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VII - DEATH:FREEDOM

My dear people, my closest friends:

I’m currently writing this blog under my wooden bed, with a fragile device with a low battery; it is amazing how unpredictable life can become. Last week during Wednesday, I wrote my penultimate blog and that was the last happy day of my life since, on Thursday, Julia (the love of my life) told me that she overheard some Party members talking about my identity as the author of this blog and they were planning my capture. Since there, I’ve been hiding until today so I could deliver the last blog to you, my dear friends. I am pretty sure the policemen will come to my apartment, break my old and delicate furniture while trying to find me. Once they find me, a skeletal and pale piece of life laying under the bed, they will grab me by the hands, handcuff them and show the rest of the citizens what a shame I represent for Big Brother; contradicting, criticizing, and lying about the Party’s role.

Anyway, I am not scared anymore, I knew this was coming since the day I published my first blog. Who would’ve known I would come so far alive?! With such good company like each and every one of you, my beautiful audience. I can now die in peace, knowing that I didn’t only live breathing but also making a change, maybe the change I made wasn’t exactly the one I wanted but having a positive impact in my audience is more than enough to let me go peacefully. Now I know, nobody will make it out alive and death is freedom.

Once more, thank you for your time and support. Always remember who you are and how simple life is, never let anyone else decide your journey because at the end of the day, you are the only one who’s responsible for your final outcome, and now I leave you with the following question so you can answer it when you doubt your existence: death has given life an extra chance since it knows it’ll win anyways, are you taking advantage of this chance?

With all my love, 

Winston.

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VI - Defending against or preparing for?

Hello my beautiful people and welcome to the penultimate chapter of the best decision of my life, also known as my weekly personal blog. You’re not going to believe this but this is the THIRD time I write this because the internet connection is critical, I believe it is Big Brother who’s doing this so I’m not able to publish it but what he doesn’t know is that I’ll try as long as it takes to get this message to my audience. I believe you already know more about my life than anybody else around me, except for Oceania’s Party of course, and therefore, I will change today’s dynamic. Right now you may be wondering, what the hell does the title mean?! Where is he/she going with that random phrase?! Well, that is the introduction of today’s activity and analysis.

To get a good start, for those who don’t know or simply forgot, I’m a citizen of Oceania where the government has been able to control the population’s thinking, actions, and interactions, and now that it has so much power, it is almost impossible to seek for a change in the governmental system. So as I mentioned before, instead of narrating my life as another victim of Big Brother’s regime, I will be going through a series of vital factors in order to achieve a successful life filled with happiness and joy; your life! It is important that your live a balanced life and by “balanced” I mean that you aren’t using or doing anything excessively. The previous sentence always works in terms of visualizing your relationship with the government, you have to be conscious and up to date with the authority’s decisions and actions towards your society as a way of avoiding manipulation and control over your decisions.  

Even though you probably know me a lot better than I know you, that doesn’t mean that I don’t care about your wellbeing. If you feel unhappy, or that you’re being manipulated but don’t know how to stop it, send me a private message and we’ll work it out together. Coming back to the title of the blog, I made a reference to the future of the nation, the youth. Parents should be able to prepare their children to live a healthy life, free of manipulation or external influences not defending them against it, because by overprotecting them you’re making their learning record very short which could make someone else take control over their decisions. Always remember!!

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V - NICE SHIRT

Hey you! Yes I’m talking to you, why are you so surprised? I’ve been watching you this whole time ,now don’t forget to wipe that bean off your tooth before you leave. It feels weird right? Being watched and also judged.

I don’t have the exact numbers but thanks to my job and what I’ve seen and heard about the Party, its structural violence an threats have been successful after spending millions of dollars in the surveillance system. Not only my neighbors and I, but each and every citizen is being watched at all times. Since nobody comes in or out, we were born here and the surveillance system feels as normal as taking a selfie would be to you.

The Children Spy Organization is another type of surveillance, where children are recruited and trained to serve the Party and being loyal to its rules and ideology. Since children are immature and ignorant in many cases, they’re easily manipulated and therefore, BOG BROTHER has taken advantage of this as a way of converting them into their spies. There are cases where their loyalty to the Party overcomes their love to family. Even if you commit thought crimes in your dreams, children have the right to turn you in. 

I will not be available to develop this topic into a deeper level since I could be identified by releasing this secret information, however, I’ll be posting pictures and quotes to keep my fans up to date. One again, thank you all for the amazing support since day one and lets hope for a better tomorrow!

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IV - DAYDREAMING

I like details, I enjoy talking about what my eyes see and my mind perceives, it makes me love the simplicity of living. Two days ago I had a weird yet fascinating dream, it had such a strong message that I wasn’t able to fall back to sleep after two more hours. My eyes weren’t relevant for the creator of my dream and therefore, all I could do was taste, smell, listen, and touch (sometimes the eyesight extends its ability and limits the other senses). At first, I felt anxious since my eyes were closed and I found myself laying on top of something soft and humid, attached to the wind’s directions. I suddenly felt a cold massage running though my neck, sliding through my spine, tickling my butt and finally reaching the heels of my feet; It was at that moment when I finally realized that I was laying on a rainy cloud. I find it funny that people see rainy clouds as something sad, linked to negativity and depression, however, I believe this are exaggerated assumptions. Even though I wasn’t able to see or move my body, I was able to think for myself, free of fear or any type of external threat. 

This dream could sound stupid or irrelevant to you, but on the other hand, I have discovered its hidden message and I believe it is a signal. I’ve never felt or seen freedom but now I’m proud to say that I have imagined it and as a person who isn’t free, it is a weird sensation. Freedom has become my life objective, how am I going to achieve it or when? I don’t know... but what I do know is what freedom means to me. Freedom is love, passion, liberty, and in most cases, the key to happiness. 

I understand this platform is public but I have a specific message for a specific person who I know for sure will be the first one to read this brief piece of text. Dear Big Brother (and supporters), what is it that you’re so scared of? Don’t you realize how evident your mistakes have become? I understand your strong ambition for power but haven’t you realized that you have it already? Oceania needs to be free in order to succeed, not only by being sovereign, but by being able to walk down the streets and hearing laughter, people having fun, loving, living freely. 

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III - Where hope lies

Leave your reality on the side for a second and picture the following situation: you were born and raised in the working class of a country whose borders are so tall you’ll die by trying to cross them. Your father has had the same job for the past 30 years, while your mother is an average housewife who’s chores are basic and consistent. You’re uneducated, you do not understand politics or how the system you live in works, and your rights are the same as the ones for animals; to live freely and in anonymity. Even though you live in poverty, you have access to such things that Party members aren’t allowed to enjoy, yet you’re like an outsider to the government. How would you achieve success with such limited opportunities? Do you think your performance is valued? 

Oceania’s social classes are made up of three main sections, the Inner Party, the Outer Party, and the proles. Even though the proles represent the lower class, the make up 85% of the country’s population yet they seem to be irrelevant to the government. 

Since my first blog post, I live every day of my life as if it was the last, free of fear. I’ve realized that social media can move mountains and therefore, I want to spread awareness about the terrifying situation going on here. The proles are a synonym of ignorance, the government excludes their social circle while leaving them uneducated. If the proles were to receive a proper education, they would be conscious of the constant oppression and since they form up a big part of the population, they could make a revolution possible. 

I guess what I’m about to say will give the government a clue about my identity, however, I feel the need to express my opinion. I’m not a prole and I don’t know any yet I believe that in order to see a change, we need to inform the prole society of the constant manipulation they’re living in. I have a dream and sometimes it keeps me awake at night, I dream about freedom, I dream about happiness, about love. How can my dreams become true if I’m the fly trapped in the tarantula’s web? But now imagine, could a million flies beat the tarantula? 

Revolution seems to be unachievable right now, but if 85% of society had the same vision, our chances of achieving what has been taken from us for so long would be much higher. 

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“War is NOT peace, freedom is NOT slavery, and ignorance is NOT strength.”

Still anonymous

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I - CONFRONTATION

I have a name, it is not very common just like me. Writing what I think may be one of the worst crimes I’ve committed during my lifetime here in Oceania and the worst part is that this isn’t the worst part. I find it impossible to tell you my exact age, how my mother named me, or any type of personal information because only a dumbass, living under BIG BROTHER’S nose, would confess his humble criminal activity to get himself tortured and executed. 

I’m old enough to look back at past memories (the few I still remember) and realize that my life has been a miserable piece of waste. Do you know that feeling when everyone around you seems to be okay with the situation but you find yourself unable to relate? Have you ever had that strong, subjective sensation that you are doing something wrong? Well in my case, I’ve had this question mark stuck at the bottom of my throat, trying to find its way out but as the saliva keeps coming down, it finds it harder to escape and live freely, FREE as in FREEDOM. I still don’t know where I found the courage to write this down but I’ll let the inspiration guide my words... 

As I mentioned before, writing this down isn’t the worst part, since I’ve realized the lonely and depressed human being I am today isn’t product of my personality but from the authoritarian manipulation of BIG BROTHER and his way of shaping society to his favor. I am tired, I am exhausted of behaving and living in such negative circumstances and therefore, I am risking the few sparks of life that’s left ahead of me to let you know how dark it can get when all you are able to do is obey, OBEY.  

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II - IGNORANCE IS A WEAKNESS

I am stunned with joy. In a matter of a few days, my first blog post reached 50 thousand likes and 8 thousand followers. I was reading through the comments and your positivity has given me a reason to live, after many years of feeling useless; breathing without living. Among the supportive comments, many of you asked me about Oceania’s government and how it makes me feel. These are the most requested questions which I’ll be answering today: As a citizen in Orwell’s 1984, how do you feel about your government? What options do you feel you have for expressing opposition to this government or to participate in it? 

In order to make my answer as accurately as possible, I will talk about the meaning of IGNORANCE IS STRENGTH (a phrase from the Party’s main slogan) and how it plays a key role regarding the government’s objectives within my community. The movie “Room” is a good example to compare my situation, it is about a girl who is kidnapped and raped for seven years and she gives birth to a boy who spends the first five years of his life in captivity, in a small room. Since he has never been outside, that room is his only reality; the spoon is his best friend. It is not until he is able to escape the room when he realizes there is another version to life, where the room was only an isolated and depressed corner of the world itself. Oceania is that room, not as tiny and with so few people, but with the same purpose. No one gets in no one leaves and once you live under the Party’s regime, you become ignorant to the point where you actually believe that BIG BROTHER is looking out for your wellbeing...

I would rather kill myself than participate in the government, however as I mentioned before, this social media platform has become my purpose for living. The government has already sent threats and a complex investigation to discover mi identity and shut my blog down, they say I’m a threat to the system and therefore, should be executed. I find it quite funny because it is not death I’m afraid of, but to have lived for many years without making every breath count. I hope I make it alive until next week so I can keep you updated, stay tuned and always remember to live every day at its finest.