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Hidden Away Chapter 10

Chapter Ten:

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Readers POV

“What happened? Why does she look even more distraught then when she left?” I heard Professor Snape ask. Oh god. Not only is this awkward and I already feel awful, it’s clear as day that something happened. I don’t know why I thought any of this was a good idea. Oh, I know why. I didn’t have anywhere to go. That’s why.

“Nothing important Severus. She is fine. Narcissa may have gotten through a little to her. That’s all.” I heard Lucius say and my eyes widened a little. He isn’t going to mention what he walked in on? Or rather what he could have been walking in on? I know he might say it was okay but, it’s not. I don’t know what is going on with me. I just- I just wanted to feel wanted and that-that made me feel like I was. It doesn’t help that it felt good. Her lips were soft. Her hand was soft too. Stop thinking about it. It won’t happen again. I can’t and won’t let that happen again. No matter if I want it to happen again. This. It’s crazy to wish he hadn’t walked in, isn’t it? Is it absolutely absurd to wish that she had kissed me? To want to feel her soft lips on mine.

“Well, what happened?” Professor Snape asked.

“I am not sure. I know I walked in and saw Narcissa hugging her and the room was rather somber.” I heard Lucius Malfoy say and I was officially confused. He was telling the truth yes but, he was only telling a half-truth.

“Well, I can imagine that would mean she has opened up to her. Perhaps that means Narcissa will tell you why she tried to take her own life. If that was shared that is.”  Professor Snape said and I felt my heart sink a little. Was Narcissa only gathering information on me? Was any of this genuine? Did this really matter to her? Was I really ever wanted even for a moment? I had to have been, right? I don’t know anymore.

“Let what her and Narcissa talked about stay between them. If she is opening up to Narcissa it means that she is finding comfort in her. If it eases whatever she is feeling that led her to attempt to end her own life, then what she needs right now is someone to lean on Severus. Let’s not take that from her. This is a big change. She is surrounded by magic, and she isn’t used to being allowed to use it. She hasn’t been around people who encouraged it. That is just the stuff that she has willingly shared with us all. Let her and Narcissa build the friendship she needs. We can worry about building one with her later.” I heard Lucius Malfoy say and I felt myself let out a shaky breath that I was unaware I was holding.

“Very well. Then we all should be trying to get her to trust us sooner or later but, for now, she can lean on Narcissa.” Professor Snape said and I laid down on the bed and rubbed my face. This is crazy.

NARCISSA’S POV:

I can’t help but touch my lips with my fingertips. Her skin was smooth. It was sweet. I can still taste her skin on my lips. The peony smell grew stronger near her hair. Her hair was soft. She was soft. There is something about her that made her so luring. She trusts me. She started to trust me, but I couldn’t help myself. I was right there. She was so tempting. I knew better than to do that, but I don’t regret it. Her shoulder. The goosebumps that rose on her skin as I placed the kiss on her shoulder. Her little stutter and tremble in her voice. It was all too consuming. I heard a small crack, and I realized that Lucius had come home.

“Do you want to tell me what I walked in on exactly?” Lucius said with a smug smile.

“She opened up to me Lucius.” I said confidently. “I can tell you she didn’t tell me everything but, I know the reason she tried to end her life. They broke her spirit over there. Her family. They were terrible to her. They made her feel unwanted, unloved, they didn’t care for her and they made her feel like a burden. She feels like she is still burdening people here.” I said feeling sad for my new friend.

“She is not a burden here. You are right about that. Well now she is here away from them and here with the five of us, we will do our best to make sure she does not feel that way. Now about what I walked in on.” Lucius said and smiled at me.

“What about it?” I asked.

“Tell me. What did it feel like? What happened?” Lucius started to pry and sit next to me on the bed.

“She was soft. Her scent, it’s intoxicating Lucius. I just couldn’t help myself. I was hugging her and consoling her and the next thing I know I moved her hair to try and ease some of the peony smell. The smell that I apparently just love. Then I-I kissed her neck. I kept kissing her neck. Then I moved to her shoulder. All of her skin is soft. I ran my hand down her chest and rested it on her waist. She just-I just wanted to keep going. I was getting greedy. I don’t think anyone has ever touched her Lucius. It’s intoxicating. She is intoxicating.” I admitted and laid my head on my husband’s lap.

“Her skin is soft?” Lucius asked, amused by my revelation and started to stroke my hair and I nodded.

“Yes.” I said letting myself enjoy his touch. His finger dug a little into my hair a little bit pulling a small moan from me.

“You got to taste her. In a way we all want to Narcissa. I won’t lie. It was rather alluring to see you gripping onto her tightly to keep her pulled to you. To see you placing a kiss on her. I didn’t realize just how much it would turn me on.” Lucius said and his grip on my head tightened a little.

“Lucius. This feels…it feels good.” I moaned a little at his roughness with his grip on my head. He raked his fingers over my scalp pulling another moan from me.

“Tell me. Is it me you want right now? Or is it her?” Lucius asked.

“Both.” I said thinking about what could have happened.

“Is that the truth?” Lucius said and I bit my bottom lip.

“No. I want her. I want to watch her. To feel her. To taste her more.” I admitted and I felt his grip on my hair as he pulled my face up to his. He pushed his lips against mine and kissed me passionately. I felt his grip tighten on me once again and I moaned at the feeling.

“Then let me take care of you while you think of her Cissy.” Lucius whispered into my ear. A small gasp left my lips as he pushed me onto my back and started to kiss my neck.

“Lucius. You are making this incredibly difficult to enjoy myself with my clothes still on.” I joked.

“You are impatient darling.” Lucius mumbled against the skin on my neck. His hands reached for the buttons on my blouse and started to undo them. He was moving painfully slow but, my mind was focused on the small sounds she made when I kissed her skin. The skin that had risen. I felt his fingertips finally reach the skin on my stomach as he pushed my shirt open, and I pulled my arms free throwing it to the side. His fingers brushed over my stomach for a moment before reaching for the waistband of my pants. His fingers hooked onto the waistband of my pants and my underwear and slid them over my legs down to my ankles and pulled my shoes off. He finished pulling my pants and underwear off and slowly dragged his fingertips up my thighs.

“Tell me Cissy. What else were you hoping to do to her? How far were you going to go?” Lucius asked me and I blushed.

“I want to really taste her. I want to see what her lips taste like. I didn’t get to kiss her.” I admitted as he kissed his way down my stomach.

“Is there more you want to do to her Cissy?” Lucius continued to fill my head with his questions, and they became far less innocent.

“I want to taste all of her. I want to know if she is sweet between her legs too.” I admitted quietly, blushing faintly.  I felt Lucius lick through my pussy lips and a moan fell from my lips.

“Keep thinking about what she might taste like Cissy.” Lucius mumbled against my skin before licking my clit and sucking it into his mouth pulling another moan from me. The thought of doing this very thing to y/n took over my mind. The feeling of Lucius tongue on my clit and sucking it sent my mind into a tailspin of thoughts of making her feel the same way. Pulling her clit into my mouth and tasting her the way he is tasting me. The thought alone pushed my right to the edge of an orgasm and as Lucius licked a long strip from my opening to my clit I felt the orgasm rush through me.

“Lucius.” I moaned as I felt myself trying to come back down from the high of the orgasm I had. I heard his moan before he kissed up my skin.

“Get rest Cissy.” Lucius said settling behind me.

“What about your needs Lucius?” I asked quietly.

“I can handle them for tonight, Cissy. It’s alright.” Lucius said and even though I felt the pang of guilt I managed to fall asleep in his arms with y/n on my mind.

READERS POV

I don’t know why I feel the way I am. I can’t get the thought of how her lips felt on my skin off my mind. I want to feel more. I-I want to feel hers on mine. I’m so confused. I don’t know why I am feeling this way but, I think-no-I know I liked how I felt. I still like how I feel.

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Hidden Away Chapter 9

Chapter Nine:

Readers POV

I heard a light knock on the door that pulled me out of my sleep. When I opened my eyes I looked around the room and the more I take in the surroundings I was realizing that none of this was a dream. I was in the second room inside of Professor Snape’s chambers. I was someone’s job because I survived taking my life once again. Myrtle had found someone in time to save me and now I was stuck here. In a room where I can’t do anything to myself because no one will leave me alone long enough to even try. I heard the knock again and I moved off the bed slowly and to the door. I don’t think I could manage being in his company right now.

“Y/N, it’s me Narcissa.” I heard her voice through the door and I felt myself get a little confused as to why she was here. I opened the door and came face to face with Narcissa and my god does she always have to look like that? The beauty? The hair honestly is helping greatly. It frames her in such a stunning way. The white that frames her face. The black contrasts to her pale features. Just stunning.

“Hello.” I said taking in her features slowly.

“Perhaps you would like to get out for the day. Give yourself a break from school before you are to start proper lessons?” Narcissa asked and I lightly nodded my head.

“Okay. Yeah, I think I would like that.” I said and looked at her. Something about her is luring. Her eyes are beautiful too. Does she have any flaws? I don’t see any but, that doesn’t mean she doesn’t have any somewhere.

“Why don’t we go to the shops. We can busy our time and then perhaps you will let me treat you to some lunch.” Narcissa said and I nodded again.

“I would like that.” I said and followed her out of the room to be greeted by Professor Snape.

“Have a good day miss y/n.” Professor Snape said, and I felt my head slightly nod.

“You as well sir.” I mumbled as Narcissa guided me out of the room and walked me out of Hogwarts. Thankfully she isn’t trying to apparate us. It seems like she would rather be on foot, which I appreciate because apparating makes me feel rather sick.

“How are you liking it here?” Narcissa asked.

“It’s all so new. I can’t quite grasp that this isn’t a dream yet. I-“ I felt myself having to stop thinking I was starting to talk to much.

“Go on. It’s alright. I want to listen.” Narcissa encouraged me and I took in a shaky breathe.

“I am just not used to seeing people use magic or rather how frequently it is being used. It’s all new to me. I didn’t realize it was okay to use magic.” I mumbled a little, becoming shy once again.

“We encourage the use of magic here as long as it is controlled and not out of malice. There are still people who take advantage of it. Use it for power and a lot of people follow someone because of how they choose to use their magic.” Narcissa said with a slight smile.

“And that person, you said they use it for the purpose of power? People just willingly follow someone for that reason?” I asked a little confused.

“Yes. The person has used their magic as a way to gain power and control. Here we call him Voldemort and that’s if you dare to speak his name. His followers call him their dark lord. He has many names but, he does not use his magic for good.” Narcissa said and I took in her words carefully.

“There is a way to use magic negatively?” I asked. I know I sound a bit naïve but, I don’t understand why someone would want to use their magic in a negative way.

“Yes. Where there is good in magic there is also bad. You can’t have one without the other.” Narcissa said and I nodded.

“I guess that would make it a balancing act, wouldn’t it?” I said rhetorically.

“Exactly but, that being said it also plays into a part in how people live their lives. If they are good people, then it causes you to wonder what bad they have been through. Has this person been hurt? Wounded? Scarred? Tortured? Belittled? It makes you look at people differently.” Narcissa said and I nodded a bit realizing that she was trying to make a point and I started to wonder what this day was really about as we continued to walk to HogsMeade.

“Do you always question what a person has gone through? Or is this a new thing? What about the one’s who are rude and spiteful when you look at them?” I asked her trying to keep the conversation going and redirect it to avoid any questions about myself.

“The one’s who are spiteful and rude also have gone through something terrible but, they have coped with it and decided to repeat their cycle. They may be hurting but they are okay with themselves hurting and then hurting others. They are wounded but they like the feeling. I constantly look at others and wonder what their stories might be. It is not a new thing but, I do wonder what a beautiful girl like you has been through when you are not only nice but, incredibly shy. I know that you weren’t allowed to practice magic. I just want to understand why and how you never sought out others like you.” Narcissa said and I felt myself come to a stop just outside of HogsMeade trying to find the stability and strength to keep walking towards the town. After a moment of fighting back the tears I managed to right myself and started to walk with her again.

“I- I am not ready to talk about it. I don’t want to trouble anyone. I’m sorry.” I mumbled to her, and I saw the sadness in her eyes.

“I want to be here for you y/n. Please let me be the friend you need. I want to be here for you and help if I can. No one else will ever know I promise.” Narcissa said and I felt myself longing to trust someone and to just let it all out. I looked at her and felt myself breaking a little. The guard I have built to protect myself was quickly folding.

“I don’t want to burden you like I have my family.” I mumbled and looked towards the ground fighting the tears that were threatening to spill from me once again.

“You are not a burden to me y/n. Please lean on me. I know you hardly know me but that can change. Let me be there for you. I won’t say anything to anyone.” Narcissa said and I felt her fingers brush under my jawline and moved my face to look at her.

“Let me in y/n. Let me help please.” Narcissa said and I felt a few tears roll down my cheeks and I felt her fingers brush them away.

“I” I started but, felt some sobs threatening to come out. I took a deep breath. “I don’t want to do this here. Not where people can see me breaking.” I whispered to her and she hugged onto me and I felt my stomach begin to flip as she held onto me tightly and apparated us to what I believe is her home.

“Then tell me here. You are safe here. You can let yourself break here. It’s just us. I will be here to help you.” Narcissa encouraged and I looked at her face and slowly nodded.

“I don’t know how to trust people. I don’t know who I can trust. I have grown up a burden on everyone. My mom and dad. They-“ I stopped to take a deep breath to try and keep myself from breaking down. “They hated me. I was their burden. My sisters. They hated me. I ruined their friendships because my parents didn’t let them come over because they wanted everyone to forget about my existence. I said as the tears started to fall. I felt Narcissa start to rub my back.

“You are not a burden here y/n. You will never be a burden here.” Narcissa said trying to console me.

“It’s hard to believe I am not. It’s all I grew up being. I don’t know how to feel any other way. I was unwanted. I was unloved. I wasn’t allowed to make friends. I was not allowed around my siblings after so long because they wanted to encourage the magic but, then my parents. They separated us and started telling them I was bad. That it was an act of hate. That I would be damned and to not talk to me because it was only going to cause them trouble and to not be loved by God. They were quick to leave me behind. They didn’t care about me all of a sudden. Eventually they all forgot me.” I said leaving out the brutal parts of what had happened to me. No one ever needs to be burdened with my story. They don’t need to know what all happened. They will never find out. They should never find out. I will take that to my grave to keep that to myself.

“You don’t have to worry about them here. You will be loved and cared for here. You are not a burden here y/n. I promise you are not.” Narcissa said and I rested my head on her shoulder as she held onto me and some tears fell because I knew better than to just open up to someone, I just met but, I needed to let some of it out. I needed someone to know this is part of the reason I was hurting. I needed to feel a little release as to why I was unable to deal with being here.

“I may not have to worry about them here but, I have to worry about being a failure here. I don’t want to be someone who is just a waste of everyone’s time and effort. The four of them. They are already having to spend their extra time teaching me. It’s why I haven’t really slept. I didn’t want to take up anymore of their time. I wanted them to be rid of the burden of me. I don’t want to fail anyone else.” I admitted quietly and her grip onto me tightened.

“You are not a burden. You are not going to fail anyone. Its going to be okay y/n. We are here for you. I know you have impressed the four of them with how quickly you have caught up with the others but, you need to still rest.” Narcissa said and started to slowly stroke my hair and I closed my eyes for a moment. Is this what it’s like to be cared for by someone?

“I don’t want to be failure to people here too.” I admitted quietly and she pushed me off and caressed my face in her hands and looked at me.

“You are not going to be a failure to anyone here. Even the slowest learners here are still loved and cared for by someone. You will not be a failure to anyone here.” She looked over my face and wiped a few stray tears. “Please tell me this is not why you tried to take your life.” Narcissa said and I looked at her with my saddened eyes.

“It’s too hard to be a burden.” I said quietly and she looked at me with her eyes growing sadder. “Please, don’t be sad.” I said to her, and she shook her head.

“You are broken dear. They broke your spirit, and I know you will find it alright? We will be sure of it.” Narcissa said and I saw her eyes roaming over my face. I felt myself flush a little as she looked me over. What is she thinking right now? Is this pity? What is she thinking? I felt her hands rake through my hair before she pulled me in for another hug.

“I don’t want to be broken. I don’t want to be a burden.” I whispered into her shoulder as she hugged me. I felt her stroking my hair again.

“You are not a burden here. Far from it.” She tried to reassure me and I hugged onto her tighter. I don’t know what it is about her but she is making me feel a bit more comfortable. I felt her lips press against my temple and I felt myself blush a little but, I didn’t say anything.

“You are safe here y/n. Lucius and I will protect you. All of us will.” She said trying to find another way to comfort me but, I was starting to feel something else stir inside me and I felt the urge to pull away. I have longed to feel wanted and right now I am feeling like I am. This terrifies me more than being a burden does.

“Narcissa.” I whispered, trying to pull away and her grip tightened.

“What is it?” She asked me as she ran her hand over my back lightly.

“I need you to let me go. I- I don’t know if this…this was a good idea.” I mumbled against her skin.

“It was a good idea y/n. Letting someone in is always a good idea.” She whispered to me, and I felt her pull my hair to the opposite side of where her head was resting on my shoulder. Her breath hit my neck and I felt myself grow a bit flustered by the sudden sensation on my neck.

“I” I paused as she held me tighter and buried her head into my neck and closed her eyes trying to comfort me and I felt another part of me wake up at the unfamiliar touch.

“It’s okay. I am right here.” She said and I felt my hands grip her tighter.

“That’s” My breathe hitched a little. “That’s the problem right now. It feels.” I paused for a moment. “Different.” I whispered as a blush rested on my cheek and I felt her lips twitch into a smile as she rested on me.

“It’s okay.” She whispered against my skin, and I felt her right hand rest on the left side of my neck as she pulled herself closer to the right side of it and placed the faintest kiss on it and my blush deepened.

“What are you doing?” I whispered.

“Showing you that you are wanting.” She whispered placing another small kiss to my neck and my eyes closed slightly as a need started to stir.

“Is this- Is this how you show people they are wanted?” I whispered, feeling my breathe becoming shaky.

“It’s how I show it.” Narcissa said placing another kiss on my neck and my grip got tighter on her.

“Narcissa. You” I stuttered a little. “You have no idea what this is doing to me.” I admitted above a whisper.

“Let me show you that you are wanted y/n.” Narcissa said pulling my sleeve slowly and exposing my shoulder a little bit and placed a kiss to it. I didn’t make any move to stop her. I didn’t hide that this was becoming something that I wanted. I was starting to feel the heat building up inside me. Her right hand fell from the left side of her neck and gently slide down the front of my chest causing a small patch of goosebumps to rise on my skin.

“Narcissa, what are you doing home?” I heard Lucius voice and I shied away and started to pull away from Narcissa who gripped onto me and pulled me back into her.

“Don’t move y/n. It’s okay.” She whispered into my neck, and I looked like a deer in headlights at her words as Lucius stared at me.

“What- I don’t- I’m sorry. Maybe I should go?” I asked quickly and Lucius shook his head and Narcissa gripped onto me.

“No, that’s alright. She can do what she wants. I just wasn’t expecting you two to be here is all.” Lucius said and I was getting more flustered by the minute.

“I don’t- I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to.” I said. My words came out rushed as I finally managed to get out of Narcissa’s grasp and pulled away.

“It’s alright. Calm down. It is okay.” Lucius tried to assure me but, I felt awful and like I had don’t something wrong.

“How do I get back to Hogwarts?” I asked hesitantly and Narcissa’s eyes dropped a little at my question and I started to feel guilty for wanting to leave but, I also felt like I was in an uncomfortable situation.

“I can take you if that is really what you want but, I assure you there is nothing wrong with what was happening.” Lucius said and I nodded.

“Please take me back.” I whispered giving Narcissa and apologetic look. Lucius held his arm out and I held onto it and he apparated us back into Professor Snape’s chamber and I quickly went and hid myself away in the room he was letting me stay in. I didn’t realize that I had walked past Professor Snape who approached Lucius right away. I laid on the bed unsure of the way I was feeling. I liked how it felt when she was kissing my neck and shoulder. She was making it feel like it was alright to be touched like that. I actually believed I was wanted for a moment. I can’t let myself get that close again. I can’t do that to myself. What is happening to me? I haven’t been here that long. It doesn’t feel like I have been here that long. I have to hide everything. I have to figure out how to hide what is under my clothes. I can’t risk that. I can’t risk having to explain everything.

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Hidden Away Chapter Eight

~Newest Addition. This is also posted to AO3~

READERS POV 

It’s just his job. He will never care for me. I won't do that to him. I am always just going to be the burden that drags people down. What is the point to any of this? Why did they have to find me? Why did Myrtle go and find someone? Why couldn’t she just let me go? Why couldn’t she just not interfere? Now I am here making someone care for me on their free days off. I am just a burden anywhere I go.  

I heard some movement coming from the other room and it sounded like the downfall of water. Right. Professor Snape is probably cleaning himself. He probably wants to go to bed.I want to fall back asleep but what my family has done to me is at the forefront of my mind. I can’t do that to myself. It will just cause the night terrors to come back again. When did Professor Snape come back in? He was hugging onto me. I might have already had a night terror. I guess I should have asked him but, he was, well he was trying to ask about me. He was using my moment of weakness to try and find out about me. That sneaky bastard. I can’t say I blame him but...  

I got pulled out of my thoughts when I head a knock on the door and I moved to open it and I saw Sirius Black and Professor Lupin standing there.  

“Uh, hello?” I said looking at the two of them.  

“Hello y/n” Professor Lupin Said.  

“We were wanting to know if you would like to get some fresh air and walk around with us for a little bit?” Sirius Black asked and I nodded.  

“Yes please.” I said and closed the door behind me.  

“Should I tell Professor Snape?” I asked.  

“We will take care of that. Come on. Let’s get you some fresh air.” Sirius Black said and offered his arm to walk alongside and I hesitantly looped my arm in his.   “Are you alright? You look like you are uncomfortable and upset.” Professor Lupin asked me.  

“Just a bad dream.” I said downplaying what had happened.  

“Do you want to talk about it?” Professor Lupin asked and I shook my head no.   “You know if you are going through something it is better to lean on someone. If you are having a bad dream it’s normally something we are struggling with internally.” Professor Lupin said looking at me and I knew what the two were getting at.  

“I’m not ready to talk about it. I don’t think I will ever really be ready to talk about it.” I admitted quietly.  

“Is it something we can help with?” Sirius Black asked, and I shook my head no.  

“I don’t believe so. Not really.” I said hesitantly.  

“When you are ready to talk about it” Professor Lupin paused and looked at me for a moment. “We are here for you” Professor Lupin said as we continued to walk around before they started to walk me back to Professor Snape’s Chambers.  

“Are you comfortable here with Professor Snape?” Sirius Black asked, and I nodded feeling a bit confused. 

“Yes, I am comfortable. Why?” I asked slightly concerned with the question.  

“Nothing we are just trying to make sure that you are alright. We want you to be comfortable.” Sirius Black said, and I nodded as we stepped in front of Professor Snape’s private chambers, and they walked me into it and walked me to the door of the room I was staying in under his supervision.  

“Where the hell were you? I was looking everywhere for you y/n! Oh that’s just grand! Next time you two want to take y/n for a stroll, tell me! You all had me worried senseless!” Professor Snape yell and I mumbled a quick apology before slipping into the room. I laid on the bed inside the room and silently promised myself that I wouldn’t leave the room unless I was forced to. I don’t want to be a problem for anyone at all. It wasn’t too long after I laid down that I managed to fall asleep. 

SEVERUS SNAPES POV 

“What were you two thinking? You could have told me. I went looking for her! I didn't know if something had happened to her!” I yelled at Lupin and Sirius.  

“Severus, she needed to breathe. A breath of fresh air did her well and you know that. What happened? Why did she look like she had been crying?” Professor Lupin asked. 

“She had a night terror. She woke up yelling and screaming, begging for something to stop she even looked terrified.” I said and both Sirius and Remus looked as troubled as I felt. 

“Did she say what happened in her dreams?” Sirius asked.  

“No, she closed off. I might have said something wrong because she closed off quickly and shut me out” I said.  

“What did you say?” Professor Lupin asked.  

“I said it was my job to be here for her.” I said. Sirius scoffed. 

“Idiot.” Sirius said and I scowled.  

“I was just saying I wanted to be there for her and that it was my job to be.” I defended myself.  

“Whereas, yes that is the truth. She doesn’t need it to be your job to do it. She needs a confidante and its not likely she will find one in all of us if at all any of us if she thinks it’s out of obligation.” Remus said and I rolled my eyes knowing he was right.  

“Well, I can’t undo what was said but, if we want anyone to be able to get through to her maybe we should ask for Narcissa’s help. She did say they got along.” I said.  

“I don’t like the thought of including Lucius and Narcissa but, if we must then we will.” Sirius said and I watched as the two sent off for them.”  

NARCISSA MALFOYS POV 

I heard a knock at the manor door as Lucius and I were starting to get rather distracted with one another and then another knock followed, this time on our bedroom door. 

“Sir Malfoy and Madam Malfoy, Remus Lupin and Sirius Black are asking to speak to you on an urgent matter” Our house elf Dobby said through the door.  

“They can wait until we are done.” Lucius called out. 

“No, we can't. It’s about y/n.” Sirius Black called out and I looked to Lucius and got off his lap. I pulled my robe on and moved out worried about our new friend.  

“What's going on?” I asked. I heard Lucius groan in frustration, but I didn't care. We can finish later.  

“She woke up with night terrors and Snape said she was begging for something to stop, but he said some unwise words and she shut down before telling him anything.” Remus Lupin said. 

“What unwise words?” I asked as Lucius joined my side.  

“He said that he was there for her, but it was because it was his job to be.” Sirius Black said. I felt a small understanding at his poor choice of words. He has never been good at being there for people, but at least he was trying. 

“Oh, he didn't mean it how it came out. He doesn't know how to be there for people. Not really, at least. At least he was trying.” I said trying to defend Severus. 

“Cissy, his words could be affecting her internally. More than you think. She's already hurting clearly. What is it you two need from us?” Lucius asked Sirius and Remus. 

“We remembered Narcissa said y/n and her got along. We were thinking maybe you could spend some time with her. Try and get to know her, get her to open up in some way.” Remus said looking at me.  

“I would love to do that. I can go first thing in the morning. Perhaps she might want to stay here” I said looking at Sirius, Remus and Lucius.  

“If she wants that then we think that would be a good idea. She needs to feel comfortable enough to open up to you. We really are starting to have a bad feeling that something terrible has happened to her and we need to know how to help her." Remus said and I nodded.  

“Yes well, I will do what I can, I will be there first thing in the morning to get her. I will take her out for the day.” I said and they nodded and left the manor.  

“Now we were in the middle of something.” Lucius said. I gave him a small smile.  

“Sorry darling, I can't. I'm now a bit worried about her and I can't get the worry out of my head and that is not fair to you.” I said looking at Lucius and he started to pout.  

“But Cissy put her on the back of your mind for now. We were just getting to the good part.” Lucius said and moved closer to me. I smiled at his attempt to get me all riled up again. 

“This isn't fair to you. I hope you know she's starting to be at the forefront of my mind. I get to spend all day with her tomorrow, and you know that we all smelled her in the potion.” I started to say, but Lucius started to kiss my neck and small satisfied hum came out of my mouth.  

“Lucius I'm serious. I know you said it was fine but I'm worried about her. She needs me to be there for her and this, you kissing me while she is in my mind, that is not helping.” I said as he places on my collarbone, nipping at the skin.  

“Narcissa-Cissy. Worry about it tomorrow love. Let me take care of your needs tonight. Think about her if you need to but you haven't needed to think about anyone else before.” Lucius said as he continued to work over me.  

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Hidden Away Chapter Seven

~Again I apologize. This was posted on AO3 for awhile~

Sirius Black POV:   

It wasn’t long before I made my way out of the room and into the great hall. The feast in front of everyone looked delightful but, my mind was on y/n. I looked all throughout the Slytherin table but, I didn’t see her. Where is she?  

“Are you looking for y/n?” Harry brought me out of my thoughts.   

“Yes, do you know where she might have gone?” I asked him.  

“Hermione saw her go into moaning Mertle’s bathroom.” He said and I laughed a little. Is she finding comfort in that girl? What could the two of them have in common?  

“Thank you. I would like to talk to you later.” I said to him, and he smiled and walked away. I turned around and bumped into Remus as I walked out of the great hall.  

“Where are you off to?” Remus asked.   

“I am going to find the girl.” I said and smiled and walked away from him. I felt an extra bounce in my step walking away from him. I made it to the bathroom in time and saw a random Hufflepuff girl and brought her aside.   

“Do you mind going in there and asking y/n to come out?” I asked the girl, and she nodded. She looked terrified but, within just moments of her going in she ran out screaming. Mertle must be at her tactics again.  

“Come quick she needs help.” I heard the whining voice say before the door closed and I stepped into the girl's washroom. I looked around but, did not see her. Where is she?  

“Back here. I think she went too deep.” The whining voice said, and I followed her to the farthest stall and that when I caught the glimpse of the blood on the floor and y/n in the middle of it. Her arm was completely marked from top to bottom with a long cut. What was she thinking? I hooked my arms under her and lifted her up. I carried her out of the bathroom and into the hall and that is when Remus bumped into me almost causing me to drop her.  

“What the hell happened?” He asked. Not too far behind him Severus came into view and so did Professor McGonagall.   

“Gentlemen what happened here?” She asked and then when she saw who was in my arms she gasped lightly.   

“Oh deary. What has happened here?” She asked. The Hufflepuff girl came into view and then the three students came into view and Granger put her head on Weasleys shoulder. Harry just stared at her with his mouth open.   

“I found her like that. He wanted me to ask her into the hallway to talk. I went in and Mertle was sobbing. I was going to run away when I saw her but, Mertle yelled at me to get help.” The Hufflepuff said.   

“Mertle was at the door and told me she needed help. I went in and found her in a pool of her own blood. I don’t understand what happened or why she felt the need to do it but, you can tell this is not the first time she has done this.” I said. She has markings everywhere.  

“Get her to the infirmary now. She needs to get help immediately.” McGonagall said. I felt someone grab onto her and pull her out of my arms. It was Severus and within a blink of an eye the two were gone.   

I want to yell at him for doing that but, I can only imagine why he is did that. Well then two can play the game. I snapped my fingers and I apparated to the infirmary. I was just moments behind his arrival because he was informing the nurse of what had happened, and the woman cooed towards her. Surely it is best she isn’t awake to see that. It would be degrading or even possibly a way to mock or taunt the girl. Even if that wasn’t what she was trying to do.  

“Severus have you noticed the marks in the past?” Madam Pomfrey asked him, and he shook his head no.  

“My wife and I noticed them the other day but, we didn’t want to confront her about it in case it upset her further.” I heard Lucius say and I felt my face heat up. I am beyond frustrated that he wouldn’t tell the rest of us what the two have discovered.  

“So, you believe she did this to herself?” Remus said and I looked to him and stood by his side.  

“I do. Poor thing is going through a lot of changes. I hate to say it but a couple of us expected it. Has she mentioned anything to anyone about her home life?” Madam Pomfrey and everyone shook their head no. That was until Albus came into the room.   

“Give her some privacy. I would like to speak with her when she wakes up. Privately that is.” Albus Dumbledore said, and we made our way out of the infirmary.  

“How could you not mention this to anyone?” I asked Lucius.   

“I did. I told you all to keep an eye out. It is not my fault that you cannot remember a simple conversation between us.” Lucius said and I felt myself want to lunge forward to smack him around, but I stopped myself. I felt Remus’s hand grab me and it further calmed me down.  

“I have been rather distracted by some things.” I said and looked at him with anger in my eyes. I have focused on her since she got here. However, I have had my attention directed towards Harry and his friends as well. I can understand as to why I have not remembered this detail of the conversation we had.   

“She needs to be watched. Not by Pomfrey. She needs to be able to aid the other kids when or if they get hurt.” I said and looked to the others.   

“Are you suggesting that Pomfrey can’t handle the students when there are more than one in here?” Lucius asked.   

“I am saying this requires a lot more attention than she can give if there are other injured kids in here.” I said snapping a little at him. He is sure pretending like he does not like this idea.   

“Narcissa and I will take her in and keep an eye on her the next few days. We have nothing to do at the moment. That way she can still learn as well. Everyone can just meet at my place to assist her as well.” Lucius said and I felt odd at how he was quick to offer without asking his wife first. It is a little alarming but, I also understand that Narcissa had smelled y/n’s scent with the amortentia potion. It is probably in the best interest she stays where not only do everyone have access to her in order to help her but, somewhere she can feel safe. It would need to be somewhere even the headmaster knows and has access to.   

“Everyone knows of my family's place. The place I grew up. I think it is best she stays there.” I said.  

“That is a good idea. The house elves can assist in watching her when we cannot be there.” Remus added and smiled towards me.   

“You two need to keep your minds off of her and stay away unless she needs something.” Lucius said and it prompted me to smile.   

“I suppose you want me to just believe that you and you wife were just going to keep your hands to yourself?” I asked stepping a little closer to him.   

“I can give my word that whatever happened under my roof would have happened only because it was asked of us. I can’t say you would do the same.” Lucius said to me.  

“Where is Severus?” Remus asked. This prompted us to turn to where he was once standing and the lot of us grunted and turned to face the infirmary. He wouldn’t dare do what we were all suggesting would he?  

SEVEURS SNAPES POV:  

“Alright, Madam Pomfrey agreed she would much rather have a little aid in watching over you to make sure you are not going to harm yourself again, so I am going to take you over to my chambers. I don’t leave my room much when I have some days off. Lucky for you I have the next three off. If you need anything just holler.” I said to y/n. I don’t like to admit that I smelt her scent when I stood in front of the amortentia potion. It is hard to admit that I am starting to move on from Lily. She was the only person I have ever loved. I truly loved her with all of my heart. There was nothing I wouldn’t do for her. I didn’t realize that I could feel that way for anyone else. Especially not for someone so battered and bruised by her own self. Maybe I can ask her about herself. Get to know why she does this to herself. Perhaps I can convince her to want to live.  

“Might I ask a question?” She asked. I nodded and she looked toward her arm with the fresh mark on her.   

“Is it okay that I am here? Do other people know I am here and why I am here?” She asked.  

“Yes, it is fine. The headmaster knows that you are here. That’s all that matters. If you are up for it, I am more than happy to teach you more potions while you are here that way you do not have to feel like you are behind before you get started.” I offered and looked at her.  

“Can I ask?” I said and looked to her arm again before attempting to look her in the eyes. She never is able to meet my gaze. She shrugged a little, so I went forward with my question.  

“Why did you feel the need to hurt yourself?” I asked. I know this is a rather bold question but, it is obvious she is the one that hurt herself. She can’t hide that detail.   

“I can’t” She mumbled. I want to tell her to speak up but, I don’t for the fear that she won’t be able to tell me at some point.   

“Might I tell you something?” I asked and she nodded.   

“When I was younger, I had a lot of reasons to keep to myself. I didn’t have many friends.” I sat on the bed near her and she pulled her legs into herself. I didn’t reach out to her and kept my hands to myself. I do want to reach out to show her that it is okay to loosen up but she hardly knows any of us.  

“I didn’t have many friends. I had one. I had a few people who liked to bully me and my parents well, they were kind when they wanted to be. I had reasons as to why I hated life but, other things that made me want to live. I am only telling you this because I think it is important for you to find a reason to want to live.” I said. I went to stand up, but I felt something brush against my arm and when I looked down her fingers lightly grazed it.  

“Yes?” I asked. This might be easier to get information than I thought.   

“Can I trouble you for something to drink?” She asked. Well, that is not what I expected. I was hoping for something that was a bit more forthcoming. I suppose I was wrong but, that does not happen often. I stood up and walked out of the second sleeping chambers. I need her to open up to me. Just a little. If I can figure out what is making her this upset then maybe she wouldn’t be part of what I want.  

I made my way over to the sink and grabbed the glass cup off it and filled it with some water before returning to the room. It was now occupied with the rest of the idiots.   

“What the hell do you think you are doing?” Lucius asked me.   

“I am doing what is necessary to keep her safe. I think it is best you all leave so she can get some rest.” I said.   

“You think she is going to be able to rest here?” Lucius snapped at me.   

“Dumbledore already approved of this. You need to leave. She is tired.” I said and he scoffed before apparating out of my room. Finally, I will get a moment alone with her in order to figure out why she thinks it is okay to do this to herself. It is clearly not but, it seems as though this is not the first time, she has done this. There are marks on her arms that I can barely see but, she needs help. I had the water still in my hand and walked over the the second room.  

“Here.” I said and handed her the cup of water.   

“Thank you.” She said and grabbed the water from me. Her fingers lightly grazed against mine and it felt like something electrocuted me. It was an invigorating feeling. I don’t think anything has felt like that. Not even Lily’s touch felt like that to me. How strange that a complete stranger has caused me to feel like everything was lit on fire by a simple touch. I hadn’t moved or attempted to move. I just stood there looking at my hand that her fingers grazed, and my cheeks were slightly heating up.  

“I am just not ready to talk about my struggles yet. Everyone knows part of it but no one will ever see the full picture. I am just not ready yet.” She said as her eyes fell to her hands and then she laid on her back and pulled her legs into her. She is damaged. I can’t help her if she does not want to be helped.   

“If you ever feel like you need someone to talk to Professor McGon- I mean I am more than able to be here for you.” I said. I am not used to letting people lean on me. I don’t know how to let people in, but she needs someone. She didn’t say anything but, I could hear her sniffling. She is crying. I am rather uncomfortable so I am just going to walk out of the room and go to my room. I imagine I can get lost in a good book to get away from the emotions that are stirring up inside of me at the memory of Lily.  

I stepped into my room and on the bedside table I saw the book I knew I wanted to read but it was difficult. It was a book about love and death. Something I was all too familiar with. It was her favorite. It was something she constantly had in her hand. I meant to hand that off to Potter. It’s too personal to me though. She gave it to me before she passed away and just looking at it makes sadness thicken in my head and heart. I picked it off the bedside table and sat on the bed. I rested my back against the headrest and opened the book to the first page. It must have been a couple of hours when I managed to finish the book and the stream of tears that was fighting to roll down my cheeks was interrupted by the screams of the girl across the hall in the other room. What the hell is happening in there? I threw the book off the bed as I made my way into her room. She was still asleep but the tears on her face showed that something was upsetting her. It was only another moment before she started to scream again. Her hands went up to her hair and started to pull at it.  

“It’s going to be okay.” I said realizing that I ended up behind her pulling her hands off her head and away from her hair. I don’t remember getting on the bed with her. This is inappropriate. She can’t hurt herself though. That would prove the rest of the weasels right. That I am unable to help. That I can’t help her. That I was unable to keep her from hurting herself. That is not going to happen.   

“Hey, shoo shoo shoo. It will be alright. Wake up. It will be alright. Everything is going to be alright.” I repeated to her whispering it into her ear. I managed to get her hands away from her head and I wrapped my arms around her body. I felt her body shake as the sobs broke lose.   

“I can’t take it anymore.” She cried out. The pain in her voice was hard to hear. I stayed quiet as she started to say more things.   

“I can’t do this anymore. I don’t mean to be a disappointment. I didn’t mean for any of this. Please, I am sorry. Don’t do it again. Please, I promise. I promise-” Her voice started to become more of a whisper.   

“It is going to be okay.” I whispered to her again.   

“It’s not.” She whispered bringing her hands to her face and she started to wipe her tears away.   

“Why do you say that?” I probed trying to figure out what was upsetting her.   

“They never wanted me. They never loved me. My mom she-” She stopped talking to let out another silent sob. Her body shaking once again.   

“She started to find ways to try and take the magic away. It hurt. It still hurts. The memory of it.” She started to quiet down. I hugged onto her tighter.   

“What did she do?” I asked. I must have found a way into the guard she built up.   

“She started to cut. She cut me more than I cut myself. She never cut to kill. She told me she just wanted to find where the magic was so she could make me normal.” She said silently and I felt the tightness run into my chest. How could a mother do that to her own child?   

“It makes it easier to do it to myself. The only difference is that I want to die. My veins keep getting deeper or hide. I managed to nick one finally but, then I woke up in the infirmary. Why can’t I die?” She asked.   

“You shouldn’t want to die. You much like the rest of us are born with the abilities to help yourself and others.” I said to her.  

“But I do. I just want my family to be happy.” She said and I felt a part of my heart break for the girl.   

“If they did not love who you were born to be then they were never meant to be your family. Blood does not always mean family. You can build your own family through friends.” I said. Her sobs were almost completely stopped when I felt her shift against me. Her head turned and she nuzzled her face into my chest. My cheeks began to heat up again. What have I gotten myself into? Her hair smells like Lavendar. She smells like flowers. It is weird that she smells so wonderful. What else am I smelling? I can’t put my finger on the scent.   

“I am sorry for waking you or disturbing you.” She mumbled against my chest before I felt her arms snake around my waist. Alright I believe I need to get away from her as soon as possible. Things are starting to happen that should not be happening.    

“It is alright it is my job to be here for you.” I said. She pulled away from me within a moment of saying that.  Did I say something wrong?   

“Right well thank you Professor Snape. I think I just need to get some more sleep.” She said before laying back on the bed facing away from me. It was as if she had just dismissed me. I don’t think I like being shut out by her. Was it wrong to tell her that it was my job? It is my job. That should not upset the girl.  

“Goodnight.” I said and walked out. I closed the door to the room and walked across the hall into mine. I moved the book from my bed and back onto my bedside table. I think I need to shower and go to sleep myself. Those words are going to haunt my night, aren’t they?  

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Hidden Away Chapter Six

~Sorry for the delay. Updated on AO3 more frequently~

READERS POV  

“Hey!” I heard the female voice.   

“Hi.” I said letting the happy demeanor change.   

“Why did you run out of the lesson?” She asked me. Her semi-curly hair bouncing around her head.   

“How do you know that I ran out of a lesson?” I asked her.   

“I am Hermione by the way. Sirius Black told his godson Harry and because I am one of his best friends I was with him when they were talking about it. He wanted Harry, Ron and I to try and find you. Apparently, you have made quite the impression.” She said smiling at me. I stopped walking and looked at her.  

“What do you mean?” I asked confused.   

“You were using fifth year spells! Some that even I have not practiced yet. What was it like to kick Draco Malfoys butt?” She asked giggling.   

“It really is not funny. I feel bad. I didn’t realize it was going to be a problem. I didn’t realize we were supposed to only use first year spells. I really did not mean to do that.” I said and I saw her smile fade from her.   

“He is not a kind person. If anything, you should be happy you have done it. Someone needs to knock him down a peg. I sure would like to knock him out.” She said and I rolled my eyes.  

“What do you mean that I made an impression?” I asked once again.   

“Professor Lupin likes that you were able to get that far with just studying the books. He thinks you could be a powerful witch. Sirius Black thinks you did amazingly. Rather he doesn’t have official training with being an instructor, but he is an amazing wizard.” She said her smile reappearing. She is slightly annoying.  

“There you are. Just the person I wanted to see.” I heard Mr. Malfoy’s voice.   

“Bye y/n. It was nice to officially meet you but, that is my sign to leave.” She said scoffing towards him.   

“What a filthy mudblood.” He mumbled under his breath, and I looked at him.  

“I assume that is a term used to offend someone so I would appreciate not doing that in front of me. What is it that I can do for you at the moment?” I asked.   

“Well, the lesson is not over. No one quite understands why you ran off. I am not a fan of you showing that you are slightly better than my son but, now I know where he can improve.” He said a smirking at me.   

“I just needed a break. Didn’t mean to hurt you or your son's ego. According to some it needs taken down a peg or two though.” I said and laughed a little.  

“Really?” He said the smirk still on his face.   

“Yes. Apparently, you two have ego’s the size of this school.” I said and laughed a little.  

“Well, alright then let’s get back to the class and then we can continue with learning.” He said and tried to guide me towards the classroom again.   

“Now, wait just a minute. I don’t know if I can do that anymore. I don’t want to get into trouble. I do not mean to be as far behind as I am. I am trying my best. I am sorry.” I said looking away from him.   

“What do you mean? You are learning first year information getting caught up with the fifth years and you have studied enough to know the spells to defend yourself at a fifth-year level. You are impressing us. Nothing to feel ashamed of.” He said trying to nudge me forward. I gave in and started to move forward to walk in the direction of the classroom again.  

“You found her?” Professor Lupin asked once he came into the line of sight of the two of us.   

“Yes, I am capable of locating the girl.” Mr. Malfoy said and smirked towards Professor Lupin.   

“Alright, come this way y/n. I have a question. What have you learned up to? What classes did you study once you received the books and when did you find the time to study? This is only day two and it seems like you have been here the entire time.” Professor Lupin asked.   

“I have trouble sleeping at night, so I learn mostly when everyone is asleep.” I said.  

“What do you think you need more help on?” He asked another question as the other Professors came into the line-of-sight sighing when they saw the two walking with me.  

“I would love a more hands on approach with potions. I can’t learn that by just reading. That and I would love to learn more about herbology. I think both are fascinating. Defense against the dark arts kind of scares me. Clearly.” I said and looked towards the books in my hands.   

“Obviously.” I heard Professor Snape comment. I looked towards the dark-haired man noticing his posture was almost perfect.  

“Give the girl a break Snape. This is new for her regardless of if it seems like it.” I heard Sirius Black say to him.  

“Get on with it. What did you need help with that you clearly have not taught yourself?” Professor Snape asked.   

“I need some help with potions. I can’t learn about that from just reading them. That and I would love to know more about herbology.” I said and looked at them and they nodded their head as an act of taking in my response.  

“Very well, then we will let Professor Snape take it from here. He and Lucius can help with the two of those wonderfully.” Sirius said and looked too Professor Lupin who nodded at him and the two of them dismissed themselves. No one fought the dismissal, and I heard Professor Snape scoff.  

“Are you trying to get in my good graces y/n?” He sneered.   

“No, I genuinely think it would be better to get hands on knowledge with potions. If I am wrong, then I do not want to waste your time. Lord knows I have done it enough.” I started to mumble that last part.  

“Yes, you have. I suppose learning a few will not be the end of the world. I will teach you the one that brought some of my students some happiness. It is not often my students are happy with any of their work though.” Professor Snape said but Mr. Malfoy just continued to stare at me with his eyebrows drawn together.   

“What potion would that be?” I asked. He turned away from me and headed into what looked like a closet and came back with some ingredients.   

“Did you study any of the potion's books that were in your room?” Professor Snape asked.  

“I browsed through them a little.” I lied to him. I studied them a lot. I devoured the ones that were loaned to me within the first night's night terrors.  

“What would these ingredients make then?” He asked as he set them down in front of me.   

Rose petals, thorn, ashwinder eggs, peppermint, moonstone, and pearl dust. I assume this is a love potion. If I remember correctly then it should be the Amortentia potion.   

“I don’t know.” I said lying to him once again. I can tell he is already irritated with me. I suppose it can’t get much worse.   

“Do not lie to me.” Professor Snape said leaning over the table peering down at me.   

“I- uh. I think it is the Amortentia Potion. A love potion.” I said looking down towards the table again.  

“Correct. If you know the answer do not lie and say you do not. There is nothing wrong with knowing the answer.” Professor Snape said.   

“Sorry sir.” I said and started to open the potions book on the table to the Amortentia potion that was in it. I started to grab the ingredients following the directions in the book as to how to make the potion. I was adding the last ingredient when I felt Mr. Malfoy behind me. He peered over my shoulder and into the cauldron that I was using.   

“It looks correct. Severus, come look.” He said and Professor Snape appeared before me as if he didn’t step away from in front of me. He peered into the cauldron and a little smirk appeared on his face. Something tells me that does not happen often.   

“For someone who was not allowed to practice magic, you are surprisingly very good at it. Well done.” Professor Snape said.  

“What do you smell?” Mr. Malfoy asked me.   

“It smells like sandalwood, a hint of smoke, fresh linen, and a hint of a forest like smell.” I said noticing the smell seemed familiar. I brought my face away from the pot and walked away from it. In the corner of my eye, I saw Professor Snape take a vile and lower it into the potion collecting some of it.  

“It is different for everyone. The smell that is.” I heard Mr. Malfoy say. I kept my eyes focused on anything but the two of them. Maybe I can start to clean this up. I walked back over to the cauldron and went to lift it, but I felt someone’s hand on mine.  

“I will take care of this. Why don’t you run off to get something to eat and take a break.” Mr. Malfoy said.   

“I don’t mind. I am not hungry.” I said trying to take care of the mess I had made.   

“Go. I was not asking.” He said and I grabbed my books and wand and made my way out and started for the common room first.   

Lucius Malfoy POV:   “Severus, do you know the scent that she described is rather familiar.” I said looking at him.  

“If you are implying something spit it out. For if you are concerned half of the fifth and sixth years smell that way.” Severus said to me without looking up from the potion she made.   

“What do you smell Severus? Do you still smell Lily Potter’s scent? Her perfume?” I taunted him.   

“Leave me alone Lucius.” He said to me but, I know I have touched a nerve with him.   

“I noticed you looked at her potion with a rather strange look. What did you smell?” He asked me and I narrowed my eyes at him.   

“Are you implying I smelled anything that was not related to my wife?” I asked him finally drawing his attention towards me. His hands now rested on the table, and he leaned forward to match his eyes with mine.  

“Do not taunt me if you do not wish to be taunted as well Lucius. It is inappropriate if either of us admitted what we smelt coming from the potion.” Severus said to me before we were met by Professor Lupin and Sirius Black.   

“Did she make that?” Remus asked and walked over to the cauldron.   

“She did.” I answered him as Severus removed his weight from the table and leaned his body against another.   

“It smells really good.” Remus said and Sirius leaned over and sniffed the potion as well.   

“What do you two smell?” I asked but, I didn’t get an answer. Instead, the two of them exchanged looks.  

“Do you smell her?” I asked and both of their heads snapped to look at me.  

“How did you?” Sirius asked.   

“We can also smell her. How strange. It is supposed to be different for everyone.” I said and locked eyes with Sirius Black.   

“She is an older student at least. It doesn’t make it okay but, it isn’t forbidden for two of us.” Sirius said and I raised an eyebrow to the realization.   

“Now, you two need to remember that she is-.” Remus started to say something but stopped mid-sentence.  

“Remember that she is what?” I asked and smiled.   

“I was going to say underage but, she is not. She is eighteen. She is an adult and can do as she pleases. However, I ask you two not try anything with her.” Remus said.   

“I am a married man Remus. I wouldn’t do that to-“I said but, was interrupted by a hand on my shoulder.  

“What do we have here?” I heard Cissy’s voice.   

“What are you doing here?” I asked her.   

“I wanted to see how my new friend was doing here. Did you get a chance to talk to her about what I saw. About what you saw?” Cissy asked me and I peered to the group of men that we were with.   

“Now isn’t a good time.” I said now trying to look through her as if she was not there. I feel a little guilty that I didn’t smell her even a little in the potion.   

“The potion smells delightful. It kind of has a small hint of lavender and peony to it.” Cissy said and I looked to her.   

“It even smells like a rose oil. It is truly a beautiful smell.” She added and my eyes widened at her, and I felt my face heat up.  

“Cissy.” I said and grabbed onto her arm.   

“This is the Amortentia potion, isn’t it?” She asked and looked to me. I nodded and her eyes widened a little at the realization.  

“Is that what that smell is?” Remus looked into the potion again.   

“You smell her?” Cissy asked and I looked at him but, he did not look at me in order to get the message I was trying to convey to him.   

“We all do Narcissa.” He said and she looked at me again.   

“Do you?” She asked her eyes meeting mine. I don’t see hurt in her eyes though. I hold onto her arm tighter and I apparate us back home. It is better to discuss this without prying eyes.   

“I do. What is the about Cissy? Why are you smelling her?” I asked her but, it seems silly. I think I know why she is smelling her.   

“Lucius, can I ask you something?” She looked at me and I released her arm and looked too her and nodded.   

“What if, what if she smelt us? Can I? Can we?” She asked a smile appearing on her face.   

“Are you asking to share her?” I asked feeling as though I am being tricked. I can only imagine what that would be like. I am a little confused though. I didn’t know that Cissy was into other women. Had I known she could have been doing this sooner. I would have rather her express this with me sooner that way we could have experienced this with one another.   

“Would it be alright? That is, if she was interested in us? Or rather either of us?” Cissy asked and once again I am taken back by her words.   

“What do you mean either of us?” I pressed a little further.   

“If she wants just, you then you are welcome to enjoy her, I just want to hear about it. If she wants just me, I want to experience it and then maybe we can enjoy her together.” She said and I felt my face heat up slightly.  

“I suppose that can be alright. As long as no one gets hurt. I don’t want that for either of us.” I said and she leaned into me and gave me a hug. It is a strange occurrence to have my wife tell me she would like to be intimate with another person. Especially another woman. I have no complaints.  

“Please invite her to dinner tonight.” She said to me, and I felt my chest tighten.  

“We don’t want to come off strong Cissy. Give her some time to adjust.” I whispered my lips pressing to the top of her head giving her a gentle kiss.   

“I am excited Lucius. I like her.” She whispered and I gave her another soft kiss to the top of her forehead hugging her tighter.   

“Me too darling.” I said.   

Remus Lupin POV:   “What are we going to do Sirius? I am her professor; you cannot do this. It would be wildly inappropriate for any of us to act upon this.” I said before looking to him. He looks like he is lost in a daze and not paying me any attention.  

“Sirius, did you listen to a word I said?” I asked him.   

“I wonder what she would smell like in the morning. When she just wakes up? How she would smell after being intimate.” Sirius said and I felt my face droop into a frown. I would like to know myself but, these are the thoughts I cannot act upon. The one’s none of us should act upon. At least I know Severus will not act upon the feelings or desire. He hardly desires anyone. If he does, he waits until their last breath to say anything.  

“I think it is best you stay in my quarters with me until we can get past the desire that comes with her.” I said and he looked at me.   

“What if I just tried? Just to see if she fancy’s any of us?” Sirius said and I want to go and smack him around until the feeling is gone but, it also might not hurt. What if she is desiring one of us?  

“Alright but, you must be as subtle as you can possibly be.” I said looking at him. I saw his grin widen and I wonder if I am making a mistake to trust him. I shouldn’t feel this way about my best friend but, I haven’t seen him care about anyone.   

“Well, then I am off to see everyone’s favorite student.” Sirius said and the regret to trust him worsened.  

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Hidden Away Chapter Five

READERS POV: 

“Might I come in?” I heard a male voice ask from the outside of the door. I put the blade in a drawer beside the bed and mumbled a charm the hid the sight that I made and quickly pulled the blanket onto my lap and hid everything.  I left my legs parted open as the mark I made was starting to have an intense pain to it. I think I went a little too far.  

“Yes.” I said and in came Professor Lupin.  

“Might I ask if you are, okay?” He asked.  

“Yes, sorry for creating a commotion I just needed some air.” I said. I tried my best to avoid any and all eye contact.  

“Alright. I just wanted to see if you were alright. Have a good night. Oh, and here.” He said pulling a small silver and brown package from his pocket.  

“This should help the stomach rumbling. I know you must be hungry.” He said. I looked at what he was giving me, and it was chocolate.  

“Maybe it will help get those thoughts of being a burden out of your mind. Sometimes you just need comfort from something once in a little while.” He said and when I did not grab it from him, he set it on the dresser.  

“Very well, have a good night's rest.” Professor Lupin left and I felt the air around me shift. If I hadn’t known better, it was almost like he was insinuating it might be a period comment. I know what I said in front of them and I know I should keep that stuff to myself but, it slips out sometimes. It is not normal for a person to have to keep there feelings in all the time I am sure but, I need to. I did not come here to make a problem for other people. Nor do I need attention from the instructors. Get some rest I need to rest so I can learn everything within the next couple of days that way they do not have to see me additionally on top of the normal classes. I am sure they have a life of their own they would like to get back to. I took a small bite of the chocolate and laid back on the bed. I swallowed the small piece but, I drifted off to sleep quickly.  

Lucius POV:  

“What do you think of the new girl?” I asked Severus. Surely, he must have some kind of opinion on her. He tends to make an opinion on everyone he meets.  

“She is not as bad as the others. Why do you ask?” He said without looking at me.  

“It seemed like she was a bit flirtatious with Narcissa and she humored the girl. She even made a comment that I was not worthy of Narcissa, and it made her blush.” I said feeling annoyed. She made quite the impression with my wife. I do not appreciate the comment she made but, I do feel a little happy with how Cissy looked at her when she made the comment.  

“Are you upset that she was bold enough to say what a lot of us think?” Severus said and my head snapped in his direction.  

“Excuse me? What do you mean by that? How many people think that she deserves better?” I asked feeling myself become more annoyed.  

“Everyone. Lucius don’t take it to heart. Maybe she was just trying to be pleasant seeing as how you two treated her to today.” Severus said and I could finally feel some of the anger leave me.  

“Suppose you are right. She might not be as bad as the others but, that means she is worse. At least to me she is worse.” I said looking at him.  

“If you want to bow out of helping her then do just that Lucius. She has enough on her plate trying to learn about magic. She doesn’t need you to hound her over your personal feelings.” Severus said. He may be right but, that doesn’t mean I want to stop teaching her. She needs help.  

“She wasn’t that bad. She has managed to pick things up quickly.” I said and I saw a small smirk on his face.  

“Right. She is going to be one of the better students. She did not seem like she wanted to stop tonight.” Severus said and I smiled. 

“Say we should have her do some real practice with the defense against the dark arts tomorrow. Suppose we go and use that room.” I said with a smirk. His attention now fully on me.  

“I will think about it. Go home to your wife Lucius. Before the new girl goes and crawls into bed next to her.” Severus said and the smirk I had on my face fell quickly. I didn’t make any comments before I apparated home. I walked around the house before walking up the stairs into my bedroom. Cissy was in the room sitting up in bed leaning against the headrest.  

“Why are you up so late Cissy?” I asked and sat next to her.  

“I wanted to wait for you. I wanted to talk about y/n.” She said and smiled.  

“Really? What about?” I asked.  

“I really enjoyed her company today. Do you think she would want to be around me again? Rather would it be okay to have her over? Suppose when the school is dismissed maybe if her and Draco get along, she can stay here.” Cissy said. I don’t like how she has already attached to the girl after only a couple of hours with her.  

“Cissy, we barely know the girl. We cannot get close to her with you know who lurking in the dark. We don’t want to put her in any danger do we now Cissy?” I asked.  

“No, I suppose not. She just seems so lonely. I don’t know if you saw but, she has markings on her arm. It looks like she might be hurting herself. I am a little worried about it.” She said.  

“Yes, it was brought up, we are just trying to ease into that question. No one wants to make her feel uncomfortable. Hopefully it will stop now that she is here and not with the people who shamed her for being a witch.” I said wrapping my arms around her and pulling her into a hug.  

“She really made me feel beautiful today, Lucius. Even when she said I was too pretty for you, I saw the look you gave her but, it made me feel very beautiful.” She said and I smiled placing a small kiss to the top of her head. 

“You are beautiful Cissy. I am glad that you felt as beautiful as you look today. You should always feel that way.” I said hugging onto her tighter.  

Readers POV. 

~ ”You cannot keep up this charade you are pulling girl. You might be our family by blood but, you are damaged. You will never be like us. Everything you have done whether it was on purpose or not brings shame to us every day. You are a worthless person. We should have gotten rid of you the moment you showed that you were like the rest of my family.” My dad yelled at me.  

“I am sorry. I didn’t mean to. I didn’t know I did that. I am really sorry dad. Please let me come out. I can’t be in here anymore. Please dad let me out. I won’t do it again. I will try harder. Please. Please!” I cried out to him but, realized to late that he pulled his hand back and drew it in the air. His hand came crashing down against my face and the tears stung. I started to sob but, I tried to rush forward to hug onto him to plead more but, he pushed me away and slammed the door in my face.  

“Do us all a favor and rot away. We don’t need you. No one needs you!” My father screamed at me, and it felt like everything around me started to stab into my heart.~  

The tossing and turning startled me awake. I felt the sweat on my body and got off it. I grabbed the blade out of the drawer as well as clothes and headed into the bathroom. I stepped in the shower and stripped myself of my clothes and turned the shower on. I stood in the cold water with the blade in my hand and as the water flowed around me, I started to dig the blade into my stomach. I am worthless. I am useless. They were right. Of course they are right. I was their kid and yet they didn’t want me. They were ashamed of me. How could I think it was going to be any different here? These people are really not going to want me. I am different from everyone here. I am going to stand out like a sore thumb whether I want to or not. I would rather not. If I am lucky eventually I will bleed out. I will finally put my family at ease to not have to worry about if I am making a bad impression upon them from here. Especially since they are from here. The last thing I want is for them to be even more disappointed in me. I love them. I just wish they loved me too. I managed to cut myself deeper and deeper until I heard a noise that sounded as if someone were coming into the bathroom. Oh great. What was the charm again? I keep trying to sort through the charms I read upon again but I cant remember.  

“Poor poor you. Trying so hard but failing. Why are you hurting yourself?” A girl looked at me but, I stood there in shock because even though I was looking at her I was also looking through her. How strange.  

“I-I” I can’t answer her. This is weird. Is she? 

“I am Mertle. What is your name?” She asked. She has a slight wine to her high-pitched voice.  

“I am y/n.” I said and she giggled.  

“Oh, the new student. Why are you hurting yourself new girl?” She asked and I looked at her with the sadness I could not hide.  

“My family thinks of me as a failure. I can’t keep denying that I am not one when that is all they have called me. If they think of me that way, then I do not want to be here. But I have been unsuccessful at ending my misery. I would like to but, it's like my body will not let me.” I said crying. My sobs were quiet. No one would know any better. I hugged onto my chest to cover the parts of my body that were exposed to Mertle but she sensed my discomfort and dismissed herself. I turned the water off and grabbed my towel and wrapped it around myself.  

“Get dressed and talk to me. No one ever talks to me anymore.” She said and looked continued to look away. I dried off quickly and put on the school uniform since I needed to get to class today in order to continue to catch up on learning. I held the towel to my stomach in order to continue to get the bleeding to stop. I managed to cut pretty deep but even the physical pain was not enough to stop the emotional pain that I was still feeling.  

“I don’t know anyone enough to talk to anyone. Nor do I really want to I suppose. It will not make the most sense to make friends if I end up becoming successful one of these days. Might I ask Mertle, what is it like to be dead? Is it peaceful?” I asked. She scoffed.  

“No, it is not peaceful. I would switch places with you if I could. I did not ask or wish to be dead. It happened because-“she said before stopping and started to cry. Her cries were loud and when she reached the peak of it, she floated away and jumped into the toilet and slid into the drains. Poor thing. I don’t know what happened to her but, it is sad to have lost a life if you did not wish to lose it.  

“I am sorry Mertle. Hopefully we can talk again soon.” I said to the air now. I grabbed my clothes when the charm finally came back into mind, and I held my hand over my stomach. The pain was still there but, the blood was now hidden and so was the marking. I returned back to my room and set my dirty clothes on my bed and removed the sheets and folded them nicely onto the bed with a note. It said that I was sorry that they had to clean the place and the clothing but, I grabbed my wand and my books and headed towards Professor Snape’s classroom. I am aware that everyone is probably at the great hall but, I don’t mind waiting in the hallway. Everyone at this point should be eating and I am in no mood to eat at the moment. Not when my stomach hurts. Not when I know darn well that I am still bleeding. No I will simply wait in front of the door and wait until he and the others appear. I sat on the floor and opened up the book and started to study about the dark arts. It seems rather interesting.  

“She was not at breakfast she is probably still in her room. If she is asleep then she clearly is not as into learning like we thought, she was.” I heard professor Snape’s voice.  

“Or maybe she was not hungry.” Professor Lupin said to him.  

“I am starting to believe we might be the late one’s gentlemen.” I heard Mr. Malfoy say after he cleared his throat and looked towards me. I had made eye contact with him and started to stand up.  

“Why were you not at breakfast Ms. y/l/n?” Professor Snape asked.  

“I am not much of a breakfast person. Thought I would just wait here and start trying to study some of the information.” I said and he arched his eyebrows as if in shock.  

“The meals are something you have to attend. We need to make sure everyone is accounted for and that is how we are able to do that.” Professor Snape said.  

“Is everything alright here?” Sirius asked. “Oh, there she is. I asked your son to see if she was in the common room and instead of helping, he just ran his mouth.” Sirius said towards Lupin.  

“He won’t do much of what anyone asks other than his mother and me.” Mr. Malfoy said.  

“Everything is fine. Shall we?” Professor Snape said and then walked past his room. I managed to get to my feet and follow him to where he was going.  

“This is the Defense Against the Dark Arts classroom. We will be working in here today.” Professor Snape said. All of us followed in behind him and Mr. Malfoy stood beside him.  

“What have you learned from the book?” Mr. Malfoy asked.  

“Not much. I did learn some things but, I am more of a hands-on learner.” I said.  

“Perfect because we are going to be working with that today. Draco is going to join us in the next few minutes and you two will dual.” Mr. Malfoy said.  

“Wait what?” I asked a bit stunned that this is something they would want to teach me. 

“All of the students here learn how to defend themselves. We have had some harsh events happen at the school and you need to know this as in case a professor is not near you in the event of an emergency.” Professor Lupin added.   

“Oh, well I am more than happy to learn but, the parts that I have managed to read and the information that stuck with me were focused on the forbidden curses.” I said and Both Mr. Malfoy and Professor Snape smiled. 

All of the Professors as well as the couple of people that were not actual professors assisted me with learning the disarming charm, togue-tying curse, homorphus charm, Verdimillious duo, tickling charm, banishing charm, petrificus totalus, cushioming charm, and the melofors jinx.  

After they had given me the confidence, I needed to perform the spells Draco stepped inside with his friends and properly introduced them.  

“Now Draco on one side and you will be on the other.” Mr. Malfoy said. I followed instruction given by him and so did Draco. Once we were facing each other one of the Professors counted down from three and Draco started it off by saying the tongue-tying charm. I managed to deflect the spell but, I had read about a freezing spell in one of the books and used that against him.  

“Wait a minute! That is not a first-year spell!” Draco yelled out. Everyone looked towards me with their mouths slightly parted.  

“Sorry, I don’t sleep well so I read instead. I didn’t realize I had chosen something I was not supposed to.” I said and looked towards Professor Lupin.  

“No, by all means carry on you two.” He said and with a now irritated Draco in front of me he yelled out the Orbis Jinx and to counter it I used one of the more simple counter curses. Then I used a disarming charm to remove his wand from him. It flew from his hand then I yelled out Everte Statum and Draco was thrown away from me. I heard him cough a little and then stand up and move towards his friends Crab and Goyle.  

“She is wicked. We are out of here!” He screamed towards his dad.  

“Sorry. I didn’t mean to-“I was trying to call out to him, but Professor Lupin stood in front of me.  

“You did a lot of reading didn’t you?” He asked.  

“Well, yes, but I am sure there is more to learn.” I said. Now I feel weird considering I must have done something wrong. See I am in fact a failure. 

“That was-“someone started to say but I grabbed my books and ran out of the room. I didn’t run into my room I ran to the bathroom where Mertle was. I let myself slip into the sadness I was feeling. Why do I have to mess everything up? I can’t keep doing this. I can’t keep kidding myself. All of this is wrong. I just ruined something because I either got to far ahead or worse. I am not learning fast enough for them. I truly suck at everything. I don’t want to be here anymore.  

“Back so soon?” I heard the high-pitched voice from Mertle come near me.  

“Sorry, I just wanted to be able to cry. It’s starting to become too hard to hide how I feel.’ I said and she sat next to me.  

“Death did not bring me piece. It just made me more upset.” Mertle said. I looked at her and my sadness worsened.  

“I am sorry that you lost a life that you still wanted to live.” I said and she looked at me. It was almost like she could look through me.  

“I hope one day you will want to live.” She said and smiled at me.  

I continued to cry but, I heard the door open and went into one of the stalls quickly to hide.  

“Professor Lupin, I don’t see anyone in here. I don’t think she came in here.” I heard a girl say.  

“She could not have just disappeared. There is no way she figured out how to apparate by just reading. She is going to need someone to show her how to do it without getting herself sick.” I heard his voice. I tried to quickly pull myself together but, it was not working the way I would like it to.  

“Y/n, might I ask you something?” Mertle whispered towards me, and I nodded.  

“Do you think you should believe what your parents have said?” She asked looking rather sad for me.  

“I don’t have anything else to believe. It is all I know. Why would it be different here?” I asked never looking towards her.  

“Why do you suppose you are still alive then?” She asked and I felt the tears stream down my face.  

“Because I can’t even do that right. I just wish I could.” I said closing my eyes and dropping my head into my hands letting the feelings out.  

“You shouldn’t feel that way.” She said before I heard the door open, and I muffled my sobs pulling my feet up towards myself.  

“Y/n are you in here?” I heard the same female voice call out. I held my breathe so it did not give away that I was in a stall and then Mertle walked through the stall door. 

“No one is in here except me.” Mertle said and I heard the female voice sigh.  

“Mertle if you see her and she tells you her name will you tell her that Professor Snape, Professor Lupin and the others are looking for her.” I heard the female voice say before the door opened and closed again. I finally let out the breath I was holding in and started to sob quietly again. Why does it matter? None of this matters.  

“Oh now, now don’t cry. I can cry enough for the both of us.” Mertle said walking back into my stall.  

“I can’t do this anymore.” I said through the quiet sobs.  

“Sure, you can. It will be okay. Try and hang on a little longer alright?” She said and I felt something cold on my hand and when I peered I saw she was trying to reach out to me. I couldn’t feel her but she was cold.  

“Are you cold Mertle?” I asked and she shook her head no.  

“It comes with being dead.” She said with a small smile.  

“I am sorry you are lost a life you didn’t want to lose.” I said trying to stop the cries. 

“Thanks not many listen to me.” She says and walks back through the door. I finally manage to dry my tears enough before I leave the stall. I make my way over to the mirror and look at my red and puffy eyes. I waved my right hand in front of my face, and it hid how red and puffy I looked. It won’t appear like I was crying to anyone which is what is important to me. I manage to slow my breathing back down and grabbed my belongings.  

“Thank you for talking to me Mertle. It's nice to have your company.” I said and she smiled at me before I made my way out of the bathroom.  

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American Amongst the Brits Chapter 14

Lucius POV:

“Fine.” I said and I felt her sink herself further onto my cock and rub against me. I heard the bathroom door open, and I felt his presence around us. It wasn’t just Snape in here watching what was happening anymore and in the moment I could care less. She started to rub her hips against mine and I was growing frustrated because our clothes were still on, and I was not inside her yet.

“Please do not tease me.” I mumble against her lips. The quiet moan that escaped her mouth turned me on even more.

“Your moment is over.” I heard Severus say but I didn’t let her go. I bit down onto her bottom lip and heard her moan a little louder. I moved my hands onto her waist and gripped onto her firmly. I felt my fingernails scrape against her skin before she grinded onto my lap again and a moan fell from my lips before she pushed herself off my chest and sat up. She grinded against me again and let her hands fall on top of mine. I saw her eyes darken a little before she leaned forward once again, and I felt her small hands wrap around my neck and squeeze it.

“Such a fucking tease.” I whispered before I felt her nails dig into the skin around my neck. I felt a slight breeze and I looked at her and realized her clothes had disappeared. I looked over to the side and saw Severus with his wand in his hand and pointed to her.

“I am not helping you.” He said and before I had a chance to respond to his response, he pulled her off me and stood her in front of him. He trailed a finger from under her chin and traced her body with his finger until it met her breast. He started to pinch her left nipple when I finally pulled myself off the bed and snapped my fingers. My clothes disappeared in an instant.

“Y/n, come here.” I said before grabbing the back of her neck and forcing her back on top of me. I let my back hit the pillow soft mattress and she straddled my lap again. I pulled her back down so her chest was pressed against mine. Her breast felt amazing against my chest and with her being naked it felt a million times better. She was everything when she was clothed. Now she was a seductive minx. She is quickly becoming everything I have ever wanted. This is dangerous regardless of how I feel. I kissed her soft lips, and she bit down onto mine. I parted my lips a little when I felt her damp pussy lips slightly separate against my rather hard cock. She is already so wet for me. I could probably just slide right into her.

“Fuck, darling you are so wet.” I moaned into her moan. Desperate to taste her again. Desperate to kiss her again.

“I know.” She said before sitting up again. She raised her hips slightly before I felt a hand on my cock and when I looked at her, I realized it wasn’t hers.

“Be a good girl and slide down onto him.” Severus’ voice clipped a little. She looked at him when I started to feel her sit down on the tip of my cock. She was so very nice and wet. My head clouded over, and I grabbed onto her hips. I wanted to force her down on me but I heard a whimper escape her lips. My eyes closed tight when I felt her hands push against my lower stomach as she eased herself further onto me.

“Fuck. So. Damn. Wet.” I moaned and I buried myself further into by raising my hips into hers. I felt something tighten around my balls slightly and realized it was Severus’ hands. I want to yell at him to take his hand off my balls but, right now it is helping me not bust right into her. Coming undone would not be very nice.

“Nice and slow.” I heard Severus whisper into her ear. I felt her drag her hips off mine. She eased herself back down at a painfully slow pace. She was listening to him as if she had no control.

“Please. I need more.” She moaned. I opened my eyes to see him wrap his hand around the back of her neck and pull her towards him. His lips met hers and I took the moment to use my grip on her hips to my benefit. I thrusted my hips into hers roughly. It broke the kiss they shared, and her attention was brought back down to me. She leaned forward to grab onto me before she was stopped. I felt the bed shift to another person's weight and when I looked past her Severus was sitting behind her. His hand slowly trailed a light path from the top of her neck to her waist. I felt her shiver into his touch, and she laid her body against mine.

“So soft.” He said before placing a soft kiss against her back and she moved her face to look down at me. He brought her lips to my chest before placing a soft kiss on it that made my chest feel as though it hurt but, this time not from pain. It was like something inside me was healing as I felt her place more small kisses against my chest.

“Severus. Easy on her.” I said before I saw him right himself and watched slightly as he stroked himself when I felt her move again. She lifted her hips slightly and grinded her hips forward into mine rocking back and forth against me. It was causing friction inside of her and I felt the tip of my cock pulse a little once it felt something spongelike inside of her. I bucked my hips into it when I heard a deep moan come from her and her head fell against my chest. Her eyes we closed. I felt a finger next to my cock that was inside her and looked over at Severus again. He was watching as my cock slid inside her and I felt him press a finger inside of her sopping wet pussy. I felt her pussy grip onto me tighter. Fuck this will be the death of me.

“So, fucking wet for him. What shall I do?” Severus cooed towards her.

“Please.” She muttered before his finger left her pussy and I felt her tighten once again but this time I felt his finger against my cock but through a thin skin. He is inside her ass and that must feel tight. Her moan brought my attention back to her as she rocked her hips against mine again. This time her hips jutted out towards him.

“I need more. Please.” She begged. Her hips grinded against mine again. My eyes closed as I felt her tighten once again but this time instead of one finger, I felt two and then three. I heard her gasp and when I opened my eyes and looked towards him, he had a pool of spit falling onto her ass and eventually it trailed past her asshole and onto my balls. I looked to her as her eyes remained closed and her mouth slightly agape.

“Fuck, she looks so beautiful Severus.” I said and his eyes snapped to look at me. I saw his hand moving and realized he was stroking himself. His hands met mine on her hips to stop her from moving. I felt the tip of his cock stroke against her pussy slightly before the pressure of him being close to mine became almost too much for me. Feeling him inside her made friction so great that my vision blurred and darkened slightly. He started to thrust into her and when he did his balls would slap against mine. I didn’t think I would enjoy the feeling, but it stopped me from moving. The feeling of him started to cloud my vision just as much as I imagined it was clouding hers.

“Well, well, well. I knew you three were enjoying yourselves.” Our heads turned to the voice we all heard and there the man stood that I feared.

“Don’t stop. I was enjoying the show.” He said and I felt everything inside me stiffen. None of us moved but stared at him in shock.

“I said do not stop!” He yelled out and I felt her body stiffen more and as she locked eyes with him she grinded her hips against me, but I heard Severus moan, and I felt my chest tighten. Fuck this woman has a hold on me.

“You two feel so fucking good.” She moaned against my skin refocusing her eyes onto me. This angle is killing me. I want to drill into her.

“Severus. I need to move.” I said and I watched as his arm snaked around her waist and pulled her further onto him. I heard her moan, and I felt my cock stiffen further. It was becoming painful. I needed to release.

Her back was now on Severus’ chest and then the movement that came from the corner of my eye came into focus. He was moving towards her.

“Do not-” I was starting to say.

“Shush boy. I am only trying to help.” He said before positioning Severus to hold onto her legs. She was wide open and in front of me. Everything on display. Severus’ hips were bucking into her and the moans coming from her mouth made precum come out of my cock.

“If you do not feast then I will.” I heard the voice and as he was making the move to take my place, I sunk down in front of her. Instead of placing my cock back inside her I placed my head between her lips and licked her wet pussy lips and buried my face into her. My nose was brushing against her clit, and I felt her hands grab onto my head and pushed me further into her.

“What a show Lucius. How does she taste? How does he taste?” I heard his voice and ignored him. His presence was not going to ruin the moment for me. I licked another long strip against her opening and met her clit and bit down onto it. I felt her hand squeeze onto my head more before I repositioned myself. I pressed the tip of my cock into her and without any warning I felt his hands on my hips, and he slammed me into her.

“I heard when the Fae cum it’s the undoing for everyone that is near them. I want to see if it is true.” Voldemort said and I realized his hands felt like ice compared to her skin. His grip tightened on my waist as he pulled me completely out of her and slammed me back into her. Her head lulled to one side of Severus who had sweat beading down his head.

“I can’t last much longer.” He moaned into her ear. I smacked his hands off my hips before bringing her legs up and resting them against my shoulders before rocking my hips forward and waiting until I heard the familiar moan come from her to let me know I was hitting her g-spot. Her eyes rolled slightly squeezing shut tightly. I gained my balance before jutting my hips into her. With every thrust getting rougher and sloppier as she screamed and moaned out.

“That’s it. Cum for them. Let it be your undoing.” We heard his voice coo and mock us. I rammed into her, and I felt her pussy clutch onto me tightly before sliding out and slamming back in moving my hand between her legs and lightly tracing her clit with my thumb. I put just enough pressure into it that she started to loosen around me.

“Fuck Oh fuck!” She screamed out and then she started to squirt all over me. Fuck there it is. It was a euphoric feeling that passed through me before balls that were not mine tightened and I her a guttural moan and as I looked down, I saw Severus biting into her shoulder and his hands cupped and squeezed her breast. Everything was too much as I felt my thighs and balls tense. I started to spill into her. Every drop of cum leaving my body and into hers.

“That’s it gentlemen. Good job. Now get out of my way.” We heard Voldemort say and as we both fell out of her his arm reached between the two of us. He grabbed onto her neck and pulled her away and before we had any chance to react, he held his hand up to the two of us and it stopped our movements.

“Look at you Fae. You look almost beautiful when you are spent like this. Now it is my turn.

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Hidden Away Chapter 4

Readers POV:

The sweats were creeping on me. The memory of my parents taking turns yelling at me for being stupid and meaningless to them filled my head. Hearing my mother yell at me for being an awful child and my father screaming at me for being useless. It haunted my dreams. I felt the sting of the belt across my back and legs before I sat up panting. I had woken up and it was still dark out. What time is it? You know what I don’t care. I need to breathe. This place is starting to feel stuffy. I don’t know how that is possible though as everywhere is huge. I got off the bed and with a wave of my hand I was freshened up and with a new set of clothes on. Another long sleeve shirt and jeans. I opened the door as quietly as I possibly could and walked out and into the common room. I didn’t see anyone in there, so I walked out of the door and into the main hallway. I slowly walked down the dark hallway and didn’t worry about using a light to get around. I had no intention of going very far.  At least not yet. I don’t want to get lost.

“If we go then we need to do it now. Wait do you hear someone?” I heard someone say. Alright not the best thing in the world. Someone heard me and I am sure this is not going to be good. They don’t seem young though.

“Who is there?” I heard a voice say. I felt my throat close. The anxiety was making hard for me to say anything once again.

“Lumos.” I heard one of the voices say and then a light shined on me. A wand pointed at my face and two grown men were looking at me. Lupin. Oh, thank God I thought I was going to make an enemy.

“My word you startled us. I would suggest not doing that when you are surrounded by wizards dear. A lot of us might just say a spell that might hurt you if you just sneak up on people. Where is your wand?” Professor Lupin asked. The anxiety was still pretty high which explains as to why I collapsed instead of saying anything. I couldn’t get my breathing under control, and I began to hyperventilate.

“Who is she Remus?” A man with black wavy hair asked him.

“This is y/n. She is the new girl I will be helping get caught up. Go and see if Snape has some calming potion, please.” Lupin said.

“Do I have to? You know he and I are not the best of buddies.” The other man said.

“Sirius go and get him to give it up or have him come see the severity of this.” Lupin said now kneeling in front of me. The man's name is Sirius. I want to tell him that this will pass but, I cannot get the words out. I become useless when my anxiety attack gets to this point. I hate how my body betrays me.

“What in god's name is she doing out of her room at this time of night.” I heard the deep rumble of the voice and then a female voice that hummed behind it.

“Are you alright dear?” I heard and it was the woman that stood next to the hat that told me I was a Slytherin.

“Here, go ahead and drink some of this.” Professor Snape said and handed me a small vile. I took it from his hand and when my fingers brushed against his hand, I felt something in my body shift weirdly. What was that? I felt like my breath was returning to normal and the anxiety was coming down. I took a sip from the vile though. I didn’t want to make anything weird for anyone else. I handed back the vile and eventually my head felt like it was not being squeezed anymore. The knot in my chest eased and I felt better. It felt like everything in my head that caused some doubt was now gone. This is a rather weird feeling.

“When she is better, please see it she gets back into her dorm.” The woman professor said.

“By the way dear I am Professor McGonagall.” She said before turning away and returning to her private chambers. The three men peered over to me, and I felt myself drift into a slumber.

 Lupins POV

“What did you give her Snape?” I asked and he looked at me.

“It was just the calming potion. It is possible it was the only reason she woke up. Go on I will get her back into her room.” He said to me, and I felt like something was a bit off with her. I know she mentioned she had some issues with her family but, why would that cause any issues here?

“Let me help you.” I said.

“I can do it just fine thank you.” He said and looked between her and I.

“When did the two of you meet?” Snape asked me, narrowing his eyes at me.

“On the train. What are you suggesting Severus?” I asked.

“Nothing. Nothing at all. Fine then you carry her.” He said and turned away from me. I reached towards her and pulled her closer to me. The child was incredibly light. Unnaturally light. I followed Snape towards the common room, and he said the password to get the door to open. When it opened for him, he stepped in, and I followed behind him. He walked me over to the room she was assigned, and I rested her on the open bed and escorted myself and Snape out of the room.

“What happened that got her to the state she was in?” He asked me.

“I do not know.” I said and looked to him.

“We will all have to work on that tomorrow I suppose.” Snape said and then turned away from me and I assume he is descending back into his chamber.

“Remus, why was she panicked? It almost seems like someone here was able to calm her nerves before she drank the potion.” Sirius asked me.

“It is odd that she calmed after grabbing it from Severus. Maybe it was an act.” I said and we walked down the hallway trying to look for any other students that might be roaming the halls this late at night.

Readers POV:

I woke up rubbing my head from the headache I had. What happened? I don’t remember falling back asleep in this room. Matter of fact I don’t remember getting back into the room last night. The last thing I remember is being surrounded by three men when Professor McGonagall left.

“Hey, glad your awake. Let’s go get some breakfast.” The girl who waited for me last night said. I followed her to the great hall and smiled when I saw the amount of people at the Slytherin table. Just take a deep breath. You will get through the day. I almost made it to a spot at a table before Sir Malfoy came into my view and motioned for me to follow. I grabbed a muffin from the table and followed him.

“May I ask where we are going?” I asked him.

“Diagon Alley. You need some supplies that we cannot get at Hogsmeade.” He said and I continued to follow at least a foot behind him so I could eat the muffin.

“I wouldn’t do that if I were you. Come here.” He said and I was confused but when he held his arm out for me, and I grabbed onto it I felt a pain in my stomach and then it was like it was doing a hundred flips within a second. My feet planted on the ground, and I fell over holding onto my stomach. He is right I should not have done that. I can feel it all trying to come back up.

“Clearly this is also another thing you do not know about?” He asked but, it sounded my rhetorical.

“No. Sorry I guess I am truly dimwitted when it comes to all of this stuff.” I said and he smiled. He is rather handsome. I felt everything feel like it was ready to escape but, instead of letting it I righted myself.

“Well, come on let's go get you a wand and then we need to go and pick up some uniforms for you. Maybe some leisurely outfits. My wife Narcissa will be joining us for that. She has mentioned missing someone to shop with. I suppose it will be good for the both of you.” He said. He is something else. I don’t want to meet everyone within a span of two days. That is a lot for anyone to process. I followed along letting my brain dissociate when we walked from store to store. That was until we stopped into the wand store, and I heard something sound like it was screeching. Actually, quite a bit in here sounded as if it were getting murdered. My nose scrunched and my eyes closed tightly as I reached to cover my ears. It is a rather unpleasant noise. I felt a hand touch my shoulder and I shook it off.

“This place is rather loud.” I said and he looked at me seeming amused.

“There is no sound.” He said. I could barely hear him through the screeches. What does he mean there is no sound?

“Miss, what can I help you with?” The man behind the counter asked. I looked around trying to find something that might stick out to me. Yet the only thing coming to mind is something that looked like a branch that had an emerald gemstone on it.

“Do you have a pen and paper?” I asked.

“I have quill and parchment.” He said scooting it towards me. I drew what I saw in my mind to the best of my ability before covering my ears again. He looked at the parchment and smiled.

“That is an old wand.” He said to me but, his eyes looked towards Mr. Malfoy.  

“It should work still, correct?” He asked. The man nodded before going into the back of the stock row. He pulled it out and the box looked like it was deteriorating. He opened the box, and everything silenced. My eyes popped open a little and it was like the thing I had dreamed about for years was in front of me. Anytime a wand was brought up in the fairytales I read, this is the wand I envisioned. It is real and now in front of me. It is so beautiful. I reached inside the box and grabbed it.

“Go on now. See if it also chooses you.” The man and I looked to Lucius. I don’t know any wand magic.

“Try the light spell. It is Lumos.” He said and watched as I didn’t speak the words. I ran the word through my mind and the wand lit up.

“Interesting.” Lucius said.

Lucius POV:

“Interesting.” I said. She must have thought of the word instead of saying it. Yet, the wand reacted to the thought. That could be dangerous. She could accidentally cast a curse. Interesting indeed.

“How strange.” She spoke. Her eyes lit up and it was kind of amusing to see what it is like to watch someone fall in love with something so quick.

“Very well, let's get going.” I said and tossed the man a few quid for the wand, and he bid us farewell. The last place we need to stop is at the shop to meet Narcissa. She has been patiently waiting over there. She is going to love this girl unfortunately. That much I know. I am not a fan of her finding someone to befriend that isn’t me. I guess this is better than her bloody sister. Bellatrix is not my favorite person to deal with.

“Hello, you must be y/n.” I heard Cissy’s voice.

“Yes, hi, and you are his wife, I think? Wow stunning. How did he get so lucky?” Y/n said, and I looked to her and cocked an eyebrow.

“Excuse me? I am a catch.” I said and smirked. Cissy has a rather large smile on her face and dare I say she looks as though she is blushing.

“Sure but, she is way too beautiful.” Y/n said I felt myself ache a little. What a brat.

“Come now, you and I are going to do some shopping. He can go get the uniforms. I knew I would like you when I saw you.” Cissy said holding her arm out for the student. How am I to know her size.

“She appears to be a small. Go on and get her uniforms then let's take her out to lunch before you have to get her back to the school.” Cissy said and I waited for her to turn around before I walked away. She wants to treat her to lunch too. Interesting how flattery just got more money out of my pocket.

Readers POV:

“What was lifelike over in America?” Mrs. Malfoy asked me.

“I can’t say much about it. I only ever saw my room.” I said and tried to avoid eye contact.

“Here try this on.” She held up a beautiful green dress to me. It looked small even for me and I don’t know why she wants me to try it on but, I will. I took the dress from her and looked around. I didn’t see a dressing room anywhere.

“That’s right. You don’t know much magic.” She said and tried to make eye contact with me. I know the freshen up hand gesture and to change into an outfit but, I don’t want to ruin the dress. I guess it doesn’t hurt to try.

“May I show you a spell?” She asked.

“Yes, please.” I said. She put the wand in my hand and told me to say the word Multicorfors. That doesn’t make the most sense however I did what she said, and the dress appeared on me, and I looked at her.

“Wow you look beautiful.” She said. I heard someone clear their throat and when her and I looked to the side Mr. Malfoy was standing there.

“Amazing.” He said and stood by his wife.

“Well, that was quick dear.” She said and smiled at him. He slid his arm around her waist and kissed the top of her head.

“I had everything sent to her room at Hogwarts. Please tell me this isn’t the only thing she is getting.” He said to her.

“Of course, not and she isn’t getting this one. I just saw a different one I think would look breathtaking on her.” She said.

“She can get both.” Mr. Malfoy said and before I had any time to respond a new dress was put on me and it was a fitted dress. It had a corset top, so everything was popping out and the rest of the dress had a floral pattern on it with a deep forest green to fill in the empty spaces. My chest wasn’t massive to begin with but, you wouldn’t be able to tell from the fact they looked huge with the corset being tight.

“She looks stunning in it doesn’t she?” His wife said.

“Breathtaking.” He muttered while his eyes fixated to my body. Well, this is odd.

“Now that is the one she should wear to the dance.” She said but, his eyes still haven’t left my body.

“Right then. Is that everything?” He said clearing his throat. I quickly made the hand gesture to freshen up and my clothes reappeared on my body and the dress was now in my hands. Mrs. Malfoy held onto the other dress as well as a few nighttime clothes and a few others to where throughout the day. I felt my arm and I can still fill the marks raised on the skin. I am not sure how they didn’t see them but, I am lucky they didn’t.

“Let me get her back to Hogwarts Cissy. We can take her out another time but, some of the Professors need her back as soon as possible. One in particular wanted her back as soon as she had a wand in her hand.” Mr. Malfoy said, and she looked saddened by the news.

“Alright well, it was wonderful to meet you dear. We will take you to a meal one of these days. I like having your company.” She said and brought me in for a hug.

“Thank you for today. Really, I appreciate everything you two have done for me and thank you for helping me with the clothes. If you need anything, please let me know. I might not be the most useful witch but, hopefully that will change soon.” I said and hugged onto her. She seemed so incredibly nice.

Mr. Malfoy held his arm out for me, and I hesitated before grabbing onto him but, I remember how crappy this felt. I held onto him a bit tighter than the first and I closed my eyes. When I opened them again, we were standing in Professor Snape’s room, and it felt like I had been sucker punched in the gut. I leaned forward grabbing onto my stomach fighting off the urge to puke once again.

“You have got to learn to hold yourself together in order to apparate.” Lucius said and I looked at him like I wanted to hit him. After putting myself back together I stood up and looked around the room. Professor Snape, Professor Lupin, Lucius and Sirius was standing in the room.

“Well, let's get them started shall we. We were just informed you started some of the studying last night with Snape. Let's continue where you left off.” Lucius said.

I looked around at the group of people who offered to help me and realized they all had a few things about them that made them all a little similar to one another. All the professors managed to get me through an entire years' worth of lessons in one day. We did not take any breaks for meals. We just continued to work through everything. I had lost track of time because everything seemed to be rather fun.

“You catch on to things quickly.” Professor Lupin said.

“I really appreciate that you all are so willing to help me. I don’t want to keep you from your lives. If I catch on quickly then I won’t be a burden to you all.” I said letting some of the emotions I struggle to hide out.

“You are no burden to us.” Professor Lupin said. He walked over to me and nudged me a little.

“Don’t think like that. It won’t get you anywhere.” His friend Sirius followed suit. I rested myself against one of the desks.

“Do you want to continue or are you ready to be done for the day. If you can learn this quickly in a few hours, then I imagine two more days before classes start is all you will need in order to be where the other fifth years are with knowledge.” Professor Snape said. I am feeling tired but, if they all want to continue then I will. I don’t want to stop if they want to continue.

“Let’s let her get some rest. I have a feeling she would have no problem continuing but seeing as how curfew is in just a few minutes she needs to get into bed.” Professor Lupin said. I felt my stomach growl, but I held onto it to try and keep it from getting louder.

“Did you eat anything today?” Professor Lupin asked me. I nodded my head, and he mumbled something under his breath but, I didn’t quite hear what he said.

“Go on then and get to your common room. Get rest we can continue after breakfast.” Professor Snape said. He sounded annoyed but. I walked out of the classroom and started to walk to the stairs that made me sick to my stomach. Wait I think I forgot my wand in the class. I am not familiar with it enough to have it glued to my stomach.

When I got closer to the door, I heard someone speaking.

“Keep an eye on her when she is here. I might be wrong about what I saw but, I don’t think I am. She has markings all over her arms. I didn’t get a close enough look to see if they were self-inflicted but, the comment about being a burden is worrisome.” It was Mr. Malfoy. Oh god he did see the markings.

“If you are unsure then just get a closer look.” Sirius said.

“This is not something that he can do. It is a delicate situation. If it is self-inflicted and he just rips up a sleeve to look it can do a lot more damage to her.” Professor Lupin said.

“She forgot her wand. I wonder if she realizes that yet.” Sirius said. I heard a bunch of cussing and commotion. I was about to open the door when I heard someone scoff.

“Did you not see the emerald. That wand is dedicated to the person it chooses. Do not touch it. You are lucky it did not hurt you even more than it did Sirius.” Professor Snape said. Wait what? My wand hurt someone? Why did it not hurt me?

“Then how will she get it back. I was going to take it to her.” Sirius said.

“She will come back for it when she remembers it.” Lucius said.

“Shh. Wait a moment.” I heard Professor Snapes voice say. Alright time to pretend I wasn’t just eavesdropping on the conversation they were having. I knocked on the door and they flung open.

“Sorry, I realized before I was at the top of the stairs that I had forgotten my wand.” I said and grabbed it from the desk.

“Goodnight.” I said to the group of men before walking away for the second time.

“How much do you suppose she heard? Sirius asked.

“I am going to assume nothing until she says otherwise.” Professor Lupin said.

I managed to make it to the common room and into my room when I noticed the girl going through my things.

“What are you doing?” I asked her.

“Where did you get all of this stuff?” She asked. I waved my hand, and everything put itself away.

“They were a gift.” I said and tried to ignore that she was being nosey.

“That is nice of whoever gifted that stuff to you. I mean they even got you a dress for the dance. That is impressive. You have been here for five minutes, and you are already being treated as if you are better than the rest of us. I am going to go to Pansy’s room for the night.” She made her snide remark and then left the shared room. That is fine with me I would rather be alone anyway.

Lucius saw the markings on my arms. This is not what I wanted. I looked at some of the books that I was given and one of them was filled with spells. I opened it and started to do a personal dive into it to try and find something to help me cover up the marks in case one of them decides to just pull on a sleeve. It took an hour of looking but I did find a masking spell and I used my wand to say it and pointed it directly to my arm. All of the scars had successfully been hidden and that took some of the stress away. No one will see the ones on the rest of my body. I pointed it the markings on my chest that the dress barely managed to hide and masked those ones as well. Everything else should be fine to keep visible.

I know Professor Lupin said that I was not a burden but, I don’t believe him. I think I am probably the biggest burden they have come across. Honestly my aunt and uncle were right when they told me I was worthless and an annoyance to their house. I assume it will be no different here.  I mean truly they had to have some truth to what they were saying all of these years. Why would they same something for so long if it didn’t have some kind of truth through it. I looked towards the bag that I brought. I wonder if it is still in the bag or was it put away. Technically that would be put away if it stayed in the bag. I walked over to the bag and started to look throughout it, and I can’t seem to find what I was looking forward. Alright so I wonder if I left it inside the pocket of my jacket. It is possible so I walked over to the closet and grabbed my jacket from it. I reached into the pocket and there it was. I wrapped my fingers around the blade and pulled it out. I closed the closet and sat on my bed. Just until the feeling of being a burden is not in the forefront of my mind. Just until the feeling of not existing anymore goes away. I would rather feel the pain this brings. Maybe I will get lucky and hit something important. I don’t want to deal with this anymore. I changed into a longer nightgown so I can expose my legs. I pulled the dress up and looked towards my thighs. They were almost completely covered in the markings. I opened my legs and saw a clear spot on the inside of my thigh. I put the blade to the skin and as it kissed it, I dragged it across the skin and with the sting and burning sensation, it made the feelings started to intense and then disappear. I became fixated on cutting the skin that I started to dig a hole onto the inside of my thigh. The blood was starting to pool onto the bed as I continued to dig the blade into the inside of my thigh. I finally got pulled out of my fixation when I heard a light knock on the door.

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Hidden Away Chapter Three

READERS POV

“Time to get up.” I heard someone say. It sounded like Professor Lupin but, surely all of this is just a dream.

“Come on now. Time to get up.” I felt someone nudge me a little and I jolted awake.

“Sorry about that.” I said. I sat up and then proceeded to stand up.

“Off you go. I can help escort you to the great hall. There is where you can find your cousin if you wish to.” Lupin said and I smiled at him.

“Thank you again.” I said.

“Nonsense. You do not have to say thank you so often you know. It is kind but, if you do that for anytime that someone helps you then for the next couple of months your tongue will fall out.” Lupin said and smiled.

“Sorry about that. It is just a habit. I am having a hard time breaking it.” I said and he smiled.

“That’s quite alright.” He said and smiled. He walked along my side into the massive castle like building.

“This place is beautiful.” I said. It was very breathtaking. I have only seen something that looked like this in my dreams from the books I had read. All of which fairytales and right now they do not seem so make believe.

“Haven’t experienced a place like it?” Lupin asked.

“No, I was trapped inside of my room in my parents' home. I never got to see much. They didn’t even let me get past kindergarten when I was younger.”  I said.

“Your life sounds depressing.” He said.

“Yeah, I suppose it does.” I said and followed him into the great hall. There were so many kids that it made my anxiety act up. I wanted to reach out and hold onto something or someone but, I let my feet plant firmly on the ground as more people surrounded us all. Everything around me blurred. My vision was going in and out. I thought I was going to pass out. My hands got slightly damp. I started to sweat. My body began to sway. I heard a loud and booming voice but, I couldn’t hear the words. I feel like I am going to pass out. I felt a hand on my shoulder. They put a little pressure on it and then squeezed it. When I looked to the side, I recognized that it was my cousin William.

“I know it is a lot but, everything will be okay. I promise. They have called your name though.” He said and when everyone around me turned towards me I felt even more of the pressure.

“Don’t fall it will be embarrassing.” He whispered to me, and I realized he wasn’t wrong. This is so weird.

“Y/N Y/L/N come up here deary.” The woman said and she was holding a hat up. Surely her arm must be tired. Why wouldn’t she just use a spell to hold it up for her. I made my way over to the chair next to her and sat on it. The hat hovered over my head and the grumbling started. It mumbled to itself.

“Who are you?” The hat asked me, and I responded with my name.

“I know that much but why are you here.” It asked. I don’t know if I should say anything.

“Alright then. Ravenclaw it is.” It said and before I stood to move away it mumbled something else.

“No. No that is not right. Hufflepuff… No, still not right. Your nerves are clouding my judgement child.” The hat said and I looked at the woman next to me who had her lips puckered and she was looking to an older man with a white beard.

“Slytherin. That mind when not scared is dark.” The hat said and I waited another moment before the hat yelled next. I guess I am a Slytherin whatever that means. A blonde boy approached me and grabbed my arm.

“I am Draco. My dad mentioned that I had to help you. Here is your first lesson. Stay away from Potter.” Draco snapped at me.

“Is he your boyfriend or something?” I asked. I have heard of same sex relationships I just have never seen or witnessed it in person.

“What? No!” He practically yelled at me.

“Sorry.” I said and looked towards my hands. I didn’t mean it in a rude way but, it sure had no problem coming out that way.

“Right then, sit down.” He said and I followed his guidance. The rest of the kids got sorted into their house. I was the only older kid that needed to be sorted so I felt a bit odd. I was eighteen and I was being sorted as if I was some 10–14-year-old child. I don’t like being made to be an odd one out. I looked at the table in front of me and with the final words of the older gentleman and the clap of his hand's food appeared in front of us.

“Eat something. We do not have to opportunity to snack later.” Draco said. I took a piece of bread from the table and started to bite into it. It tasted amazing. I haven’t had something to eat in what felt like ages but, that is because it was my fault.

“Ms. y/l/n when you are done with your food then see to it that you get to my class. Draco may escort you.” A deep voice rumbled through my ears. His voice was like music to my ears.  I set the piece of bread down on the plate that was in front of me and got up. I removed myself from the table and started to follow behind the professor. Once I stepped into the hall behind him, he turned around.

“Did you not want to finish eating?” His words were drawn out. His face looked relaxed but, he sounded annoyed.

“I had enough. I am full. I want to join you to the classroom if you don’t mind.” I said quietly.

“Very well. Come along then.” He said and turned around. He smelt like cedarwood and maple. It was a lovely smell, but it was strong.  It was giving me a headache. We stepped onto the platform of the stairs, and they began to move, and I held on to the railing like I was afraid I was going to fall. He was moving towards the bottom of the stairs, but I had let my body fall to a sitting position on one of the steps.

“Come along.” He said once the stairs stopped moving and I couldn’t find myself to stand.

“They will move again if you do not hurry.” He hollered to me and that is what forced me to get up. I found myself rushing down the stairs and speed walking the hallway to catch back up to him. He is a rather fast man. He looks like he is gliding or floating along the ground rather than walking. He looks like a walking silhouette rather than a man that is standing in front of me.

“Professor what is your name?” I asked and he huffed.

“Professor Snape. I suppose you wouldn’t want a little lesson tonight, would you? I am rather bored and have a little time at the moment.” He said walking towards the desk with his back towards me.

“I would love one.” I said and felt a small smile creep upon my face once again. I quickly shook my head to get the smile off my face when he turned around.

“Eager to learn?” He questioned.

“Yes, I am very eager. I don’t know much of magic I wasn’t allowed to practice so I don’t know much.” I said.

“Weren’t allowed to practice? Do explain.” He said. Some of the words had a certain pop to them and it was a rather amusing sound.

“I don’t want to bore you with the details. I would rather just jump right in to studying the material and practicing.” I said and he looked at me. His expression showed that he was not amused with the answer, but he turned away from me once again. He grabbed a couple of books and walked over to me. He pulled a chair out in front of one of the desks and sat down.

“Have a seat then.” He said so I sat across from him and looked at the books he had on the table. One of them was about potions and the other referred to something that was called Defense Against the Dark Arts. I looked from the books up to him and noticed he was staring at me.

“What is Defense Against the Dark Arts?” I asked.

“It is a way to defend yourself against dark magic. It is in the name. This might be more frustrating than I thought.” He sneered at me.

“No, I mean yes, it is in the name and yes, I understand what defending myself means but, what is the dark arts?” I asked.

“Dark magic, there is a lot of magic that can be used to harm people. Some forbidden curses that can inflict pain or even kill people.” He said as if I was still just a mere stupid child.

“Alright then, I am ready to learn.” I said. He cocked an eyebrow up and then proceeded to grab that book first. He started to teach me some standard things seeing as how I did not have a wand.

“Well, there she is. Eager isn’t she.” I heard the cocky voice.

“Very. Can you take her to get a wand in the morning? This is pointless if she does not have the bare necessity in order to cast spells.” Professor Snape said.

“I can take her now. If she wants to learn mine as well get her going.” Lucius said.

“They are not open right now.” Professor Snape said.

“Then I shall make them open.” Lucius said.

“Just see it that it is gotten by morning. It is late. I didn’t realize that it was past curfew. Get to bed.” Professor Snape said.

“Where are those exactly?” I asked.

“That’s right. You wouldn’t know that yet. Very well, follow me.” Professor Snape said and started towards the door. I followed him and started to struggle to keep up but, I finally managed to get behind him.

“Keep up or you will surely fall behind.” He said. His scent was intoxicating. I know I am just going to annoy everyone here. This is going to bother everyone. Everyone that is surrounding me at the very least or have to try and stop what they are doing in their everyday lives to just try and get me caught up to speed. I started to rub my arms where the sleeves were covering, and I felt the markings that were raised on my arms. They stung but, there isn’t much that I can do that will stop them from burning or stinging.

“Pure blood is the password for your common room, and they are the way to the dormitories. Do not tell anyone else what the password is.” Professor Snape said and dismissed himself. I whispered the password to the painting, and it opened up. This is so new to me. Where exactly is my room though? I still do not know.

“Are you y/n?” A girl with long black hair asked me. I nodded my head, and she pulled me towards one of the rooms. There was an empty bed, but my belongings were on it.

“This is our room. I just wanted to make sure you got into it before I had fallen asleep. Nice to meet you.” She said. Thank God. I am exhausted. I didn’t realize just how tired I was though until I laid down on the bed after moving my bag. I waved my hand, and all of my belongings put themselves away in the drawers that were given to me. I didn’t bother to even get changed for bed I just had drifted off to sleep.

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Hidden Away Chapter Two

“Come now. Let's get you over to the platform.” Tom said.

“You are going to love Hogwarts if you have not been able to practice magic much.” William said walking alongside me.

“It sounds like I will. I haven’t had much experience but, I am hoping to learn as much as I can.” I said and he smiled.

“You will have plenty of time to have fun with magic.” William said.

“It sounds like the majority of the magic I will use is going to be in classes which is actually very exciting.” I said and the smile that fell upon my face was odd. I have not had anything that made me feel this happy. Happiness no longer comes easily for me. It is just foreign to me. I am not sure I like how it feels considering my face kind of hurts.

I wish my parents would have just sent me here earlier. Maybe had they sent me here once they figured out, I had the abilities then I wouldn’t feel the way I do right now. I guess I will truly never know. I wish these two were my parents. Maybe everything would be different. I managed to ignore my surroundings by putting myself on an autopilot mindset. When I finally came to and looked at my surroundings, we were in the middle of a train station and people were running into a column.

“Excuse me, what is happening?” I asked.

“We are getting onto the platform 9 ¾ but, we have to run into it. It will always be between the pillars 9 and 10. Just run right into it dear.” Amber said and I looked at her and continued to watch others run right into it.

“The one’s going into that now are Ron and Harry. They are kind but, Harry is a bit of a famous wizard. He has survived a lot. They haven’t bothered to notice me though.” William said and went from watching them, to looking at me and then looking at the ground.

“Surely, that will change though. Have you talked to them at all?” I asked.

“Oh god no. I would rather be a fly on a wall when it comes to them. They are almost always getting into trouble, or they find themselves in trouble.” William said looking at me once again.

“Alright go on. I will meet you on the other side. Don’t stop right once you get on the other side. Move so you don’t get run over by the rest of us.” William said and nudged me forward. I stepped closer to the pillar and ran through it with my bags. I did as William instructed and moved out of the way. Within another moment William was at my side, and he wrapped his arm around mine and moved me towards the carriage that had all the belongings in it.

“Here you are, thank you for loading everything for us.” William said to someone that was moving their wand back and forth moving their wand with every luggage.

“You are welcome.” They said and William pulled me towards the entrance of the train. This is amazing. I have never been on one before. This is incredible. I mean it truly is amazing.

“Now my friends and everyone do not know about you obviously. Why don’t you come sit with us.” William said and I looked at him.

“I don’t want to ruin your moment with your friends. Really, I should find somewhere to sit. You do not have to babysit me. When we get there, I will find you okay?” I said and he smiled.

“Thank you. Are you sure?” He asked with a smile.

“Of course. I will see you whenever we get there.” I said and he sped away. They must have a specific spot they always sit in. I am starting to notice I don’t see many adults on the train. You would think there would be given that it is filled with kids.

“Move along now.” I heard a voice say so I started to move. I followed the train to the back cart where I saw two slots open. Both had people in it but, the one on the right had only one whereas the one on the left was occupied by three people. All of which looked like adults. I opened the trolley to the one on the right and lightly tapped on the door to get the persons attention who had their head in a book.

“Hello, would it be alright if I joined you?” I asked.

“Yes, of course have a seat. What is your name?” The male asked.

“I am Y/N. What might yours be?” I asked and they smiled.

“I am Professor Lupin. You must be the student that I will be training on occasion.” He said and the accent everyone has influences my thoughts on them. Professor Lupin is an attractive man. I can’t imagine what it would be like to hear him while he teaches.

“Really? You are one of my instructors?” I asked my eyes opening a little bigger.

“But of course. The other trolly across the way has a few of the other ones but, we will let them be. What do you know about magic? I have heard a little about your situation but, I am having a hard time understanding why someone would not let you practice.” Lupin said.

“My parents are against any magic. I don’t know much. I managed to know about the stuff I could do with just my hands but, I was not allowed to practice anything with their knowledge. Again, I really do not know much.” I said and looked towards my hands.

“Well then learning even the basics would probably be a treat then, wouldn’t it?” He asked.

“Yes, I am looking forward to being able to learn and practice everything.” I said.

“I must say I am pretty tired. I might try and close my eyes for a bit.” Professor Lupin said.

“Goodnight professor.” I said and saw him rest his head against the window. I pulled my legs up to my chest and hugged onto them. It will only be for a little while. I just have to remind myself of that. I am eighteen and this will not last forever. This is only temporary. No one is ever going to like me at this school. I am just going to be odd here. Already behind with parents who could care less about me. Really with parents that didn’t want me. I am tired of this. After everything I went through back home how I survived my own self is beyond me. I moved to rest my head on my knee when the trolley door opened.

“Lupin have you seen the new girl? I would like to introduce myself seeing as how I get to teach the girl.” Another voice said. I kept my head on my knees and did not move. The voice sounded like when they spoke the words, they weren’t happy with the thought of having to teach someone. However, the accent again was amazing. I keep forgetting that here, I am the one with the accent. The way they speak is the native speech over here.

“She is right there but, she might be asleep. Let her be Lucius. She is probably exhausted. It must have been quite the trip to get here.” Lupin said.

“Right then. I will just join you until she awakes and then I will introduce myself.” Lucius said.

“Do you have to torture me with your presence?” Lupin said and I felt like I was going to give it away that I in fact was not asleep. I had to try my hardest to stifle the laugh that threatened to leave my body but, I did manage, and I closed my eyes.

“She does not act as if she is asleep. I don’t know many people who are able to sleep with all of their muscles flexed in order to keep their body so close to them. Girl, are you awake?” Lucius said and I felt something like a stick tap my foot. Do not move. Do not show that you are awake.

“Leave her be. She again is probably tired. Let her rest.” Lupin scowled at Lucius.

“She is awake. Her breathing is not shallow enough. Her grip tightened when I smacked her leg. It is impolite to ignore an adult.” Lucius said and I finally dropped my act and let my legs go. I brought my arms close to my chest and looked towards the man that was talking. His hair was very white. His jaw was sharp and eyes semi-dark.

“See, not asleep. Now my name is Lucius Malfoy. For the time being I am to use my leave from the ministry to get you caught up. My son Draco will assist in some of the lessons when it comes to defending yourself. Do not disappoint me.” Lucius said and I looked at him and then over to Lupin.

“Alright, well thank you-" I was in the middle of saying something but, he cut me off.

“American accent. You sound silly girl. Hopefully eventually that will change. I know your parent's voices must have changed going into America. I just figured you would have at least a hint of an accent. Such a shame to destroy you.” Lucius added.

“That is enough. She will see you during her lesson. Time for you to leave. We both would like rest.” Lupin said and stood up to dismiss Lucius. Once Lucius was no longer in the room, I felt truly exhausted.

“I apologize for his arrogance. He will never apologize to you. It is not in his nature.” Lupin said.

“Get some rest. It is going to be a long day when we arrive. They are going to sort everyone into their houses and then from there you will start your classes. That is, you alone though. Everyone else starts in a few days but, you need at least the basics to get through the day.” Lupin said and I smiled.

“Thank you. I look forward to it.” I said before resting my head against the wall and felt myself doze off.

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Hidden Away

*Sorry for being away for so long*

TRIGGER WARNING:

This book might be too depressing for some. It is going to contain a lot of angst, some slow burns, and talk of depressing topics.

This will have a series of depressing thoughts coming from the main character played as Y/N.

This contains topics such as

Depression

Anxiety

Self-harm

Suicidal thoughts

Suicidal thoughts

Sexual assault.

Physical abuse.

This is going to be something the also contains in later chapters:

Smut

Breath play

Age-gap

Degradation

Shaming

This is not intended for everyone. This in not at all to run along sign the other passage I am writing which is American Amongst The Brits. This is to be read on its own. I will try to post to both frequently but, this is a favoring one for me at the moment as it is an escape from the current feelings brought on by the seasons. I do hope you enjoy the read. I intended to write this as if it were something that someone could relate to other than the smut sections. I hope you enjoy the read.

Please comment if you enjoy the read. It does bring joy to me to see the comments.

Chapter One:

Another year at a school. However, I was sent to a new country where I knew no one. I had a cousin here who lived in the UK but I have never met or heard of them. Yet here I am about to go to school with them. I don’t even know if they know I exist. My father hated his brother. His brother was a wizard who married a witch. My father was ordinary who married an ordinary woman so when I sneezed and something to do with magic happened it was like I was disowned. Mind you from what they told me when I first sneezed, I was merely a baby.

They raised me to believe that if I were to give into the temptation of learning any magic that it was the work of the Devil and that I would be damn to hell for eternity. My dad, I think, blames me for what happened to my sister and brother. They both never had magic but, when they played with me and something weird would happen, I was the one to take the blame. It was eighteen years of this before they found out the could legally get rid of me. We have always lived in America from my understanding but, clearly my parents have lived here in the United Kingdom. They had British accents that had slowly mended into an American accent. I was born in America and to hide the past they tried their best to make sure I only had an American accent. Some how I just know this will be a problem here. It is probably best to pretend that I am mute at this school.

“Hello dear. It is so good to finally meet you. Welcome to the family home. I am Amber and this is your Uncle Tom. This is your cousin William.” They said and I looked at them and just felt out of place. They were all well-kept, and it was as even the house knew I did not belong here.

“Hi I am y/n. I guess it is nice to finally meet you. I know it’s a bit rude to say this but, I truly did not know any of you existed until just this month.” I said and Tom and Amber smiled at me.

“I knew sweetheart. That is not your fault though. We also did not know in the beginning but he did call and inform us about your abilities at your very first sneeze. He thought we had cursed you with the abilities. He never did understand that it is something you are born with.” My uncle Tom said and of course I should have assumed my dad would do the sort.

“Come now darling. Come inside. Let’s get some food inside of you.” My aunt Amber said. She grabbed onto my shoulder and pulled me into a hug inside of her house. Tom and William just waved at me and escorted me to the table alongside her. She sat beside me and in front of us was a feast. It was odd to see so much food.

“What is America like?” William asked me.

“I am not too sure. I had a lot of strict rules I was forced to follow just because of my abilities. I wasn’t allowed out of the house and once I got into trouble in kindergarten, they forced me to homeschool. I didn’t get to see much outside of my home there. My mother and father didn’t even let me spend time with my siblings.” I said and looked towards my lap. I am fighting back tears right now because I love my siblings deeply but, even they began to be ashamed of me when my parents did not let their friends come over because people forgot I existed. I was just a name they whispered and if their friends came over, they would be questioned about why I was not in school. Then they would have got into trouble and could have ended up in jail. To everyone, I no longer existed.

“You are accepted here dear. You do not have to hide who you are here. Now William is just slightly younger than you, so he is in a different grade, however they are going based off age and that puts you at the start of fifth year. It is a bit advanced. Do you have any knowledge on your magical abilities?” Tom asked.

“I-“I started to say but, I do not wish to get into trouble with them.

“If you have practiced in secret, I promise you will not get into trouble.” Tom said.

“I have practiced. I just don’t have much knowledge outside of hand magic.” I said and Tom smiled.

“Mind showing me something that you have practiced?” Tom asked.

“Really?” I asked and smiled.

“Please.” He said. I waved my hand, and the table cleared. I waved it again and it was put away. I waved my hand once more and I had cleaned up any mess that remained. I waved it for a fourth time and my bags appeared inside the house.

“I am impressed.” Tom said and I felt myself feel something that might be considered happiness.

“Really?” I asked.

“Yes. You have managed to learn a lot by being so sheltered from it. How were you able to study and practice it in my brothers’ house without him knowing?” My uncle Tom asked.

“I only practiced when everyone was asleep and only when they were not at home.” I said.

“We learned how to do that before our first year though dad.” William said and then I felt the happiness drain from me.

“That is only because you had people teaching you. You had someone there to help you practice. You had someone to applaud for everything you had done. She didn’t get the opportunity to have that though.” Tom said. William put his head down slightly.

“Sorry, I do not want to cause any trouble.” I said and looked at my hands. Things around me started to shake a little and it had felt like everything around me was unstable. Stop thinking like this. It is going to become a problem. I tried to silence my mind and when I managed to do it everything around me stopped shaking.

“My-my you are quite powerful. Does that happen often?” I heard Tom ask.

“What do you mean?” I asked him a bit confused.

“Does that happen when you are upset? Do things seem to feel unstable and become rather shaky? That does not happen to everyone. Matter of fact I haven’t heard of that happening before now.” Uncle Tom said and My Aunt Amber just looked at me with her mouth slightly ajar.

“Yes. I have tried many times to control it. No one over there knows this stuff I don’t think. So, they would think it was an earthquake and I would just have to go with it and pretend it wasn’t me who created the problem. Of course, my father would know it was me and then some stuff would happen.” I said and returned my eyes to the table.

My aunt Amber clapped her hands, and all the food reappeared in front of us but on plates.

“Are you not hungry?” She asked me. I shook my head and just played with my hands under the table.

“I do want to let you know the school you are going to relies on magic. It is taught in every subject. You have a few professors who have offered to aid in getting you caught up and trained with the necessary spells. However, there is always a problem professor, and I must warn you he has offered to assist you because he thinks it is going to be a testimony to how great of a wizard he is.” Uncle Tom said and I felt myself smile.

“Really? Everything is just purely magic?” I asked.

“Absolutely.” He said and smiled.

“The teachers there are nice?” I asked.

“They are called professors here dear. For the most part the majority are. However, I will warn you that once again the teacher that is primarily going to be helping you is not the kindest. He has a permanent scowl on his face. There is also one other who is not a teacher but has taken a temporary leave from the ministry of magic to help you get caught up as well. I do apologize if it becomes overwhelming, but it is necessary for you to get every bit of knowledge. He added and I smiled.

“Oh, that is kind of that person. Are they kind? I haven’t been around nice people before.” I said.

“Kind is not the word we would use for him. He is a Slytherin. He feels very entitled. He also has an ego that is massive. He is also arrogant. I would never use the word kind in association with him. I barely like to use his name but, it is best you know it. His name is Lucius Malfoy. He is Draco Malfoy’s father and for you I would just address him by his last name.” He said and started to eat the food in front of him. This encouraged William and Amber to eat.

“When will I be going to this school?” I asked.

“We will be leaving here shortly to get you to the platform. William will be sure to get you to classes. That is until you are able to get to them on your own.” He said and I looked towards William, and he smiled.

“Thank you I really appreciate it.” I said. They all continued to eat but, I avoided it. I don’t want to upset my stomach. There was not much I could do about it anyway. My stomach doesn’t tolerate food that well anymore. I didn’t eat properly with my family. They had these wonderful meals that would smell amazing, but I was not invited to eat with them ever. At first it hurt my feelings but, after a while it was just normal for me. The only things I was fed were peanut butter and jelly sandwiches or dry bologna sandwiches. After a while I just didn’t want to eat anymore. I will be fine though. I think this is just nerves.

“Why not go and freshen up and afterwards we will get you over to the platform to get you into the school. You two will ride by train and then William will take you to Hogsmeade to get some last-minute books. What you are not able to find there the teachers who have offered to help will give you the rest.” Tom said and I smiled.

“Where is the?” I started to ask where the bathroom was but, was interrupted by Tom.

“It is the second door in the hallway. It is on the left.” He said and I gave him a small smile and walked down the hallway. I went into the bathroom and looked in the mirror. I look awful. No wonder they asked me to freshen up. I waved my hand in front of my face and my appearance returned to something that was better suited to be around people. I walked out of the bathroom and noticed everything was cleaned up again and put away. William was standing by the door and so were Tom and Amber.

“My, you look wonderful. Sorry, I hope it did not come off as rude to have you go and freshen up.” Tom and Amber said together.

“It was not rude. I just wanted to say thank you for telling me to freshen up. I was unaware that I looked like that.” I said and looked down.

“Come now. Let’s get you over to the platform.” Tom said.

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American Amongst the Brits Chapter 13

Readers POV:

“Hello, y/n. My name is Voldemort. I think you might have been who I have been looking for.” The gross pale toe looking man said.

“Hi” I said and turned to face him. “I don’t know what you are talking about.” I said. Yes I do but, the less he knows the better.

“Don’t lie to me.” He said and I couldn’t help but stare at his nose or lack thereof.

“What happened to your face?” I asked. I couldn’t help it. It is fascinating the fact that he has the nostrils but no boning or tissue build up for his nose. It is odd.

“What? American accent. Rather strange.” He said.

“Just may I?” I asked and reached my hand towards his face. I moved a little closer to him but saw him take a step back.

“May you what? Lower your hand.” He said but, I did not listen to him. I stepped closer to him and out of the corner of my eye I saw Lucius and Snape watching from afar as well as others.

“What do you think you are doing?” He asked and then my hand met his face right where the nose tissue should be. His skin was cold. He somehow managed to become even more pale.

“Surely, you realize how handsome you would be if it weren’t for the disfiguration of your face. Ever thought to fix it? I mean the blue eyes could really entrap someone if you just fixed this little blemish.” I said now running my fingers against his skin.

“Get off me.” He said but he made no attempt to push me away. No magic was spoken but, rather he looked as if he were going soft in front of me. Like his guard was being lowered.

“Were you not loved as a child?” I asked. It was not intended to be mean but, it came off that way.

“Your mother tried this stunt.” He said and even though that hurt me because I didn’t know her at least she and I were alike.

“There is no stunt to pull.” I whispered to him and removed my hand from his face.

“Really?” He prodded.

“Really. I was not pulling a stunt. It was merely a question because the second I touched your face you leaned into it.” I said and gave him a slight smile.

“You are a fae just like your mother. I can smell it.” He said.

“Now don’t try and charm my panties off like that.” I said and laughed a little. I backed away from him and started to walk towards the doors of Hogwarts. I passed the two men who have managed to capture my eyes.

“I wasn’t done talking to you.” I heard him holler after me.

“Yet, I was done talking to you.” I hollered back to him.

“Crucio.” I heard him say and because my back was turned I did not have enough time to react to the spell. I fell to the ground and started to feel the pain. It was immediate. This isn’t the first time this spell has been used on me. My aunt would use it as part of her punishment to me. It would never get easier. The pain was almost to much.

“Just like your mother. You look the same when you are in pain.” He said now standing over me. “I wasn’t done talking.” He said again and I closed my eyes so I didn’t have to look at him.

“Do you not think this is rather harsh?” I heard some unfamiliar voice say. It was a female voice.

“Her mother did help you. Maybe she could as well.” A different voice said.

“Quiet!” He yelled to the two women. “You will not get the same choice your mother had. You will be a part of the dark side. You will submit to me. I will use you however I please!” He screamed towards me. I felt something even more painful than the Crucio spell. My arm was now on fire.

“No!” I screamed out at him and my skin morphed into the tattoo that was on Lucius arm. I felt the crucio spell lift from me and my body stopped feeling like it was on fire with pins and needles sticking into me. My arm still felt like it was on fire.

“Malfoy will have no problem teaching you the ways of what will happen to you if you do not listen.” He said before disappearing in front of me. I heard someone run towards me and it was not who I expected. It was Draco.

“Y/n, you will be okay. It’s okay. Mom!” He screamed before I closed my eyes and then they didn’t open. I felt myself being lifted. It fucking hurts. I don’t want anyone to touch me.

Fall..

Fall..

Fall.

I fell and suddenly I felt weightless. I heard a small gasp but, it was quick to leave my ears.

It was a few minutes before I felt safe enough to open my eyes and when I did I was in a field. It was a beautiful patch of green. There was flowers and then to my right there was a tree that was dead but, had some life still in it. I was resting on it when I saw a deer apparition near me. It was just watching me. I stayed laying on the ground and waited until I felt better. I have no clue where the hell I am. I at least feel safe here. I closed my eyes again and then I fell asleep on the ground of the forest I was in.

Lucius POV:

“What just happened? Where did she go?” I asked and Severus looked just as taken back as I was.

“Not a clue.” Severus said and right now I could not dislike him more.

“Well, we need to find her.” I said to him before feeling the painful reminder in my arm who my lord was.

“We have other things we are supposed to go to right now. Otherwise, he will think we know more than we do.” Snape said.

I looked at him before apparating to the lord we serve. I looked over and saw a distraught Draco. I walked over to him and peered down at him so he would remove the look off his face.

“Now, Lucious careful with the boy. I know he has become fond of the Fae. My question is why she is not here. I sent out the call.” Voldemort said.

“No one knows where she went.” Draco offered.

“Whatever do you mean Draco?” Voldemort questioned him.

“She disappeared in front of us.” Narcissa said. I want to look at her right now but, I can’t. She is going to get her into a trouble that no one can protect her from.

“Feeling protective of the Fae Lucius” The lord asked.

“No, sir.” I said knowing damn well he just heard my thought.

“What do you know?” He asked me.

“Nothing.” I looked down and pursed my lips a little. I covered my mouth a little before moving to a chair. I can feel my nerves creeping up on me but, they need to disappear.

“It is not wise to lie to me.” He said.

“Really, I truly no nothing.” I said. My mind cleared itself.

“Severus, are you able to locate her?” Voldemort asked him.

“No, I am not. I do not have your ability sir.” He said coldly. He was looking at me and the eye contact was more than enough to make Draco peer at the two of us. That was before I saw my boy shed a tear.

“Not here Draco.” I mumbled to him. I didn’t realize he felt close to her. That is odd. I thought he was not fond of her. He was calling her a stray.

“Very well, Lucius and Severus. You are to locate her and keep an eye on her. When she is not listening to the call you are to drag her here. I will straighten her out when I see her.” Voldemort said and I felt myself stiffen again.

“Yes sir.” I said and when he left I peered over to Snape and saw he was already looking at me. I know damn well what he is thinking. He wants to talk to me about what I almost offered the man. Draco and Narcissa left immediately, and I can’t help but feel myself wanting to yell at Draco for crying over a girl.

I watched as Snape apparated and I followed suit. We both managed to end up in the hallway outside of her room and it appears as though he had already knocked on the door.

“Miss y/l/n open the door at once.” His voice deepened when he said it and I felt myself become annoyed at him attempt to assert the dominance over her through the wall. There was no sound coming from within the room. Not even the sound of the light snores she does when she is asleep.

“Should we check the tree?” I mentioned and he peered over at me. He disappeared after a moment passed. He is rather frustrating when he does that. I would love if he started to involve me in the next thought process. I do include him in mine. I followed my instinct and went to the whomping willow tree. I don’t see her. Neither does Severus as he is looking towards me and huffing out in frustration.

“Can you hear her?” I asked. I cannot hear her. I would love to hear her mind right now. I haven’t been able to hear her since the Crucio curse was spoken. I don’t understand why I felt my chest hurt when she was hurting. I don’t understand why it felt like I was being destroyed. I have never felt like that when Narcissa was hurt.

“Where did the silly American go?” Severus asked.

“I shall ask again. Can you hear her?” I questioned and he yet again did not respond to me. The man is going to make me hurt him.

“No, I can’t. I haven’t been able to since he spoke one of the forbidden curses.” Severus said and now I can feel myself get slightly more nervous than before. Where did she go?

“Is there another way to track her?” I asked him.

“I cannot think if you continue to ask me questions.” Severus snapped at me. Always quick to anger that one but, so am I.

“The forest. Check in the forest.” I heard a voice that was barely above a whisper.

“Who said that?” I asked out loud. Severus looked at me with a confused look.

“Follow.” Is the only response I heard.

“Who are you? Where are you?” I asked again but did not see another person. Instead I saw what looked like a shadow move from the tree deeper into the forest.

“After you Severus.” I said.

“What are you talking about?” He asked me and I looked at him confused at how he was unable to see what I was seeing.

“Fine follow me.” I said and held my head up. Such a strange thing.

“You suddenly know where she is?” He asked.

“I am following a hunch.” I said and smiled as I started to follow the shadow into the forest. I hate just following something strange into a forest filled with evil but, I don’t have much choice now do I? 

Snapes POV  “Where in the hell are you taking us?” I snipped at Lucius. What is he seeing that I cannot?

“I am following a shadow that said to check the forest and instructed me to follow.” He said.

“Are you trying to get us killed. What a moronic thing for you to do. This is the forbidden forest.” I said and he quirked a smile at me.

“Wipe the smug smile off your face.” I said and it fell quickly. It has felt like we were a couple miles into the forest before a patch of light started to appear. How odd.

“Are you seeing this?” Lucius ask me.

I ignored him and walked deeper into the lit area and there she was laid on the ground and asleep. She looked paler than before. I don’t quite understand how she is losing her color. Rather I really do not understand where the light that is shining on her is coming from.

“Miss y/l/n.” I said and lightly tapped onto her arm. She had no response. I looked towards Lucius who came into my line of sight and his lips were slightly parted.

“Is she sleeping?” He asked me.

“Takes a lot of courage to ask such a stupid question Malfoy.” I quipped at him. He gave me another smug smile and knelt by her side.

“y/n wake up darling.” Lucius said and put the back of his right hand to her left cheek. Her head pressed into his touch and I can feel a little sprout of jealousy rise in my chest. Why is that she gave him a reaction. I don’t like that she reacted to his touch but not to mine. Does she feel for him? I don’t want to know the answer to that but, I think the fact that her eyes are opening right now are playing into that.

“Where am I?” Her voice was quiet. I let out a breath I was unaware I was holding when I heard her voice. I grabbed onto her and lifted her to me and pulled her into a hug.

“You are okay.” I felt something break inside me. I remember the last time I saw someone like this but, she was dead and the reminder of her was painful. I couldn’t go through losing someone like that again. I let her go from my hold and righted myself. I pushed her into Lucius’ arms and let him hold onto her. Withdraw yourself Severus. It was painful enough loving Lily then seeing her dead was enough to nearly kill me. I cannot put myself through this again. Not with a new person.

“You are in the forbidden forest darling. Lets get you to the infirmary and have the nurse look at you. How are you feeling?” Lucius asked her and I peered away from the two of them and apparated back to my room. He can handle this right now.

Lucius POV: “I don’t feel good. Everything hurts.” She said to me and again I felt ever part of me break at her quiet voice.

“I will see to it you are cared for properly. Come now. Are you able to stand up?” I asked. He shoved her into my arms and left. He was clearly inside his own head but, he should have stayed to make sure she got to the infirmary okay.

“You were there. You didn’t help me. Snape didn’t help me. Please get away from me.” The words came out slightly broken as she was getting only a couple words out through small breathes.

“I am here now. I want to help get you some where that can help you.” I said and started to reach for her when she attempted to pull away from me.

“Why didn’t you help me?” She asked and it was like she was playing with me as if I was a puppet with strings. The words faint but, strong. They had a power over me and I can’t understand why.

“I cannot help you when the Dark Lord requires my loyalty.” I whispered. I feel the shame this brings me, but she will not understand that.

“Why couldn’t you just remember me?” She asked before her eyes closed again. Her chest having a slow rise and fall to it. Is she dying? It is not possible. She shouldn’t die from that curse. It might have some pain aspect of it but, she seems strong. How do I remember you? What might have I known that I don’t know now. I ran my fingers against her forehead. Just lightly grazing my fingertips across her skin before resting my palm to her head and then leaning forward and rested my forehead against hers closing my eyes.

“Whatever I have forgotten I wish I could remember.” I whispered into the air around us before it felt as though something knocked it out of me. My eyes closed and with our foreheads touching it felt as though her thoughts and memories were my own. The intimate moments her and I have shared that I don’t remember much of before came into view. Then it went past that. I stayed every time. I saw the moment I must have decided that I liked her. I saw the moment she healed a part of me that I was sure broken. The part that Narcissa has tried to mend for me but, has had no success. She was right to wish I could remember her. She is filling in the gaps in my memory. The part that shocks me is the conversation between her and I had where I told her I had to obliviate my mind to protect her. I don’t do things like that for anyone. I must have really liked her beforehand. It really is amazing how quickly everything seemed to fall back into place for me. It all makes sense. I was willing to try and take the pain for him. It hurt me a great deal when the Dark Lord began to torture her. I have done wrong and I need to make this better somehow. I pulled my head away from hers and gave her a kiss on the forehead and let a tear escape.

“I am sorry dear. I am so very sorry for letting him hurt you.” I whispered to her. I ran my fingers against her cheek and started to feel myself harden again. I can’t let this happen again. She needs to be protected.

Snape’s POV: I can’t be around either of them right now. I just want to break something. I wanted to interfere with the Dark Lords punishment. I wanted to throw myself in front of her and take the pain for her. I can’t stand that Lucius has gotten as close to her as he has. I need him to step away from her. I don’t like feeling this way. The last way I felt remotely this close to someone they died. I don’t understand what the hell is happening to me. What has this woman done to me.

“Oh Severus.” I heard a familiar voice. What the hell?

“Lilly?�� I turned towards the voice and no one was there.

“In the window Severus.” I peered towards the windows I normally keep closed in my class and there she stood. She was with a woman that looked very similar to y/n.

“You need to protect her.” She said. My mouth parted slightly.

“How is this possible?” I asked astonished by seeing her.

“Vergho is her mother. The Fae are incredible people when they need assistance.” She said and I just wanted to throw myself into her arms and never let her go.

“I don’t understand.” I said.

“Her mother Severus is why Harry is still alive. Her mother saved my son and brought you to him. She knew what was coming and she told me. She tried to prepare me but, I didn’t listen. When he showed up I realized what my mistake was.” Lily said and even though dead still had the ability to cry.

“Lily, I-“ I started to say but she stopped me.

“Protect her. She needs you. You have something that can help her. Just look through your book and find it please. I know you can save her. Things are different for the Fae. It doesn’t take much to kill them. Had she been paying attention then she could have protected herself. The Cruatious curse has a different affect on the Fae. Save her. Save her the way I know you wanted to save me.” She said and then the two disappeared. I felt the urge to fall to my knees and grovel but, I stopped myself and made my way over to my desk and looked towards the book I keep all my notes in.

She mentioned that I have something that can help her. Why does she need my protection. What did her mother do to persuade me to look for Lily that night. I just remember the sudden fear that I was going to lose her. She married James Potter and it broke me. My heart has been broken and disfigured since that moment. I want to ask her why she chose him but, I have never gotten the chance to. I held her corpse and cried when I realized I would never get  her back. Lily was my world some time ago. I missed her every second I was alive without her. Yet y/n seems different but, some how and for some reason brings a part of me that broke back to life.

“What on bloody earth is she talking about what do I possibly have that might help her? Wait maybe that is it. I said pausing at the page before me. It is a potion to bring life back to plants but, that would be odd that it would aid her at all. I could give it a try but, I have little faith that this would work on her.

Lucius POV:

“Stay with me please y/n. Come on open your eyes darling.” I said and tried to jostle her a little but, nothing was working. What the hell happened to her. The cure is only to inflict pain upon a person.

“Move out of my way Lucius.” Severus said to me and I noticed he had a vile of something in his hand.

“What are you doing?” I asked but, I received no answer from him. Instead he poured whatever potion in her mouth and then plugged her nose in order to force her to swallow it.

“I hope this works.” He said and continued to watch her as her body lurched forward only a moment later.

“What did you give her?” I asked once again.

“Hopefully something that will fix what is in her system. She isn’t like us. She isn’t a normal person she is a fae. The fae are built differently. They don’t just have a build of a person but, also the build of plant life. I cannot bring her to life if she dies per say. However, if it is only the plant life that is dying maybe it can be brought back to life.” Severus said and I arched my eyebrows and felt them furrow.

“You are kidding? You don’t think it would have any affect on the normal part of her do you?” I asked.

“I am not sure if it will or not. I have not met another fae like her. I am not entirely sure how this was possible. The only fae I am familiar with are the tiny green creature that create havoc among the peers around them that are nothing like them. I am not even sure how her or her mother were created.” Severus said and I realized he has a very valid thought behind this. I don’t understand how she has the same features as us wizards. She has magic. She is able to aid plants. Look what she did with the whomping willow. She brought life to it.

My eyes widened when her eyes opened and her eye color looked more vibrant than before. She sat up and got out of the bed in a rush. She looks mad.

“Severus she appears to be mad. Is this normal?” I asked.

“I don’t know. She has seemed kind to us.” Severus said.

“You assholes let him hurt me. Stay the hell away from me. I don’t know why I am awake right now. I don’t understand how the pain has stopped. Just leave me the hell alone. The two of you did nothing but stand there and watch him hurt me. How could you!” She is yelling at us and I just want to reach out to her and kiss her. She is awake. She is talking. She is not in pain anymore.

“You aren’t hurting anymore?” I asked.

“No! And I do not understand why.” She said and I stepped towards her and she took a step back.

“What do you think you are doing?” She asked me but, I closed the gap between us and tossed my cane onto the bed next to us and reached for her face and pulled her into me and kissed her. I remember everything now. She showed me the parts of the memory I obliviated. I don’t want to be without her for another minute. That is at least until I felt a sharp pain in my groin that knocked the wind out of me and I bent over towards the bed.

“What the hell do you think you are doing? Go to hell Lucius Malfoy!” She screamed at me while I struggled to catch my breath.

“Fool.” Severus said and smirked at me. He wasn’t smirking to long before he joined me in the pain. She kneed him in his groin and he was struggling to keep is posture.

“Bloody hell. What did I do? I gave you the damn thing that woke you up?!” Severus said and I smirked at him while finally catching my breath a little.

“You were there watching him hurt me too asshole!” She hollered and walked away from the two of us. She left the infirmary and I assume to her room.

“What a little tease.” I said trying to make light of a bad situation before grabbing my cane and banging it along the ground to apparate into her room. There she was sat on her bed crying into her legs.

“Darling, I am truly sorry. Before he had fallen into another deep slumber you wished that I could just remember you. I don’t know what happened but, I rested my head against yours and I was able to get the memory back from you. I remember you. I remember how much I like you. I remember you saying that you liked me back.” I said and tried to reach for her but, she pulled her arm away.

“Please darling. I know that doesn’t change anything I just want you to know I will protect you from here on out. I will not let anything happen to you. Please lean on me again. Let me feel the pain for you. Please y/n.” I said before she let me see her beautiful eyes again. I heard someone clear their throat and I know it is Snape.

“Ignore him. If you are able to restore memory will you please fill in whatever gap is in mine?” Severus said and I felt myself get frustrated.

“You said you touched your head to hers Lucius?” Snape asked and I nodded my head slightly. He came and sat beside her and I and reached for her hand.

“May I?” He asked her and she leaned into him and rested her head on his. His eyes closed and I saw the breathe he drew in. I don’t know what he is going to see. I don’t believe they had a real moment before he obliviated his mind. However, that is until he leaned into her and kissed her and she did kiss him back. I felt a stabbing pain in my chest and realized this must be what heartbreak feels like.

She tried reaching out for me. I grabbed onto her hand but, I had to look away because I can’t stand seeing her kiss him. It hurts more than I thought it could.

“Lucius. I am sorry. I don’t know what I want right now. All I know is I need space away from you two. You both forgot me. You both let him hurt me. You two said you wanted to protect me before you forgot me but, here I am. I got hurt and both of you just watched because you didn’t remember me. I am not sorry that I kicked you two in the nuts. I think you two made a rather quick recovery unlike myself.” She said and that felt worse than watching her kiss Severus.

“What if he comes back and I am not here to protect you?” I asked quietly looking at her hand that was holding onto mine.

“I don’t know. I don’t think it will be much different to have you here with me. What if you can’t protect me? What if you just watch again?” She asked and the pain continued.

“We would never let that happen to you again.” Severus said.

“Severus might I have a moment alone with her?” I asked.

“No you may not.” He said and I wanted to hurt him now. The same way she hurt the both of us.

“Please Severus just a moment. Just go into the bathroom or something.” She said.

He looked at her and looked at his hands. He stood up and dismissed himself into her bathroom. She moved closer to me and let her hands fall from mine. “I am still mad at you.” She said before kissing me. I could see a patronus in front of me. It was not mine but, it looked like a fae creature holding onto something. It was a dark figure it held onto. Has my patronus died? Her lips felt soft against mine and I brought my hands to her hair and snaked my fingers through the strands. I deepened the kiss by sliding my tongue across her bottom lip. It seemed to encourage her because she pulled herself onto my lap and straddled it.

“So beautiful.” I mumbled into the kiss and then I felt her adding pressure against my shoulders and I leaned back until my back was against the mattress of the bed. She was still straddling me. I can feel her rubbing herself against me and it was definitely bringing my cock to life. I would love for her to ease the pain she has brought to it.

“Lucius, I really do like you.” She said sitting up. “I like Severus to though.” She said and for the moment it hurt but, I want to let her have what she wants right now. I can figure out how to get rid of him later.

“Fine.” I said and I felt her sink herself further onto my cock and rub against me. I heard the bathroom door open and I felt his presence around us. It wasn’t just Snape in here watching what was happening anymore and in the moment I could care less.

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American Amongst the Brits Chapter 12

Sorry this has taken so long for me to post. I have been taking a small break to write a book that should be out come January 2025

Readers POV:

Today is supposed to be hard on us. Why is it supposed to be hard on us? I don’t like the sound of that and the two of them have already fallen asleep, so I know I won’t be getting an answer anytime soon. Come on. I can’t sleep now. Not after that. I managed to pull myself out of the middle of the bed without jarring either of them then headed towards the bathroom. I took a moment to clean myself up and I started to feel the sudden sense of being called. Almost like someone was looking for me. I grabbed my wand and waved it towards my body letting a green dress hug onto my body. The dress feeling a bit tighter than I really would like. It was practically painted onto me. I looked at myself in the mirror and saw that not only was the dress skintight but, now my hair was done. It was long and wavey and some flowers were scattered throughout it. This is not what I was intending to do. I was just trying to get a standard outfit on of jeans and a t-shirt. I definitely did not plan for my hair to be done either. How strange. I looked out of the bathroom and moved through the room. The sound is getting stronger. It’s like they are looking for me and I can’t help but, feel the urgency to get to them.

“Y/N please. I need to see you.” I heard a voice say a little louder. I don’t know how I feel about the voice calling me. I do not recognize it. I stepped out of the room and into the hallway leaving the two behind me. I charmed the door to be hidden once more to keep it and them safe but, I started to follow the calls that I was hearing, and it guided me to the garden that was outside.

“You listened!” I heard a woman’s voice call to me.

“I am here. Where are you though?” I asked. This seems a bit crazy but, I don’t know for sure. Something seems odd. Maybe I should be a bit more guarded considering I know the two were trying to protect me when they were supposed to forget me. I still don’t know why they had to forget me in order to protect me. It does not make a lot of sense.

“Come look into the window of the indoor garden. I am in the reflection.” I heard the female voice say. I followed her instructions and when I saw the reflection I saw someone who looked similar to me. They look strange.

“Who are you? I asked and the woman smiled at me.

“You will know in due time. You need to resist the temptations of the offer to come. Avoid the dark one’s. Promise me you will avoid the dark one’s.” Is all the woman managed to say before I heard the glass get shattered.

“What a shame.” I heard a voice say from behind me and when I turned around I saw the boy from a day or two ago. Tom I think.

“Did you mean to break the glass?” Tom said.

“No, I don’t think so. I don’t think I broke it. Did you?” I asked him and he shook his head no.

“You look different today. You look so beautiful. The dress is nice on you and the hair.” Tom said and I felt a blush creep on my face.

“Thank you. That is sweet of you to say.” I said and looked away from him.

“You know, everyone here seems the same. However, you have a different presence to you. You don’t seem like everyone else. Is there something special about you?” Tom asked.

“Not that I know of.” I said. I felt the ground begin to weep.

“What is upsetting you?” Tom asked.

“It’s just I can hear something weeping. Something is upsetting the life around us. I know that sounds weird but, I just feel connected to the forest.” I said and Tom smiled at me.

“Not weird at all. I knew someone else who felt like that once.” Tom said and I looked to him before walking towards the loudest cry I could hear. It was coming from the whomping willow tree. I have already fixed the cries once but, this seemed like it was shattered. What was that about?

“What is wrong Willow?” I asked and sat under the tree.

“Careful that tree knows when to strike.” Tom said staying a distance away from it.

“It would never hurt me.” I said and laid my hand against the bark and I felt the vibration from the sobs stop. I felt a new vibration come from the tree. It felt different. I didn’t know this feeling. It almost comes off as if it were rage. Like a fire lit up inside the tree. The tree started to sway back and forth. It tried to block Tom from my line of sight. Then I thought I heard a whisper come from the tree itself.

“Do not trust. Do not trust. Do not trust. Dang-er-ous” The whisper from the tree said.

“Why not?” I asked the tree but, there was no response.

The branches stayed in a downward position blocked Tom from me when I heard some rustling from behind me. It was followed by some loud stomping but, then quickly I was greeted by a sound of a crowd approaching. I turned towards the loud stomping and was greeted by a very large leg and a roar of a voice. I peered up and saw what appeared to be an ogre. I thought these were just supposed to be in fairytales and from the past. Not something from the now. What is happening here? He seems so angry. Why is he upset?

“Hello?” I hollered.

“Hello? Why do you seem so upset?” I hollered again towards the ogre.

It stopped its movements and peered around towards the ground. I assume it is looking for me. I am patiently waiting for the fee figh fo fum to come from it but I think I might be thinking of a giant from a fairytale instead of an ogre.

“Who-said-that?” I heard the thundering voice say.

“I did!” I hollered at them and that’s when the big eyes spotted me.

“Pretty! I keep you!” It said loudly. It brought his hand down to reach for me but, I brought my wand out. It noticed the wand and then instead of reaching for me flattened their hand and waited for me to patiently crawl onto it.

“Will you be kind to me?” I hollered before making a move to get onto their hand. The big head nodded and I crawled into their hand and sat down on it while it lifted me up to their face.

“You remind me of a lady I once knew.” I heard the voice but, noticed the mouth did not move. It is speaking to me through their mind. I heard more voices talking but, it came at a mere whisper from up here.

“Please set me on your shoulder and walk in front of the school. I promise I will protect you.” I said to it and they looked at me before raising me to their shoulder and doing as I asked. I spotted Professor Snape and Lucius right away. Professor McGonagall and Professor Dumbledore saw me before some of the professors saw me and a couple of them fainted from the sight of it. How rude.

“They don’t like me here. I just need help.” I heard the voice say. “What kind of help?” I asked.

“The one who shall not be named has destroyed my home. I need a place to stay hidden. He has killed the rest of us.” The voice said and I felt my heart break for the creature.

“The one who shall not be names?” I asked and stood up so the rest of the professors who see me. I did not want any of them to hurt the poor thing.

“How is that possible? How has that thing not killed her? Kill it. Save her!” I heard many voices start to say. It was all coming clear. They thought the poor thing was mad and a danger to them. How odd. Why not speak to it?

I saw out of the corner of my eye a line of professors hold their wands up.

“Please save me.” The thunderous voice said. I grabbed my wand and the second something flickered out of the other wizards wands I deflected them.

“Do not harm the creature!” I yelled out to them.

“Do you know where the one who shall not be named is?” I asked the creature. He nodded but looked down towards the other wizards and I saw his eyes stop on Tom.

“That is part of him down there.” The voice said.

“What is your name?” I asked the creature.

“I don’t have a name miss.” He said and my heart broke again.

“This I will give you one. Teddy. I need to be able to call you by something. Can I call you Teddy?” I asked him.

“What kind of name is that?” It asked.

“The kind that lets you know I think kindly of you. You remind me of a Teddy bear. I big gigantic terrified teddy bear.” I said and I saw a little smile on the ogre’s face.

“Okay. Then I like it.” It said in response.

“Teddy will you take me to him?” I asked and he shook his head no.

“Please Teddy. I want to have a word with this one who shall not be named.” I said.

“No, you need protecting to miss. You look like someone I once knew miss.” Teddy said.

“I have heard that a lot here lately.” I said and looked down.

“Vergho. You remind me of Vergho. Such a beautiful Fae. Odd looking but beautiful. You look just like her!” Teddy said and I felt my heart grow a bit with warmth.

“That was my mother.” I said and his eyes grew. He grabbed me with his hand and put me on the ground.

“Stay! You must be hidden. Stay here. You need protecting. I will give that ugly thing my life to protect you.” Teddy said and I looked at him and rested my hands on my hips.

“Hey! I want you to take me to that creep!” I hollered. I know everyone can hear me but, I don’t care.

“NO! Protect you. I must protect you. Go inside. I promised her. Protection. I failed her. We all failed her. I won’t do it again!” Teddy said and moved himself in front of Hogwarts. He stood next to the door and pointed at it.

“Teddy I swear. You just asked me to get help and for protection over you! You cannot be serious.” I yelled up so he could here me. He just continued to point and stopped responding to me. Sirius and Lupin looked at me with their eyes wide.

“What is wrong with you two? Why are you looking at me like that?” I asked.

“Vergho? Is that you?” Sirius asked me.

“No, that is my mother. How in the hell was no one going to tell me that she was a-“ I was interrupted by Dumbledore.

“Get inside miss y/l/n” Dumbledore said and I looked toward Sirius.

“How many of you knew her and didn’t want to tell me she was a-“ Again I became interrupted by Dumbledore now pushing me towards the doors to Hogwarts.

“Please follow me to my office” Dumbledore said and I followed him. I didn’t say another word. When both of our feet had planted themselves through the door he locked his quarters off.

“Miss y/l/n, please forgive me but, they know who and what your mother is but, their was someone out there that has been looking for you. May I ask how were you able to communicate with the ogre?” Dumbledore asked.

“He was able to communicate through his thoughts. The rest of his family was killed by the one who shall not be named. However, he kept saying I looked familiar. When he remembered her name I told him I was her daughter and well you saw what happened. He asked for protection but, now he feels like he has to protect me. Something about not being able to protect her. Please tell me what actually happened to my mother.” I said and Dumbledore looked down to the floor.

“I can’t however, I will show you. I was there and her death took a toll on me, so I put it away. I was not prepared to ever meet you but, when Mr. Weasley told me your name, I knew it was possible that it was you. It is why I made sure we would have room for you here. Come here child. I will show you what happened.” He said and walked over to a cauldron filled with water. He dropped a single drop of liquid into it, and I walked over to him and stopped next to him. I looked into the cauldron and saw a white cloud into it.

“Just put your head into the water and make sure to open your eyes. It will only last for as long as you can hold your breath.” He said and without giving it a second thought I submerged my head into the water.

~The memory~

Vergho’s POV

It is becoming abundantly clear that I just pissed this man off. I know I can’t escape what I have just done. How dare he try and take the poor child! He just killed the parents and then he was pointing the wand at the baby’s head and it was starting to hurt him. I snapped and I dropped a hint to an old friend who told the one that was in love with Lily about what had happened. I didn’t have to be in the room to know that he arrived in time to protect and save the child. He just will never know the truth about how he was able to figure out when to get there in time to protect him. I knew with how much he loved Lily just how well he would look after that baby.

It didn’t take long though for Voldemort to sniff out my blood. My placenta had ruptured and the baby was to be born any moment. I just had to make sure Harry was okay. They were supposed to grow up together and become the best of friends. Lilly and I had planned it out so the two would always have one another. Voldemort never liked me. He only liked the power I held with the nature around.

“I smell you. I smell the blood of the newborn.” I heard his voice and for the first time ever I became scared.

“You owe me the child. We made a deal. For your secret you owe me a life.” Voldemort said. I was just outside the house of Lilly when Severus appeared. While he was inside protecting the child and taking him back to Hogwarts to see Dumbledore as he breaks I am out here in the shadows in the forest about to birth my daughter. Another painful cramp ran through my body and I felt like something was trying to fight it’s way out of it. For the love of god please protect my baby. I was chanting to the hidden ogres around me. They are here to protect me. I don’t travel without them anymore. I have pissed the one who shall not be named many times but, I was positive this would be the end this time. I know how much he hated James and Lily. I knew why he targeted the boy. I know too much. I will not let him take my baby. She deserves to live her life protected.

“Get her to the Chambers of Dumbledore for the birth. He will know what to do.” I heard the deep voices of my tall friends say to one another. I felt myself fall limp on one of the Ogres hands and I felt them lift me up. We made it just on the outskirts of Hogwarts when I felt the Ogre drop down. I heard the last breathe of my beloved friend. Another pain throughout my stomach came and it was becoming faster and stronger than the other ones.

“Please.” I laid against the whomping willow tree. I felt my body start to push and I wasn’t able to stop it any longer.

“Help me.” I cried out and then I saw a wizard. My love. Sage. He was right there and in front of me.

“Wait! No not here. He will find us here. He will find her here.” Sage said.

“I can’t stop what’s happening. She is coming. Please. I can handle what he will do to me. Save her.” I said and started to scream in pain as my body started to push again. She was here after a few more minutes of brutal pushing. Sage grabbed his wand and pointed it at the umbilical cord and detached it from me.

“My beautiful y/n. Remember mommy loves you and one day we will see each other again. I love you.” I said with tears escaping my eyes. “Go Sage. Take her and hide. Run off with her. Get out of here. Get to where he will never find you two. Take her to my sister.” I said.

“I can’t leave you Vergho.” Sage said and with what little strength I had I lifted my wand and sent him away with my daughter. Just moments later I was surrounded by the Dark one and his crowd.

“NO!” He screamed at me. He was able to see that my stomach had been somewhat deflated but, not completely. He had seen the blood under me. I don’t feel strong enough to fight right now. I can’t fight right now.

“You vile woman! She belonged to me! SHE BELONGED TO ME! You will get what you deserve.” I started to feel the branches from the whomping will stretch around me and grab me tightly. I felt my arms and legs being separated until it felt like they were going to snap off.

“Crucio!” He screamed out pointing his wand to me and my body felt like it was being ripped apart from the tree and then it felt like all of my bones were breaking and my head was being squeezed. He let this go on for hours and let things feed on me. I was bitten and torn and my blood was nearly drained but, I was hanging on to life as best as I could.

“Avada Kedavra.” I heard him say and then I felt the last remains of my life drift from me as the whomping willow devoured my body.

To the daughter I should have met before she departed. I love you very much. Tell your father Sage to forgive me. Please forgive me.”

~End of flashback~

I pulled myself out of the water gasping for air. I fought every ounce of my body to see it that I missed no detail of her death. My father is Sage? The man who my aunt murdered and told me that he tried to kidnap me? My father is Sage? I just want to scream and cry and hurt something. No I know what I need to do.

“Thank you for letting me see that.” I said and disappeared in front of Dumbledore. I ended up right back at the tree. The whomping willow. Mom. I know you are in here. I know your body or bones lie at the bottom of the inside of the tree. I will make sure you have a life once again. That this evil man does not get one anymore. I promise you mom. I wish I could have met you.

“Hello, y/n. My name is Voldemort. I think you might have been who I have been looking for.” The gross pale toe looking man said.

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American Amongst The Brits Chapter 11

SMUTTY SMUTTY SMUTTY

“Such a beautiful young thing.” He said while watching me squirm. I heard the door open and when I looked over I saw Severus looking at the scene in front of him.  

“Lucius, what are you doing in her sleeping quarters?” Severus asked. 

~Lucius Malfoy POV~ 

“What does it look like I am doing Severus?” I asked him and scoffed at the stupid question.  

“I would hope you are not having a student expose herself to you.” Severus said and peered over at her. His eyes in a trance over her body.  

“Ah, you must be what is left inside of her.” I said and smiled at him. 

“What do you mean by that?” Severus asked with a half smile.  

“I mean.” I said and nudged her legs apart exposing her very beautiful pussy to the both of us. Cum seeping out of her. I looked over at Severus and noted the smile still plasted on his face. He moved closer to her.  

“Everything alright ms. Y/n?" He asked her and sat next to her side.  

“This bed is not big enough for all of us. This could be a rather easy fix if you are going to insist on sticking around Severus.” I said and he never removed his eyes from her. I snapped my fingers and the bed grew in size. The room appeared smaller but the bed had to have been a king size by now.  

“I have yet to hear anyone reject the idea of all of us together.” I said and smiled down at her. I made my way to the other side of her and placed my hand on the middle of her chest and lightly let my fingers run down and rest on one of her breast. I gave it a light squeeze and her eyes closed and her mouth parted with a small moan. It sounded amazing. How could I want to forget this? 

“Lucius. Maybe you should let her rest.” Severus said and looked at me.  

“No, I think I would rather her be stuck in this room with no ability to walk without falling.” I said and chuckled to myself.  

“You want her to be in pain?” Severus said.  

“I suppose that is one way to say it. I want it to be a reminder of how good I am. I don’t remember when I have done this with her but, I wish I could. I mine as well enjoy it enough to want to remember again shouldn’t I?” I asked and looked at him and squeezed her breast harder earning another moan and then I saw her legs close and tighten together. Someone is getting turned on by it.  

“Do you enjoy what he is doing?” Severus asked her and she bit her lip a tiny bit and nodded.  

“Look at her legs Severus. I think the little minx is turned on by the both of us.” I said and quirked a smile.  

“Is that what you want? Do you want us both?” I cooed at her. Her eyes popped open and she looked between the two of us.  

“What if it is what I want?” She asked and I felt myself stiffen in my pants.  

“I am more than happy to continue as long as it is what you want.” I said and looked into her eyes. She turned her gaze towards Severus and he looked back at her.  

“If it is what you want. I suppose I did not tire you out properly. I will oblige and make sure you get finished off properly this time.” Severus said.  

“What do you mean by properly?” I asked.  

“If squirting twice is not tiresome I assume that means there is more.” Severus said and smiled at me.  

“She squirts?” I asked acting as though the very beautiful woman was not in front of me.  

“I suppose you will see won’t you?” Severus said and turned his gaze back to her. I watched his hand lightly graze the inside of her left leg and his fingertips pulled on her skin lightly. He is being so gentle with her. He didn’t do that to the last person we shared. Narcissa was quite fun and enjoyed the encounter but, some how this seemed like it was going to be a bit more fun. She is younger and appears to be a bit more moldable to what we are going to like. I don’t even know if she knows what she really likes. I watched his hand trail further up and rest on her pussy spreading it open enough for his fingers to slip inside of her. I watched her body stiffen under his touch. I squeezed her chest harder and lowered my head to the breast directly in front of me and licked a small circle around her nipple. I felt her shiver and then moan lightly and I sunk my teeth into her nipple. I heard a whimper come from her and I continued the same motion. From circling her nipple with my tongue to soothe it and then biting into it. The sounds she made continued to make me harden to the point it started to become painful. I pulled back and pinched her other nipple with my right hand and peered down at what Severus was doing. Two of his fingers were inside her I assume massaging her g-spot. I just need a taste of her. I don’t care that his cum is still seeping out of her. It’s not like we are unfamiliar with how one another taste.  

I stood off the bed and started to strip myself of my clothes before returning to the bed this time between her legs. I blew a bit of air on her semi exposed clit and then licked it. Her eyes opened and peered down at me as I lowered my mouth back down and sucked her clit between my lips and started to draw circles over it with my tongue. I grinded my teeth against it before lowering my tongue to meet Severus’s fingers at her entrance and letting it slip inside with them. I watched as her eyes closed and her back arched.  

“Please. I can’t.” She started to say but, I felt her thighs tighten around me. I grabbed onto her right leg with my left hand and forced it open so she would loosen up and let go.  

I continued to dive my tongue into her and tasted the mixture of her juices mixed with his cum and moaned into her. She tasted divine. I felt Severus tense up a little at the feeling of my tongue on his fingers and being amused and secure with myself I let my tongue lap up some of the juices from his fingers. He peered down at me and I looked up at him and pulled away from his fingers and brought my focus to her clit again. Quickly running circles on it and nibbling it as I watched her back arch and her moans halt for a moment before I felt her pulse and her sweet squirt filled my mouth and I started to clean it off with my tongue. That was a beautiful sight to have witnessed. How many more times can she do it? I saw Severus pull his fingers out before he stood and started to undress himself. I stood up and walked over to him. I reached for his cloak and unbuttoned it.  

“I can do this myself.” Severus said and I shushed him and peered over at her while she watched my movement. Severus made eye contact with her as I continued to undo every button on his shirt and let it all fall to the floor before undoing his belt and unfastening his pants. He stepped out of them and his shoes before I stepped away and let him finish pulling his knickers off.  

I peered over to her before I pulled her to a sitting position.  

“How would you like to go about this darling?” I asked. I am hopeful she lets us take full control but, I do not wish to take her voice away for this to happen.  

“Anyway I can get it.” She said and I felt my entire body stiffen.  

“Careful what you wish for. He likes to have everything filled at once if he can.” Severus said and her face brightened a type of red.  

“I wouldn’t mind being filled in anyway.” She said and I saw Severus harden. I don’t remember him being that size last time we played together. It has been awhile since then. I suppose I might have forgotten.  

“Alright then.” Severus said before pulling her legs towards him. Her head now in front of me but laying down. I saw her look up and peer up at me from her angle. I reached down to her neck and tightened my grip onto it.  

“Open your mouth for me.” I said and without any protest she opened her mouth for me. I angled my cock so it went down her throat with ease. I hissed at how she just swallowed me in. It felt amazing. I need her head to be off the bed. Severus can have her lower half on the bed and work for it if he wanted that part first.  

I pulled myself out and stood off the bed. I pulled her by her arms until her head was dangling off before Severus was able to sink himself into her. I heard the light groan from him in protest but, I immediately sunk my cock back into her mouth. There was some resistance but I managed to rest myself completely inside her throat hearing her gag and I felt some saliva escape around me. God this felt amazing. I am going to be nice and soaked for where I want to sink into. I brought my eyes up and saw Severus looking at the sight I have created in front of him before he brought her knees up and tucked his legs under hers bringing her pussy into his lap. He positioned his cock to press into her and I felt her spasm around my cock so I pulled out slowly letting her get a good breathe in before sliding my cock back down her throat. I gripped onto her throat again feeling my cock in her throat with my hand. Fuck the pressure of her throat closing around me was amazing.  

“Severus you should feel what it is like to take her breath away.” I moaned out. Snape pushed my hand off her neck and wrapped his hand around it and groaned at the feeling. I thrusted in and out of her throat letting him feel it constrict around me. She gagged again and I pulled out letting the stream of saliva wrap around my cock before looking toward Severus.  

“Get her on top of you Severus.” I said and I can tell my eyes have darkened. He listened and pulled her on top of him and she was now seated on his lap with him buried deep inside of her. I crawled behind her and pushed her down to lay on his chest.  

“Relax girl or this will hurt.” I said and I felt her body stiffen and Severus started to rub her back lightly and when I saw her relax I angled my cock at her ass. I pushed myself into her very tight hole and I groaned at the sensation it brought me. She stiffened again on top of Severus and I pulled her back against me as I bottomed out inside of her. I was giving Severus room to move and I needed her to be still so I could balance myself. Severus started to move and thrust up into her causing her to moan at the stretch she was feeling. I started to pull myself out of her ass and she leaned forward again against Severus and I thrusted back into her harshly. Fuck she felt amazing. Everything about her felt amazing. How did I want to forget this person. I want to remember what the other times felt like. I heard moans escape her lips.  

“Fuck it hurts. Oh my god it fucking hurts.” She let the words escape her.  

“Do you want us to stop?” Severus asked but I heard the moans that left his throat. I know he doesn’t want that just as much as I don’t want that.  

“Fuck no. Don’t stop. Please don’t stop.” She cried out getting louder. I snapped my head back at how loud she was getting and I looked down towards Severus who had the same thought I had and we quietly charmed the room to silence any cries and moans coming from any of us. I pulled her back towards me so I could thrust into her faster.  

“Fuck I need to be able to move better.” I heard Severus call out and I pulled out and laid her on her side in the middle of us before thrusting my cock back into her. I lifted her leg into the air as Severus thrusted back inside of her as well and it felt even better than before. She held onto his shoulders tightly and I rested my head in the crook of her neck and started to suck on her neck leaving marks. I want to remember this. I will remember this moment. She trusted me to be behind her. Something no one not even Narcissa was willing to do. She let this happen. She wanted it this way. She told us she did. It felt so fucking amazing inside of her. I started to feel myself throb and my thighs tighten. No I am not ready. Calm down Lucius. I am not ready to cum. It wasn’t just me throbbing. I felt Severus thighs tighten and based off his face he was moments away from cumming himself. I grabbed onto his arm to get his attention. His eyes opened and looked over to me. I mouthed ‘not yet’ to him silently before we both started to slow ourselves down. I snaked my hand around to the front of her stomach and let my hand fall between her and Severus and started to massage her clit. I felt her body stiffen and let loosen and get comfortable again before I had the bright idea to pull out and join Severus a bit closer. I felt a cool breeze on my cock and started to push my cock into her pussy feeling her stretch around me. She cried out in pain and Severus grabbed onto my arm and squeezed it. He eyes squeezed close but, I could tell why. She was incredibly tight and it was painful for the both of us. I am determined to make this work though. I want to feel her milking us both completely dry. I started to thrust in and out of her pussy before feeling Severus move as well. Feeling his cock against mine was an odd sensation but, it felt good surprisingly. Her cries got louder as I pushed his cock into her g-spot forcefully and I started to rub her clit at a painful pace.  

“Fuck. Oh god. I can’t take it anymore. Fuck me. I think I am gonna.” She moaned out and I felt her begin to soak us. I started to tense at the feeling. Between the grip on my arm from Severus, the feeling of the friction between our cocks buried deep inside of her, along with the squirt she just finished it overstimulated me and my eyes squeezed shut and my balls tightened.  

“Fuck. Oh fuck. Bloody hell. Fuck me.” I moaned out and into her neck and started to ease up on her clit and then I felt someone else tense and another warm liquid came crashing after mine. I heard the curses fall from Severus’ lips and I couldn’t stop myself. I wanted another taste of her. I pulled out and attempted to turn her around without disturbing either of them, but it didn’t work. Severus pulled out of her in order for her to freely turn towards me but, he placed himself back inside of her and continued to thrust. He was making sure he was completely out of cum. I was definitely spent but, before stopping to think about what I was doing I placed myself low on the bed and licked from her entrance and started to lap up her juices and our mixed together hearing her curse and swear under her breathe. I heard Severus moan and I dipped my tongue into her and tried to soothe her hole I had brutally opened. My tongue hitting Severus’ cock and I didn’t give a fuck. I sucked every drop of the juices out of her and ran my tongue against her clit before kissing up her body with the mixture of juices in my mouth. I pulled on her hair and her mouth opened and I let it slowly fall from my mouth and into hers and watched her just accept it. Severus watched every moment of the encounter and pulled himself out of her. He laid on his back trying to catch his breath. I let the grip on her hair loosen and her mouth shut, and I watched as she swallowed it. I lowered my lips to hers and kissed her. Truly such a beautiful woman.  

“That was amazing.” I mumbled into her skin as I rested my head on her chest.  

“It felt amazing darling.” Severus said and wrapped his arms around her pulling her closer to him.  

“Fuck I don’t think I am ever walking again. My legs feel weak and I have a feeling I smell awful after all of that.” Y/n said and I smiled. 

“Did you enjoy it?” I asked and she looked at me and smiled. 

“I really did. It was perfect. The pain wasn’t too terrible.” She said and I felt something pull at my chest. She was amazing. I don’t want to share her.  

“What is it that you are hoping happens after tonight?” I heard Severus ask her.  

“I don’t know. Maybe we could all keep this up or at least hidden from everyone for awhile.” Y/n said. Did she want us both again? I don’t want to have to share her with Severus.  

“It definitely can’t leave this room what has happened in this room. I am your professor after all. It could get me into a world of trouble. As far as it happening again I am here whenever you need me to help you get off.” Severus said and I scoffed. He can’t be serious.  

“You want us to share you?” I asked closing my eyes. I don’t play nicely with others.  

“Would it be okay if I wanted that?” Y/n asked. No. Not it is not okay. I don’t want Severus to have her as well. I want her to myself.  

“I suppose. As long as you can continue to handle us both.” I said and sighed into her chest.  

“Let’s get you cleaned up.” Severus said and stood off the bed. He pulled her to his chest and tried to have her stand. She attempted to walk but, her legs wobbled and she fell to the floor.  

“Are you insane to try and have her walk after what we just did to her?” I asked him with a small smirk. I saw him smile.  

“I wanted to see if we managed to do a good job. I would say we did amazingly wouldn’t you?” Severus said. He is a smug man but, he does have a point. I helped her up to her feet and walked her into the bathroom and turned the shower on. I expected Severus to leave as he never seemed like the person who wanted to stick around once he finished fucking someone. However, to my surprise he came in with towels and soaps for the two of us. He grabbed hers from the floor near the tub and placed it in the shower and got in without waiting for it to heat up. He pulled her into him and let her stand under the water. I grabbed her shampoo and lathered it before rubbing it into her scalp. I let it rinse out before doing the same with her conditioner and grabbed the rag I saw in the shower. I was going to put her soap in it but, I saw Severus holding onto it and holding out his other hand waiting for me to give him the rag. I didn’t want to hand it over but, I did. As he washed her body carefully I took care of bathing myself and when it was time for her to rinse he let her back fall into my chest and he cleaned himself up. We all managed to get clean after thirty minutes of back and forth trying to clean her up and then we both wrapped the towel around her and walked her into the room and sat her in front of the fire place. We looked at one another and then at the bed where a big puddle of sweat, cum, and squirt laid on top of the sheets. I walked over to my cane and pulled my wand out. I waved it on the bed and the sheets came off and new one’s were placed on. The bed remained a king sized bed and I pulled y/n to her feet before placing my wand back into my cane and helped her onto the bed. I placed her in the middle of the bed but, she was still undressed. Does she want any clothes on?  

“Please stay with me.” She said out loud. Who is she talking to?  

“Who do you want to stay?” Severus asked.  

“Both of you.” She said her eyes starting to close. I looked over to him and before I reached for my wand again to have some kind of clothes again I heard her voice.  

“If I am not wearing clothes you don’t have to if you don’t want to.” She mentioned and I obliged. I let the towel fall off my hips and crawled next to her on the right side of the bed. Severus looked at the two of us before letting his towel fall and crawled onto her left side. He wrapped his arms around her and pulled himself closer to her. He placed a kiss onto her forehead and soon after we both heard her light snores coming from her. She was fast asleep.  

“Severus, I don’t really want to have to share with you.” I said out loud.  

“I don’t want to have to share her with you either but, I want her to have what she wants.” Severus said and I sighed.  

“I am the same way. Might I ask is there a reason I can’t remember or why I wouldn’t want to remember her?” I asked him.  

“I don’t know but, I don’t remember much about her either. I just remember coming to class one day and she was here. I know she must have been here before hand but, I don’t remember her. I wish I did. I don’t want to know why I can’t remember her. I want to know if it has happened between us privately before.” Severus said to me.  

“I tapped into her memory a little and saw that it has happened privately between her and I but, I don’t remember it. It’s rather annoying considering just how great she felt.” I said and sighed again. I am tired. She really exhausted me. I heard a yawn from Severus and soon we both fell asleep next to her.  

~Snape’s POV~ 

I felt something grind against my hips and I woke up feeling hard. Fuck I can’t stand waking up with morning wood. The excitement from my cock was rather annoying since I don’t have anyone to fix it for me. Except my cock felt like it was wet. I opened my eyes slightly and looked down to see her mouth on me and her eyes closed. What time is it? I have an internal alarm and this feels rather early. I looked to the side where Lucius fell asleep last night and noticed he was not in bed. I looked back down and saw blonde hair behind her. He throat tighten around my cock and my eyes closed again and I felt myself reach for the back of her head and shoved her down. When I opened my eyes I saw Lucius was bent down behind her with his face buried between her legs. Who woke who up? Fuck her throat was perfect. I heard her gag and I relaxed my grip on her head and she perked up.  

“Good you are awake.” She said before climbing onto my lap and positioning myself inside her. However she wasn’t loose anymore. She was back to being tight. I looked over and saw Lucius was back on the right side of the bed going back to sleep. What is happening? She lifted off me lightly and slammed herself back down on my lap. Fuck me. I gripped onto her hips and pressed her further down on me.  

“Is this really what you want right now?” I asked her. She nodded her head and i picked her up and moved over to in front of the fireplace off the bed. If I am going to be allowed to have a private moment with her then I am going to have to be quiet for a little while. I placed her on her back before pulling out of her and slamming my hips back into hers.  

“Oh god. You feel so good Severus.” She moaned out and my already hard cock started to throb. This is the first time my morning wood has ever been addressed in this manner. Best way to wake up. I pulled her legs up closer to her chest and held them there as I thrusted deeper into her. Making sure every thrust counted.  

“Fuck Severus. I can’t take much more. I am so sore.” She moaned out and truthfully I couldn’t take much more either. I let one of her legs go and started to massage her clit and I felt her tighten around me and start to shake. My balls tightened and my thighs tightened. I started to cum deep inside of her and I let my chest fall onto hers and I pressed myself as deeply as I could into her and kissed all over her neck. I can’t get enough of her. I am an older man. It shouldn’t still be working the way it was right now.  

“Did you two have fun without me?” I heard Lucius voice and I peered over to him. He had a smirk on his face before I righted myself and pulled her back to the bed. She crawled back into the middle of the bed and I laid next to her.  

“Get more sleep. Today is going to be hard enough on us.” I said to her and kissed the top of her shoulder.  

“Why is that?” She asked.  

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American Amongst The Brits Chapter 10

I managed to fall asleep but, I didn’t get a good amount of sleep. I managed to wake up to someone pounding on my door.  

“Miss y/n open the door.” I heard Snape’s voice call through it. What now?  

“What do you want professor?” I asked while opening the door.  

“Someone told me they saw you crying last night and asked me to come check on you.” He said and looked down at me. He towered over me. It is something that I loved. He was so tall and it was incredibly sexy. I just want to reach out to him and kiss him but, I know it is not a good idea.   

“I am fine. Thank you.” I said.  

“I look forward to seeing you in potions today.” Snape said on his way out. I smiled at his sudden kindness. Maybe he remembers me a little. That still would not make sense for why he was suddenly being kind to me after calling me a stray along with the others. I hurried and got dressed and made my way to the great hall. My stomach growled and reminded me I have been avoiding eating for a couple of days. The feast that was in front of us smelt delicious. I got some of the eggs and bacon and put them on my plate along with a scone and I started to eat. I drank the water that was in my cup and by the time I finished I managed to run down the hall and get to my class first. I stepped inside and managed to find a seat I actually wanted because no one was there yet and I sighed with relief. Hermione came and sat next to me and smiled at me.  

“Hey are you feeling better today?” She asked.  

“Yes, thank you for asking.” I said.  

“I am Hermione. I don’t think I was able to tell you that yesterday.” She said and I smiled at her.  

“Hello Hermione. I am-.” I started to say but, she stopped me.  

“I know who you are. We all know who you are. You have been here for a couple of weeks now. I just never got the chance to introduce myself. I understand you might be struggling with getting along with everyone here.” She said and smiled at me.  

“Yeah, everyone has already given me a nickname.” I said and looked down.  

“Look at that. A mudblood and a stray. They are making nice with one another. Nothing like the smart one to take on the unwanted one.” Draco said and Hermione and I looked at one another. We heard the professor walk in and Hermione and I looked forward. It was the first time I started to participate in class. It was nice that someone was finally being kind to me and it spurred me to focus better. The day went on and by the time potions class came around I began to get nervous.  

Snape walked into the class and started to shut all of the windows with his wand and the classroom fell dark.  

“Class, today we will be making a Polyjuice potion. Can anyone tell me what it is?” Snape asked. Hermione raised her hand, and he blatantly ignored her. That is a bit rude.  

“Anybody?” He said and she waved her hand once again trying to signal his attention.  

“Don’t you ever get tired of being a know it all Granger?” He asked her. She lowered her hand and slowly her head.  

“Miss y/n would you mind enlightening us?” Snape asked. I looked at Hermione and sighed.  

“It is a potion that is hard to make. However, it is used to assume the form of the person we have taken some form of DNA from. In this case it would be hair.” I said.  

“Very good.” He said and walked away from us.  

“Granger is already rubbing off on the stray.” Draco said. Snape made his way over to Draco and shoved his head down and into the book.  

“I don’t want to hear another word from you Draco.” Snape said. Hermione smiled at the action that Snape did to him. If only he could do that to me. Shove my head down. Maybe not in a book though. I would much rather have him shove me down so I could show him what else I could do outside of making potions. I wonder what it would be like to hear him moan out my name. Feel his thighs tighten and his balls constrict. What would Snape taste like?  

“Miss. y/n do you mind telling the class what the ingredients needed are.” Snape said drawing me out of my thoughts.  

“Yes, I believe they are Fluxweed, Knotgrass, Lacewing flies, Leeches, Horn of Bicorn, Boomslang Skin, and then a piece of the persons hair.” I said and Hermione attempted to tell me I did a good job but, was interrupted by Snape.  

“Very good. Someone studied. Everyone take note that it is what you should be doing.” Snape said and I heard the rest of the class groan. I mentally smiled to myself at the praise. What would it sound like if he were praising me for sucking on his cock? Would he tell me I was a good girl? What if I stopped getting questions right would I be a bad girl? Would he have to punish me? Bend me over and smack me? Pull my hair and slam his cock down my throat? God I am unbelievably horny. I could use a distraction from everything that has happened. I would love it if he were choking me with his fat-. My thought was interrupted by Snape’s voice.  

“Class dismissed.” Snape said and the majority of the class including Hermione ran out of the door. I grabbed onto my stuff when I heard Snape clear his throat.  

“Might I have a word with you later after dinner?” Snape asked me.  

“Yeah of course. Do you want me to come back here or where?” I asked. 

“I will just meet you in your room.” Snape said and I tried to hide my smile.  

“Alright I will see you later.” I said and then walked away. I went to my room during the free period and set my stuff down. It wasn’t long before it was time for dinner and I made my way to the great hall. I looked inside and everyone was already seated and started to eat. I made my way over to the back of the table and ate by myself again. I was so anxious about seeing Snape again tonight and I looked up at him. It was a bit shocking that when my eyes landed on him, his were already staring at me. If I could just march over there and put my tongue down his throat. It would be better if he just bent me over and onto that desk and thrusted himself into me. I want every drop he can give me. Fuck I need to take care of this before I see him. I don’t want to startle him. I don’t want to make him an enemy. I got up from the table and practically ran to my room. I closed the door behind me and realized my mind was going wild. He isn’t going to give a shit about what it is that I am feeling. I heard a small knock on my door and without thinking I opened it. Snape pushed his way into my room and locked the door behind him.  

“Is there a reason you choose to think such thoughts of me?” Snape asked.  

“What are you talking about?” Then it dawned on me that I forgot he admitted he could read minds.  

“That’s right I can.” He said and stepped towards me. I felt every bone in my body turn into rubber. I felt like I was going to fall over. He reached his hand out to touch my face and his fingertips pushed my chin upwards to look at his eyes. He leaned forward closer to me and I felt my breath stall in my chest.  

“I cannot focus when your thoughts are about tasting me.” He mumbled.  

“Then let me get it out of my system.” I said boldly.  

“Wouldn’t that make you want it more?” He asked.  

“We will just have to find out.” I said and leaned forward to close the gap between us and I just barely felt my lips touch his before I saw my happy place again. His arms snaked around my waist and moaned into the kiss. Yeah I am a gone. My brain is never going to be the same.  

I felt his tongue slide across my bottom lip and I opened my mouth a little more and felt him press his tongue against mine. Yeah I don’t want to just write this off. This is going to be amazing if he lets it. I undid the button in his cloak that was around his neck and let it fall to the ground. I fumbled my hands as I started to undo the buttons in his shirt. He wasn’t pushing me away. I didn’t break the kiss as I started on the buttons and managed to get everyone of them undone. Thank god. I need him. I need to feel him. I started to push his shirt off of his torso and when I finally pulled away and saw his bare chest I almost moaned at the sight. He was not incredibly toned but, he was built with density. His chest was thick with muscles and his stomach even though not toned felt like a rock. He is beautiful. Something about him just made me want him more. He stepped back towards me and pulled my shirt and bra off. He pulled at my skirt and just stared at me as well.  

“You are hiding something.” He said. I know what he is talking about. He is talking about all of the markings. He doesn’t remember that we have already been through this. By his gaze alone I could tell he had already removed any and all charms that I used to hide them.  

“Get on the bed.” He said and I listened. I laid on my back and just watched him as he took his shoes and pants off. He crawled on top of me and lightly traced all of the scars on my arms. I felt his lips press into them one by one.  

“Don’t do it again.” He mumbled against my skin. “Come find me if you feel as though you want to hurt yourself again.” He mumbled again across my skin. He looked at the bruises on my stomach. They were almost healed. He lightly kissed it and then finally crawled himself up to my face.  

“You are a beautiful sight.” He said and then I felt his lips on mine again. I moans at feeling his skin on mine. He chest although slightly covered in hair was pressed firmly against mine and without thinking to much of it I moved my hand to rest on his back. I slid it down until it rested on his ass. Fuck he is so smooth. He moaned against my lips and then he pulled away. Please don’t leave me. Not like this. He shifted against me again and he dragged his tongue down my body and it met my very wet core. I moaned feeling him slide his tongue against my pussy lips and between them. His tongue met my clit and sucked on his.  

“Fuck just skip that. I need to feel you Snape.” I said moaning and bucking my hips against his face.  

“It’s Severus.” He said before biting onto my clit. I bucked my hips towards his face again. He sat up between my legs and stroked his cock. I hadn’t even bothered to look at his size. What ever it is I can make it work. He stroked the head of his cock along my clit and down my slit until he was positioned at my opening. He pressed himself in and I bit my lip at the girth of his cock. He continued to push himself further in trying to be kind.  

“Please, fuck me. Don’t go easy on me.” I moaned out to him. He snarled a bit at my words. He slammed his hips forward and my lips parted and a scream escaped my mouth. Oh fuck he is very large. Better than I ever dreamed He was.  

“Filthy filthy mind.” Severus cooed at me. He pulled himself out slightly and then slammed back in making sure that he was angle well enough that when he did slam back in he rammed himself right into my g-spot. I couldn’t help the sound that came out or how loud it was.  

“Fuck you are tight around my cock. I haven’t done anything in a very long time and your pussy is threatening to milk every last drop from me already.” He said as he pulled himself out to the tip. He placed a small kiss on my shoulder before thrusting himself into me and biting down onto my should making me yelp a bit.  

“Of fuck severus.” I moaned out. He repeated the motion only a couple of times before I felt myself tighten and I wave felt like it hit me. He pulled himself off me and sat up to continue to be rough with me. His calloused hands moved to my breast and squeezed them. He took my nipples between his fingers and squeezed them and twisted them harshly while fucking my pussy into oblivion. He pulled harshly as he slammed into my g-spot and eventually I felt something overstimulate and overwhelming me.  

“Oh fuck. Oh fuck. What is happening?” I moaned out as he continued to slam into me now releasing my nipples and moving both of his hands to between my legs. I felt on of his hands focus on the bundle of nerves. He was rubbing my clit. He was not gentle about it which spurred the sensation to take over.  

“Fuck me.” I screamed out a this pace in my clit was brutal and I felt a wave of pressure burst from me. My legs tightened and then stated to shake. Oh dear god what was that.  

“Oh what a beautiful mess you have created.” Severus moaned out. He continued to rub my clit and another source of pressure started to build up. It was only moments before it released and I felt my body spasm. I felt my walls tighten around his cock which helped me feel how tense he was. How his balls tightened against my ass as they slammed against me. How his thighs constricted and now his breathing was labored.  

“so bloody amazing. I’m going to-“ He started to say before he tensed inside me and I felt ropes of his cum bury itself deep inside of my pussy. His head lowered to my neck and I felt his breathe on me. His lips left small trails if kisses along my neck as he started to rock his hips back into mine riding out the high we were coming down from.  

“so beautiful squirting all over my cock.” Severus said and my face reddened. I haven’t done that in a while. I thought only I was going to be able to get that reaction from myself. I never imagined a man doing it for me.  

“Such a beautiful sight.” He mumbled into my ear and pulled himself out of me and kissed his way down to my nipples. His lips wrapped around my right nipple and sucked a little harsh. He let my nipple go with a pop and then licked his way down further to my stomach before kissing just above my belly button. He continued down before I felt his very wet and warm tongue slide between my pussy folds and his nose nudge against my clit. I didn’t stop myself from reaching for his head and tangling my fingers in his hair.  

“Severus. Please.” I managed to mumbled out.  

He buried himself between my pussy lips and swiped his tongue up to my clit and lightly bit into it. I bucked my hips into his face and tightened my grip on his hair. I felt his fingers push inside my pussy and I moaned at the sensation.  

He pulled his mouth away from my aching clit.  

“Keep every drop of my inside.” He said and stood up with his fingers still inside me. He flicked his fingers up and down towards my sore g-spot and I started to shake again. Fuck I can’t do it again. I am too sensitive.  

“Please. I can’t take it anymore.” I cried out.  

“Good girl. Next time try not to distract me while I am trying to teach. Hopefully this will keep you satisfied for a while.” Severus said and pulled his fingers out of me. I closed my eyes and when I opened them up again he was no longer in my room. His clothes were gone and I was back to being annoyed. At least when Lucius did this he helped clean up the mess he made of me.  

I went to stand up and I felt my legs buckle under the weight of myself. Oh dear lord I can’t walk right now. How embarrassing. I felt like I was still to wobbly. I guess I will be using the bathtub after all. I crawled my way into the bathroom feeling exhausted and turned the water on to the tub. I made sure it was hot before making sure it was plugged and no more water would escape. I let the tub fill up three quarters of the way before putting my soap in and swirling it around. It bubbled up and I finally stood up and lowered myself into the tub.  

“Well hello there.” I heard someone say and it startled me.  

“Who is there?” I opened my eyes a bit and saw the long blonde hair I missed.  

I covered my chest and my lower half when I realized it was Lucius. He doesn’t remember me so why did he let himself in.  

“Sorry if I am interrupting your time alone but, I think you have something of mine.” Lucius said.  

“What are you referring to Mr. Malfoy sir?” I asked.  

“I feel like maybe we have met before after all. I am just having trouble figuring out why you seem so familiar to me.” He said and I looked down. I am a bit exposed right now.  

“I just want to take a look.” He said and stepped towards me.  

“How did you get into my room?” I asked.   “The door was unlocked. I just came right in. You should learn to lock it if you are going to be exposed.” Lucius said and stepped to the side of the tub. He brought his hand to my head and then closed his eyes. I felt my head squeeze and it was like I was turned to jelly.  

“Oh my. We have met before. It appears we had quite the best of times together. Why don’t I remember it but, you do hmm?” He asked and looked at me removing his hand from my head. I opened my eyes and looked at him.  

“You said you did not want to remember anymore.” I said and bit my lip. He did not need to know the full truth. He said it was to keep me safe so maybe I can still have him if he doesn’t know the full truth. Although Severus was a much better lay. He was everything I expected him to be and more.  

“Maybe you can help me remember what it was like?” Lucius said and he pulled his sleeves up and removed his gloves. What does he mean? I watched as he lowered his left hand into the water and between my legs. Fuck I am too sensitive to do anything else. He sat next to the tub and let his hand embrace my inner thighs before he brought his fingers to my pussy lips and ran his middle finger between them and then rest it on my clit. He added some pressure and my head felt back at the feeling of his fingers. I missed his hands. They were truly amazing. I bit my lip to stifle the moan that was stuck in my throat.  

“Don’t hide the beautiful sounds from me. Especially if I am earning them.” He said just above a whisper. I opened my eyes and peered over at him and his blue eyes were locked onto my face. I let out a low moan and let my head rest against the back of the tub as he added more pressure. He moved his finger faster and then dipped it down and tucked his finger inside of me.  

“Who else has been inside of you?” He asked.  

“What?” I asked him trying to play dumb.  

“You feel awfully full and wet to have not done something with someone recently.” He said and smiled at me. I don’t know if I should say the right answer.  

“It’s a shame they didn’t help clean you up. I guess it will just help me a bit wont it.” Lucius said. What does he mean help him a bit?  

“Come now. Lets dry you off.” Lucius said and helped me stand up and my knees buckled under me again.  

“Oh dear. If your already struggling to stand then I might assist you in losing your footing completely. It seems I must have quite the competitor.” Lucius said and then wrapped his arms around me and grabbed the towel that was already in here. He placed it around me and then lifted me up and placed me on my bed. He relit the fire place and I felt the warmth coming from it. He slowly started to take the towel from me and just looked over my body.  

“Such a beautiful young thing.” He said while watching me squirm. I heard the door open and when I looked over I saw Severus looking at the scene in front of him.  

“Lucius, what are you doing in her sleeping quarters?” Severus asked.  

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Hey it’s me again with another idea for a fic. Sorry it’s Javi Gutierrez AGAIN i just can’t get over him. So in the movie he’s supposed to been seen as “dangerous” to the public eye and he actually has good aim and shot 3 guys in a row! I was thinking about if Reader and Javi (already in a relationship) are out together but a situation happens where she separates from Javi (maybe she goes to the bathroom or Javi gets “a business call” (call from Nicholas Cage)). Then some guy goes to talk to reader and protective Javi barges through and puts on his tough act. Scares the guy off and for the rest of the day Javi makes sure she’s stuck to him like glue. Sitting on his lap while clutching onto her like a bear, scanning his surroundings for anyone who looks her way like a bodyguard, holding her hand so tight as if she’ll disappear at any moment or maybe instead of walking side by side he just straight up carries her around. Then at home he just turns back into his happy teddy bear self wanting to sleep, watch/write movies, enjoy readers affection, and eat (maybe reader makes him a marmalade sandwich as a thank you (paddington reference)).

Night out!

Tonight is the night Javi said he is going to take me to the club. I am excited to see him dance and just be his happy self away from work. I think maybe this might be a really great long night as long as he stays true to his promise of not ruining it with his job. I love what he does and how excited he is to work with his idol Nicholas Cage but, he talks about him twenty-four seven. If he brings up the movie with him one more time I might rip my ears off and mail them to Nicholas Cage as a grand gesture of eff you. I just need a tiny break from hearing it and Javi promised me he would give me that tonight.

“You look wonderful.” I heard Javi say as he approached behind me.

“Javi I am not even ready. I am still in my pajamas. We aren’t doing anything until tonight.” I said and smiled at him.

“So what. You are always beautiful. No matter how you look. You will always be my beautiful girl.” Javi said and kissed the top of my head. I turned to face him and I smiled up at him. I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him into me. He placed a quick peck on my lips and pulled away resting his hands on my arms.

“I made you some brunch my sleeping beauty.” He said and I felt my eyes widen.

“You didn’t have to do that for me Javi. I should have made you breakfast. I am sorry I slept in a bit late today.” I said still hugging onto him.

“No, I enjoyed it. I made a big breakfast for you. I made us some eggs and bacon. I made the toast you like. I even cut up some fresh fruit for us.” He said looking all giggly. I wish he hadn’t made anything because he isn’t the best cook. I just have to keep my head up and try not to make a face when I bite into the eggs and bacon. I hope they are not raw.

“Thank you my handsome Javi.” I said and then kissed the tip of his nose and let go. I walked out of our bathroom and into the bedroom to the closet.

“No, don’t worry about that right now. The eggs are going to get cold.” Javi said and grabbed onto my hand. He pulled me into the kitchen without letting me protest. Even with such a large house we were there in record time. The smell was amazing. Is he sure he is the one that cooked? I looked over at the table and noticed nothing was burnt. I am a bit shocked. I looked at the bacon and it was not raw or too crispy. It was perfect.

“Oh Javi this looks and smells amazing.” I said and went to my chair. He ran up behind me and pulled the chair out for me. He has always been such a gentleman. He pushed the chair in with me in it and smiled at me. He made his way to the seat across from me and that’s when I noticed the fresh flowers in front of me. Tulips. They are my favorite flower.

“Javi, did you get these flowers?” I asked and his smile grew wider.

“Yes, I am glad you noticed.” He said. I felt my cheeks heat up.

“Everything tonight is going to be perfect now that I know you have those beautiful rosy cheeks.” Javi mentioned and I could feel the heat in my face deepen. I heard a phone go off and he dismissed himself. Great here we go. A perfect moment completely ruined by the awful thing. He appeared a moment later and showed me he denied the phone call.

“Nothing is going to ruin today for you mi amor.” Javi said.

“Oh, what if it is important?” I asked.

“Then whoever it is will leave a message. Don’t worry today is about us. I haven’t even shown you the next thing I have set up for us. Eat up.” Javi said and I hesitantly started to eat the food. It was surprisingly delicious. Everything was perfectly seasoned.

“Javi, don’t get me wrong I absolutely loved everything about this brunch but, are you sure you made it?” I asked giggling a little bit.

“I may have ran us out of groceries but yes I did. I kept having to redo some of it as I was making it. I am surprised you didn’t wake up with how bad the bacon crisped earlier. Last night must have exhausted you. I just kept studying some of the videos I found on your facebook page until I got it right.” Javi mentioned and I felt my heart swoon for him.

“You are truly perfect Javi.” I said and he smiled and began to blush. I finished the food and snacked on some of the fruit when I noticed he was finished as well.

“Good come with me.” He said standing up and motioning me to follow him. I felt a little plump after eating everything but, I couldn’t help it. It was amazing. However what I walked into was our living room turned out and made up of a fort like structure. Our couches were pushed to the side and a air mattress was placed inside the fort with some beautiful gold bedding. It looked like a pillow mountain on top of it as well. Chocolate strawberries and wine were placed in the middle and the movies were set up for us to watch. I looked at the screen and noticed all of my favorite romantic comedies on the screen for us to cycle through. Candles were lit all around us and right now I could just jump on him and never let him go.

“Oh Javi. This is very beautiful.” I said. I didn’t realize he was going to give me a day of this.

“Is it? I didn’t know which bedding to get. I went and bought a new one for this and a lot of new pillows. I wanted today to be perfect for you. I even got stuff to give you a massage and do your nails if you would like.” He said and looked at me with a smile.

“This is all very amazing Javi. I am truly grateful for you.” I said and walked over to him and embraced him in a hug. He lowered his head and I felt his lips brush against mine before he kissed me. It was such a passionate kiss that I felt it go from my head to my toes. It was amazing and I didn’t want it to end but, he pulled away.

“I picked out just enough movies that are your favorites that by the time we finish them all then it will be off to dinner and then the club.” Javi said and I made my way into the fort. I climbed onto the mattress and made sure he followed in behind me. He put on the fist movie which was 50 first dates and held me through every movie. I dozed off again after three movies but it was because he was massaging my head while feeding me those chocolate covered strawberries. He is going to be the death of me. He loves to feed me if I let him.

~Time Skip~

“Babe wake up. It’s time to get ready so we can make the dinner reservation.” Javi said lightly shaking me.

“Okay. Alright I am awake. I will go get dressed and run a brush through my hair really quick.” I said and he smiled. We both got out of the fort and he started to blow all the candles out and turned the tv off while I went into the bedroom to the closet and saw a beautiful dress hanging up. This is new. It was a deep green. He knows how much I love this color against my skin as well as a brand new pair of gold heels. He has some good taste. I put them on and walked to the bathroom and brushed my hair. Yesterdays curls were still in tact so I decided to through on a bit of lip gloss and mascara. I looked beautiful. I walked out of the bedroom and back into our living room and noticed that most of the fort was taken down but, what really caught my attention was Javi. He was in a matched suit to the dress. He stopped and looked at me. I heard him suck in a breathe.

 “You look incredible.” Javi said and smiled at me reaching his hand out.

“You look amazing Javi.” I said I felt my eyes widen. He looked truly amazing and handsome. I grabbed his hand that he reached out. He helped me out of the house and into the car and we drove off to the club. We heard the music coming from inside and it was a mixture of old school music and the most current beats. It is something that I rather enjoyed but, Javi is not always a fan of the new school music. I heard something vibrate and I looked at Javi.

“Did you bring your phone?” I asked him.

“I did but, I won’t use it. I promise.” Javi said.

“Then why would you bring it?” I asked.

“In case of an emergency and to keep track of time.” Javi said. I closed my eyes and felt a bit uneasy about him having his phone but, there is not going to be much of a difference like most nights.

“I promise I won’t destroy what has been an incredibly relaxing day for us beautiful.” Javi said and I felt his hand grab onto mine. I want to believe him but, if Nicholas calls and pretends it is an emergency I know how he will react.

“Let’s go inside.” He said and I went to open my door but he stopped me.

“Wait.” He said and got out and ran to my side of the car. He opened the door for me and helped me out of the car. He was always a gentleman.

“Thank you Javi.” I said and smiled at him.

“You are very welcome beautiful.” He said and I felt the heat rush to my cheeks again. He really does know how to make me blush. I adore this man.

He escorted me inside the club and walked himself over to the bar and retrieved a couple of drinks for us and made his way over to me. He was already dancing along with the music and I smiled at him. I started to sway my hips into him after taking the drink and taking a sip. He wrapped an arm around my waist and kept me close to him.

“You truly are an amazing dancer.” Javi whispered into my ear. I smiled at him until I felt something vibrate against my leg. He looked down and grabbed his phone out and looked at me with big apologetic eyes. For the love of god. I know he is not about to answer the phone.

“I will be back in one moment love. He said it is important. I promise not to take long.” Javi said. We just got here and now I feel like this night has been soured. I watched him as he walked away from me and out of the club. I tried to shake him from my thoughts as I continued to dance. I felt someone grab on me and I turned around and saw someone pulling me into dance with them. At least they thought I was an attractive woman. Granted they might have drank a lot.

“Sorry that he disappeared on you. I will happily take his place until he gets back to keep others off you if you want.” The man said.

“I don’t know he can get rather jealous.” I said to the stranger.

“I would let his soak in the jealousy. My boyfriend is in the bathroom with someone right now. Mine as well have someone to protect you from the creeps around you.” He said and I smiled. Oh he is gay. This should be fun.

“If you are sure this is what you want to entangle yourself in then very well.” I said and wrapped my arms around him and proceeded to dance with him. Over the music I heard someone huffing and puffing. I felt eyes in my back and I grinded into my new dance partner.

“I hope that is okay. I know you mentioned having a boyfriend.” I whispered into his ear.

“Honey enjoy making him jealous. He should not have left someone so beautiful alone. Especially knowing who he is. He has quite a bit of enemies out there who would love to get their hands on you.” The stranger said.

“What is your name?” I asked and I felt him lower his head into the crevice of my neck.

“I am Antonio but, you can call me Toni.” He said. “May I assist in helping you get him jealous?” Toni asked.

“Yes, I suppose.” I said and then I felt his hands lower to just above my ass. I felt his lips attach to my neck and then his head lifted up and I saw him smirk at someone behind me.

“I apologize for what I am about to do.” He said and then winked at me. He dropped his right hand to my ass and squeezed it. I tried to hold back my smile and laugh because now I know for sure Javi is watching. What I didn’t expect was the bear of a man coming towards Toni and I.

“I don’t think Javi is the only jealous one.” I said and he looked toward the direction I was staring.

“Thank you for also helping me doll. I should get to him before your man see’s.” Toni said and walked away after pecking my cheek quickly.

In just a moment I felt Javi behind me wrapping his arms around my waist.

“Who were you dancing with?” He said into my neck.

“A man who understands how I was just left unattended. That’s all.” I said and I knew it was going to upset him.

“I am sorry he said it was an emergency.” Javi said trying to plead to me and his grip grew tighter on my waist.

“And was it?” I asked. I turned to look at him and noticed his gaze turn away from me for a moment.

“Oh, so it wasn’t an emergency but, yet I managed to dance to a few songs with that man. Maybe I should go and entertain him some more. Maybe he won’t have such an absurd obsession.” I sneered at him. His grip on my waist tightened and then I felt him pull me after him. He found a empty booth at the club and pulled me into his lap.

“You will not entertain anyone but me.” He said looking into my eyes.

“Why is that? They don’t answer unimportant calls when promising me they won’t answer.” I snapped at him. I felt his hand caress my face and reach the back of my neck and pulled my face closer to his. I felt his lips on mine and he kissed me harshly.

“I am sorry. I should not have answered but, I had to be sure. You know how much I love you.” Javi said and I felt my heart swoon at his words. His arm tightened around me again and he refused to ease up any.

“Javi that kind of hurts.” I mumbled against his lips.

“Deal with it.” He said and continued to kiss me. I tried to pull away but his hand on the back of my neck was tight.

“If we were not here in public I would prove to you right now why you shouldn’t be entertaining anyone else but me.” Javi mumbled against my lips letting me have a moment to catch my breath.

“Javi, ease up. He is gay. He also was making his boyfriend jealous. You have a jealousy issue dear.” I said smiling at him. His eyes widened and then he turned me around to face the crowd. I leaned my back against him and he held onto me tightly. We stayed like that for a good half hour drinking before he dragged me to the car and back home.

“I can’t believe you let someone grab your ass to make me jealous.” Javi said as we stepped into the house.

“That was a bit surprising to me as well. It worked though. Pay attention to me again Javi. Since your friend arrived I hardly get any time with you. It is always about him. I just miss your attention.” I said and stepped into him.

“You have my attention now.” He said peering down at me. “Let me show you how much attention you have from me.” He said and grabbed ahold of my face again before kissing me. I wrapped my arms around his neck and he walked me backwards until my back hit the wall. He never pulled away and I could tell where this was going to go.

(Sorry if this is not the picture you had in your mind. I have been out of writing while recovering from surgery.)

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American Amongst The Brits Chapter 9

“Show me.” Snape said and pulled his cloak closed. 

“I would have to-” I started to say and he stepped closer to me.  

“Show me.” He said again for the third time.  

I started to remove my clothes. I looked at him and I felt ashamed. I mean there is a lot that I have hidden. It is not just self-inflicted wounds. I stripped down to just my bra and underwear. I grabbed my wand but he held his hand up to stop me. He removed his wand and said a spell that removed any charms I had on my body that hid any and all markings.  

His mouth parted and I heard a gasp escape his lips.  

“What the hell happened to you?” He asked.  

“A lot okay. I have been through hell. It doesn’t matter. I am here now. I am not getting hurt anymore.” I said.  

“Except you are hurting yourself.” He said.  

“Well, there is that.” I said and looked down.  

“Give it to me.” He said.  

“What?” I asked.  

“Give me the blade.” He said. I slowly walked over to the end table. I opened the drawer and grabbed the blade. I looked at him and handed him the blade.  

“Do not do it again.” He said and put it in his cloak. He stepped closer to me and traced the marking on my arms on my arms.  

“Tell me what happened to you.” He said in a hushed voice.  

“It’s a long story.” I said.  

“I have time.” He said.  

“I don’t want to talk about it.” I said. He sat on my bed and pulled me onto it with him. I am still in just my bra and underwear so this felt a bit too much.  

“Tell me about it.” He said. He pulled me into him and held onto me.  

“My aunt, she did a lot of things to relieve her anger and I was the one that had to deal with it.” I said.  

“I will see to it myself that something happens to that miserable person.” Snape said.  

“It does not matter.” I said. I looked up at him and that's when I noticed he was staring at me. He is incredibly handsome. I don’t understand why he is alone.  

“My name is Severus.” He said. Why is he telling me his name?  

“I want you to say the right name when I do this.” He said and then leaned forward and pressed his lips onto mine. My eyes widened momentarily before they closed. Holy fuck. My eyes clouded over and I could see a forest. My happy place. I saw a deer and it was running alongside a flying butterfly. I started to kiss him back and when he opened his mouth a little bit I slid my tongue into his mouth. I felt him moan into the kiss and I could no longer control myself. I wanted this. I already did the work for this. I took my clothes off already. I leaned further into him. His hand snaked its way into my hair and he pressed his lips further into mine. His lips even though they appeared chapped were smooth against mine. He pulled my hair slightly and I moaned into his mouth. Fuck that felt good. I went to push him to lay down but he pulled away from me breaking the kiss and then standing up.  

“We can’t do this. I need to go.” He said and turned away from me and left the room. What just happened? I felt his kiss linger against my lips and I laid down on my back and groaned. Why is he tormenting me like this? I want him. I want him so bad. The kiss was amazing. I am not always able to get into my happy place and it’s like he just sent me there. The deer and the butterflies. It was perfect. Please, I just want the happy place to come back. I need him to kiss me again. I need peace. His room is just across the hall. I got up from the bed and walked over to my closet. I pulled out a sweatshirt that Lucius gifted me and made my way across the hall and knocked on his door. The door opened but, I did not see him. I stepped inside and closed the door behind me.  

“Lucius, you need to occupy her. I can’t do it. I cannot risk everything I have done for myself for some girl. Keep her busy and away from me.” Snape said without turning to me.  

“It’s not Lucius.” I said now feeling something in my throat. It felt like my heart. Was Lucius only giving me attention because of Snape? Screw the both of them. I walked out of the room and went back into mine slamming the door behind me.  

These assholes want to talk about occupying me and not even have the audacity to at least tell me they aren’t truly interested. No its worse. Lucius fucked me. Snape just kissed me. There is nothing worse than a mixed signal coming from the one person I have my eye on. One minute he kisses me and the next it’s back to being inappropriate and he leaves me. He had me undress in front of him. He has now seen the part of me no one else has. What an evil bastard.  

“y/n can I come in?” I heard Snape ask.  

“Darling, can I come in as well?” Lucius’ asked.  

“Fuck off the both of you.” I said and now I can feel my eyes get wet. No, I will not cry because they want to be problematic. I will not cry when they have both only known me for a couple of days. I will just have to ignore them both. Suck it up.  

“Darling, please let me in.” Lucius said. I stepped over to the door and pulled it open harshly and moved aside for the both of them to step in.  

“You had no business being in my room y/n.” Snape said.  

“Are you really attempting to scold me when you opened the door?” I asked.  

“What exactly did you hear Severus say?” Lucius asked. I turned and glared at him.  

“Don’t you worry about it Darling.” I said snapping at him.  

“Did I do something to upset you?” Lucius said and stepped forward.  

“Don’t worry about it. You no longer have to occupy me. I am no longer interested in either of you.” I said. The words felt like vile coming out of my mouth and I felt the tears threaten to leave me.  

“What do you mean?” Lucius asked. I looked at Snape again and then back to Lucius.  

“I walked into his room and he just kept telling who he thought was you to occupy me. To keep me busy that way I do not bother him. Don’t worry it won’t happen again.” I said. “Now go. Leave me alone.” I said. I didn’t realize most of the markings were still visible until I shifted my eyes to where Lucius’ eyes were looking. I looked down at my legs and mumbled the charm and they disappeared.  

“What were those from?” Lucius asked stepping towards me again.  

“Leave. Now. It is not important. Not anymore.” I said. I started to physically push the two out of my room and heard both men groan.  

“I did not do anything.” Lucius said. I rolled my eyes and closed and locked the door. I walked over to my bed and laid down. I finally let the tears fall down my eyes as I was truly alone now. Maybe Draco can take me into town tomorrow. Tonight I just want to cry and go to sleep. I wish Lucius wouldn’t have been part of that. I really want a hug right now. I want someone to make me feel better.  

“I am right here darling. I will wait.” I heard Lucius voice. Did he just read my mind?  

“I did.” He said again through the door. Stay out of my head Lucius.  

“Please let me in. I won’t talk I just want to be there for you.” Lucius said. Should I let him in? How much do I trust that he won’t say anything? Not very likely. He seems like a talker. I really do want to be held though. I just want someone’s arms wrapped around me. In hindsight it was not Lucius that said anything. It was Snape. Maybe Lucius is telling the truth that he did nothing wrong.  

“I promise I didn’t.” He said again through the door. You truly are not helping your case. I got off the bed again and walked over to the door. I opened it and again stepped aside to let Lucius in. What I did not expect was to see Snape waiting by him. I really don’t want him near me. I did what I also do when someone hurts me. I flipped him off and then closed the door. I locked the door and then looked at Lucius who added a spell that locked the door another step further. There was no coming in here if you weren’t invited in or without one of us unlocking the door.  

“One more thing.” Lucius said and then mumbled another spell and pointed it towards a wall.  

“What did you just do?” I asked him.  

“I added some soundproofing. That way your thoughts stay in this room and don’t escape through the doors or walls.” He said. I sniffled and realized I was still crying.  

“Come here darling.” He said and took off his cloak and sat on the bed. His back was resting against the wall and I crawled next to him. He pulled me into the same position I had him in where my head laid across his lap. He started to run his fingers through my hair. I couldn’t help it. I just continued to cry. The bastard took my blade. My blade is my comfort. That is what I did to cope. Now all I can do is cry.  

“Come here darling.” Lucius said and I sat up. I repositioned myself to sit next to him and he pulled me into an embrace. He continued to run his fingers through my hair and kissed the top of my head.  

“Lucius, please tell me the truth. Did you have any idea what Snape was going to say?” I asked him taking a deep breath in.  

“No, darling. I truly did not know.” He said. I took another deep breath and then looked up at him. He brought his thumbs to my eyes and wiped the tears from my face.  

“I don’t like seeing you cry beautiful. It does something to me I am not a fan of.” Lucius said. He quickly removed his hands from my face and grabbed onto his arm where his tattoo was.  

“I have to go darling. I will try and come back later okay?” Lucius said. I nodded at him and then he apparated out of my room. I just need to get some rest.  

LUCIUS POV 

I know that my lord is a very demanding person but, he does know how to pick out a bad time for it. I was in the middle of comforting my friend. I don’t want anything to happen to her. The only good thing that I can think of is Snape is here so he can’t attempt to bother her either. He needs to back off her. She no longer wants him. She said it very clearly. She is no longer interested in him which means that I can take the place I want to.  

“Distracted Lucius?” Voldemort asked.  

“No my lord.” I said and looked towards him.  

“It has come to my attention that there is a new creature at Hogwarts. One that could give me even more power if in my possession. I am going to task Severus and Lucius with finding this creature.” Voldemort said and I could feel my stomach turn and I looked to Severus. I saw his discomfort in his face but, he quickly changed it.  

“Very well sir.” I said and Severus nodded his head.  

“It is also your job to make the creature aware of the power they will have if they are to join us. Bring it back here at once.” Voldemort said.  

“Of course my lord.” I said again.  

“Everyone, soon we will go against Harry Potter again. This time we will be successful.” Voldemort said and everyone started to chatter amongst themselves. I made sure to keep my head clear and now down because he is capable of reading minds as well. That is not something I want him to do. I peered over at Voldemort in time to see him disappear. The meeting must be over. I looked over to where Severus was and noticed he was also gone. I apparated into his room and I still did not see him. Where did he go? I left his room and apparated into y/n’s room and saw her asleep on her bed. I just want to be cuddled against her. I took my cloak off and then my shirt and pants. I crawled into the bed next to her and wrapped my arms around her. She turned around and faced me and buried her face in my chest and I just leaned down and smelled her hair. She drives me crazy. I refuse to let her get hurt. I feel like I am only going to hurt myself but, I refuse to let Voldemort hurt her.  

“I like you.” I mumbled into the top of her head. I haven’t told anyone except Narcissa. She was my first love. The one I actually fell in love with but, the peace y/n brings me feels different. I feel comfort from her. It is different. I could eventually love her if she lets me. She is mumbling things in her sleep.  

“Lucius.” She mumbled out my name. It sounds wonderful coming out of her mouth.  

“I like you too.” She said and I furrowed my eyebrows. She heard me?  

“Darling are you awake?” I asked.  

“Barely. When you got into bed it stirred me awake a little bit.” She said. I smiled and put my hand under her chin. I tilted her head up so if she opened her eyes she could look into mine. I leaned forward and kissed her lips softly.  

“I need to tell you something in the morning.” I said.  

“Tell me now.” She said.  

“Not tonight. Get some more sleep. It can wait.” I said. She hummed and leaned forward again. I felt her lips on mine and I kissed her back. Her cold hand landed on my chest and I shivered at feeling her touch on mine. Her hand snaked up to my neck and pulled me farther into her. I don’t want to break the kiss but, I really believe I cannot do this with what I have to tell her in the morning. Just one more moment. I felt a moan escape past my lips, and she moaned into my mouth. I pulled away from her and I felt her hand try and pull me back but, I couldn’t. I did not want to hurt her feelings and I didn’t want her to feel even more betrayed. She deserves to be safe.  

“Get rest darling.” I said and she hummed into my chest. She hugged onto my waist tightly and I did the same to her. I heard her small snores come out of her and I knew she was asleep. I felt my eyes close and I followed after her.  

SNAPES POV 

I can’t know about what she is. Not if he knows something about a creature. I may not know about her too much but, I know enough that it will put her into danger. I looked at myself in the mirror of the mens bathroom here at hogwarts. I pointed the wand at my head and said the spell that will take all knowledge of her away.  

“Obliviate.”  

I came to my senses again inside the restroom and made my way down into the dungeon. I walked into my room and hid my door from sight. I just need some sleep. I feel exhausted. I got underdressed and got into my bed and fell asleep.  

READERS POVS 

I woke up to the light fingertips combing through my hair and I looked up to see Lucius looking at me lost.  

“Lucius.” I mumbled out and he smiled at me slightly. It wasn’t his usual smile.  

“What’s wrong?” I asked and he sat up. This probably was not good.  

“I need to tell you something.” He said and looked away from me.  

“Well what is it?” I asked.  

“The tattoo. It is a symbol of who I worship. It is a death eater tattoo. It relates to someone names Voldemort. He is the dark lord.” He said and sucked in a breath.  

“Why are you telling me this?” I asked now feeling upset.  

“I am telling you think because it is important for you to know. When I left last night it was to a meeting with him. He told Severus and I that he heard of a powerful being that he knew was now at Hogwarts. I can’t tell you what I think you are. It is something you have to find out on your own but, I think he is talking about you. You are the only new person here that could be different. You are in danger and he wants you to join him.” Lucius said and now his eyes were back on mine.  

“The only way I can protect you is to not remember you.” Lucius said and my eyes widened. “What do you mean?” I asked.  

“I can’t have anything about you in my mind. I can’t risk him hurting you. I have to erase any memory of you.” Lucius said and I felt the tears in my eyes.  

“My guess is that Snape has already done it as well. I could not find him.” Lucius added.  

“Lucius, I don’t want you to forget me.” I said.  

“I have too darling. I have to protect you from him.” Lucius said.  

“Is that why you didn’t want to have sex with me when you came in last night? I asked.  

“I didn’t want you to feel even more betrayed when I told you. I am sorry.” Lucius said.  

“Well, it didn’t work. Please don’t forget me.” I said now letting the tears fall from my eyes and on to my cheeks.  

“It is going to be okay. You still go to school here so I will run into you. We will know each other again darling. I just won’t know what I do about you.” Lucius said and reached out to wipe my tears.  

“Please Lucius. I don’t want to start over with you.” I said.  

“I am truly sorry darling.” Lucius said and moved to kiss my forehead but, I moved away from him and kissed him. He pulled away from me and looked at me for the final time.  

“Goodbye darling.” He said and stood up and waved his wand and his clothes were on and then the next thing I knew he was no longer in my room. Did he say Snape did the same thing? He said he didn’t know for sure but, he assumed. I have to get to the great hall for breakfast. I don’t want to. I just want to cry but I can’t do that. He said it was to protect me. What the hell am I? Why was protecting me so important? I got off the bed and showered quickly and got dressed. I made my way to the great hall and sat next to Draco. He looked at me like I was weird.  

“Who are you?” Draco asked. 

“What do you mean?” I asked him. Did his dad also take his memory from him?  

“I mean, I don’t know who you are or why you are sitting next to me. Who are you?” Draco snapped at me.  

“I am y/n. Nice to meet you.” I said.  

“Well, y/n this seat is not available to you. Go away.” Draco said and I felt a pang in my chest. That hurt.  

“Oh well, okay then.” I said and got up and moved to the end of the table. I sat down and ate the food that was presented to us. I kept to myself the entire morning. No one knew who I was anymore. By the time lunch came around I was sure everyone in the school forgot about me. The professors announced that they had a new student in class and introduced me like I haven’t been here the past couple of days. I made it two weeks before Lucius and I bumped into one another.  

“Watch where you are going you mut.” Lucius sneered at me.  

“I am sorry.” I said. That hurt more than it should have. I liked him. I truly liked him.  

“What is your name mut?” Lucius asked me.  

“It’s y/n.” I said and looked past him.  

“Well, you are the stray Draco has told me about. Just randomly showing up one day and supposedly no family. Watch where you are going stray pet. I would hate to see you get hurt.” Lucius said and I felt like someone just punched me in the stomach.  

“Draco talked about me?” I asked.  

“Don’t get excited. He always talks about the misfits and strays. Just like any pet they all end up a lost cause. I am his father. How is it I have been all throughout the school the past two weeks and I have not seen you until today?” He asked.  

“I don’t know sir.” I said and looked past him again. Snape’s head was in a book when he passed by us. I just want him to glance at me. I mean he hasn’t said a word outside of introducing me. This can’t be real.  

“Run along now stray. Get to class.” Lucius said. I walked past him and tears escaped my eyes and I held onto my stomach. It felt like he had stolen every breathe from me.  

“Are you alright?” Someone asked me. I looked up and saw someone with a baby face looking at me. He was tall and slender.  

“Yeah. I am fine. Who are you?” I asked him.  

“I am Tom. Tom Riddle.” He said and stretched out his hand towards mine. I shook his hand and introduced myself.  

“That’s right you just started a couple of weeks ago right?” He asked me.  

“Yeah that’s right.” I said and rolled my eyes.  

“You are American.” He said.  

“Yup, that I am. Thanks I would have never guessed.” I said and rolled my eyes. I pushed myself past him and even though I heard him call my name I ignored him and walked further down into the hall. I felt someone grab onto my arms and then I felt my back start to ache in pain.  

“What the fuck?” I raised my voice.  

“Why do you continue to stare at me?” I looked up and met Snape’s beautiful black eyes.  

“You are my professor. You are supposed to teach me. Am I not supposed to pay attention?” I asked.  

“Not when we are not in class. Stop watching me you stray.” He raised his voice slightly. The tears started to fall down again.   “Pull yourself together you bloody American.” Snape said and I felt the sob boiling up to my throat from my chest. Please I want you. I want you to remember me again. Please remember me Snape. Severus. I miss you please. Even if you torment me again in class. Please I miss you. I just want your attention again. I felt his arms release me and then I fell to the ground. I pulled my knees to my chest and put my head into it. I just want you back. I want Lucius back.  

I heard his footsteps start to walk away from me. I didn’t move from my spot. I silently sobbed into my legs. I felt someone tap me on my shoulder.  

“Miss. Are you alright?” Hermione asked.  

“I am fine.” I said.  

“Dinner is nearly over. You should get something to eat.” Hermione said.  

“It’s okay I am really not hungry. Thank you for telling me though.” I said. She shrugged and walked away from me. At least she was being nice to me. No one else was being nice to me anymore. I have been called a stray by nearly everyone at this school. I want to die. No one here gives a shit about me. The one’s who did no longer know who I am unless they are also calling me a stray. I pulled myself up off the ground and slowly walked my way into my room. Nothing is going to be okay anymore. Maybe I should try and figure out where this Voldemort guy is and just join him. That shouldn’t be that big of a problem. Maybe it will cause them to remember me. If they used the spell then there is no hope of them remembering me. I mean it would only hurt me in the end I guess. I better not. They erased me from their memory so that  I was not going to be harmed. Just go to sleep. Go to sleep.