apfel07

[apfel07]

ES IST VERRÜCKT 😛 WIE SCHÖN 🥰 DU SCHWEIGST 🤫 WIE DU DEIN HÜBSCHES 😻 KÖPFCHEN NEIGST 🙂‍↕️ UND SO DER GANZEN LAUTEN 🔊 WELT 🌍 UND MIR DIE KALTE 🥶 SCHULTER ZEIGST 🫵🏻

DEIN SCHWEIGEN 🤐 IST EIN ZELT ⛺️ STELLST ES MITTEN IN DIE WELT 🗺️ SPANNST DIE SCHNÜRE 🪢 UND STAUNST 😯 STUMM 🫢 WENN NACHTS 🌙 EIN MÄDCHEN 👧🏻 DRÜBER FÄLLT 📉

ZU DEINEN FÜSSEN🦶🏻RED 🗣️ ICH MICH UM KOPF 🧑‍🦲UND KRAGEN 👕 ICH WILL IN DEINE TIEFEN WASSER 💧 GROSSE WELLEN 🌊 SCHLAGEN 🥊

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Bread is so awesome though

I WANT TO BE A MAN IN HIS TWENTIES SO FUCKING BADDDDDD

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Quarter life crisis has been here forever (and is mixed with gender stuff)

I WANT TO BE A MAN IN HIS TWENTIES SO FUCKING BADDDDDD

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I WANT TO LIVE IN AN ALTBAUWOHNUNG AND HAVE PRETENTIOUS ART PRINTS ALL OVER MY WALLS, EATING OVERPRICED SOURDOUGH BREAD WITH MY SELF MADE CHILLY OIL I NEED TO HAVE A RENNRAD

I WANT TO BE A MAN IN HIS TWENTIES SO FUCKING BADDDDDD

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So there’s this huge dudebro in my class, who, yesterday, sat next to me. And I’m sitting there sweating because like… I’m wearing my shirt with the lesbian flag on it, and he’s the most popular jock in school, and always has this look on his face that say ‘I can and will kill you’. He looks me up and down, stares at me for a minute and then goes, “So. Girls in skirts and long socks, am I right?”

To which I nodded solemnly, both out of agreement, surprise and also a healthy amount of awkward fear. He nodded and went, “You get it.”

I said, “Yep.” He fistbumped me, and on went our lives.

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Thanks for tagging me! I am heavily basing my pics on all sorts of CDs we had in the Car growing up, but also just stuff I enjoy now.

1. The Beatles 1962-1966 - The Beatles

2. The Beatles 1967-1970 - The Beatles (these are both technically two CDs so if that doesn't count I'm only taking the 1962-1966 one)

3. Cats - Deutsche Originalaufnahme - Ensemble Des Theaters An Der Wien

4. Zwischen all dem Lärm - Tonbandgerät

5. Mamma Mia! Here we go again (original motion picture soundtrack) - Cast of Mamma Mia! The Movie

6. Immer noch besser als Spinat - Nino aus Wien

7. Dein Song 2018 - various artists

I'm tagging @nyx-aira, @da-proti-toku-grem and @reverse-strawberry-milk

rules: you just got an old car and it doesn't have bluetooth. you can only buy 7 CDs and you can't repeat an artist. what are you getting?

decided to not continue that chain because it was getting pretty long. thanks for the tag @madrabit !

Neppomuk's Rache - EAV (actually the first CD I ever got, though I'd have to buy a new one)

Demoni - Joker Out

Kein Schwein ruft mich an - Max Raabe & Palastorchester (do not question me. also this is technically 2 CDs? is that cheating?)

The Horror and the Wild - The Amazing Devil

VHS Christmas Carols - Starkid

Bravo Hits 80 (not cheating, promise)

golden hour - JEREMIAS

tagging is always the hardest part tbh, imma go with @apfel07 @cool-jpgs-of-wizards-with-swords and @evil-pansy ! and of course anyone else who sees this and wants to do it <3

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Making new friends and almost hyperfocusing on them because they are cool and your friend is awesome! *misses them but is either too far away or not good enough friends to hang out with them*

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A few years ago while trying to find ways to commit suicide as painlessly as possible, I came across a PDF of Dr. Paul Quinnett's The Forever Decision. Thinking it might go into actual methods of suicide (I read an article once that actually did that and was trying to find it again) I started to read it, and I think I only got about two pages in before I was crying too much to actually see the words.

I downloaded the PDF to my hard drive and I open it again whenever I'm feeling too suicidal to do much else, but not enough to start booking a ride to the hospital. And every time without fail I only go up to a few pages before backing off and choosing to live another day just because suicide suddenly seems even more unbearable than whatever the hell upset me in the first place.

All the book really does is [I'm pulling a summary from GoodReads here as, again, I've read no more than 5 pages] "discusses the social aspects of suicide, the right to die, anger, loneliness, depression, stress, hopelessness, drug and alcohol abuse, the consequences of a suicide attempt, and how to get help."

But it also starts with the author kindly asking the reader to complete the book before going through with anything, and for some reason I'm compelled to really just try to read it all before finalizing everything. Despite not yet completing it (hopefully never will) I think I can safely say it's saved my life at least a few times now.

It's intentionally legal to copy and redistribute this book to keep it as accessible as possible, and it's very easy to find, but here's a link for it anyways.

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Fucking love when my food is just hot water and flavour

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Love going through a kinda really fucked up even and not even wanting to talk to the people who experienced it with me about it while feeling like it's eating me up inside and about to break out

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There was! May have been VseKarVem!Verse author but I'm not sure rn

did i hallucinate or was there a bokris fic where one of them was a swimmer and the other was a diver? it was a oneshot i think:(

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Don't make friends at summer camp I'm about to cry on the train home cause we keep texting and it reminds me I won't see them for like a month

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Been weirdly touch starved lately (literally making sure I have contact with at least one person rn)

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Everyone: Please please please don't write your books in Google Docs. Frankly don't use Google Drive for personal stuff.

Their terms of service say they take down stuff like content related to terrorism and trafficking, but this Google Sheet was literally a list of movies I'd watched this year and books I'd read.

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Just got bullied for being on Tumblr #whatismylife

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This has been going around my work and friend group on other platforms, and I thought it deserved a place here too.

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it bugs me how many lesbians have issues with trans women. like, we're supposed to love women. what's next, you gonna start hating short people too? fuck off.