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when you find a friends oc hot thats literally it for you. they practically own your soul. youve entered a fail state in which they can put on a sockpuppet and do a silly voice and make you swoon like youve locked eyes with a gorgeous fortysomething dyke at the bar

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I've seen what happens when people Get Worse. I've orbited a lot of people who Got Worse (especially online). If you listen to people who Got Worse it's all the same: they don't have consistent, meaningful social support, they've been hurt too many times and they can't open up out of fear that the next betrayal is going to drive the knife right through the artery, they end up spending too much time alone and develop secret languages, meanings, thought cycles completely inscrutable to anyone who has never had to rely on such rituals to survive, they get caught in a cycle of reopening and licking their wounds because the progression of time is so unrewarding and stagnant that the past is basically always the present, and the present is already the future, they become mean, they become strange.

some people might offer to help them but it's rare they ever know where to start, let alone exhibit compassion without grimace. admittedly, even for genuinely compassionate people, it isn't the easiest thing. if the person is someone who is stuck in their ways or doesn't know you, they don't really have a reason to be receptive to your help. "why should I waste my time on someone who is just going to become another memory of heartache? someone who will carelessly hurt and abandon me?" and such. an earnest attempt to help can feel like an attempted assault to them. at the same time, the meaningful interpersonal relationships that these people need will not survive if built on pity or fleeting self-gratifying feelings of "building" someone into your idea of a desirable person.

I don't know where I was going with this, but I always found it hard not to see myself as only a few degrees removed from these people. one or two safety nets separated from being completely trapped. unable to feel safe in not just the world but also my own body. a cosmological dead end. I stay away from habitually engaging in the obvious things can that make trying to change when you're at this point difficult (alcohol, drugs, etc), but if temperance is how you maintain stability in the face of rock bottom, you're basically already there, right? you're there and your body just hasn't caught up. maybe I'm just being dramatic because it's late. hows everypony finding the new deltarune chapters.

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his gentle hands are used to killing, not giving life

мой тгк!!!

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My dealer: got some straight gas 🔥😛 this strain is called "the prophecy of the delta rune" 😳 you'll be sealin up all the dark fountains 💯

me: yeah whatever I don't feel shit

5 minutes later: dude i swear i just saw the knight

my buddy susie pacing: ralsei's been liyng to us

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guild wars 2's story is largely a middling rpg plot, like 5/10 and 7/10s across the board, it doesn't do anything too special or deep but it has decently engaging characters and the accompanying world design makes it fun to play and see what happens next. and then occasionally it spends a grand total of 2 seconds focusing on something so fascinating and so engaging it knocks my socks off. and then it never touches on that topic again. and this is how it has single-handedly made me lose my marbles

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Constant occurrence where I’m like “I’m sort of pent up, but I’m an adult who can watch adult videos and jack off about it if I want to” and then I watch adult videos for like an hour and then turn off my laptop and realize ten minutes later that I completely forgot the “jorking it” step. I spent the whole hour critiquing the plot and camera work stonefaced and utterly flaccid

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People do not see masculinity as being as fluid and complex and nuanced as femininity and it’s annoying as hell. Because of patriarchy’s stranglehold on masculinity and radfem theory’s stranglehold on queer spaces, people really think with their whole heart that only femininity is subversive or experimental, or frankly, queer, and that masculinity is only a power grab and nothing more. Embarrassing!

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sega siblings reunited i love them so much

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as a severely mentally ill 14 year old, I remember thinking “the medical system would treat me better if I was physically ill and not mentally ill” and then I coincidentally developed multiple chronic illnesses and found out that actually they dgaf even when you’re essentially bedridden

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a lot of loving and being loved by people is recognizing when they're sincerely trying to help or comfort you even if their words are clunky and unhelpful at best and holding onto the sentiment that they are trying to reach for you at all. and a lot of the time that has to be enough because it's all you're going to get

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this was the first thing i wanted to draw after watching pnf, lol. it should happen

no animals or carl were harmed!! its disney channel <3

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in baldur's gate 3 if you play someone who was raised in baldurs gate, they will know about the city's history and recognize some of the villains as people who supposedly died ~100 years ago, which is very funny to me. like imagine your city is being invaded by aliens and you try to get to the bottom of it, and you find out jack the ripper, the unibomber, and that guy you remember seeing on the news who held up a bank for 72 hours have all teamed up in a super secret satan club. also the first mayor of your city from back in colonial times is still alive and wants to fuck you.

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if youvespent enough time online lately the past 5 or so years you will gain the ability to identify when something is minecraft youtuber fanart even if you dont recognize who is being depicted basically instantaneously

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Propaganda:

"Lali López takes magical girls cosmic horror and Mexican culture into a dizzying soup of funny and weirdness that can't been seen anywhere else"

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honestly i never thought the phrased “i want that twink obliterated” was like a sexual thing. like when i read the phrase i imagine “a meteor like the one that killed the dinosaurs is summoned from the heavens and hits the twink in question” type situation

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they say you can't pour from an empty cup but i've been doing it my whole life and aside from all of these mysterious ailments it's working out great for me