they are ideal avenues for teaching kids how to do something, kinda suck at it, keep going anyways and improve over time.

And THAT is one of the most valuable skill sets a human being can have. THAT is the skill set that unlocks soooooo many others.

A LOT of people I see with anxiety and depression do not have this skill set. To suck at something is a threat. Proof that they are doomed to suck at it forever. And then, often, that either THEY suck forever or the task must be stupid/useless/pointless (whence we get AI art fans who have decided actually making art is pointless and degrading the labor and skills of others is fine because these are useless skills).

Or you get the freeze- the inability to try things in case you fail. The sudden lancing shame and humiliation or hopelessness. The sense that anything you haven't learned by now you can't learn. Which is so heartbreaking and so untrue.

I just hate it.

"What if I write it and it's bad" "what if I draw it and it's bad" "what if I play it and it sounds bad" DOING IT BAD IS HOW YOU LEARN TO DO IT GOOD! You can't skip the process of leaning and the process is FUN if you let it be what it needs to be!

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real yearners miss people BEFORE they're gone

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Vincent Giarrano, "Yuel", Oil on canvas

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Gerard and Ray at Brisbane 2 [14.03.23]

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tell me my prof didn’t upload the reading by photocopying his kindle reader page by page

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S1 Claudia 🦢✨

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Yo, that shit was so slow! No, no, no, it was like a click track thing, don’t worry about it man. Yo, we can play that shit way faster, we’ll show you. yeah, we’ll do it again but faster. Trust me, it was a click track thing, We were like, looking at each other- did you see me doing the old man walker thing part- partway through? I did that shit. ‘Cause I’m funny.

Thank You For the Venom | L.A. 7/26/25

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was spiraling rlly hard about my art so i just logged off all social media for two hours and did a study in ms paint. i dont know why but i think i knew it would distract me succesfully. and i was right