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I own a pawnshop.

I forgot to update about what happened.

The city council denied our request for zoning amendments. But we didn't give up.

We found a new place that was zoned for a pawnshop, got my business license, and a lease.

Right now renovations are going on and then we move in.

We should be open by July.

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Today is the day!

Other than day one of Hard 75, it's also the day that I find out if I'll be OWNING a pawnshop. It all gets determined today at a council meeting at 6pm EST.

I'm nervous and excited.

On the one hand, I want to own a pawnshop. I worked there for 13 years and it has some of my best and worst memories there. Then to buy the SAME pawnshop and actually own it myself?

There are a lot of things I miss about the pawnshop and then a lot of things I don't miss. And most of those things boil down to the people that come in. And what they brought in.

I miss seeing cool things and different jewelry. I don't miss when people brought in electronics full of cockroaches.

I miss the connections I made with different people from all walks of life. I don't miss being called a stupid or fat bitch.

But the other hand doesn't want to own the pawnshop. Not because of the insults and cockroaches, but because...it's going to be a LOT of work. lol. I'm kind of lazy, but mostly because I'm scared. I could ruin my life and bankrupt myself and my husband if I make the wrong decisions. Owning a business isn't a joke!

Also part of me feels like I don't deserve it after breaking my dad's heart. The plan was to hire him as a part-time employee and help him transition softly into retirement over the next couple of years. It would help him physically, mentally, and financially. But things happened and now if I get the pawnshop, I won't be able to hire him. I got his hopes up and then broke his heart. It broke my heart along the way.

To sum up what happened with my dad:

My dad was going to work on lawn equipment and things like that in the back building. There's a back storage building that holds tons of the stuff and it was a fairly profitable line of products that would sell. Used lawn equipment, shocking, I know. But the building was bought out by a guy named Parth and Parth wants the back building. I'd only be renting the front suite of the building for the pawnshop. He's giving me 2-3 months to clear out the back building and then after that, I can't really do lawn equipment like we used to because I won't have the room.

Now, I bet you're wondering, "Then why don't you have him do something else?" I would. If I could. But Jamey, my husband, is going to be working with me. Jewelry and loans are going to be our bread and butter. Three people doing the same thing when we aren't THAT busy waste resources and do nothing for the business but cut into the financials.

Jamey is expecting a certain financial situation once we own it. (If tonight goes as well.) And I can't make less than his expectations.

The business is profitable. It's a great business. But it's not THAT busy and THAT profitable to compensate my dad how he would need to be compensated if I lose lawn equipment.

This all breaks my heart, and I hate myself daily because of it.

So that's all the deets about the pawnshop and what's happening today. 6pm EST today, decisions will be made by city council that will determine how the rest of my life plays out.

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Day 1 of HARD 75.

I'll be posting my first picture later tonight. I want to clean my bathroom and mirror first. lol.

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Reblogging my personal post from my reblog blog.

Tumblr Premium is worth it just to get rid of all those lame fucking ads about games that are TOTALLY free and “don’t have ads.”

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Reblogging my personal post from my reblog blog.

I just learned about the magical world of proffees. Protein coffees. I’m gonna switch it up and make it with Huel, which has 20g of protein and is a meal replacement powder. So it’ll be a meal, it’ll be a coffee, and hopefully it’ll be delicious.

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Reblogging my personal post from my reblog blog.

I just spent $250-270 on 18 prints from https://www.yuumeiart.com and getting 18 frames off Temu.

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Reblogging my personal post from my reblog blog.

Some random facts about me.

I have two parents that are still together.

I have one older sister, one younger brother, and one younger sister.

My older sister, Crissy, has a boyfriend named Tim. She's 3 years, 3 hours, and 32 minutes older than me.

My younger brother, Jr, has a girlfriend named Kat, with whom he has 3 stepchildren and one child with. He's 1 year and 10 months younger than me. (I don't know the hours and minutes. I know I was born at 3:17am but I don't know what time he was born.)

My younger sister, Chels, has a boyfriend named Michael, who has a child with his ex-wife. She is 3 years, 8 months, and 28 days younger than me. (Again, don't know the hours because I don't know what time she was born.)

The only reason I know the hours and minutes of my older sister is because she was born the day before me, three years earlier. So I thought it was interesting to find out exactly what time she was born so I could calculate the age difference exactly. If I'd been born one minute later or her one minute earlier, we'd be 3 years, 3 hours, 33 minutes apart. She basically ruined it. I didn't. She's the one to blame. Of course.

I'm only describing lives and names because I might mention these people at times. I won't mention children's names though. Or last names. No, Jr and Kat have 4 kids. Kid 1, Kid 2, Kid 3, Kid 4. Chels and Michael don't have a kid but he has a kid from before he met my sister who will be Child 1.

I can't use fake names. I'll forget them. But I can protect the innocent lil childrens.

All my siblings are happy and in love with their significant others, most of the time. But I'm the only one that is married. Crissy doesn't believe in marriage, Jr has reasons to not be married that I'm not sure I understand, and Chels hopes to be married to Michael one day.

I don't quite understand why Jr won't get married since he literally has a child with his girlfriend and he helps raise her other three children (and they are officially my niece and nephews as well) but I guess it's his life and he'll do as he pleases.

Speaking of niece and nephews....Child 1 recently called me Aunt Cassie! First time he's ever done that. It was cute.

Also, I'm still searching for a pile of Goosebumps books I got in order to gift to Kid 3. But I cannot find them whatsoever. It's so depressing.

I hope to have my own kid one day. Just one though. Because being off my crazy meds to get pregnant is going to be a challenge. (I'm bipolar, btw.) But first I need to lose weight before I attempt that. I want to be a certain weight when I go to have a kid for health reasons. Each has their own beliefs with pregnancy and weight, but this is my personal preference.

One future kid with my husband (who I've been with for almost 11 years, married for 4 - we got married on our anniversary) to go along with our 4 cats. You heard that right. 4 cats.

I currently live with my father-in-law. Who is divorced from my mother-in-law but is still in a relationship with. I also have a sister-in-law, who is younger.

I'm getting all the technical details out of the way now. Ages, names, relationships. Cats.

I can name my cats. They're not-so-innocent. There's Jiji, Gibby, Grim, and Beaker. That's in order of oldest to youngest and they're all male. Jiji is 11, Gibby is 6, Grim is 4, and Beaker is 2. Rough estimate for their ages and assumed to be turning that age this year, depending on the time of year they were born.

Maybe eventually I'll post some photos of my boys. Besides the sidebar image from year 2006 (telling my age again), I'm not so sure if I'll be posting pics of myself. I am on a weight loss journey, so I might eventually do some before and afters.

I'm currently doing HARD 75. (Google it if you don't know what that is. Because I'm not explaining it.) Maybe I should post my daily progress pics here? Minus my face maybe. Hm. That's an idea.

Anyways! I've rattled off enough. I'm delaying writing because I just don't feel like it but I need a minimum of 3 chapters done before 7pm EST tonight.

Okay, fine. I'll go write.

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Reblogging my personal post from my reblog blog.

FINALLY.

I found a theme for my blog. It took me hours. I'm just that picky with themes. But I finally found my old blogs (I completely forgot the usernames, still missing one blog username though) and took the themes from them. I loved those themes and now it's mine again! Hahahaha.

Anyways. I'm here. I'm blogging again. Very nostalgic, very happy.

I don't know exactly what I'm going to blog about. Definitely reblog interesting things and then write some personal posts about...I guess me? I don't know. I don't know how personal I'm willing to get on the internet nowadays.

What prompted this return to the blogging era was because I found some very old LiveJournals of mine. And after reading some of the most cringe shit ever, I realized I missed the days when people blogged to inform each other about their lives, thoughts, and feelings. Now we just have Facebook and that's boring.

I miss blogging. I miss MySpace. I miss a whole lot of things from when I was a teen and a young adult. I'm giving away my age there a bit. Because no, I am no longer a young adult. At least in my eyes. I'm sure my parents would say otherwise.

Right now I should be writing my chapters for the two books I'm writing. And I say books but they're actually serial novels that get updated daily. I have a deadline (made by me) that the last updates will be on April 29, 2025. So then I can start my NEW book that is a 3-in-1 book series. (It's going to be like...450 chapters.)

Because that's what I do. I work in customer service during the day and at night I'm writing werewolf romance novels. Two faces, one name. Cassandra.

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Reblogging my personal post from my reblog blog.

I made a Tumblr again. I'm so excited to be back.