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One more time for the people in the back.

Still got no job. Not even an interview. Nothing.

I will be stuck here forever with no purpose in my life.

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Still got no job. Not even an interview. Nothing.

I will be stuck here forever with no purpose in my life.

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Obligatory shit life update!

Hi! I’m miserable. I’m unemployed. I can’t find work and am going insane sitting on my ass. Writing applications is tiring and a fucking chore when it feels like every word I write will end up in the trash anyways.

Meanwhile I am falling in love with SEVENTEEN (kpop group) and regret that I left L.A. (I had to tho) because maybe at least I could be directing some shitty music videos to bring me closer to my career and now kpop dreams.

I’m sitting here, lost in kpop, with nothing to do but write endless applications, and I won’t be going anywhere if those applications just end up in the trash. I feel absolutely lost and hopeless. I’m not sure what to do, I’m not sure what to pursue, which route to go.

Should I keep applying and try my best to start directing music videos here (even though I know 0 people who make music or are filmmakers here aka it will take years to build up a portfolio)? Should I try to push my photography or graphic design far enough for me to maybe be able to be freelancing? Should I go the shit route and just spam everyone on social media until someone answers my prayers and sees that I’m actually a skilled person? Should I try some other method that will bring me money and opportunities like a youtube channel or something?

Who knows... not me.

In the meantime I started learning korean because lol the only life motivation I have right now are korean boys that I don’t understand. It’ll look cool on a resume, it’s something to do, it’s a challenge but it might also only be a phase.

Someone let me look in the crystal ball...

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GRIS (2018) Developed by Nomada Studio

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Credit: X / X / X

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careful. she crumbles empires with that laugh.

excerpt from survival of the richest || k.k. (via wordtamer)

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༼ つ ◕_◕ ༽つ

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the lost legacy chapters ↦ the gatekeeper

You’re a selfish dickhead.

Yeah you’re right. I am a selfish dickhead.

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BioShock Infinite: Favourite Lutece Banters

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Some thoughts about LIS and BTS

So I’m done rewatching LIS and I have to say two things: 

1. The sacrifice Chloe ending is stupid. What is the reason that Chloe has to die? The logic there makes no sense. Max went through all the scenarios. She saved Chloe and told on Jefferson, without any time jumps. Yet, there was still a storm when she was in San Francisco. That means, even if she does no time-hopping in the timeline, there will still be a storm. We know that if Max goes back, she still has all the knowledge from all the timelines. Is the game trying to say that the storm is only there because Max actually uses the knowledge she already has? Does that mean if a word ever slips her mouth that makes someone change something, a storm will be created? Does that mean if she ever mentions to Victoria that Kate committed, attempted or thought about suicide and Victoria changes her attitude, a storm will be created? If she ever mentions to Warren that she knows he could’ve beaten up Nathan, a storm will be created? Another thing is, I highly doubt that whatever was going on with Kate at the time Chloe was killed, will immediately die down after. Yes, Nathan and Jefferson get caught, but that’s after Kate’s video is up. So the video is going around, and yes, there might be less talk about the video and more about Chloe, but Chloe’s death is a shocking and depressing event! Many people (especially already depressed/suicidal people) sometimes can’t cope with the death of a friend, someone in their surroundings or even acquaintance. In other words, there is still a high chance that Kate would attempt suicide. I don’t know how long after the death the funeral was, but we see a lot of things happening in the pictures before we see the funeral. And Kate jumped in the second episode which would literally be the 2nd or 3rd day after the bathroom. Yet, Kate is still at the funeral. And again, Max wouldn’t have been able to save her with the knowledge that she might go up to that roof at any given point in time. So, in short, the ending is pointless since the only reason Chloe ‘has to die’ is because Max can’t say aloud what she already knows. Also the whole game, all the struggles, deaths and pain were all for nothing, if Chloe dies anyway. Also: Pricefield. (Okay that went unreasonable too quick.)

2. The sacrifice Arcadia Bay ending feels like the right ending. After playing through Before The Storm, knowing where Chloe really comes from, understanding what she went through, and knowing Rachel’s real role in all of this, keeping Chloe alive feels like the right ending (even though the ending cutscene looks otherwise). After playing BTS, knowing all the shit Chloe went through with her dad dying, with David, with Rachel, then having Rachel accidentally get killed by a stupid High Schooler, and all the other stuff happening in LIS, it just feels wrong to have her end this way. For me personally, it doesn’t add up narratively to build up two characters and their relationship from the ground, only to have them both die shortly after. What makes Chloe and Rachel’s story (and BTS) so heartbreaking, is knowing that Rachel will definitely (no time-turning back there) die. Knowing how much she meant to Chloe, and how Chloe will literally go full circle with losing someone, meeting someone to help her get through it and losing that someone again. Knowing Chloe will have to suffer through these feelings for a second time, is what breaks our heart. Not knowing that she will also die soon after, under stupid, accidental circumstances, by the same idiotic High Schooler. Then there’s also that whole ‘escaping Arcadia Bay’ thing. Chloe and Rachel were all about that, yet they never made it. Having Arcadia Bay literally destroyed is more escaping than anything else. (Don’t argue by both being dead Chloe and Rachel now escaped together. If that was Chloe’s idea of escaping she would’ve killed herself once she knew or suspected that Rachel was dead.)

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i feel numb in this kingdom.

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Y’all if my pages don’t match my theme or look weird I’m still working on them so sorry in advance

Also I might occasionally post some kpop content which I’ll tag with #kpop so you can blacklist :)

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Life is Strange  → random scenery [9/??]

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I’m back to coding yay! Making a new theme right now

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“After all these years and everything that’s happened, it’s great to see you and Chloe together again. She hasn’t had a good friend since you or Rachel… Those clothes remind me so much of her. Such a sweet girl.”

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Bioshock Infinite + scenery

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Heart Eyes