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i have another bomb to throw, girls who hated pink and femininity in childhood were not experiencing internalized misogyny; it was a rejection of the conditioning pushed on us from birth which we never felt passion for and grew resentful towards because of adults’ insistence on us following the rules of being a girl. when you hit middle-high school and get more say in how you look it feels fucking incredible to reject and be openly hostile to the things you were forced to embrace your whole life. you people just don’t know what internalized misogyny is and tumblr choice feminism lied to you

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Her (2013)

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Notting hill

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I love saying “my brain went” instead of “I thought” because idk what’s going on up there sometimes I just live here

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“I don’t hate you, but i’m done investing my time in you.”

— (hatin)

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KNUCKLES UP | KNJ

pairing: underground boxer!namjoon x reader

synopsis: when reader's closest friend decides to go into underground boxing, they're hesitant about their friend's safety, but nonetheless will go and support their friend. on the night of her friend's fight, reader finds themself in the crowd, watching and grimacing at the blood that's pooled out onto the fighting rink, but that's not as important as attracting the eyes of notorious underground fighting and boxing gym owner, kim namjoon, who is quick to try and have the reader to himself.

warnings: violence, blood, vulgar language, smut, a bad bitch & big dick namjoon

notes: namjoon is my ultimate bias and i love him so much uwu! i love the idea of underground boxer namjoon, ugh, and i hope y'all like it, too! ( &&. the read more thingy isn't working for me atm, so sorry, babies ! )

when jungkook told you that he was going to start underground boxing, you were automatically opposing the idea

i mean, why wouldn't you??? it's illegal??? and he could possibly die from it???

his dumbass is probably like "i won't die if i win" headass

and you're hell-bent on supporting even with his reasons to pay tuition, which you understand but you'd rather support him becoming a stripper

so you could get a free lap dance from him

hell, he could get a sugar mommy/daddy, and you would wholeheartedly support

but no, not underground boxing where he could possibly get hurt

so, you never attended any of the matches or whatever they're called

you couldn't witness your friend getting beat up

you wanted to be the only person to beat him up and you're not anymore

two weeks go by and jungkook hasn't lost a game

he'd have a busted lip, some bruises, possibly a dislocated shoulder, but he never lost

so that gave you some courage to actually see him in action

and the moment you get to the abandoned building where it's being held, you immediately regret it

there's dried blood mixed with fresh blood covering the floor and it makes you gag

there's disgusting men staring you down and everyone's so fucking filthy that you squirmed tf up

jungkook has a bright smile on his face though, happy that you're there

he brings you to where all the boxers he ready and stuff and leaves you alone to do God knows what

and you're scared because the fighters are fucking bigger than you and they're terri-fucking-fying

you can only hold yourself to console that everything will be okay

and that's when namjoon notices you

knuckles bloody and sweating in the muscle tank that he's wearing

he looks so fucking good, but you don't know that yet as your back is turned to him

he's ogling you as you're standing like a little lost puppy and you begin biting your nails

"biting your nails is a bad habit"

his voice catches you by surprise because it's so deep

and fucking hot, whew

you jump in fright and it has him chuckling

"sorry, didn't mean to scare you"

you're not a quiet person, but he intimidates you so much -- despite the attraction you both feel for each other -- that you're cowering and blushing

"that's okay,,,"

there's a comfortable silence before he says anything

"who're you with?"

"oh, um, my friend, jungkook"

"oh, so that newbie, gguk... he's great for just starting out"

you smile a bit, but you're still scared for jungkook

"yeah, he is, i guess..."

he can tell that you're nervous

"don't worry, he's a strong kid"

someone approaches namjoon, telling him that he's up

he has to leave you, but is polite enough to tell you goodbye

and jungkook comes to you just as namjoon leaves, beaming about how he's up next

and fear just washes you completely because namjoon is so HUGE

and though jungkook is muscular, he isn't that big

your heart is practically racing at this point

but you still make your bets toward jungkook, having some faith

but jungkook lost

namjoon knocked him down cold, and you can't stop yourself from crying as you run to his body being dragged from the boxing ring and tend to him

"fuck, kook!" you curse, slapping his chest

you hear the deep, familiar chuckle of namjoon

"he's already been beat enough. he doesn't need you to beat him up either"

you're mad, mad at jungkook, mad at namjoon, mad at everything

so you don't say anything

and namjoon detects that you're upset but leaves you alone to tend to your friend

you start seeing more of namjoon as you continue to come to see jungkook and his fights

not more to support but to play nurse and make sure he isn't dead

however, you're ignoring namjoon because he beat up your best friend

why else???

and you understand that it's only their job, but you hate that he played friendly with you, beat up your friend, and continued playing friendly

so you keep on ignoring and ignoring him until he's fed up with your bullshit and practically man handles you

grabbing you and pulling you into him

"i gave you time to be mad, but that time's over. i'm talking to you and you better pay me some respect."

there's fear in your eyes, but also anger as you can't help but shout back

"and you're not making it better by putting your fucking hands on me."

pulling yourself away from him, you glare at him

"i get it. it's your job or whatever you want to call it, but i hate having to clean my friend up after he gets beaten or bruised. i can't just laugh and giggle with someone who beat up my friend like it was nothing."

"he beat up other people like it was nothing, so what's the difference?"

he has you speechless at that, so you just stomp away

you've been trying to avoid him from that point on

because that's what you're good at

hiding

but dumb bitch, jungkook wants to better his skills and what not and starts going to a boxing gym

which namjoon just so manages to own

you're stubborn to enter when you see him and jungkook basically had to drag you to get you to come in with him

you hesitantly watch namjoon who's teaching a bunch of little kids

and you find it cute for a moment, until you remember that his night job is beating people up to death

you can't wait to leave, but jungkook spends hours there

he even talks to namjoon as if it's nothing

then you start thinking if you're the one that's just being petty and annoying

so, you approach namjoon to apologize to your dismay

he's taking a break and when he sees you coming to him, he's a bit surprised

"i'd never thought you'd be the one approaching me"

you regret your choices instantly, but you're not turning your back

"don't make me regret coming to apologize"

"aw, you're apologizing to me? how cute?"

"nevermind"

"wait, no-" he grabs your arm, pulling you into his chest

your heart is racing at the close proximity of each other

he's smirking before asking "how much are you sorry?"

"really sorry?" it's more of a question

"can you prove it to me?"

he's leading you to the back, hidden from everyone else

and he's kissing you with so much force as he brutally pushes you down to his old couch

you can feel his hard cock against your clothed pussy and you're whimpering as he grabs onto your waist, pushing away the fabric against your body

he's groping your breasts, pulling your top and bra over your head

sucking at your nipples

"are you really sorry for hurting my feelings?"

"if i knew that hurting your feelings would mean getting fucked, then... no, not really."

when the two of you are naked and bare, namjoon's thrusting into very hard abd you have to hold onto him for support

"oh... oh my gosh. fuck!"

your moans are music to his ears as it only encourages to keep going

"shit, namjoon, im going to come!"

"cum, baby... cum all over my cock, like the filthy whore you are."

by the time you two finish, you're both weak and exhausted

especially you

you're surprised that jungkook hasn't come looking, but you're pretty sure that he knows where you are and what you're up to

you're covered in namjoon's cum, and you feel icky

"hold, lemme get you a towel"

turns out that namjoon is sweet af???

he treats you like a queen

and though you guys make it official after months and months of uncontrollable fucking, you find yourself feeling like a sugar baby by just the amount of how much namjoon spoils you

"but you're my baby, baby girl. daddy has to spoil his princess"

you don't complain though

even if you did, you couldn't stop it because namjoon is stubborn af

and you've gotten used to underground boxing now

but now you take care of two babies

grown men are so annoying when they're in pain lemme tell you

"y/nnn, baby!" namjoon would say

"y/n, it hurts!" jungkook would cry

it makes you proud that you're a woman and not so pathetic, lol

but you're constantly worrying about two people now and praying so constantly that neither of them will get any sever injuries

your prayers have been answered so far

great thing is that jungkook and namjoon agree not to ever fight each other again for your sake

namjoon also helps jungkook which is really cute

they're basically brothers now

jungkook wholeheartedly supports you two

however, your relationship with namjoon isn't the healthiest

he can get possessive, jealous, and his anger can get the best of him at moments

but you love him

and he loves you

but both too afraid to admit

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When a network cancels a TV show they should be required to give them a season’s notice so the writers can tie up loose plot threads and people who work on the show can find other work instead of just suddenly canceling shows between seasons in this essay I will