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So I didn't know na final na ung decision mo na uupo along with me sa second floor kase nga I really thought gusto mo makihalubilo sa iba nating ka team so I thought na ung unang sinabi mo sakin na uupo ka sa second floor with me were just.... Words.. but then ate cess informed the whole team na sa baba sya uupo then boom you PM'ed me with these... Gosh it melted my whole heart .

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I told you na gusto kitang yayain mag station sa second floor and this is what you told me. 🥹

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I thought may nasabi ako Sayo na na-offend ka. Turns out you're just busy... I even flooded you with messages , then when you replied, you were laughing kase you werent mad, busy ka lang then I told you nag overthink ako kase I thought nainis kita then you explained yourself na busy ka lang. Then simula non nagrereply ka na sakin until the pace was regulated again. Tsaka ka na ulit nagpakabusy

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You thought I'm being suicidal or whatever so you suggested na isipin ko nalang ung work kase apparently that's what you do to escape . But all I want was to make a conversation . I successfully did. We made a conversation .. you're concerned.

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You finally said it. Na natutulungan kita when no one else can.. I remember when we're struggling kase wala si boss and ser jep and it's Thursday and Friday and konti lang Tayo tapos may naka leave pa and absent and rest day... We were juggling .. task to tasks and someone has to attend meetings , tayong dalawa ung nagsasaluhan.. if I wasnt there, walang makakatulong... Worth it lahat ng ginagawa ko kase you can see it .. I'm happy. ☺️

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Kubling silid Unang talata

Punuin ang titik ang lahat ng pahina.

Tulad ng nakakabaliw na pagtingin ko para sayo na hindi ko pa rin sinusuko.

Nakakapagod pala.

Nakakapagod sumulat ng mga tula,

O pagtumain sa pangalan mo ang lahat ng alam kong salita,

Mga letra na walang ibang alam na paksa kung di ikaw.

Ikaw na kahit kailan hindi magugustuhan ang mga gawa kong talata,

O istorya,

O piyesa.

Nakakapagod.

Nakakapagod pala na isipin ka pag gising ng umaga hanggang sa pag pikit ng aking mga mata sa gabi.

Sa gabi na puno ng luha na imbis na tinta, ito ang pumapatak sa mga pahina.

Ilang kwarderno na ba ang sinulatan ko na lahat ay tungkol sayo?

Ilan panulat na ba ang naubos para lang isulat ang mga nais kong iparating sayo.

Ilang uri pa ba kaya ng alpabeto ang gagamitin ko para lang ipahatid sayo at maintindihan mo ang nararamdaman ko.

Sabihin mo.

Kulang pa ba ang mga salitang inalayan ko ng tapang na lagi mong hinaharang?

Sapagkat hindi mo lang to hindi binabasa kung di pagbuklat sa mga pahina ay hindi mo magawa.

Bakit mo ibinabasura ang mga sulat ko at letra?

Mga letra na hindi ko iginuhit basta basta pero ibinasura.

Isinulat ko sila sa pagkat dito ko nailalathala na mahal kita.

Kahit na baka may mahal ka na namang iba.

Kaya sinta,

Kung patuloy mo lang pupunitin ang mga papel,

Hindi papansinin.

Hindi babasahin.

O kahit man lang sulyapan ay hindi na ako mag aaksaya ng tinta.

Ngunit patuloy akong masusulat ng tula na hindi na ikaw ang paksa

-para kay Sol

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This is the photo you sent me. Just this morning. The one with the bookmark I carried in my bag for weeks -waiting for the right moment to hand it to you. And when I finally did,you didn’t just like it. You loved it. I worried you’d forget,especially since you said you wouldn’t be home for days. I thought maybe it would get buried in the blur of your days. But now… you’re using it.

And with just one photo—you made my day. Because even if you didn’t say it directly, you told me something that mattered:

You remembered me.

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Title ng series:

“She Doesn’t Know: Vault Entries”

(subtitle optional: for the girl I never stopped writing about)

Here are a few sample titles for the next entries, depende sa vibe ng gabi:

1. “She said goodnight. I didn’t.”

— para sa mga bitin na chat, at mga huling mensahe na parang ayaw mo sanang matapos.

2. “The way she says my name should be illegal.”

— para sa mga random moments na kinikilig ka kahit alam mong di dapat.

3. “If only I could be just a little less in love with her.”

— para sa mga gabing pagod ka na, pero di mo parin kayang pakawalan.

4. “She laughed. I ached.”

— yung tawa niya na parang knife disguised as sunshine.

5. “I left my heart where she last looked at me.”

— para sa mga tingin niyang hindi niya alam na mabigat.

6. “This is me, loving her from across the silence.”

— para sa mga araw na andyan siya, pero parang wala.

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All right let me tell you how our day went by . Nagchat ka sakin ng tanghali , sabi mo bumili ka na ng sapatos because you are freaking impulsive. Anyway since nauna akong pumasok sayo, kapag dating mo andun na ako sabi mo binilan mo ako ng coffee. You buying me coffee is sweet and you know my coffee order.i liked that . You bought me Americano with no nothing at all. You showed me your shoes and that Wala ung color na gusto ko na light blue kase mahirap hanapin.. I liked that you considered my I chose sadyang di lang available. Anyway tulad ng kahapon, all we did was to laugh and talk about stupid things and gosh sobrang kulet mo at tawa ka ng tawa sa lahat ng bagay . Tapos Ikaw na ung nagsasabi na " do you have food? Can you bring food?" Gosh kapag iihi ka lang sasama ako kase wala kang badge . Ung locker ko nga, Ikaw na may gamit eh do you know how much you trust me? You are willing to give me they key of your locker and get money sa pitaka mo . Anyway, so kakain Tayo sa labas ng tayong dalawa lang and treat mo! ☺️ Una samg pero nagbago na ramen nalang tapos naging kwe kwek tapos ayaw mo maglakad kaya sumakay Tayo at kung Anong Makita nating kainan along the way, dun nalang Tayo kakain Hanggang sa nakaabot na Tayo sa dapat bababaan mo tapos bumaba Tayo ilang kanto pa lagpas sa stop mo pumunta Tayo ng Makati naglakad lakad. Gusto mo ng angels burger and we bought ung buy 1 take 1 habang nag kkwento ka kung gaano mo ka fav ung angels burger at wala non sa inyo . Akala ko uuwi na Tayo but sabi mo maglakad lakad pa Tayo Hanggang nakakita ka ng Tokyo Tokyo and you ordered ramen and you ordered for me. Alam mong mahilig ako sa spicy so Ang binili mo sakin ay spicy ramen haha. I wanna tell you na Hindi ko gusto tokyo Tokyo but I don't wanna ruin the moment.. Then nag kwento ka ng tungkol sa buhay mo and things na mga naiisip mo things na Hindi mo nakkwento sa iba . Habang ako nakikinig lang at pinagmamasdan ka . For more than an hour nandun lang Tayo nagkkwnetuhan . I like it when you sense na Hindi ako nagsasalita na, you always ask Anong iniisip ko. Tapos malungkot na ako kasi uuwi na tayo. Then you asked me to rate you from 1 to 10 sa tingin ko gaano mo pa mag stay sa work and I answered 7.3 and i had my reasons and thats where we started a real conversation. I told you na I I thought you're doing somehow fine kase di mo na nababanggit ung resignation and such and that your workload is not that heavy anymore and you said that Ang iniisip kase Sayo kung gusto mo mag resign you can kase money is not an issue Sayo Hanggang sa nag kwento ka ng nag kwento ulit. Until ako na ung magsasalita. Sinabi ko Sayo ung observation ko Sayo . That you somehow feel offended and or uncomfortable kapag sinasabihan ka ng privileged ka na nagawa mo ung mga bagay na di nagagawa ng karamihan at that sinusubukan mong makarelate sa karamihan tuwing nag kkwento Sila pero di na nakakarelate. You asked me kung trying hard ba, and I say yes. And you laugh and that you're holding back sa mga kinukwneto mo and that you're always trying to find words na makakapag describe sa gusto mong Sabihin kaya nahihirapan ka and I aced all of it. Nagulat ka kase na o-obserbahan ko Pala lahat ng mga maliliit na bagay na un. Ang ending, nag kwento ka ulit tapos ako, tawa lang ng tawa kase mas lalo ka lang naging open sakin. Sabi mo pa Nung nasa jeep Tayo na iba ung relationship na Meron Tayo kesa sa mga ka team natin. And I don't wanna forget this but I was able to touch and hold your hand . Anyway. Masaya ako na natuloy ung date natin today sobra. Para sakin, late birthday celebration to na tayong dalawa lang. And oh we hugged before we part ways. I'm so happy today you don't even know. Tuwing nakatingin ako Sayo, I'm acting normal but I want to badly kiss you and hold your hand and not let go of it. I want to spend the whole day with you but I don't want it to be obvious . I love that sobrang komportable ka na sabihin sakin lahat ng walang filter na di mo masasabi sa iba . Iloveyou 🤟

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I enjoyed today. For me, it was only me and you the entire day. We just laugh and eat whatever I bring on my station and laugh to all stupid things and talk non sense and sharing thoughts. We took our lunch na tayo lang and I considered that as our 'alone time' it's funny that you don't have cash so I end up paying for whatever you wanna eat and drink I just like it when I provide for you . I just like it when I'm with you. Then sasabihin mo na ayaw mo ng kumain but everytime na may pagkain ako sa station you can't help but take some of it . Sabi mo kain ako ng kain and wag na ako bumili kase ang ending kakain ka ulit since tabi lang tayo and my food is just within your reach . I waited for your out just so we can go ng sabay. Sabi mo since di tinatanggap ung pera kakain nalang tayo sa labas and that could be by tomorrow aftershift. Sana nga . I wanna have a date with you

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“I would choose five minutes with you over a lifetime with anyone else.”

— Beau Taplin

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I bought this bookmark few weeks ago because I thought she would like it. Then the day comes na nag onsite sya (today) I gave it to her hoping that she will like it and she did ☺️ I knew it. I happy that she appreciates it.

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So it turns out sakin nanggaling ung magiging sagot nya sa nanliligaw sa kanya. Gusto makipagkita sa kanya and I answered "nah" kase I had a hunch kung tungkol saan ung question. I knew it! Tapos sabi ko pa, I firmly believe sa sagot ko haha. Buti nalang

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Sakin nanggaling ung sagot mo kase tinanong ka ng nanliligaw Sayo kung pwede kayong lumabas at mag usap and I didn't know, but I said " Nah" I knew it. Buti nalang I said nah.

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She doesn't want me to go 🥲 therefore I won't. That's all I want to know for me to decide.

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I wanna see you .

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Of course I will try to make you smile if I can't make you laugh. I'm the only person you talk to sa team and i. Kanina, naiinis ka nung binunot ako ni boss . You said you will talk to him. You always have my back and I like it. I just really love that I'm the person you're speaking to sa buong team. If you only know na may gusto pa din ako sayo, .. but I'm not going to tell you that. Alam kong lalayo ka ulit at ayoko non