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Who am I?

Who am I?

I'm the fragments of the books I read,

Of pages ever so crooked, but print still fine.

Sometimes fantasy, sometimes non-fiction, And sometimes the disturbingly horrific genre, that keeps you up at night, clutching your sheets tightly to you heart, hoping that none of your vulnerability would seep through the fabric.

I'm the songs that I listen to,

Songs that you sometimes hate,

Songs that you sometimes love.

Songs that you pretend to hate for the sake of worldly approval.

Songs that you call stupid, but then cry listening to at night.

Songs that you would never even give a chance to.

I'm pieces of the Café that I often like to visit,

Only to drink hot chocolate, on a hot summer evening.

I'm places, where grass fails to grow,

damaged beyond repair.

I'm someone you desire me to be,

Almost but not quite.

I'm all the stars in the night sky,

That wishes to be seen,

Almost but not quite.

That makes no difference,

Nevertheless, ceases to exist,

Almost but not quite.

Who am I?

Maybe I'm no one,

But the memories that people often forget about,

Almost but not quite.

-Ananya Gupta

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“To write truthfully you must live, and you must feel what you are living.”

— Arturo Barea (via jamesgrantbrown)

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““I opened my mouth, almost said something. Almost. The rest of my life might have turned out differently if I had. But I didn’t.””

— Khaled Hosseini, The Kite Runner (via amargedom)

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“Two souls don’t find each other by simple accident.”

— Jorge Luis Borges

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Wholesome parenting

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:')

the happy ending he deserved

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Give me something - seafret

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When I say that I love you, I don't say it out of my habit. I say it because I want to remind you constantly that you're being loved, and that there's someone out there in this world who loves you more than you think you deserve to be loved.

When I say that I love you, I don't say it for something temporary. I say it because I want to grow old with you. I want to look at our old photographs and laugh at all the memories related to those, when our hairs are constantly graying.

When I say that I love you, I don't say it to show off. I say it because I don't want you to go to sleep, feeling unloved. I don't want you to cry in your sleep. I don't want you to be afraid that I might leave you someday.

When I say that I love you, I don't say it to flatter you. I say it to make you believe that your flaws and imperfections are what I crave for all the time. I say it to make you stop worrying about the mistakes that you made in your life, and to finally make you believe that I'm not going anywhere.

When I say that I love you, I don't say it because I'm blind in love. I say it because my vision in loving you is completely sound. I say it because every time you're doing something which is clumsy, it makes me squeeze your cheeks and pull you closer into my arms. I say because it's okay to be different, it's okay to have rough moments. It's okay to not be perfect. It's okay to not be like every other guy. Because you're beautiful in your own way. You're fucking beautiful. And I cannot imagine you being insecure about yourself, because you're fucking everything that I've ever loved. I say it because I don't want you to think that abs and muscles are what makes a guy desirable. It's who you are that I'm in love with, not your face. Not your body.

And when I say that I love you, I say it because I fucking mean it. And because I fucking love you, even in your hardest days when you don't feel like getting out of the bed or when you feel like you're going insane with the amount of pressure that your pasts put on you.

I love you and I'm always here. No matter what.

I love you.

-Ananya Gupta

(instagram: empty_screams)

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He finally showed up, wearing that white and gray t-shirt he wore that day when it was the last day I talked to him properly. It was the day when I knew I'm gonna have to let go, I'm gonna have to give up. It was the day when for the last time I smiled at him, genuinely and laughed like there's no tomorrow, like I knew I'm gonna have to cry for the rest of my life. But I did it anyway. The pictures we took at day are still one of my most favourite picture, which I don’t like to look at anymore.

I looked at him today, entering into the class. There was a place to sit beside me, where he used to sit. It was as fixed as the way the sun rises every morning. He sat down across from me. I tried to avoid his eyes but once again those caught my own. We gazed at each other. He almost smiled. I kinda waved at him. I looked down, trying to hide every broken piece of my heart and the way it hurt my rib cage, trying to set free. I looked up once again and there he was, still staring at me. The funniest thing happens, when you think you've finally gotten over someone and it doesn’t matter; but the moment you see them, all of a sudden you're like ‘Bloody hell! You know what? Fuck everyone and fuck everything! There's no one in this world I'd rather give a shit about than him’. But that’s what your insides say. From outside you can't even form a word, let alone get a damn sentence out of your mouth. Sometimes I wonder, if it isn’t meant to be, then why do we even act so weird? Why can't we be like any normal person? Why do there always have to be some kind of awkwardness between us? I bet it wouldn't even matter, 10 years from now. Or maybe it will be the same. Till then, let's just say that once again I'm injured. Injured from the way that moment hit me like a giant truck. Once again, my heart is limp and my brain cannot make it breathe. Here I am once again, recalling the moment when I first met him. His first smile and first hug.

-Ananya Gupta

(instagram: empty_screams)

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There is a difference between saying goodbye and letting go. Goodbye is not permanent. You can meet years later as old friends and share what happened in your life. You can smile and laugh about all the nonsense that you both went through. However, letting go is being okay with never seeing this person ever again…being okay with never knowing how their life turned out…being okay with fifty or more years of silence… being okay with running into that person at a grocery store and having them not acknowledge your presence. This is the part of life that doesn’t sit well with me and never will. It tears my heart in pieces, robs me of gratitude, drains me of anything positive and eats at the faith that holds on. It goes against kindness.

Shannon L. Alder (via sad-plath)

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“So open up your heart, help me understand, please tell me who you are so I can show you who I am”.

“Stop Standing There” - Avril Lavigne (via quelsognochetiavevodetto)

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— How are you? — Living.

Harry Potter. (via terrible)

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And its the fucking truth about life.

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In order to move on, you must understand why you felt what you did and why you no longer need to feel it.

Mitch Albom,

Five People You Meet In Heaven

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