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When he died, all things swift and beautiful and bright would be buried with him

-The song of achilles

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When we blame ourselves, we feel that no one else has a right to blame us. It is the confession, not the priest, that gives us absolute absolution.

- The Picture Of Dorian Gray

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The birds that were singing in the dew-deenched garden seemed to be telling the flowers about her

- The picture of dorian gray

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“As a woman I have no country. As a woman I want no country.”

—Virginia Woolf, Three Guineas.

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" Because to influence a person is to give one's own soul."

- The picture of Dorian Gray

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"You will always be loved, and you will always be in love with love"

-The Picture of Dorian Gray

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Lend me a place

At the bottom of your heart

A small place in 'the bundle of His'

Just to feel the impulse

Flowing through those fibres

I won't bother you, I swear

I just need to feel the warmth

That lovers feel everyday

And take it back with me

To my world of melancholy

I hate being lonely

But what to do, I am a reject

A bundle of disappointment

And so I seek your help

To have a goodnight's sleep.

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Lend me those ears a little bit

I want to pour down all my thoughts into you

My scribbled poems are not enough anymore

I need a bigger realease,

Something like a human heart

To beat rhythmically with mine

And say,

Hey, you are not alone.

I am with you and I love you

Even if you make a mistake

Even if you do your ugly cry

I won't leave you.

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SAFE

A strong word

And something I have never felt

Without my parents.

No. Not with you.

You touched me.

Not only my body,

But the inner me too

Who now breaks down everytime

Another one of you is near.

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That flesh eating

Nematode inside my brain

Is now eating my happy area,

Depleting my body of seratonin

Now when I see the sky blue

I don't feel like flying anymore

But I do want to get sucked

Into the black sky of the night

Maybe then I would

Descend into a new universe

Where the bad things perish

Along with the nematode in my brain

Maybe then, things will turn normal

My brain intact

The light back in my eyes

And my seratonin level lively

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My mind

Travels to the unseen

To live, to forget

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How to calm down this inner storm?

That is throwing all my memories

Into the dark abyss

And drinking my sanity to quench it's thirst

Leaving my throat sore

As the pathogens invade it.

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In my garden

The flowers bloom

Their petals call me

Ask me to touch them

To feel the life within them

And they tell me

Enjoy it while it lasts

Because in time

We all wither and die🥀

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I once wrote a diary

Which was shamelessly exposed

And maybe thats why

These days I find peace

While writing random things here

Where no one knows me

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It is when it rains

When my fingers

Miss the warmth of a hardcover book.

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If I promise to be brave

Will you be mine?