anyaispunk

[anyaispunk]

day 1726363628 of not accepting Daniel is done with F1.

[anyaispunk]

1. I have a very boy-ish personality, so I need someone who’s very manly man to brings out my feminine side.

2. My family is everything to me, so I need someone who’s a family oriented person.

3. Royal, loyal, and enough because apparently my “lifestyle” is quite something.

4. Always listen, understanding, and mature because I struggles very hard to say what I feel.

5. I’m a very weird, annoying, unserious person, so I need him to have a good sense of humor.

6. Big arms, just because.

7. Honest.

8. Got the better knowledge, especially about our religion.

these last few weeks have been a journey of learning about myself, family, and life.

[anyaispunk]

so many questions been thrown that makes me wonder, I know what I want, but what do I need?

and lately, people been pointing it out for me.

so let’s write it down because anya has the tendency of forgetting about her own self being.

these last few weeks have been a journey of learning about myself, family, and life.

[anyaispunk]

these last few weeks have been a journey of learning about myself, family, and life.

[anyaispunk]

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[anyaispunk]

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[anyaispunk]

it’s been 11 days, I grasp.

no more wondering what things kept you busy for you to have the strength to not make contact.

I stopped looking at your socials to make sure our pictures are still there.

what I also realize is that I stopped making sure,

of you.

you left like I’m obsolete, with a simple thank you and sorry.

I thought you’ll be the unrepairable rip.

the hardest downfall that’ll make me unrecognizable.

but here I am.

hurt, but whole.

where I still laughs my heart off, even when it’s not because of you.

even I’m without you.

[anyaispunk]

I always thought the saying “you can only love other people when you love yourself first” is a total crap.

It’s been years of me loving others while being the greatest hater of myself.

[anyaispunk]

not arguing w a dude that has a big strong nose. whatever u say beautiful

[anyaispunk]

I’m still lost on how to make him realize how he never fails to astonish me.

That every time I get the chance to talk about him, I’ll be bragging about him like a proud mom.

The way he cannot see the way I see him is hurting me.

[anyaispunk]

I’m trying to find words to match the things that I feel.

About him.

All the words I decided to undo are rioting.

For all of it was true but no one else would witness.

[anyaispunk]

I miss writing so bad :(

[anyaispunk]

how can someone act normally when this man fucking exists?! honestly, i really need to know

[anyaispunk]

Funny how others takes weeks to make me fall in love.

He took a couple of hours, and the love last forever.

[anyaispunk]

Almost 3,500 miles away, two people that faced with a same phenomenon can react and feel completely different.

I was unsure. My knowledge of my own capability to deal with something that includes him with another woman was uncertain.

Deep down he knew he was too.

Should I go? When my prayers are for them to fall apart.

I’m selfish. A hypocrite.

I don’t deserve to be there.

[anyaispunk]

I’m watching myself.

but why does it feels like I’m watching other person?

I’m studying her face like it’s not mine.

I’m drowning,

deeper than ever and no one is pulling me out.

No one even try, no one even care.

I gave up on life for too long,

that darkness finally starting fo affect every inch of what’s left.

‘finally’ I said. About damn time.

[anyaispunk]

I’ve never acknowledge my mind is a comfortable place until you decided to stay there forever.