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I want to scratch the back of her head while we drive somewhere. I want to sit on her lap and kiss her neck. hold onto her arm instead of holding hands sometimes. hold the door open for her. pull her closer by her waistband. slide my hand under her shirt and scratch her back while cuddling. kiss her hand when she's holding mine.

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♡ | jordan_decoster

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I love you pre-Autumn. I love you first chilly night after a hot day. I love you first crunchy leaves on the ground while the trees are still green. I love you cicadas. I love you crickets. I love you dusk sneaking in earlier for the first time. I love you deep sigh of relief after summer.

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50 Simple Charms

Basil at the door, windows, or scattered in the home will increase money.

Lay thorny branches on your doorstep to keep evil from your dwelling.

Eat a pinch of Thyme before bed, and you will have sweet dreams.

Place chips of Cedar wood in a box with some coins to draw money to you.

Carry an Anemone Flower with you to ward against illness.

Hang a bit of Seaweed in the kitchen to ward evil spirits.

Keep a jar of Alfalfa in your cupboards to ensure the prosperity of your house.

Burn Allspice as an incense to draw money or luck to you, as well as speed healing.

Cut an Apple in half, and give one half to your love to ensure a prosperous relationship.

Carry an Avocado pit with you to let your inner beauty shine outwardly. Avocado is also an aphrodisiac.

Strawberries are an aphrodisiac.

Place a piece of cotton in your sugar bowl to draw good luck to your house.

Celery is an aphrodisiac.

Place Almonds in your pocket when you need to find something.

Scatter Chili Peppers around your house to break a curse.

Carrying a packet of strawberry leaves will help ease the pains of pregnancy.

Scatter some sugar to purify a room.

Throw rice into the air to make rain.

Carry a potato in your pocket or purse all winter to ward against colds.

Eat five almonds before consuming alcohol, to lighten the effects of intoxication.

Place a pine branch above your bed to keep illness away.

Chew celery seeds to help you concentrate.

Carry of chunk of dry pineapple in a bag to draw luck to you.

Ask an orange a yes or no question before you eat it, then count the seeds: if the seeds are an even number, the answer is no. If an odd number, yes.

Eat olives to ensure fertility.

Toss Oats out your back door to ensure that your garden or crop will be bountiful.

Eat mustard seed to ensure fertility.

Place Lilacs around your house to rid yourself of unwanted spirits.

Eat Lettuce to drive lustful thoughts from your mind.

Rub a Lettuce leaf over your forehead to help you sleep.

Add Lemon juice to your bathwater for purification.

Eat grapes to increase psychic powers.

Carry a blade of grass to increase your psychic powers.

Smell Dill to get rid of hiccups.

If you place a Dill sachet over your door, those who wish you ill can not enter your home.

Place cotton on an aching tooth, and the pain will ease.

Burn cotton to cause rain.

Place pepper inside a piece of cotton and sew it shut to make a charm to bring back a lost love.

Carry a small onion to protect against venomous animals.

Eat grapes to increase fertility.

Place a sliced onion in the room of an ill person do draw out the sickness.

Place an onion underneath your pillow to have prophetic dreams.

Place morning glory seeds under your bed to cure nightmares.

Walk through the branches of a maple tree to ensure that you will have a long life.

Mix salt and pepper together and scatter it around your house to dispel evil.

Smell Lavender to help you sleep.  (Lavender makes me fall asleep so fast).

Hang a pea pod containing nine peas above the door to draw your future mate to you.

Eat a peach to assist in making a tough decision.

Carry peach wood to lengthen your lifespan.

Carry a walnut to strengthen your heart muscle.

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shoutout to boring queer people who don’t do shit. just go to work or school and then come home to watch shows. while gay

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look all i'm asking for is forehead kisses and academic validation and autumn and museum dates and cold bedsheets and misty mornings and baggy sweaters okay???????

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Gyn/Ecology, Mary Daly

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the feminine urge to mourn lost cultures and empires. for your heart to ache every time you remember how many languages no longer have speakers, how many ruins are abandoned, how many people lived happy lives before you. to feel melancholy and longing every time you study history - of this world or another, even fictional. to want to play a role in history, but in the same time fear dying, passing, being forgotten like those thousands before you.

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manifest reaching your goals, achieving your dream grades, finishing the books on your tbr list and an endless supply of aesthetic stationary

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Small towns with bookstores and cafés have my heart. Autumn leaves and rainy days have my heart. Reading books and drinking coffee have my heart, and so does lighting scented candles, curling up in a cosy bed. Simply, romanticising my life.

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Here are some more tarot tips; specifically for interpreting the court cards as people. I've been reading tarot for over three years and my reading style may be a little different. See if these help you.

The suit's element would normally match the individual's sun or rising sign. I have had a few rare occasions where the element of the card didn't match the person's sun or rising sign, but most of the time it does. Wands = Fire Signs; Swords = Air Signs; Cups = Water Signs; Pentacles = Earth Signs

In most of my readings, pages and queens are feminine presenting individuals. Knight and kings are masculine presenting individuals.

If the card specifically comes out in reversed, then it is highlighting the negative traits of a person for that reading. Usually that means that the negative traits of the individual are significant to the situation the person is asking about.

King of Wands: A mature, strong, natural born leader. They are fearless and very action oriented. Likely to be an entrepreneur or in a position of power within the workplace. They can be quite charming and good at talking their way into (or out of) something. Reversed, this person is troublesome. Lacks confidence and self-esteem. They may have a nasty temper and are prone to tantrums. Very impulsive and has control issues.

Queen of Wands: A very beautiful individual- the type of beauty that draws attention to them everywhere (not just physical beauty- personality, too). Most likely to dabble in magic out of all of the queens, in my experience. They are very passionate, optimistic and assertive. Very independent. Likes to be their own boss. Truly is the lioness in charge. Reversed, they tend to be jealous individuals. May have a nasty temper, similar to the king of wands reversed. Tends to be very insecure about specific things. Mildly paranoid- they get triggered when they feel they are being manipulated. Very harsh when triggered.

Knight of Wands: Think of a less mature or inexperienced king of wands. Typically, this person is a younger individual, but outgoing and adventurous regardless of age. Has the fearlessness of the king of wands but tends to lack in common sense. The sporty, active type. Has a warm energy and likes to socialize. Loves a good game or challenge. Reversed, they are incredibly impulsive and lacks in self-control. Very reckless and entitled. They think even less of consequences but still manages to make it somebody else's fault. They tend to stay stuck acting the same way for years, until they have a realization that they are the problem.

Page of Wands: Think of a less mature or inexperienced queen of wands. A person who is young at heart and embodies youthful energy. Quite cheerful and optimistic. Incredibly creative, very artistic. Quite adventurous. They tend to seek approval from others, so they should focus on learning what it means to be their own boss. Reversed, this individual tends to find themselves in stagnation often. They can't quite seem to let themselves be authentic. They feel powerless or ignored, which leads to them acting out. Makes up for their loneliness by misbehaving to get attention. They fear being forgotten or left behind.

King of Swords: A very calm, very practical individual. They are disciplined and wise. They are honest and secure in their beliefs but are still open to learning about what others believe. Not the type to tolerate foolishness. Understands that everybody is always a student, no matter what position they are in. They tend to find themselves in positions of authority, especially in places where they get to give people guidance. Reversed, this person is cold. They lack the ability to be empathetic and sympathetic. Very harsh and quick to shame others. Not to the type to play victim often but will definitely point out every flaw and mistakes in others. Just as intelligent as the upright position but will use that intelligence to get what they want, regardless of who gets hurt.

Queen of Swords: This is a very powerful individual. Not exactly a motherly or nurturing person, but they still care about their loved ones. A problem solver. Very intelligent and always seems to have an answer for everything. More likely to find themselves in positions of authority than the king of swords (mostly because they tend to crave the ability to be the boss more). They are ambitious. Tends to impress people with their strong work ethic. Reversed, this person isn't ambitious. They are power hungry. Will manipulate and gaslight people as much as they can to get what they want. Gets very bitter when they lose. Very vengeful. Questions peoples motives and tends to be the best at psychological manipulation.

Knight of Swords: Think of a less mature or inexperienced king of swords. Quick-witted and smart but lacks the experience and knowledge the king and queen of swords have. They'll get there one day, though. Rational, but assertive. They tend to be the friend that will give everybody else multiple warnings when they do something stupid, then say "I told you do" when they end up being right. They're still loyal and will be present when their loved ones need them. Reversed, this person is just as impatient as the knight of wands but doesn't complain as much. Gets upset when they don't achieve something but doesn't acknowledge that they are too pushy. Very rude. Tends to be the bully.

Page of Swords: Think of a less mature or inexperienced queen of swords. This person craves knowledge, though they don't quite understand that knowledge isn't the same as wisdom. Still, their curiosity leads them to become quite intelligent. Analytical, deep thinkers. Asks a lot of questions. Can be quite chatty. Reversed, this person tends to be a loner. Not the type of person to have more than two or three friends. Tends to be insensitive to others, passing it off as "offensive humor" but really, they're just a massive bitch. They are either egoistical or insanely insecure.

King of Cups: This person is diplomatic, empathetic and caring. The type to do what it takes to keep the peace. Pretty easy-going, not the type to be very strict. They are in control of their emotions, but they are able to express their emotions in a healthy way. Not the type to seek positions of power but is likely the patriarch of the family. Reversed, this person's emotions control them. They react emotionally, not thinking of what they are saying until it is already said. Moody, irritable types. Doesn't hide their feelings well. Can be withdrawn after an argument.

Queen of Cups: A genuine, kind person. Very supportive of their loved ones. Sensitive, but not toxic. This person is also very sentimental- things such as heirlooms, family photos and even the smallest gifts mean a lot to them. Empathetic- more than the king of cups. The type to cry when somebody else starts crying. Usually, the first to listen when somebody needs support. Reversed, they are emotionally possessive. The type to manipulate people with their emotions. May mean well but ends up causing harm in the process. Vain. Very stubborn when they are not supportive of somebody else's decisions. Will throw a tantrum after a while if their various attempts of getting somebody to agree with them or do what they want fails.

Knight of Cups: Think of a less mature or inexperienced king of cups. Tends to be a romantic. In love with the idea of love. Optimistic, maybe a little dramatic. In tune with their emotions but may not have figured out the best ways to express them quite yet. Adaptable and easily influenced by their surroundings. Reversed, they are performative. Will wear a different personality depending on who they are with and what they want. Emotional, but repressing their emotions. Emotional outbursts can be explosive. Has intimacy and commitment issues.

Page of Cups: Think of a less mature or inexperienced queen of cups. Tends to be the shyest out of all of the pages. Sensitive and tends to take things to heart. Tends to cry over little things. Genuinely nice and wants to help others. Very imaginative. Similar to knight of cups, tends to be in love with the idea of love. Daydreams a lot. Reversed, they are like spoiled children. Used to getting what they want. Not the type to stay in one relationship for too long. Tends to be manipulative of others. Prone to lying.

King of Pentacles: Similar to king of wands, very likely to become on entrepreneur. Very successful in their career field (and generally most aspects of their lives). Most likely to be able to retire young but tends to keep working anyways. Very ambitious and knows what they want. Grounded- they aren't manipulated easily. Seeks to do better. Respectful towards others and demands respect for themselves. Will help their loved ones but has limits. Reversed, this person is greedy and stingy. Only thinks of themselves. Stubborn. Materialistic and judgmental. Sometimes a gambler. Don't expect empathy or sympathy from them- they are ruthless.

Queen of Pentacles: The most motherly and nurturing out of all the queens- even the queen of cups. Very loving. Tends to be more of a homemaker. Family is everything to them. Practical, yet empathetic. Offers comfort and support when needed but does not tolerate their kindness being abused. The parent, parent friend, plant parent, animal parent... They love taking care of others. Reversed, they are smothering and possessive. Selfish. Tends to be very anxious and gets nervous when they feel people are against them. Good at pretending they did nothing wrong. Doesn't like it when people don't tell them things. Don't share finances with this person- they will spend all your money and not feel bad about it.

Knight of Pentacles: Think of a less mature or inexperienced king of pentacles. They are hardworking and strive for success, though they may not always be sure of what they want in a career yet. They either have a clear vision of what they want or are still dabbling in anything that interests them until something clicks. Tends to have their morals and values straightened out young, but their sense of stability is lacking. Reversed, this person doesn't know what they want. They lack in confidence and tend to make up for it in indulging in other things (such as video games, partying, etc...). Tends to seek perfection but can never reach it. Don't befriend or date them if you're looking for loyalty.

Page of Pentacles: Think of a less mature or inexperienced queen of pentacles. Jack of all trades, master of none. They tend to want to do many things but never have the time to. Tends to be the most outdoorsy out of all the pages. Enjoys a good adventure, but once they're back to work they don't play games. Impresses people with their ambition but they tend to pile too many tasks on themselves. Still loyal to their friends and family, though. Reversed, they are easily distracted. Don't trust them with any major tasks. Probably best not to loan them money. Very immature and lazy. Procrastinates and probably gets in trouble for it often. Doesn't take consequences seriously and keeps repeating bad habits.

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*looks out my window and sees the moon* hi baby

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Remember, the woods will not judge you. If tears burn your eyes, the sprouts will accept them. The leaves will whisper reassurance, if you only understood them. The roots will hold you if you feel the weight of the world crushing you, so tightly it feels suffocating. We are always listening. Do not forget.

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i love you big noses i love you body hair i love you smiles with tooth gaps i love you yellow teeth i love you crow’s feet i love you smile lines i love you forehead wrinkles i love you

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i just finished meditating! does anyone know who or what this might be?

in this state, i was sitting against a tree in the woods. in my mind's eye, i saw a dog with its teeth bared, so i saw it as a sign to guard myself and stand my ground. a figure steps our in front of me, but i can only see his feet. i let this wolfish form of myself greet him, only for him to reach down and lay a hand on my head. i don't feel the touch, but the snarling dog became a gentle starved puppy, immediately leaning into the gesture.

i asked for his name but i only saw a glimpse of a  man's silhouette. he keeps the puppy at bay and shifts to sit next to me. i asked his name again and a hawk thundered away from where he sat at full speed. i still felt him sitting there despite the distraction.

assuming he would only answer if i introduced myself first, i told him i was a being of the sun (gender-based)

"you are of earth." was the only thing he said to me. i could feel heat radiating off of him at this lint. but the whole time he was just a shadowed figure.

we sat there for a few minutes longer as i thought about what he said.

idk what to make of it but it was really cool!! help...